I am in love with myself

At midnight, in the silent ward, except for the slight snoring and the occasional turning over of family members and patients, there is no other sound, especially the small space separated by the bed curtain, which is as quiet as another world.

Jian Yixi stared into her black and white eyes, her eyelashes seemed to be trembling, her forehead was dizzy with thin sweat, and she was still pulling her pants.

Before the word "you" was pronounced, she suddenly closed her mouth, quickly covered the quilt, and pulled the wound with violent movements, causing her face to contort instantly in pain, and she whimpered uncontrollably.

An Mu quickly leaned over to check on her situation.

"I told you to slow down! Why don't you listen?"

Jian Yixi was too painful to complain.

It's not you who is ashamed, you can say sarcastic remarks, if you have the ability, you can show me once in front of me.

"Are you okay? I'll call the nurse."

No matter how painful it is, you have to stop it quickly, she hasn't even put on her pants yet, do you still think she is not embarrassing enough?

"You... go out first..."

Jian Yixi was in so much pain, her voice was as thin as a mosquito, and An Mu couldn't hear what she said clearly.

An Mu leaned over to her ear and asked again, "What did you say?"

Warm breath sprayed on the side of Jian Yixi's face, it was like dropping an atomic bomb, Jian Yixi's head buzzed, subconsciously caught his legs under the quilt, his chest wound was pulled, it hurt and what And what, it's simply indescribable.

For the first time, she found that her vocabulary was so scarce that she couldn't describe her feelings at all.

In short,... I can't wait to raise my hand to push An Mu out, I can't wait to hold her in my arms, I can't wait... I can't wait...

The image of forcing An Mu to recover from his embarrassment flashed inexplicably in his mind. Jian Yixi's breathing stopped, and he couldn't control his hand and pressed hard on his chest.

Lying...

The cursing words almost rushed out of my mind.

At that moment, the pain caused her brain language to stop.

An Mu saw that she was sweating layer after layer, and frowned, "No, I still have to call the nurse."

As he said that, he was about to ring the call bell on the bedside.

Jian Yixi was on the verge of crying, clutching her chest until she was suffocating from the pain, and at the same time had to drag An Mu to tell her not to call the nurse.

Another "don't" word, An Mu hesitated, but withdrew his hand.

"You relax, you can feel better if you relax, you have to relax, I will call the nurse later."

——I'll get over it later.

"Come on, relax, let go of my arms, inhale gently, exhale, don't press your hands on your chest, come on, give me your hands."

Following An Mu's command, Jian Yixi finally relaxed slowly... That's impossible!

Ah ah ah ah ah!What a shame!What the hell did she do just now? !

Jian Yixi was in pain, angry and ashamed, her face blushed completely in the blink of an eye, the beautiful peach color spread all the way to the ears, and then spread along the ears to the neck, it couldn't be better.

It's not that she doesn't want to cooperate with An Mu. Her mind is full of the embarrassing scene just now. She can't control her emotions and her breathing is difficult. The harder she breathes, the more her chest hurts. , Vicious circle, this is not something that An Mu can adjust with just a few words.

On the contrary, An Mu's cool voice was like a quiet spring in the middle of the night. It was very pleasant. The more she listened, the clearer the scene just now became. Her throat and fingertips were numb, and she couldn't adjust at all.

——Why didn't An Mu leave?Can't you tell she's almost out of breath?

——Let's go... Hurry up and get out...

——She is really going to die...

Plop plop plop!

The heart beat too fast, not only the ribs hurt, but also the heart.

The surprise of reuniting after a long absence, the unspeakable shame, and the indescribable complex emotions made her feel more and more uncomfortable.

No, if it goes on like this, she will either die of rib pain or have a heart attack and infarction.

"You... go out first."

This time An Mu got closer and finally heard what she said.

——She...could it be because she was too shy?

An Mu really didn't expect her to be so ashamed. She did it after putting herself in her shoes. She would definitely feel ashamed, but she wouldn't react so violently.

In her previous life, when she was a teenager, she and Mao Mao were bullied, and the two of them hid in the same bathroom and took turns going to the bathroom.

Even if you don't talk about her previous life, when she lived with Jian Yixi, occasionally one of them sat on the toilet and the other broke in by mistake, and she never saw such a big reaction from Jian Yixi.

Maybe the problem is not that Jian Yixi is shy, but that she was caught off guard when she appeared.

No matter what, it's better to go out and let her calm down first.

An Mu listened to Jian Yixi's words, picked up the flat basin and lifted the curtain to go out. He wanted to calm Jian Yixi down, but he didn't know that this action stimulated Jian Yixi again. Jian Yixi covered his painful chest and stretched out his hand He wanted to stop her, but because he moved so violently, he could only pant for breath and couldn't utter a word.

When Jian Yixi managed to slow down, the sound of flushing water came from the bathroom.

Jian Yixi closed her eyes helplessly.

- It's over... It's over... She actually asked An Mu to help her pour out such a dirty thing... So dirty... So dirty...Dirty...

Jian Yixi is really autistic this time.

—Why is she so unlucky?why why why?

It's okay to be hit by a car, but she also broke her ribs, let alone the broken ribs, but she was still in time for the college entrance examination, and she recognized it in time for the college entrance examination, how could she show An Mu such a shameful side of her? arrive? !

At this moment, Jian Yixi really felt that seeing the embarrassing side of An Mu made her more uncomfortable than failing the college entrance examination. Although she also knew that these two things were not comparable at all, she just felt so, don't ask why, just ask have no idea.

She felt that she had completely lost her image in An Mu's heart. She was like a pile of useless garbage. She couldn't do anything well. She was also dirty and disgusting. She was lying on the bed like a waste. Why couldn't she go? What about the toilet?Obviously only a few steps away!What she broke was a rib, not a leg!

From the beginning to the end, Jian Yixi didn't think there was anything wrong with An Mu standing beside her bed silently in the middle of the night, it was all her own fault anyway.

It wasn't until the bed curtain was raised again that Jian Yixi realized that she hadn't put on her pants yet.

She was so frightened that she quickly touched the quilt, but it was okay, the quilt was covered all over, and it wasn't gone.

"Inside... you, go out again."

An Mu put the flat basin under the bed and looked up at her. Jian Yixi had been thinking about her beautiful face for more than a year, but she really couldn't care less about admiring it right now.

"I'd better call the nurse."

"No, I'm almost done, you just go out and wait for me for 2 minutes, soon."

An Mu had no choice but to pull out the curtain again, afraid that Jian Yixi would be uncomfortable standing beside the bed, so she went back to the floor and sat down again.

The bed curtain was fairly thick, and the bedside lamp was on inside. Through the curtain, only a dark figure could be seen looming on it, and it was not intuitive to see what was going on inside, so it was still able to maintain privacy.

An Mu stared at the black shadow on the bed curtain, watching it squirm with difficulty, up and down, left and right, up and down, and finally stopped after a while.

"come in."

Jian Yixi's voice was so weak that it seemed that the next word was about to die.

An Mu closed the bed curtain and stood by the bed looking at her.

"better?"

Jian Yixi was lying flat on the bed, not to mention that the quilt was pressing on her chest, and she was covered tightly from shoulders to feet, except for her head, only two arms were left outside, her cheeks were still flushed, It is estimated that it will not go down for a while.

The patient on the inner bed turned over, and turned over again, as if he had been awakened.

An Mu pursed her lips and reached out to turn off the bedside lamp.

"I'll talk about it tomorrow, sleep first."

An Mu had no choice but to whisper, "What do you want to say quickly?"

"handle……"

In the dark, Jian Yixi's eyes were dizzy with water, and his voice was soft, sweet and pitiful, which made it impossible to refuse.

An Mu took her hand and shook it.

"Okay, sleep..."

Before the last word "bar" was uttered, Jian Yixi moved towards the side of the bed with great difficulty, and made a small space. Her expression could not be seen clearly in the dim light, and she only heard her say: "Lie here and let's go together." sleep."

How can a nurse compete with a patient for a bed?

"You sleep, I will sit here with you."

An Mu moved the stool behind him slightly forward and sat down.

Holding hands and accompanying others, it stands to reason that Jian Yixi should stop, right?

People don't.

Shaking her hand.

An Mu: "Go to sleep."

She shook her hand again.

"An... hiss..."

Shaking her hand to pull the wound, Jian Yixi hissed in pain.

An Mu surrendered and lay sideways by the bed.

Jian Yixi was finally satisfied, and pulled the corner of the quilt to cover her with difficulty.

The two were lying on the same pillow, very close to each other, their breaths intertwined with each other, and any breath sound could be heard clearly.

"Does it still hurt?" An Mu asked.

"It doesn't hurt anymore."

"You were sweating from the pain just now, who did you lie to?"

"It doesn't hurt anymore, it doesn't hurt when I see you."

An Mu didn't even bother to refute such a childish lie that could be broken at the first poke.

"Sleep if it doesn't hurt."

Does it hurt?Naturally, it hurts, but seeing An Mu, for some reason, he feels relieved, and the pain doesn't seem so unbearable anymore.

The medicine taken before going to bed has a sleeping effect. Jian Yixi will fall asleep again soon. An Mu tried to break free from her hand, but failed after several attempts. I don't know what the little girl dreamed about in her dream. Clenched so tightly.

An Mu had no choice but to carefully turn over and get out of bed, sit on the stool, and lay down beside the bed.

At seven o'clock in the morning, the nurse came to the ward on time and opened the window, urging the floor bedding to put away the floor bedding as soon as possible.

Only then did An Mu break free from Jian Yixi's little claws, stood up and put away the floor mat, and brought water to wipe Jian Yixi's face.

The adoptive mother said that she would bring breakfast, but An Mu didn't go downstairs to buy it. After finishing packing, she sat by the bed, and the two stared at each other.

Jian Yixi was still in pain, and his complexion was still not good. An Mu couldn't bear to say anything more, and just as he was about to say "don't think about anything, take care of your wounds", Jian Yixi dug his own grave.

"I didn't mean to lie to you, don't be angry."

Which pot was not opened and which pot was lifted, she was already not angry but only distressed. When Jian Yixi said this, An Mu became a little angry again.

"Not on purpose? Then who is calling me? A ghost?"

Jian Yixi knew she was wrong, so she reluctantly stretched out her hand to grab the corner of her clothes, her eye circles turned red as soon as she said it, as if she had planned it out a long time ago.

"I'm just afraid you're worried."

"If you're really afraid that I'm worried, you'd have gone to the hospital a long time ago. If you had come to the hospital earlier, the delay wouldn't have been so serious."

"But I have to take an exam, and... I really didn't think it was anything at the time. Who knew that the pain became more and more painful later on. What I thought was to go to the hospital as soon as possible after the exam."

An Mu didn't want to hear her explain. If she didn't explain, she looked pitiful. She couldn't get angry. The more she explained, the angrier she became.

"At the time I thought it was all right, but then you didn't know what was going on with you? Your mother dragged you to the gate of the hospital even though you knew it was wrong. What do you mean you didn't go in? Is that why you're afraid of me?"

"Don't be angry...you are afraid when you are angry..."

"Don't pretend, why are you so afraid of me?"

"I'm often afraid of you."

"I didn't lie to you, really, every time you get angry, I get scared."

Jian Yixi tugged at the corner of her clothes, like a child who did something wrong, glanced at her, then glanced at her again, saw that she seemed really angry, bit her lips, and explained in a low voice.

"I'm afraid that if I go in, I won't be able to get out. There's only one day left. I...I want to get through it."