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Most drivers don't like the dome lights in the car when driving at night, for fear of dazzling their eyes.For some reason, Ji Jian stared at the dirty yellow that was covered with oil paper. He remembered that one year when Yumiao Primary School was on winter vacation, he went to Kunming alone out of boredom. There was nothing interesting in Kunming. Ended up missing the last train.There was a long row of black cars pulling people at the gate of the train station, and Ji Jian picked one up at random. On the way, he suddenly looked up and saw that it was pitch black outside.He reached out to turn on the overhead light, and he always felt that it was only when it was bright that he felt at ease.Just as he was about to make a move, the driver with a fierce face seemed to have eyes in the back of his head, tilted his head, and said in a rough voice to him, if you are traveling at night, you need a car until it is dark, and the lights cannot be turned on.

So Ji Jian, who wanted to turn on the light, fell into the bottom of the cliff along with the sudden car exhaust, and was smashed to pieces.The night was like a quagmire, pulling people into it, but he was safe and sound all the way back to the house in Yiliang.

Shao Youguang stretched out his hand, and the wet clothes brushed against Ji Jian's ear with a burst of wet air against the line of his arm.It only took a moment to push the switch, and Ji Jian, who wanted to turn on the light, came back to life, breathing normally, and his limbs began to stretch in the warm air.He looked in the direction where Shao You was going, and saw the light behind the cheap plastic lampshade like a paper moon above his head. It was raining outside the window, but it was a good night inside the car, soaking the two of them in a stream of yellow light .If the light can be materialized, it is very similar to the water, and the two simply sank to the bottom of the water, soaked in the Baudelaire-style haze.

The warm wind whistled, and it sounded like it was exhausted.I'm slowly starting to dry my clothes, it's been a long process.Shao Youguang moved again, he opened the car window a small slit, and a little cold air poured in, so as not to make people feel suffocated.The car didn't start for a long time, he leaned back, sat in a very comfortable position, turned his head and asked Ji Jian: "Do you want to go back and have a look?"

"Where are you going?" Ji Jian looked at Shao Youguang and asked, his eyes touched the other's lips inadvertently, and he raised his head to look at the lamp on the top in a little embarrassment.

"Aren't you going to see Liu Meng? Don't worry?" Shao Youguang's center of view turned into his upturned neck, which was a section of reddish white in the hazy yellow.Being undefended gives people an urge to choke.

"Don't read it," Ji Jian shook his head, "Forget it."

Shao Youguang figured out from Ji Jian's words that he didn't want to say more, so he stopped asking. The two were silent for a while, and then they both suddenly spoke at the same time. This kind of tacit understanding seemed out of place.

Shao Youguang rushed to speak, with a cheerful tone: "Okay, let's go home then."

At the moment of beauty, as he spoke, he hooked Ji Jian's chin shamelessly, playing a bit of a hooligan.

Ji Jian seemed to be blushing, stunned, and asked, "What are you doing?"

Shao Youguang turned off the lights and started the car without answering him.The inside of the car suddenly became dark, and only the light from the dashboard could illuminate a small piece of his face. From the corner of Ji Jian's peripheral vision, he saw the corners of his lips pursed and his eyes staring ahead, which seemed to prove that this man was driving very seriously. , without any extravagant thoughts.

"Tell me," the car rounded a bend, and the serious driver suddenly said, "What do you mean by that kiss you just had?"

Ji Jian was dumbfounded by the question, and didn't make a sound. After a while, he asked back: "Ah?"

Shao Youguang smiled: "I kissed, don't you count?" He turned his head and gave Ji Jian a narrow look.

Tonight was too magical. First, I went to the water to stage a life-and-death drama, and then I kissed the person I liked for a long time. Ji Jian was smashed into the sweetness of "fantasy come true". Don't dare to exhale, for fear it's just a thrilling dream.

The nerve in his head still couldn't turn around, "Does he like me too?" Ji Jian dispelled the idea as soon as it appeared. It's not that there is no theoretical support, but he is really like a monk who has eliminated all emotions and six desires. After living for many years, these speculations are delusions that have really broken the boundaries.Ji Jian's face was sullen, and he looked a little indifferent, but he heard Shao Youguang go on.

"Don't say that it doesn't count, and don't say that you don't know what I've come here for, do you really think I'm here to collect folk songs?" Shao Youguang said while walking around in a respectful manner while passing the ramp ahead. secondary lights.

Ji Jian's mind buzzed for a moment, and he asked, "What else?"

"I came to see you, I came to see you because I like you, and I kiss you because I like you," the man spoke bluntly, and then continued, "Let's think about it, I'm going to study for another year in the third year of high school because I like you and have sex with you." The same table is because I like you, I chase your train because I like you, I jump off to save others because I like you, I want to pick you up because I like you..."

He drives very seriously, and he talks about the weather as if he were talking about ordinary weather.He traced back the timeline for too long, and Ji Jian couldn't help asking: "What kind of love are you talking about?"

Shao Youguang replied fluently, saying: "It's the kind of love that I want to kiss your mouth when you talk, want to kiss your neck when you look up, and want to sleep with you when you lie next to me."

Ji Jian was indeed the one who was hit by good luck. He blushed from the blunt words, froze in the darkness, and heard Shao Youguang laugh softly: "What about you? What kind of person are you?" like?"

This question is good everywhere, it is so ironic that it makes Ji Jian feel sad, he now knows that he has always lived with this little hope, he has been waiting for such a sentence for many years.

Seeing that he was silent, Shao Youguang didn't urge him, just let him think slowly.

The jeans were wet and wrapped around my legs, which was extremely uncomfortable.The jacket was flimsy, and it was almost dry by the warm wind. Ji Jian changed his sitting position. Since he took the initiative to kiss Shao Youguang, what was waiting was a showdown. To Ji Jian, that kiss was more like being cornered. a catharsis.He really couldn't hold back some words—he actually had a lot to say to Shao Youguang, and he didn't know where to start. He wanted to talk about those struggles and difficulties, but this secret love suddenly became equal. He thought, that's great, he knows it all.But when such heavy feelings are doubled down, sadness and joy are mixed.Ji Jian was still aggrieved, he thought, why do you say these words so lightly, when did you first get a glimpse of my heart, you have to wait until now to say it.

Of course, this grievance can probably be attributed to self-confidence, after all, everyone is happy to enjoy that "preference". Teacher Ji claims that "equality" and "respect" are the best virtues of human beings, but he doesn't know that he has already been smashed by preference dizzy.

So Ji Jian also spoke up without shame, what's more, what they said was not exaggerated in the slightest.

He said, "I love you."

He only said one sentence, but it contained a lot of sentences. After so many years, he couldn't say one sentence at a time.

Shao Youguang was very helpful. They parked on the side of the road, kissed each other, and went home.The rain was still falling, and finally a faint light appeared in the dark distance.The two of them are indeed not romantic enough. In those movies, lovers who have been separated for a long time always keep each other's tokens, and when they meet again, they will perform a scene of crying "so you love me too".But both of them were empty-handed, and just met like this, without even more sweet words.

Shao Youguang slightly increased the speed of the car, with a casual expression on his face: "I have learned a driver's license, but I haven't driven much, sit still."

Ji Jian said that you should come here less and drive well.

He didn't keep a token, and still felt as if they had been together all the time. After all these years, it turned out that life wasn't too hard.

The surrounding fields are vast, but there is a world of mortals entwining him.

The light ahead is getting closer, Shao Youguang, who is careless, probably forgot to turn off the lights in the room when he left.Ji Jian blamed him preoccupiedly, and Shao Youguang refused to admit it by playing tricks.

But none of this mattered anymore. They went home with their clothes full of the west wind, and all the roads since then have been homeward journeys.

The author says:

"They go home and their clothes are full of the west wind" is adapted from Zhang Zao's poem "Ten thousand tons of darkness, we go home and the clothes are full of the west wind"