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When sitting on the train, Shen Dong hadn't fully recovered yet. The experience during this period was like a chaotic dream. Things he thought were impossible happened one by one, and memories he thought didn't exist kept coming. Little by little, he couldn't tell whether he was dreaming or awake.

This time the ticket was not very good. Although there was a seat by the window for Cao Mu to enjoy the scenery, it was a three-seater. Next to Shen Dong was a chubby man who was still sweating profusely from getting on the bus to driving for half an hour. aunt.

"It's really hot!" The aunt kept shaking a fan, and she occupied almost one and a half seats by herself.

Shen Dong smiled and didn't answer, he was a bit unbearable when he was squeezed by the aunt, so he could only lean towards Cao Mu's side. If he knew it was such a seat, he should have asked the conductor to pay half the fare.

Cao Mu didn't feel much being squeezed by Shen Dong, and even adjusted his posture with a look of enjoyment.

"How long will it take?" Cao Mu took Shen Dong's hand and squeezed his fingers one by one.

"Three hours," Shen Dong originally wanted to pull out his hand, but now the three of them are sticking together like three bean bags. It is most comfortable to put his hand out on Cao Mu's lap, so he hesitated for a long time. He didn't move either, "Soon."

"Why don't you take the plane?" Cao Mu asked in a low voice, "The captain said it would be fast by plane."

When Cao Mu could voluntarily think of Hong Jie once, Hong Jie was never there, and Shen Dong silently expressed sympathy for him in his heart.

"You don't have an ID card," Shen Dong replied in a low voice, "Without an ID card, you can't buy a plane ticket, and the two of us can't even take the train..."

"ID card?" Cao Mu didn't quite understand, "What is it?"

Shen Dong struggled to put his hand into his trouser pocket against the aunt's waist, and was about to take out his ID card. Suddenly, the aunt quickly closed the folding fan, and slapped the fan on his hand, staring at him vigilantly: "What are your hands trying to do!"

This majestic voice made all the people on the opposite side and the side seat look over in unison, and Shen Dong suddenly felt that under the gaze of everyone, he became a pervert who was hungry and was found on the train while stealing his aunt's fat waist while there were so many people , He endured the fire, and took out the ID card from his pocket: "My hand wants to take the ID card."

The seat opposite quickly turned away, and one of them couldn't help laughing. The aunt was a little embarrassed: "Ah, it's too crowded, isn't it squeezing you?"

"It's okay." Shen Dong squeezed closer to Cao Mu again, he really wanted to say yes, you almost squeezed out my stuffing, if the three of us were glutinous rice balls, squeezed like this, it would be a pot of sesame paste .

Cao Mu looked at the ID card for a long time, pointed to the photo on it and looked at Shen Dong: "Who is this?"

"Me." Shen Dong leaned over and took a look, a little bit wanting to laugh, what a green image of a labor prisoner.

"Is it you? This is you?" Cao Mu's eyes widened.

"Well, I was about seventeen or eighteen." Shen Dong nodded with a smile, "Can't you recognize me?"

"I can't recognize it," Cao Mu hesitated for a while and said in a low voice, "It's... ugly."

"Did you read the captain's?" Shen Dong was always happy.

"No, he has it too?"

"Well, the picture of the captain is like a fan, and monkeys are prettier than him."

"...he doesn't look like a monkey," Cao Mu frowned and thought for a long time, "does he look like a monkey? What is a monkey like?"

"Monkeys are just like him, hey, the photos are taken with such virtue, do you think I'm ugly?" Shen Dong turned his face to him.

"It's not ugly, it's very good-looking." Cao Mu smiled, and without warning, he suddenly leaned over and kissed him on the tip of his nose.

"...Damn it!" Shen Dong's body froze suddenly, his face turned green, and he didn't have the nerve to look around to see if anyone noticed them, "What are you doing!"

"You can't kiss when there are many people, right?" Cao Mu probably remembered Shen Dong's previous teaching that he should not be too casual in public places.

"En." Shen Dong responded.

In fact, he thought about telling Cao Mu what would be the difference between two men and a man and a woman having intimate behaviors in public places, but in the end he didn't say anything. Cao Mu had never touched a woman before. If he met a woman first, maybe He will also fall in love with a woman... At this point, Shen Dong always has the feeling that he has deceived an ignorant boy. He dare not let Cao Mu know that in the eyes of many people, it is very abnormal for two men to be together .

He was afraid that Cao Mu would feel uncomfortable, alienate him, or blame him.

Cao Mu's attention quickly returned to the ID card, and he read all the words on it with great difficulty. He only knew Shen Dong, male, and nothing else.

"This captain has it too, and so do you," Cao Mu frowned, "Does anyone else have it too?"

"Well, they all have ID cards, everyone..." Shen Dong stopped here.

"I don't have it," Cao Mu looked at him depressedly, "Why didn't I? I want to have it too, so I can take a plane. I want to see what the sky looks like."

Shen Dong didn't say a word. It is basically impossible for Cao Mu to have an ID card. He regretted mentioning the ID card. When Cao Mu asked why he didn't take the plane, he told him that it was something that the captain would only sit on if he was insane. Don't forget it!

"Because I'm not human?" Cao Mu handed him his ID card and looked out the window, "Sister said, no matter how we look like a human being, we will never be a real human being."

Cao Mu said such sentimental words, which made Shen Dong very uncomfortable, and he felt blocked for a while. He didn't care whether others would see it, so he held Cao Mu's hand: "It doesn't matter if you are a person, I still want to Whether you are a fish, the important thing is not whether you are a man or a fish, but the meaning of your life."

Really... Hypocritical!These words made Shen Dong's own teeth ache.

But for Cao Mu, it seems to have played some role, Cao Mu's mind is very simple, wherever he takes it, his emotions will follow.

The depressed expression on his face disappeared immediately, and he turned to look at Shen Dong happily: "What is the meaning of living?"

Shen Dong almost blurted out the sentence I know what a fart, but he bit it in time, but after thinking about it, he really couldn't answer such a profound question.

"Just... make yourself and the people you care about happy, and try to make yourself have no regrets in this life... When you die, you won't feel like what have I done all my life..."

"Understood." Cao Mu said.

"Do you really understand?" Shen Dong was taken aback, I still didn't understand it myself.

"I really understand," Cao Mu nodded solemnly, "it's meaning for you to go home, it's also meaning for me to accompany you home, it's also meaning for my sister to want to be with Qin Yi no matter what..."

If I stay on the island all my life, without meeting Cao Mu or the captain, the forgotten past will always be buried deep in my memory, with white hair growing in a certain corner...

What is the meaning of your own life?

When he walked out of the train station and saw a familiar yet unfamiliar scene, Shen Dong thought for a few minutes again pretentiously.

"Let's go." Cao Mu pushed him.

"Well, Cao Mu, I'll teach you a very profound word." Shen Dong took a breath, listening to the familiar local accent around him, smelling the dry air with the smell of dust, "It's timid to be close to the hometown."

"The feeling of being close to home is timid," Cao Mu repeated carefully, "What do you mean?"

"It means being close to the hometown and being timid. I haven't been back for a long time, and I suddenly feel a little scared." Shen Dong smiled.

"With me, what are you afraid of." Cao Mu put his arm on his shoulder and hugged him.

"Didn't you say otherwise?" Shen Dong looked at him.

"No, I used to think it was great to have you, I don't have to think about anything, I don't care, I just follow you, and I can ask you if I don't understand anything, but now it's different," Cao Mu suddenly laughed and shouted towards the street "Meaning!"

"Hey, let's go," Shen Dong was taken aback, and pushed Cao Mu away, "Can you not learn from the captain? Are neuropathy contagious!"

"Who is the captain?" Cao Mu happily walked forward.

"do not know."

In seven years, it is difficult to say what a person can become, and it seems even more difficult to say what a city can become.

According to his memory, Shen Dong found the place that used to be his home, a certain residential area in the old city.

But although he could recall many things in the past, he was still a little confused, especially when everything in front of him was different from what he remembered.

"There are so many buildings, which one is it?" Cao Mu covered the sunlight with his hands and looked around.

"I don't remember, I don't know if I remembered it wrong or it was rebuilt." Shen Dong looked at Cao Mu, a little worried about his condition, "Why don't we find a place to live before..."

"I'm fine, I'm not feeling sick now," Cao Mu shook his head, "I'm here to look for it first."

"Then..." Shen Dong thought for a while, "Ask the neighborhood committee."

The decision to find the neighborhood committee was a decision Shen Dong made after a lot of effort. The deep uneasiness hidden in his chaotic memory made him not sure whether he could really face the seven-year gap.

Outside the office of the neighborhood committee, Shen Dong originally wanted to calm down before going in, or... even though it was meaningless, he still somehow wanted to delay the time.

But Cao Mu didn't know what he was thinking, so he opened the door and walked into the office: "Hello."

Shen Dong had no choice but to follow them in. There was a girl sitting in the office. When she saw them entering, she stood up: "Hello, what's the matter?"

"We're looking for someone," Cao Mu said.

"Looking for someone? Don't you know the address?" The little girl poured water for them, "Sit down and talk."

The little girl's enthusiasm and smile made Shen Dong feel kind, and the unexplainable timidity in his heart calmed down a little. He sat on the chair: "I used to live here, but I haven't been back for seven years..."

"Ah, so long? That's a big change. I've only been here for two years. We've done a lot of demolition and construction before. Are you looking for relatives?"

"It should be, I..." Shen Dong was not very confident in his memory, he gritted his teeth, "There should have been a fire here before, do you know?"

"Fire? Seven years ago?" The little girl was taken aback, "Wait a minute, I'll help you find someone to ask."

The little girl walked out of the office and yelled to an office next door: "Aunt Wang, are you there? I'm here to ask you something."

A woman in her fifties walked into the office talking to a little girl: "Fire? I remember, how can I not remember..."

Hearing this, Shen Dong stood up from his chair, his heart was beating like he was rolling down a hill with a tractor.

Before he turned around and had no time to speak, the woman suddenly called out, rushed forward and grabbed his arm, her voice trembling: "Xiaodong? Are you Xiaodong? Shen Dong?"

Shen Dong was stunned, he didn't know the woman in front of him who hurt his arm, so he nodded: "I'm Shen Dong."

"My God!" the woman shouted again, "My God! You're back? I'm Aunt Wang, do you remember me?"

Shen Dong felt a little dizzy from being shaken by Aunt Wang, the past fragments in his mind were spinning like crazy, countless faces and voices hovered around him: "I..."

"You didn't contact your aunt after you left. Where did you go? You're going to panic her to death," Aunt Wang shouted while taking out her mobile phone, "Wait until I call your aunt, my God! Shen Dong, you are back."

aunt?Shen Dong seems to have no memory of his aunt.

but……

Xiaodong, did you see your parents when you ran out?

The crying voice in the dream passed by his ears, and he felt a sharp tug in his heart.

Aunt Wang yelled and yelled after finishing the phone call, took Shen Dong's arm and rushed out: "Your aunt is at home, I'll take you there."

"Thank you, Aunt Wang." Shen Dong subconsciously followed Aunt Wang, and his voice felt weak.

"Thank you, Aunt Wang." Cao Mu followed behind and said the same thing.

Shen Dong turned his head to look at Cao Mu, and he began to feel unreal again. Only when he saw Cao Mu could he be sure that he was still in reality.

"You still have an aunt." Cao Mu smiled happily at him, and waved the bag in his hand.

Aunt Wang took him trotting all the way and turned around several buildings, and a woman rushed out in front of him.

"Shen Dong——" the woman was stunned for a moment, stared at them for a few seconds, then let out a scream, then rushed over like crazy, threw herself in front of Shen Dong, and hugged them without letting go. "It's really you, Xiaodong, where have you been, why didn't you contact your aunt..."

"...Auntie." Shen Dong's voice became hoarse. The moment he saw her, those chaotic memory fragments in the dream became clear, like a knife stabbing into his heart accurately.

"My darling..." Auntie burst into tears when she heard his voice, crying so hard, she kept rubbing her hands back and forth on his face, "You are really..."

All kinds of emotions in Shen Dong's heart were overwhelming, and tears followed. He didn't know what to say, so he could only hug his aunt, and said repeatedly: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

Cao Mu stood with his bag in his arms, a little at a loss. From the day he met Shen Dong, Shen Dong had been a silent person with no mood swings. Although later he knew that Shen Dong had a bad temper and liked to beat people. But Shen Dong's out-of-control state still made him at a loss.

Shen Dong was crying, and crying very sadly, even more sad than he was crying yesterday, and he couldn't stop, crying with his aunt in his arms.

Cao Mu looked at Aunt Wang who was crying along with her, and lowered her head, only he didn't cry.

He couldn't cry, he felt that Shen Dong's mood was very strange, he seemed to be sad, but also seemed to be very happy, he should cry when he was sad, and he should laugh when he was happy. Now everyone is crying, and he is too embarrassed to laugh...

"Shen Dong," Cao Mu waited for a while, then reached out and pulled Shen Dong's clothes, "Don't cry."

Shen Dong turned his head and finally let go of his aunt's arm, looked at him for a long time, then suddenly put his arm on his shoulder again, with a nasal voice: "Cao Mu..."

"What's the matter?" Cao Mu panicked and quickly hugged Shen Dong, "What's the matter?"

"This is my aunt," Shen Dong cried a little hard, but couldn't stop right now, "Call...call, call aunt."

"Why are you stuttering again?" Cao Mu was surprised.

Shen Dong pushed him away, and slapped his arm: "Hurry up."

"Hi aunt, my name is Cao Mu." Cao Mu rubbed his arm.

"Hey, good, good," my aunt smiled while wiping her tears, "Come on, come home with my aunt, and my aunt will cook something delicious for you."

She was the only one in her aunt's house, and her uncle was on a business trip and would come back tomorrow, and her cousin was married to another place, so she would not be back until tomorrow.

My aunt called both my uncle and my cousin. My uncle was fine, but he repeatedly said that he would come back immediately, and told him not to go anywhere, but to stay at home. My cousin is indeed my aunt's daughter. She cried for almost 10 minutes on the phone. Didn't say a whole sentence...

The aunt arranged Shen Dong and Cao Mu in the room where the cousin used to live, and then went to cook while crying.

Shen Dong was stunned on the edge of the bed for almost 10 minutes before he slowly recovered and let out a long sigh.

"Shen Dong," Cao Mu stood in front of him, reached out and touched his head, "Are you done crying?"

"En." Shen Dong smiled, put his arms around Cao Mu's waist, and buried his face in his stomach.

"Your aunt is still crying." Cao Mu listened, and the sound of chopping ribs and aunt's cry came from the kitchen at the same time.

"She's been like this all the time," Shen Dong said with a muffled voice, "I guess she'll cry when she eats."

"Shen Dong," Cao Mu hesitated, scratching Shen Dong's hair up and down, "Didn't you mean to find your parents?"

Shen Dong didn't speak, and after a long time, he sighed softly: "They are no longer here, they are dead."

Cao Mu was so surprised that he was speechless for a long time.

"It's okay." Shen Dong still pressed his face against his stomach, and patted his back with his hand, "It's been a long time, it's all over."

Cao Mu was a little anxious, Shen Dong was always the one who comforted him, now he wanted to comfort Shen Dong but didn't know what to do, he held back for a long time before he said: "Don't be sad, I will be your father from now on. "

Shen Dong pushed him away, and stopped holding Le: "You are so beautiful."