bookworm

Feng Feng's chickenpox has been out for two or three days, and the situation is good and bad. He often has a high fever in the middle of the night. Liu Fang has no choice but to carry her quilt into her son's room and spread it on the floor. So convenient to take care of him in the middle of the night.

When Feng Feng was sober during the day, whenever he saw his mother's pale face and blue eye circles, he felt guilty.

"Mom, rest." He sat on the edge of the bed and watched his mother busy, and couldn't help urging her.

"Mom isn't tired, are you feeling better?" Liu Fang sat over, put her hand on his forehead, frowned, did she start to have a fever again?

The classmate named Atobe also called his family doctor over this morning, but the conclusion he came to was nothing more than a good rest, and then gave him a drip, prescribed some medicine and left.

This fever can only be boiled.

Feeling his mother's breath in his nose, Feng Feng reached out and hugged his mother's shoulders, and put his head on her shoulders: "Mom, I will be obedient from now on."

"Well, good." Liu Fang stroked his head.

"I don't make you angry either."

"it is good."

"Not picky eaters."

"Ah."

"But can milk..."

"No."

"Oh...is that half okay?"

"Two-thirds."

"Oh……"

"Mother."

"Ok?"

"I'll never call you a bad witch behind your back again."

Liu Fang: "..."

"Fengfeng! If you let me know that you are secretly giving your mother such a weird nickname, I will really confiscate your toys!"

After Feng Feng chatted with his mother for a few words, his eyelids became heavier and heavier, and slowly fell off.

"Sleep when you're sleepy." Liu Fang said softly after pressing the corner of the quilt for him.

Feng Feng rubbed against the soft bed, muttered with blurred eyes: "Mom..."

"Ok?"

"I miss Dad."

Liu Fang's hand trembled, and she immediately lowered her head to look at her son. When she wanted to confirm it again, she found that he had fallen asleep with his eyes closed.

Uesugi came in and asked softly, "Is Fengfeng asleep?"

"Well, I just fell asleep." Liu Fang patted his back lightly, "Go and rest first, I'll watch over here."

Uesugi didn't refuse too much, the wife's expression now obviously wanted to be alone, as a qualified husband, she should be given free space.

The door was closed, leaving only silence in the room.

Liu Fang sat quietly on the head of the bed alone, thinking about some long-term things.

It has been more than ten years since Fengfeng pulled his sleeve like this and cried for his father. I didn't expect to hear it again at this time.

That person, the man who gave Fengfeng another half of his life, but suddenly disappeared into their world - Feng Zhan.

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Meeting is fate—the meaning of Feng Feng's name.

That year, Liu Fang, a girl from Jinan, and Feng Zhan, a sunny and handsome boy from Sichuan, tied the knot, and their new home was set in Beijing.

The only fly in the ointment is that Feng Zhan has always refused to disclose his occupation. Every time Liu Fang asked about it, he would always blurt it out with a laugh, not saying that he was a gangster, but that he was a wage earner. Not much to say.

Although Liu Fang was puzzled, she felt that anyway, as long as the two of them were together in harmony, she didn't need to care so much. At worst, she would pay attention to any suitable jobs in the future, and then coax him to go.

In Liu Fang's heart, although Feng Zhan is a man with a height of 182, he is still like a child in his heart, and he has to be coaxed, not in a hurry.

In this way, not long after the two got married, Liu Fang became pregnant. After the doctor's neighbor secretly revealed that it was a boy.

The young couple was very excited at the time. Although they didn't care about the sex of the fetus, it was their first child. Nothing could compare to that strong sense of happiness.

Today, more than ten years later, Liu Fang always thinks that time is the most unforgettable day in her life every time she recalls it.

Feng Zhan is very happy about having a son. He cooks all kinds of delicious and nutritious food at home every day to supplement his wife's nutrition. He also quit smoking for ten years. Affecting the rest of the daughter-in-law, watching the silent football game through the night with pain, sometimes I can't help but start jumping on the sofa wearing slippers, and then nervously look at the door of her room to see if the mother and son are disturbed.

"Daughter-in-law, come and read this book, our son will definitely need it after he is born!"

"Daughter-in-law, let me tell you, people say that pig's trotters are willing to produce milk, really! I have tasted it, you try it?"

"Oh, my daughter-in-law is the prettiest among all the women on the street!"

"Haha, you said that our son was born, is there a little radish who stays up late with me to watch Serie A?"

"young married woman……"

Although these words were always indifferent at the time, but now after several years, the words are still in my ears, and Liu Fang smiled slightly.

The end of the happy days came very suddenly, which caught people off guard.

That day, just like usual, Feng Zhan was ready to go out with his usual bag on his back. Before leaving home, he turned around to appease his reluctant wife: "Daughter-in-law, the boss wants me to go on this business trip. I don't care what I say." It's useless! Just wait, I swear this is the last time, I will definitely resign in the future and live with you! I promise!"

Although a little uneasy, Liu Fang finally nodded with red eyes and let the man leave.

Who knew that that bright smile before that person left would become the most unforgettable existence in her life when she wakes up in the middle of the night every time.

It was a blond foreigner who came to tell her the news. He was tall, a few centimeters taller than Feng Zhan, with dark green eyes as if he could speak. Although he was a foreigner, he could speak Chinese very well.

"Are you ALEX's wife? Hello, I'm BLACK, his partner."

The arrival of BLACK let Liu Fang know the existence of the mysterious soldier "Interpol" who has been appearing on TV all the time. , Her husband who loves to pester her to cook.

Then, another, bigger shock followed.

"ALEX and I went out on a mission to wipe out an...an illegal organization, and disappeared due to an accidental explosion. After searching, the superiors confirmed that he was sacrificed."

It means that even the body was not found.

The young man named BLACK spoke sadly about the death of his partner, his tone trembling slightly.

"I'm sorry, I couldn't observe the surrounding equipment better at that time, I'm really sorry..."

Liu Fang couldn't hear what he was saying at all. In fact, her mind couldn't think anymore.

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Later, just like ordinary widowed women, Liu Fang received some compensation, but because of Feng Zhan's special status, the cause of death was strictly suppressed by the relevant departments, and his files were also inexplicably deleted.

It was as if Feng Zhan had never existed in the world.

Liu Fang lived like a walking corpse for three months. If it weren't for the weak fetal movement of the baby in her stomach, she could hardly survive.

Black took care of her for a long time, until Feng Feng was born, and even recognized him as a godson on the spot. Later, most of Feng Feng's fighting skills were taught by him.

But it didn't take long, because of the new mission, he also left China soon.

Liu Fang returned to her hometown, Jinan, with her son who was only a few months old.

In this hometown where she was born and raised, Liu Fang gradually learned how to live a strong life, working hard in a home without pillars, and supporting her son.

Feng Feng grew up slowly, but her health was not particularly good. She fell ill from time to time every three days, coupled with her busy work, she often felt like she was about to collapse.

These hardships are actually not the most terrible, what is terrible is what people say.

Liu Fang never knew that the most gentle hometown that she thought could accommodate her could one day become a sharp weapon to hurt her son.

Because Liu Fang came back alone, the sisters-in-law in the neighborhood also asked her about the whereabouts of her baby's father. In addition, Feng Zhan, who had been inquired before, was a gangster who was not doing business properly, and rumors began to spread.

"I see, the one from Fangfang's house may have been let in because of something he committed!"

"That's right, my nephew also stayed in Beijing, and there are many young people who say they have nothing to do there. Maybe the kid named Feng is not a good person!"

"I think, since I haven't seen him come back to see the two of you for so long, he must have been shot!"

"Oh! Then I have to tell my Ying girl to be careful, this 'like father, like son'!"

……

Although Liu Fang knew about these unbearable rumors, she tried her best to hold back her tears.

Until one day, Fengfeng came back with injuries all over his body.

I remember that when she hugged him in astonishment and heartache, Feng Feng cried hard: "Mom, I want dad! Mom, I want dad! Mom, I want dad..."

Liu Fang knelt down in tears and told him, "Daddy, he won't come back."

"They said that Fengfeng's father was a bad person! They also said that Fengfeng was born of a monster!"

"They are talking nonsense, Fengfeng's father is a great hero, he...he saved many lives!"

Liu Fang hugged her son tightly.

Feng Zhan, did you see that when you were not around, I couldn't even defend you.

You are obviously braver than anyone else.

As Feng Feng grew up gradually, he no longer pestered his mother for a father. He knew that he would never have a father in this life.

So, in a corner that Liu Fang couldn't see, Feng Feng, who was innocent and lively in his childhood, was constantly changing.

It was only when Liu Fang took time out from a lot of busy work that she realized the change in her son.

Since when did he become obsessed with being a hero?

When did you stop pestering yourself to ask for a father?

And when did he start to like reading so much?

Liu Fang was a little uneasy. She didn't know whether such a change in her son was good or bad.So, she gritted her teeth and spent a lot of money to hire a child psychologist to show him, hoping that Fengfeng could be as happy as a normal child.

However, Feng Feng sharply refused.

The well-known children's psychology expert was almost thrown out by Feng Feng's book. Liu Fang stood at the door of the room and looked at Feng Feng holding the thick book in surprise, like a wounded little animal, and yelled fiercely : "I'm not sick! I'm not sick! I'm not sick!"

The expert just said with a livid face, "I don't want to see your son, you can hire someone else!"

Then he left without looking back.

"Mom, Fengfeng is not sick, mother..."

Feng Feng, who was not yet ten years old, slowly hugged his mother's waist with a trembling body, repeatedly saying that he was not sick, and tears wet her clothes.

Later, when Feng Feng came back with a small schoolbag and raised his head and told her that he was going to learn the piano, Liu Fang was in a daze, as if time had flown back.

Sure enough, is it his son?

Even if they haven't met each other, are they still father and son after all?

Feng Zhan can also play the piano, and he plays it very well, almost at the professional level. It was with a very simple "Little Star" that he caught up with her back then.

Sometimes, Liu Fang looked at Feng Feng with relief and sadness.

This child looks like himself, but his temperament is very similar to Feng Zhan.

I grew up in Jinan, but like Sichuanese, I love spicy food;

Obviously looks very mature, but inside is like a child;

She has limp hair, but she also has a stubborn temper;

Love the piano, although he can't play it very well...

It seems that everything about Feng Zhan has been perfectly continued in his son.

Feng Zhan, I raised him very well, so, will you be happier?

And those things, like ordinary children, riding on her father's shoulders and running all over the garden in the sunset to catch butterflies, and the scene where the father and son stayed up all night waving flags and cheering together to watch the football game, can only exist in her dreams forever...

Liu Fang looked down at her sleeping son, and tears finally fell down.