shallow marriage

Winter month 29, cloudy.

Ah Jing, this is the first love letter I wrote to you, and it is also the first month since you and I parted.

Yes, our "respectively".

Some words, I can't say it, I can only write it in the letter.I don't even expect you to see it, but I hope you will come back.

A month ago, Yu Zhengqing published a statement in the newspaper severing his father-daughter relationship with me, and you must have seen it.

I'm not sad, and I'm not afraid of being joked by idlers, let alone scolded by them for what they deserve. The only thing I'm afraid of is hearing ignorant people say "Yu Yinxia and An Jing are corrupt".

I love you, not immoral.I can't control their vicious mouth, I'm the one who hurt you.

After leaving Yu's house, I went to Aunt Hong's place.

The door is locked.

I have the key.

I don't know anything about Aunt Hong's whereabouts.

What I told you a few months ago, the old story about Aunt Hong and Yu Zhengqing is true, and so is that child.

Only, that child is not me.She "died of illness" in the second year after coming to Yu's house.

Anyway, that child has never seen an outsider, and after I replaced her identity, I haven't seen an outsider for several years.We are all just tools.

She is unlucky.My life was tough, and I survived.

Aunt Hong lost her child. When life was hopeless, Yu Zhengqing led me, an "orphan", to appear in front of her, giving her a little hope for life.

Aunt Hong and I, who is more miserable than the other?So Aunt Hong has become my "mother" whom I depended on for life in name.

I stayed at Aunt Hong's house for two days, but I didn't wait for Aunt Hong.The neighbors in the neighborhood only said that she moved out, and no one knew where she moved.

During those two days, I often sat by the river and looked at the clouds in the sky.Whenever there is the sound of wheels rolling behind me, I will look back for a long time until the sound disappears, until the car disappears.

I miss the coolness after the rain on the day you drove me to pay the protection fee, the autumn wind blowing my hair, and the lost bicycle you bought...

What I miss the most is you.

I endure the pain of longing and don't care about your whereabouts.In fact, I didn't have the face to see you again.No news is good news.

I've been thinking, what else can I do for you?

Kahn, one of the culprits who set you up for ruin and displacement, he deserves to die.

So, I dressed myself up and approached Kahn.

In the hotel room, Kahn's words and deeds were humiliating to me.I am a weak woman, if I want to get out of the body, it is as difficult as climbing to the sky.

I can't dirty myself, my body is yours.So there is only one road ahead.

But why, why are you outside the window?Why should I let you hear Kahn's obscene words?

A mirror.You hate me, don't you?

Living is more painful than dying.I deeply understand this sentence.

I risked my life by stabbing the wooden hairpin into Kahn's shoulder.Just when I thought I was going to die on the spot, you came back, my hero came back.

You took my hand and let Kahn die in my hands.I was shaking very badly, I was not afraid of blood, nor was I afraid of killing people, but I was afraid of the way you looked at me.

Those eyes that were supposed to be bright and clear, those eyes that were supposed to be tender and sweet, were filled with cold hatred.

There is also the wooden hairpin, on which I carved the word "mirror" with a knife in the night in the old city.That is what I hold dear, your name.

The wooden hairpin was abandoned on Kahn's neck.How can I not understand?What was abandoned by you is not the hairpin, but your love for me.

In the hail of bullets, several brothers from the gang died, and Bo Yang, whom I was most familiar with, also died.

They all died because of me.

Being dragged by you to run barefoot all the way, my feet were numb with blood and pain, but what was more numb was my heart.

I am not qualified to cry out in pain, because I deserve death.

Ah Jing, you should scold me, beat me and abandon me.But you still carried me on your back.

The basement was smaller, narrower and darker than Aunt Hong's hut, and there were corpses of rats and cockroaches lying by the door.

The messy environment and the smell made me want to vomit.

I hold back.

I stood at the door, tears streaming down my face.My Ah Jing is a dragon and phoenix among people, a wealthy and noble person.How could my Ah Jing live in such a dark basement.

You turned your head and looked at me indifferently, I slumped on the ground, covered my face with my hands, and said desperately: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

I don't know how many times I said it, but you still ignored me.

Master Qiang and a little brother came back from injuries, and he took me into the house indifferently: "How many brothers do you want to kill us?"

Damn it, it's me.

After treating their wounds guiltily, you said two words to me coldly: "Come here."

I thought you would care about me; I thought you would ask me if it hurts; I thought you would hug me and tell me: Don't be afraid, Yinyin, it's all over, I'm here.

However, you just threw the wound medicine at me, then turned around and entered an inner room.

I sat on the sofa, motionless.

Turned off the lights and it was pitch black.

cold.pain.I experienced a sense of fear like never before.

There was a hand on my shoulder and I trembled with fear.I heard you say, "It's me."

I've been on the brink for a long, long time, and your voice is my salvation.In the dark, I sobbed and threw myself into your arms: "You can beat me, scold me, kill me, don't want me."

But you, remain indifferent.

I went into the house with you, and you squatted in front of me, cleaned the wound on my foot with warm water, and applied medicine.

There was a moment of trance, thinking that we had returned to the first time we met.

On the bed, you held me and cried like a child.

I wanted to wipe your tears for you, but you avoided me; I wanted to kiss your lips, but you pushed me away; I called out "A Jing", but you stopped me.

You say, "You don't deserve it."

After speaking, he opened his mouth and bit my neck.It hurts a lot.

I didn't move, thinking to myself, it's good to let me die in your arms like this.Yu Yinxia lives and dies as your An Jing's person, and lives and dies on your An Jing's bed.

The smell of blood in the air is getting heavier and heavier, and I seem to smell the breath of death.

But you let go, and turned to tear my clothes, and dropped a bloody kiss on my chest.

pain.

But I still hug you tightly and let you vent your resentment like a beast.

Your teeth are raging against my heart.After a long time, I heard you say: "Yu Yinxia, ​​I really want to cut this open and have a look, do you have the heart..."

I want to say, I have a heart, and I have you in my heart, my hero.

You don't want to hear my voice.I see.I shut up.

You said again: "Yu Yinxia, ​​I saved your life, I want you to live in pain for the rest of your life..."

Ah Jing, you are so cruel.Blame only blame, I'm cruel first.

Finally, you fell asleep on my chest.From the beginning to the end, you didn't ask me for an explanation, and I didn't have anything to explain.

I am at fault and guilty.I can't argue with my mouth, and I deserve what I deserve.

Xianle Ballroom is the beginning of the whole layout.As the leader of An's Enterprise, you fell into our carefully arranged trap very early on.

Yu Yinxia is a bad woman, in this "game", she is not innocent at all, and she does not deserve to be forgiven.

I can touch you well while you are asleep.The hair is shorter and the face is thinner.

Boom, boom, boom, my heart is beating fast.Reminds me of my "first time" with you.

Going to bed was part of the original plan, but after I really fell in love with you, this item became very difficult to implement.

You regard me as a treasure, and you are reluctant to let me be wronged, and you have been reluctant to take it for a long time.But I was afraid that there would be no chance in the future, so I must give it.Even if you hate me after knowing the truth.

It's me, cheeky, selfish, and just wanting to be your woman.

I have learned about things in bed, both with men and women.

You say you won't.I believe.My first time, your first time.The union of two pure bodies is also the union of souls.

I was sleepless that night.Your breath is long, gently hitting my face.

With the faint light of the bedside lamp and the close distance from you, I can see your face clearly.

Your eyebrows, your eyes, your nose, your lips... I have kissed each place countless times, and I will firmly remember each place in my heart.

Tears wet the pillow.

This night in the basement was the same.

With your face on the skin of my chest, I fell asleep listening to my heartbeat.How I wish you could hear my unchanging heart for you.

Clothes are ripped off and it's a bit chilly, but your body and palms are warm.In the interweaving of ice and fire, I miss the night when I hugged you naked for the first time, and I miss your caress.

Probably, there will be no more.

I carefully pulled the corner of the quilt, and gently patted your back through the quilt, just like you used to comfort me.

I shouldn't be asleep.When I opened my eyes again, it was already the evening of the second day.

Not in your basement, but in the concession, the new "home" you bought for Aunt Hong.

Ah Jing, do you want me anymore?

I hugged my knees and cried loudly. I have never been so sad and hopeless in 20 years.

You took my heart and you took my life.If I don't have you by my side for the rest of my life, I'd rather die in your arms yesterday than live and never see you again.

Crying and crying, I frantically turned over on the bed.

When Aunt Hong heard the noise and entered the room, I fell out of bed, grabbed her hand and asked, "Where's the handkerchief? My handkerchief is gray, with a series of numbers written on it..."

Aunt Hong squatted down, hugged me, and shook her head.

nothing left.Xixi, wooden hairpins, handkerchiefs, and cheongsams related to you are all gone.

I pushed Aunt Hong away vigorously, opened the neckline, and saw that the marks you left on me from last night were still there.This "scarred" body is the only thing related to you.

I'm so scared.

Scars will heal one day.

After that day, in the days of trance and repetition, I was like a walking dead, nestling on the bed without going out.

Every day, Aunt Hong would buy a newspaper and deliver it to my room. I wanted to see the news of Yu Zhengqing's death on it.

Many, many days later I realized that I forgot to tell you that Yu Zhengqing was not my father.It's up to you to kill or cut.or.I come.

Ah Jing, I know you are going to do something very important, I will not drag you down, I will guard our memories and wait for you.One month, two months, one year, two years, when you come back, I will welcome you.

Ah Jing, you must remember to come back.I still have a lot of love I haven't had time to give you, a lot of love words I haven't said to you, a lot of things I haven't done with you...

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