Wear to the villain when he was young

"Brother..." Fu Yunchuan called out tremblingly, and slowly stretched out his hand, wanting to touch the figure, he stretched out and said, "Brother, you are finally here. Brother, I miss you so much, brother, How long have we not seen each other. Brother, how are you doing..."

He hadn't spoken for many days, his voice was so hoarse that he couldn't make much sound, and he moved his lips with difficulty. In fact, only he himself knew what he said.

He misses that person, his boyfriend, his brother, and wonders how he is doing?

Is he also experiencing such heart-burning pain?

With his personality, what kind of fierce resistance should he make?

The original author of the book once wrote that Su Moran has a dark personality, and what he can't get will end up being ruined.

Fu Yunchuan often thinks that it is better to be ruined by him than to be ruined by him.

……

Fu Yunchuan looked out of the window with blank eyes, and couldn't remember how long he had been lying here.

Fu Yunchen stared at him, frowning, "Come, drink some water."

He handed it over with a glass of water.

Fu Yunchuan opened his mouth and took a big sip, the water left along the corners of his lips, and all flowed onto the hospital gown.He has been like this recently, no matter what he eats or drinks, or how much he eats or drinks, he will vomit it out in the end.

Seeing him like this, Fu Yunchen was distressed and angry at the same time.

Angry at his disappointment.

Feel sorry for his thinning body.

In order to get Fu Yunchuan to eat, he thought of many ways, and then he simply threatened his own body, if Fu Yunchuan didn't eat, he wouldn't eat either, if he wanted to be hungry, then he would be hungry together.

This method is quite effective, Fu Yunchuan really started to eat, not much, but at least he ate.

Fu Yunchen touched his head and said, "Xiao Chuan, get well soon, I will take you abroad when you are done."

Fu Yunchuan said with red eyes, "Okay."

In fact, what he thought in his heart was, can he still be okay?

Is he okay?

Without Su Moran, what would happen if he recovered?Half of his world was missing, and that half was enough to kill him, and the reason why he was alive now was simply because he didn't want Fu Yunchen to be sad.

but……

He didn't know how long he could last.

Fu Yunchen took out his childhood photo album and put it on Fu Yunchuan's lap, "Look, there are many photos of you here."

The doctor said that only if he rekindled the hope of life, he might be well.

Fu Yunchuan raised the corners of his lips, stretched out his trembling hands, and slowly flipped through one by one. He was unfamiliar with these photos. After all, as a book traveler, he did not participate in the childhood of the original owners.

"It's well illuminated." After looking through everything, he could only think of this word.

A smile finally appeared on Fu Yunchen's face. He is not demanding, as long as he can speak, he is happy.

At some point, snow fell outside the window, and the originally clear sky began to become foggy in the afternoon, blurring the vision.

Fu Yunchuan was lying on the bed, looking out the window with a pale face, thinking of the first snow this year, Su Moran was waiting for him at the door like an ice sculpture.

The snow that day was as big as today's snow, and the snowflakes like goose feathers fell from the sky.

Su Moran was covered with snow all over his body, and his hair was also covered with a layer. He copied it in his pocket and leaned against the wall with black ear wires behind his ears. His serious expression became soft after seeing him. a lot.

They ran on the side of the road and had snowball fights together.

When I got motivated, I found a small alley...

passionate kiss.

Su Moran's breath fell on him like that, and in his heart, it was a refreshing breath that belonged to him alone.

The memory was separated, and when he received the ring on his birthday, his heart was filled with warmth, and he thought——

It is enough to have him in this life.

only……

He didn't expect that their life was over before it started, and he lost him.

left that morning.

It's where he left first.

Su Moran once reached out to pull him, but he avoided him.In fact, he didn't mean to do that. There were broken cups on the ground, and glass shards were everywhere. When he went to pick them up, he accidentally stuck some of them.

He reached out to pull him, and just touched it, and the moment the pain came, he avoided it.

only--

This subconscious action became their last contact that day, and he regretted it very much.He sent many WeChat messages to Su Moran before confiscating his phone.

At first, he kept saying, "I'm sorry, Su Moran, I was wrong."

Later, it was: "I love you, I will always love you."

He really doesn't remember how much he sent, he doesn't expect much, as long as he can reply, even a "hmm."

but--

Nothing was received.

Therefore, the last straw that crushed him was not only Fu Yunchen's obstruction, but also Su Moran's...attitude.

His brother is really angry.

……

Fu Yunchen sat in front of the hospital bed and peeled an apple, "Xiao Chuan, eat the apple."

Fu Yunchuan withdrew his gaze, took the apple, pulled the corner of his mouth lightly, and said softly, "Su Moran also likes apples."

A light sentence broke the tranquility of the past few days, and the topic they tried to avoid was brought to the table.

Fu Yunchen's face turned dark instantly, "Can't you forget him?"

Fu Yunchuan took a bite of the apple, with a smile on his face, "It seems...it can't."

"You don't think this look is very..." Fu Yunchen didn't say that dirty word in the end.

"What?" Fu Yunchuan asked, "Very dirty?"

"..."

"Brother, we just fell in love, we didn't kill or set fire, we didn't do anything bad, why don't you agree?"

"I can't agree, the world is not like this." Fu Yunchen replied.

"Secularity?" Fu Yunchuan said lightly, "With him, what would I want the secularity for. Without him, the secularity has nothing to do with me."

"..."

Fu Yunchen rushed out, this time they broke up unhappy again.

Fu Yunchuan seemed to be used to this kind of negotiation. He bit the apple one bite at a time. After a while, he threw the apple away and went to the bathroom, throwing up on his stomach on the toilet.

Most of the things he ate in front of people recently vomited in the toilet.

It seems that there is a kind of physiological nausea, as long as he eats, the body will protest against him...

No.

After Fu Yunchuan vomited, he lowered his head and rinsed his mouth under the faucet.Then he splashed some water on his face, put his hands on the pool, and stared at himself in the mirror intently.

Is this still him?

His face is pale, his lips are dry, there are several cracks, his eye sockets are sunken, and the dark circles under his eyes are as heavy as the national treasure giant panda.

A self-deprecating smile rose from the corner of his mouth, and he muttered hoarsely, "It's so fucking ugly."

I don't know if he looks like this, will Su Moran recognize him in the future, will he call him ugly?

After thinking about it later, they don't know if they have a chance to meet, maybe...

Su Moran has been locked up at home by Mr. Su for half a month. At first, he tossed hard and smashed everything in the house. Unfortunately, Mr. Su still didn't let go and just refused to let him go out.

Then there was nothing to smash in the house and he started hitting the wall.

His approach of self-mutilation completely angered Mr. Su, and he said sharply, "Xiao Ran, if you plan to never see him in your life, then you just bump into him, and forget it, anyway, he also..."

Su Moran stopped, and asked with bloodshot eyes, "What's wrong with him?"

Grandpa Su threw him a stack of photos, the main character was the same person, he was wearing a hospital gown, his face was pale, his figure was thin, and he looked like he might disappear at any moment.

Su Moran held the photo tightly with her fingers, "I want to see him."

"Yes." Mr. Su said, "I can let you meet him, but you promise me that you will leave the country immediately after the meeting."

This kind of scandalous thing must not be known to others, so the only way for the present is to forcefully send one of them out of the country.

"Of course, you can disagree." Mr. Su said again.

Su Moran didn't answer, he lay on the bed holding the photos, looking at them one by one, tears flowed from the corners of his eyes unconsciously.

Soaked the pillow towel underneath.

……

Su Moran has always felt that it is unnecessary for him to live in this world. He has never received the love of his parents since he was a child. Even if he is kidnapped, their first consideration is not his safety but their reputation.They told the kidnappers that they could not have this son.

What a terrible remark, but that day, he didn't cry, curled up in a corner alone, without shedding a single tear.

Later, his mother cheated and his father killed his mother. He didn't know how other children would react when they saw this scene.

But he himself—

Nothing happens.

Yes, he was numb.

A marriage without □□ without love, he is that redundant existence, it seems that it is just to prove that they have reproductive functions and can have children.

That's it.

From the moment his father raised the knife to him, his world was no longer bright.

His life is nothing but darkness... endless nightmares.

It's just that he never thought that there would be a day when the sun would shine in his dream.The boy who fell from the sky into the water and hugged him and said, "Don't be afraid, I will cover you from now on!" became that ray of light.

Even though he was repelled at first, he was still attracted by the light, and then sank.

There was finally light in his world, how could he endure the days without light, but this time...

His light seemed to disappear again.

……

After two days of silence, he woke up in a nightmare. After waking up, his whole body was sweating, and the horrible picture was spinning in his mind. He got up and took out cigarettes and lighters from the drawer, and leaned against the bedside to smoke.

The smoke spread in the room, and the dark pupils became darker. After a long time, he got up and knocked on the door, and said to the bodyguard outside, "Tell the old man, I agree."

The meeting process was not very good. Fu Yunchuan didn't know what happened that day, he was vomiting all the time, and the doctors and nurses were too busy.

Fu Yunchen was also anxious like an ant on a hot pot. He wanted to scold someone but he didn't know who to scold. When he was in a state of desperation, he caught a glimpse of the figure in the corridor.

At that moment, he rushed up recklessly, grabbed Su Moran by the collar and beat him up. He really hit him, with great force, and knocked him down to the ground with one punch.

Then came the second punch, the third punch, the fourth punch...

It was at that time that Fu Yunchuan appeared. He leaned weakly against the wall and glanced lightly at first. When he saw who was lying on the ground, he ran over like crazy and lay on Su Moran's body to block him. foot.

Fu Yunchen kicked Fu Yunchuan's leg, and he could hear the sound of bone dislocation.

Fu Yunchuan's painful voice overflowed, "Ah——"

Su Moran held him in his arms and asked eagerly, "How is Chuanzi? How is it?"

Fu Yunchuan smiled and said, "I'm fine..."

In the end, there was still something wrong. I hadn’t eaten, vomited, and then got kicked again. Everything was mixed together, and my body finally couldn’t stand it anymore.

Fever, coma, babbling, Fu Yunchuan sealed himself in consciousness and did not wake up for a long time.

Various voices came from his ears from time to time, and everyone was calling him in unison. He wanted to answer, but he just couldn't open his eyes.

He really wanted to tell them that he was fine, that he was fine, but he couldn't make a sound, no matter how hard he tried, it still didn't work.

He had no choice but to cry in a hurry.

Suddenly, someone seemed to be saying, "Chuan'er is crying, Chuan'er is crying."

Fu Yunchuan recognized this voice as Xia Bing's.

"Really, does this mean Brother Chuan can hear us?" This was Liu Chang's voice.

"Maybe, no one can say for sure." This was his brother Fu Yunchen's voice.

Fu Yunchen thought eagerly, why there was no voice from Su Moran, where did he go?Still mad at him?

Did he decide to ignore him for the rest of his life? ?

No, he wants to find him.

Yes, find him.

meet him.

Tell him that he didn't let go on purpose that day, tell him that he had a lot to say on the day we met in the hospital——

He really really really really misses him.

He said in his heart: Brother, can you forgive me?

Brother, can you still love me?

Brother, I have been experimenting for a long time, thinking about forgetting you, but it didn't work.

Brother, I really can't live without you.

Brother, shall we continue to be together?