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She suddenly mentioned it.

In fact, it was not sudden. They were all thinking about it, but no one dared to mention it first.

Bai Zhou nodded: "Then I'll pick you up at seven o'clock tomorrow morning."

Mother Sang said, "Okay."

Then the kitchen fell silent, Bai Zhou squatted on the ground, and put all the food that Mama Sang had prepared for her into bags.

Pea came in with a toy bone in her mouth.The dog is very sensitive to human emotions, and noticed the unusual silence in the kitchen, it whined softly, and lay down beside Bai Zhou.

Bai Zhou bent the corners of his lips, reached out and rubbed its neck, Pea came close and licked Bai Zhou's hand.

Sang's mother was watching, she remembered that when she saw Bai Zhou for the first time, she was still a child at all, standing beside Yang Yang, smiling and saying hello, the first thing she felt at that time was that the child's eyes were clean , It's really painful.

Every time I saw her later, she was happy and carefree, as if she didn't care about anything, as long as Yang Yang was there.

But now, in just a few years, she seems to have grown up in an instant, and quickly became silent. She takes the dog that Yangyang gave her with her wherever she goes, buys clothes for them, buys various nutritional products, and asks for their health. , Doing things that Yang Yang would care about.

Mother Sang's heart was sore, she patted Bai Zhou's shoulder lightly: "Your uncle and I plan to go on a trip next week, go to the Northeast, and learn to ski."

Bai Zhou raised his head and blinked slowly.

Mother Sang smiled softly and said, "When I was young, I liked snow very much. Unfortunately, I was busy with work and didn't have time. Now it's all right. Hurry up while you can still move. Otherwise, when you get old in a few years, you will be powerless."

Bai Zhou nodded and smiled again: "Okay, then you go there, call me every night, I'm so relieved."

Aunt Sang and Uncle Sang have had a hard time in the past three years. At first, they cried when they saw her, and couldn’t accept the fact that Sang Yang left. After a long period of time, Aunt Sang couldn’t eat, vomited physically, and was in a trance. The whole person became scrawny and unable to work at all. I saw many doctors and received psychological intervention. I didn't feel better until the beginning of this year.

Bai Zhou was very happy that she could think about it and was willing to go out for a walk. She lowered her head and continued to rub the peas.

"Small boat."

Bai Zhou looked up.

Mother Sang looked at her with pity and love in her eyes: "You have to come out too."

Bai Zhou's eyes suddenly turned red, she hurriedly lowered her head, her hands unconsciously stroked the peas, her throat was so tight that it hurt, and finally she only responded in a low voice: "I understand."

What I thought in my heart was, I will never forget her, and I will never stop thinking about her.

As long as there are people who miss her, she is still alive.

When I got home, it was already dark.

Bai Zhou carried the big and small bags and led Pea down the stairs.

It's cold outside and it feels like winter is coming.

A police car was parked on the side of the road, the siren was off, and the lights on the roof were still flashing.There was a circle of people around the car, and one after another of mournful cries came, as if the cold wind from the icy and snowy land penetrated into the bones of the people, arousing goose bumps all over the body.

When Bai Zhou stopped, Pea sneezed and clung to her leg uneasily.

Bai Zhou had no curiosity to explore, and was about to leave when a familiar old woman walked out of the crowd with a vegetable basket in her arms. She sighed as she walked, and greeted Bai Zhou, "It's you."

Bai Zhou had seen her several times in the neighborhood, but he didn't know what to call her, so he nodded and said, "Hi, grandma."

Grandma seemed to have opened up the chatter box, looked back at the crowd, and muttered to Bai Zhou: "I heard that it was depression, a crime, he made a jump like this, it's gone, but what can parents do? White-haired people send black Faren, what will parents do for the rest of their lives?"

As soon as she said that, Bai Zhou understood what happened, and she didn't know what to say.

Fortunately, Grandma doesn't seem to need her to respond, she just sighed: "Even if we say goodbye well, if death is really inevitable, say goodbye well and say goodbye, it can make up for a lot of regrets."

Sighing, shaking his head and walking away.

Bai Zhou looked back and watched Grandma walk into the elevator, and then left with Pea.

When passing through the crowd, she caught a glimpse of the woman who was being supported and crying bitterly. It was an aunt in the building next door, and there was another person lying motionless in a pool of blood on the ground. The blood, which might still be hot, was black in the night. , There was a disturbing smell of blood.

Auntie cried miserably, trying to rush over, but was dragged back.

Police cordoned off the area.

It turned out that such a tragedy happened just now, but they didn't notice any movement in the building.

Bai Zhou opened the car door and put Pea in the back seat.Pea seemed to be affected, she licked her hand silently, and looked pitifully at Bai Zhou with her dark eyes.

Bai Zhou bent down, touched Pea's head, and said softly, "Don't be afraid."

Pea gave a low whimper, lowered her head, and rested her head on her paws.

Bai Zhou closed the car door and got into the car himself.

On the way home, she thought of the crying aunt.She had seen her several times in the neighborhood.

She has only one son, who is two or three years older than Bai Zhou in the Academy of Fine Arts.

What is your name?Bai Zhou forgot.

Back home, before nine o'clock, Bai Zhou took off Pea's collar, patted it, and signaled it to play by itself, then went to take a bath, and then went into the studio to work.

It was past twelve o'clock when she finished the painting.

She opened the studio door and came out. The house was quiet, and Pea hid in some corner without making a sound.

Only a small light by the kitchen door was turned on in the living room, and the light was dim, as if covered with a layer of gray veil, so quiet and lifeless.

Bai Zhou was used to it, but when he saw such a scene tonight, he was still taken aback.

It seems that after Sang Yang left, home became less and less like home, it became cold, empty, and... without a trace of popularity.

Sang Yang's belongings are clearly still in place.

Once, Pea accidentally knocked over Sang Yang's cup, and it fell and broke. Bai Zhou looked for a restorer everywhere, and said that he had to fix the cup.Jiang Yuan persuaded her to come back and told her not to do this. If Sang Yang knew that she was like this, she would not feel at ease.

Bai Zhou didn't think too much about it, she just wanted to leave Sang Yang's traces for a little longer, that's all she had.

In the end she fixed the cup anyway.

For the rest, Bai Zhou took good care of everything and left them in their original places.

She thought that in this way, the traces of Sang Yang could be left behind.

But Bai Zhou realized that she was wrong.

Three years have passed, everything is still there, but the aura of Sang Yang has disappeared, like a banquet after the end of the song, the cups on the table are still there, the wine and dishes are still there, but everyone has left, the banquet It's also cold, and things are not angry.

Bai Zhou felt very desperate, she squatted down slowly along the door frame.

She suddenly remembered what the grandma said just now.

"Even if we say goodbye well, if death is really inevitable, say goodbye well and say goodbye, it can make up for a lot of regrets."

Bai Zhou used to dream and fantasize every day, if only Sang Yang could come back, if only Sang Yang was still alive.

But now her wish has become extremely humble, even if it's just to say something, even if it's just to say one more word, or just to take a look, she is willing to exchange all of her.

Bai Zhou felt as if the air in his chest had been evacuated, and his heart tingled badly.

Her lips were as white as snow, and she did not know how long she squatted before she relaxed.

Standing up while leaning on the door frame, he suddenly heard a muffled bang.

The noise broke the silence, Bai Zhou was taken aback, and walked towards the place where the noise came from.

It is the living room.

Pea dragged down the painting she had put on the tea table before she went out in the morning, and the sound was the sound of the frame falling on the floor.

"Pea." Bai Zhou scolded.

Pea realized that she was in trouble, she let go, and walked towards Bai Zhou with a pitiful look on her face.

Bai Zhou always loved it very much, and he didn't have the heart to scold it, so he just walked over and picked up the picture frame.

Pea is very cunning, and found that Bai Zhou didn't scold it, and quickly slipped away just like in the morning.

From the corner of his eyes, Bai Zhou watched Pea run away on tiptoe, bent the corner of his lower lip, but didn't bother to pursue it, turned the picture frame to the front, and looked at it for a while.

This painting is quite immature, and it was drawn not long after she came into contact with painting, but she can already glimpse some of her style at the beginning.

I don't know if I have been staring at it for a long time, but the black hole in the painting seems to suddenly become deeper and seem to be spinning.

Bai Zhou suddenly felt that something was wrong. This painting has been around for nearly 20 years, and the paint used is only very common, but the color of the painting has not faded at all. On the contrary, it is as new as if it was just painted, and there is even a feeling that the paint is still wet .

A strange feeling filled Bai Zhou's heart. She held the frame in one hand and touched the painting with the other.

She breathed a sigh of relief inexplicably, lowered her hand, and walked into the storage room, intending to put the painting back.

Suddenly there was a sharp stabbing pain in his hand.She raised her hand and saw that her finger had been pricked by a nail on the picture frame.

The opening was a bit deep, and bright red blood seeped out quickly. Bai Zhou hurriedly changed hands to hold the painting, but when he changed hands, the blood from his thumb accidentally dripped on the painting.

She didn't mind, put her thumb in her mouth and sucked.

The smell of blood was a bit fishy, ​​but luckily it stopped flowing soon.Bai Zhou looked down at the painting again.

But I found that the blood on the painting was gone, leaving no trace.

Bai Zhou hurriedly lifted up the painting, leveled his hands, and inspected it carefully, but the blood just disappeared.

And the picture seemed to be covered with a faint layer of blood mist, as if it had sucked blood.

The weird feeling just now came back, and even intensified.

Before she could figure out what was wrong, she suddenly felt dizzy.

Bai Zhou fell to the ground, and the picture frame fell with it, making a muffled sound.On the screen, the universe seems to be alive, and the black hole is constantly expanding. Accompanied by the rapid rotation, it spins faster and faster, as if it can swallow everything.

Bai Zhou opened his eyes and found himself lying on the bed, covered with a quilt.

Her head hurts.She raised her hand and pressed her temple, thinking slowly, it was dawn, why didn't Pea come to wake her up today.

Her thoughts were chaotic, she turned her head and saw the people around her.

At this moment, time seemed to stand still.

Bai Zhou was trembling all over, and tears filled her eyes instantly, but she didn't dare to make a sound.

She stretched out her trembling hand, and carefully touched the face of the person beside her. It was soft and warm, and she was familiar with it.

Sang Yang was still sleeping, her eyes were closed, her breathing was even, her chest rose and fell slightly and regularly.

Can breathe, know heartbeat, is living Sang Yang.

Bai Zhou opened her mouth, intense joy filled her heart.

She didn't know what happened, why Sang Yang appeared out of thin air, and she didn't bother to think about why.

It's just that the tears kept falling down, but the corners of her mouth couldn't help turning up, crying and laughing like a madman.She hurriedly covered her mouth and nose again, not daring to make a sound, but just stared at Sang Yang who was sleeping soundly, looked at her reluctantly, looked at her deeply with love, and looked at her with fear.

I'm afraid it's all fake.

At this time, the sound of the alarm bell suddenly broke the silence.

Bai Zhou was startled. She turned her head to look and saw the mobile phone on the bedside table. She quickly took it over, turned off the alarm, and was about to put the mobile phone back when she caught a glimpse of the time displayed on the screen.

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