Ning Shu of Rebirth

Joy, after the loneliest dawn, gradually reveals its face.

——— 3-23

The guard uncle was wrapped in a military overcoat and huddled in the security room to warm up the stove. Ning Shu carried the large stack of papers given by Li Fengqing and walked out of the school gate. The winter vacation was about to come, so the school seemed a bit depressed and no longer as lively as before.

Ning Shu stood in front of the gate for a while, and then slowly walked forward.

A white car was parked right in front of him, looking a little lonely on the side of the wide road. A man in an iron-gray suit was standing there, leaning against the car door, holding an unburned cigarette in his right hand. cigarettes.

Ning Shu was not quite sure if this person was waiting for him here on purpose, he wanted to take a detour, only to find that this was the only way he had to go home.

When he got closer, the man who had been looking away turned his head, looked at him and said with a smile: "I heard Xiaokong and Xiaoyang say that you are a school, just passing by, so come to try your luck."

His voice was very soft, with the mellowness unique to middle-aged men, Ning Shu was a little lost in thought, because Li Yanxi also said the same thing.

"Mr. Guan has something to do with me?" Ning Shu slightly tightened her hand holding the paper, and asked softly.

Guan Hao looked at his face, there was some deep meaning in his eyes, then he smiled and said: "Xiaokong and Xiaoyang have never had any friends, I am worried that they will make mistakes in their youth, but fortunately they know you, you I am grateful to be friends with them again.”

Ning Shu didn't expect him to be so sensational all of a sudden, she was taken aback for a moment before replying: "I'm also very glad to meet them."

Qingkong and Qingyang are indeed spoiled children. Even though they are beautiful in front of them, the bleakness behind them is beyond ordinary people's comprehension. Thinking of this, I feel faintly sad for these two teenagers.

Such two people, even at a young age, already have a calmness and worries beyond their age.

"I think Xiaokong and Xiaoyang will be very happy to hear this," Guan Hao walked towards him and said, "Do you have time? Let's have a meal together."

Ning Shu raised his eyebrows slightly, and asked, "Why did Mr. Guan invite me to dinner?" He was not familiar with Guan Hao, at best he had only met him twice, and, for Guan Hao who met him for the first time He was very concerned about being able to pronounce his name accurately.

This person is too deep, he can't see through.

"As the big brother of Xiaokong and Xiaoyang, I thank you for being friends with them. Isn't that enough reason?" Guan Hao was not as unhappy as he imagined when he rejected him, but asked back with a smile.

Ning Shu pursed her lips, still wanting to refuse, when Guan Hao said suddenly, "Ning Shu, you are very similar to your mother, when she wants to refuse others, she will show your expression now." Guan Hao's voice revealed Thinking of nostalgia and remembrance, as if trying to grasp everything taken away by time, there was a hint of melancholy in his tone.

The word mother was too unfamiliar to him.

When he thinks of this woman, he only thinks of her blurred face and elegant light makeup.

A person who abandoned them should not have a place in his memory.

Therefore, he has been trying his best to avoid this word, but now it is mentioned again, and he is still a stranger.

"You know her?" Before the brain could respond, the mouth moved a step faster.

Guan Hao looked at him with a smile, and said with a smile in his voice, "We are college classmates."

Ning Shu felt a little displeased with Guan Hao's answer to his question with such a simple sentence. He tightened the test paper in his hand and said, "Mr. One step away."

After he finished speaking, he turned around and left, feeling a vague dislike for Guan Hao in his heart.

is disgust.

Because this person knew someone named his mother, and when he talked about her, his face showed exactly the same expression as his father's. It was a kind of loss and helplessness that could not be turned back.

That expression made his calm heart fluctuate for no reason. He doesn't hate her, he said to himself.

There is a voice in my heart saying, he hates!

Hate her for being cruel, hate her for being unfeeling, hate her for abandoning her father's affection like an empty seat, hate her for making her childhood incomplete.

Even though he hated, he never showed any emotion.

I don't want my father to see him sad, and I don't want to live in the pain of losing her.

"Ning Shu." Guan Hao's voice sounded behind him, Ning Shu was forced to stop, but did not turn around.

Guan Hao behind him was silent for a while, and said slowly: "The college entrance examination is coming soon, study hard."

"Thank you." Ning Shu dropped the words, and walked forward without looking back. The temperature in winter is very cold, and his hand holding the paper was exposed for a long time, and it turned red. When he got home, the door It is still locked tightly, and my father will not come back from work until evening.

He stood in the empty and lonely yard and glanced at the closed door. The cherry tree in the corner had lost all its leaves and was standing there alone, like an abandoned child.

He remembered that before the woman left, a lot of flowers were planted in the yard, big and red like blood, which occupied two-thirds of the yard. Although his father didn't like it, but because she liked it , Never speak, but smile and fertilize the soil for the flowers.

One day, those flowers all died overnight.

Roots leave rich soil and they die.

He saw his father squatting next to the corpses of those flowers with a shovel, covering his face with his muddy hands, crying like a child, tears rolling down his fingers, dripping on the flowers, reflecting the confusion The brilliance, those rays of light are very dazzling, secretly covered with the color of despair.

That was the first time he saw his father cry, he was so sad, as if he had lost the most important thing, the pain made his eyes lose their luster.

Later, their lives changed drastically.

Later, my father never said a word about my mother.

Later, he also forgot that there is still a mother in this world.

The sudden warm body temperature behind him brought him back to his wandering thoughts. He didn't look back, but just smiled and said, "It seems like we've only been separated for a long time."

The person behind him smiled when he heard the words, and his voice rolled into a beautiful note in his throat. The hands around his waist exerted a little force, and the two bodies fit closer together, "I still feel uneasy, so let's take a look." you."

Ning Shu slightly raised her eyebrows where the man could not see, and said softly: "The timing is just right, do you know fortune-telling? You know that I will be home within an hour after going to school?"

The man buried his head between his necks, and the hot breath he exhaled sprayed on his skin. There was a burning smell, and he changed the subject lightly, "What were you thinking just now?"

Ning Shu paused, staring at the bare cherry tree, and said softly, "I'm thinking about my dad. He once loved a woman deeply, but that woman abandoned him."

Li Yanxi behind him loosened his arms, turned the person around and faced him, "Is that woman your mother?"

Ning Shu thought for a while, and finally nodded.

This is the past that he doesn't want to talk about. Facing Li Yanxi, he doesn't want to hide it.

"Do you hate her?" Li Yanxi looked at his face and asked softly.

Ning Shu was slightly taken aback, and said slowly: "Of course I hate it, but what's the point of hating, she has already gone, so far, so far that we have never met by chance once, and life is still very long , I don't have so much energy and time to hate her, and my dad, I think he still loves her until now, how could he hate her?"

Hearing this, Li Yanxi hugged the gloomy young man in front of him into his arms, tightening his arms tightly.

Ning Shu still nestled in the other's warm embrace, slowly raised her hands, and wrapped them around the thin waist of the person in front of her.

"That phone belongs to Minister Fang." After a long time, the boy's voice came softly from his arms.

The man smiled, and his nostrils moved closer to the other's hairline, "You won, and it's yours."

Ning Shu just laughed, Fang Xiaoxian was right in saying something, this person was indeed premeditated for a long time, knowing that she would not accept his gift for nothing, so she came up with such a name and made a bet, everything seemed so logical, Thinking about it, it seemed that he was the only one who was kept in the dark about the bet. Maybe Fang Xiaoxian and the others were just brought in by Li Yanxi to act together.

In any case, he wasn't very angry, because this thoughtfulness was so thoughtful and subtle that he couldn't refuse.

They didn't speak any more, the dry air was quiet and peaceful, and the two of them embraced each other quietly. Behind them was the bleak scenery and the not-so-bright sky, but the air still had a sweet and delicate taste.

Near noon, Li Yanxi proposed to go out to eat, Ning Shu held him back, and said with a smile: "Eating out is expensive and unhygienic, let's cook at home."

Li Yanxi was very happy because of Ning Shu's "family", so he naturally agreed.

Ning Shu locked the door and walked with Li Yanxi to the vegetable market closest to home. On the way, they met some acquaintances. Everyone was very curious about the tall and handsome young man beside Ning Shu. Say hello alone, and when the two of them walked to the vegetable market, it was already ten minutes later.

"They are all neighbors, and it is rare to see someone like you appear, so they are a little more enthusiastic, don't take offense." Ning Shu took a look at a tomato on the stall, and said in his mouth.

Li Yanxi looked at him and said with a smile: "They are your neighbors, so naturally they should get along well."

Hearing this, Ning Shu turned to look at him, "The street we live in will be demolished next spring to build a new house." An Ran said that construction would start after the Spring Festival, and they wouldn't live there for too long.

"Really?" Li Yanxi didn't seem to be keen on the news, and only asked him, "Then do you want to move?"

Ning Shu couldn't tell what was going on in his heart, even though he had memories of those places, they were all unpleasant, but his father missed that place very much because his mother had stayed there.

"I don't know. My dad said he would move out. We have already signed a contract with the government." Ning Shu bent down, put the selected tomatoes into a plastic bag, and handed them to the vegetable seller, saying that Li Yanxi After taking a big bill, the aunt looked puzzled, and said to Ning Shu, "I can't change it, give me the change."

Ning Shu smiled and took back Li Yanxi's money and handed it to him, and handed out the prepared change.