dream lover

During the months of losing contact with Cheng Yan, some qualitative changes quietly occurred in Lu Xiaofeng's body - the first is that he found that he had come into contact with more and more gay men.

For example, when he was on duty on the road, he could see two men hugging and chewing in the car.He knew this was called the pregnancy effect, and he persuaded himself not to be too sensitive.

What's unbearable is that Ah Xiao has already regarded Lu Xiaofeng as a male best friend, and whenever he quarrels with his boyfriend, he will come to him to pour out his bitterness.As time goes by, Lu Xiaofeng also treats homosexuality with a mentality that is not surprising and takes it for granted.Seeing two men with intimate behaviors, subconsciously judge whether they are a couple, instead of simply treating them as brothers.This is the second change.

Followed by a bigger change, Lu Xiaofeng really realized that things were serious - another spring blossomed, many handsome men and women appeared on the street, and occasionally a man would make him pay more attention.

It is a man's instinct to look at beautiful women. Is it normal for men to look at men?Lu Xiaofeng secretly broke out in cold sweat.When I met that kind of well-built and well-dressed gentleman passing by again, I still couldn't help but glance over.So he analyzed and concluded that he didn't like to look at men, but just liked to look at a certain type.

Similar to Cheng Yan's type.

In a sense, Cheng Yan has reshaped Lu Xiaofeng's aesthetics and influenced his orientation.

The above is purely an afterthought, Cheng Yan has already left this city, and left Lu Xiaofeng to an unknown alien planet.

After Cheng Yan went to other places, the two people's life circles no longer intersected, and the WeChat conversations gradually changed from twos and threes to nothing to say, and the last one was still last year.Just scroll up a few articles, and you will see the sentence that Lu Xiaofeng sent to Cheng Yan at the beginning, wishing him a smooth journey and a bright future.

Sometimes Lu Xiaofeng would suddenly want to look at Cheng Yan crazily, want to ask how he is doing recently, and want to see if his appearance has changed?But still unable to muster up the courage to press the send button, he sighed and deleted all the long sentences in the dialog box.Really thinking about it, Lu Xiaofeng wanted to see Cheng Yan's photos, but there wasn't one.

Cheng Yan's personal homepage is empty. It's not that he doesn't like to post news, but there is no one at all.

This day, after Lu Xiaofeng got off work, he dropped by the policeman on the way.The two are not very close, that is, the relationship between meeting and saying hello and chatting.Sitting in the co-pilot, she swiped the screen of her mobile phone, and when she saw a post about handsome folks, when she found a certain photo, she suddenly said, "After looking all the way, this one is still the most handsome."

Lu Xiaofeng continued the conversation: "If you can see it, it must be really handsome."

"And this person looks very much like your friend," Jinghua showed the photo to Lu Xiaofeng, "Do you think he looks like that?"

The traffic stopped with the red light, Lu Xiaofeng raised his eyes to look.

There were originally several people in this photo, but everyone would only see the low-key one standing in the corner because his appearance was too outstanding.Lu Xiaofeng looked at that person without blinking, no matter what he looked like, he was Cheng Yan at all.Jinghua only met him once or twice, so not so sure.And Lu Xiaofeng can recognize it right away, even if it's just a blurry news photo.

That's right, this photo of Cheng Yan is not like other folk handsome guys, who were secretly photographed by the subway or something, but was picked out of the news in a unique way.

Lu Xiaofeng asked the policeman for that photo, and privately looked at Cheng Yan's face on the phone.

He searched for the source of the news a little, and it was a technology website, which introduced a recent popular mobile app, and the picture showed all its founders, and Cheng Yan was one of them.At the same time, this picture was used by the Internet self-media as a material for successful chicken soup, and it was circulated on Weibo and Moments, with the title "It will be too late if you don't start a business, a new generation of young talents is rising."

As early as when he was a student, Lu Xiaofeng firmly believed that Cheng Yan was a promising person and a proud son of heaven.Lu Xiaofeng has never doubted his own vision. The word Cheng Yan is equivalent to "genius".

It is precisely because in his eyes, Cheng Yan is so outstanding and unattainable.That's why Lu Xiaofeng never wanted to get closer to understand what this person was like inside. He just looked at him from a distance, with a trace of the fear of ordinary people facing geniuses, and seemed a little trembling.

Now Lu Xiaofeng didn't have the courage to contact Cheng Yan anymore.Lu Xiaofeng has also heard about that popular mobile app, and the profits in it are unimaginable.There must be a lot of people around Cheng Yan who are rushing to curry favor with him now, if he ignorantly joins in at this time, people will inevitably misunderstand him.

If only there was regret medicine in the world.It would have been better if I had been more enlightened at the beginning.We should pay more attention to Cheng Yan and get to know him more.

That day in the carriage, when I saw Cheng Yan crying in front of me, I should have asked why, instead of wiping his tears with a handkerchief clumsily and repeating "I'm sorry" nonchalantly.

Due to business, Lu Xiaofeng needed to walk around the nearby residential areas, running from daytime to dark.The last community happened to be the place Cheng Yan rented before.He walked towards the building in a strange way.Lu Xiaofeng stood downstairs, looking up at the seventh floor, at Cheng Yan's former balcony.

He tried his best to look at the roof of the building, remembering that Cheng Yan had kissed himself on the roof of this building.

Thinking about it now, the time with Cheng Yan left behind many good memories.

He sighed and turned to leave when he heard the sound of closing the trunk of the car nearby.Immediately after, someone stopped him, and asked uncertainly in the night: "Lu Xiaofeng?"

Lu Xiaofeng looked at him dazedly. He was carrying a suitcase, his pretty eyes were wide open, and he also had a surprised expression.

Seeing Lu Xiaofeng standing still, Cheng Yan was sure that he did not admit the wrong person.One of his eyes had been so badly damaged after the fight that he couldn't see very well at night.So Lu Xiaofeng could see the delicate expression on Cheng Yan's face, but Cheng Yan didn't know how Lu Xiaofeng reacted.

Cheng Yan was a little uneasy, afraid that his sudden appearance would make Lu Xiaofeng feel unhappy.Unexpectedly, Lu Xiaofeng rushed forward with a stride, and gave him a bear hug.Excitedly, he laughed again, and punched Cheng Yan's fist again, muttering: "You boy!"