For the emperor

Cang Tiansu held the three books that Li Mi had wrapped for him, and looked at the eunuch Cang Jinglan sent to guide him, with a faint smile on his face: "Hello, Eunuch Li."

Li Mi did not teach him any etiquette in the palace.Cang Tiansu stood up straight as a matter of course, tilted his head to the left at a 45-degree angle, and smiled sincerely without any sharp edges.

The eunuch Li Quan stared at the smile for three seconds, then turned his body slightly, made a gesture of leading the way, coughed briefly, and said in a low voice: "Prince, please first."

Cang Tiansu raised his foot and took a step forward.

Li Quan looked at his thin back, paused his feet, and followed him one body behind, moving slowly and unhurriedly, there was no sign of the slightest affection for the unfavored prince on his fat round face. Impatient.

When he entered the study room, no one looked at him except Tianci.Cang Tiansu didn't care at all, he stopped in front of the door, waited quietly for a while, made sure no one wanted to talk to him, pointed him to a seat, and walked towards the corner at will.

Cang Tianci, who had been staring at him for a long time with bright eyes, jumped up from his seat in a hurry, grabbed his wrist, and rolled his eyes with a smile: "Brother, can you sit next to me?"

Cang Tiansu looked at the happy little Douding No. [-], and couldn't help but deepen the smile on his face.While smiling, he replied without hesitation: "No, I just like that seat."

The smile on Cang Tianci's face froze immediately, he was stunned for a while, and pouted his rosy mouth angrily.He didn't give up, he tightened his fat paws that were holding on to Cang Tiansu's wrist, and whispered: "Brother, do you really hate me?"

Cang Tiansu shook his head.He really didn't hate this noisy person in front of him, even though he heard many people talking about how favored, lovable, and honorable the second prince was in front of him countless times.

It is the emperor's own wish to give Cang Jinglan's affection.From Cang Tiansu's point of view, it has nothing to do with himself or with Cang Tianci.

Without the second child, there would be a third child, and without the third child, there would be a fourth child. Anyway, if his father was determined to hate him, no matter how much he blamed himself from the bottom of his heart, it would not make much sense.

Cang Tianci was overjoyed after hearing this answer, and immediately took out his trump card that he had tried many times at the empress's place, and said with a full face of grievance: "But if you don't sit by my side, I will feel that elder brother doesn't really like me..."

"That's your business." Cang Tiansu withdrew his hand, ran to the seat and sat down.He noticed that Cang Tianci had secretly changed the concept—perhaps in the eyes of the second prince of Cang Kingdom, there is not much difference between not hating and liking.

He spread out the three books on the table one by one, staring at the thick white paper cover above them in a daze.He remembered the scene when Li Mi lowered his head to compare the size of the book and cut the paper last night, and his heart felt soft.

There are not many students in the study.From princes and nobles to literati and bachelors, as long as they have a strong relationship in the palace, they can entrust their children here.

A good wife is second, the key is to let the children have a good relationship with the little Tianjiao.In fact, Cang Jinglan set the threshold so low, and that may not be his intention.

Perhaps in the near future, these little bean dings who are still ignorant and ignorant will become the right-hand man of the next emperor of Cang Kingdom, helping him reach the pinnacle.

This is the minimum ambition of an emperor.

Cang Tiansu has never believed that his father would be willing to be the leader of the Cang Kingdom, and his goal should be set farther and wider.In Cang Tiansu's countless imaginations, the human emperor who is always blurry in his mind should have sharp and compelling deep eyes.

The direction of his eyes should be the sky of thousands of miles in the entire Wuji Continent.

There are no days off in the study.

Since Cang Tiansu began to attend classes seriously, Li Mi waved chopsticks on the dining table more than once, pretending to angrily denounce the corruption of the feudal education system.

Cang Tiansu was holding the rice bowl, watching his nurse's happy face, she would silently move the bowls and dishes under the table to prevent the food from being stained by the splashing saliva.

Li Mi patted him on the head more than once, gritted his teeth and said: "If you don't want to go, just tell the nanny—I don't believe it, I have been with you for more than ten years, and it's not enough. Love got you out."

Cang Tiansu never answered the words, just laughed silently.

In fact, Li Mi didn't say this as a joke.She could vaguely see that Cang Tiansu didn't like that place.Every time he came back from school, he always had a faint smile on his face, as if he was in a good mood.

——To hide the truth.

No one knows better than Li Mi that when Master Cangtian Sucang is really happy, you will never see even the slightest smile on his slapped face.

He would stiffen the muscles of his entire face, and try to put on a dead fish face of "if you are sensible, don't provoke me", but in fact, he was secretly happy in his heart.

Li Mi gritted his teeth in his heart more than once: How could he teach such an awkward little devil?

When Cang Tiansu was bouncing on the way to the study room with a thick book in her arms, she would secretly ask Yi Hao to understand the situation, and then listened to Yi Hao repeating those unbearable words over and over again every day, falling into a long silence .

Li Mi's initial worries became reality.

While she was still hesitating whether to tell him about Cang Tiansu's mother, someone had already tore off the film covering the matter in front of Cang Tiansu without authorization.

In the most hurtful and extreme way possible.

Blood dripping.

In the past three months, Li Mi often got up in the middle of the night, looked at Cang Tiansu's beautiful but slightly pale face on the small bed next to him after sleeping soundly, and guessed his expression countless times when he heard those words.

"Your mother was a whore—"

"I heard that there are eight hundred men who have slept with her—"

"That woman got pregnant with the emperor when she got drunk—"

"After the bitch fell out of favor, he shamelessly had an affair with the chief guard—"

"Haha, maybe you are not the emperor's seed at all—"

Li Mi clearly knew who meant these words, no matter what, these words would not really come from the mouths of a few eight or nine-year-old children.

——Empress, you have really gone too far.

Li Mi had been waiting patiently, she was looking forward to the day when Cang Tiansu finally threw herself into her arms, crying loudly, pouring out all the grievances she had suffered in the past three months.

At that time, she would definitely pat him on the shoulder with distress, and curse those little bums along with him, and then she could look into his eclipse-like eyes and tell him softly, "Your mother is not like this."

In that way, the sense of guilt and guilt that she has tortured herself for eight years can dissipate along the way, and the problems that have plagued her for many years can also be easily solved.

How nice, the best of both worlds.

However, Cangtiansu did not.

He goes to and from school normally every day, eating in a daze.When he was sober, Li Mi couldn't see even a little bit of anger or hatred on his face.

But she had heard Cang Tiansu talking in her sleep.That night, the north wind blew harder than usual, and the half-grown child shrunk himself into a small ball, digging his nails deep into the flesh of his knees, repeating the words in his heart over and over again with a hoarse voice.

"I'm going to kill you!"

——"I'm going to kill you!"

Day thinking, night dreaming.

Li Mi was stunned for a while, then pulled the quilt that he pushed to the foot of the bed, and gently covered Cang Tiansu.

She turned her head and said to Yi Hao, who was standing outside the window at some time with a blank expression, "I personally think that it's better not to tell the emperor about this."

Li Mi is very guilty now.If she didn't know how to speak before, but now that she has reached this point, she can't bring it up at all.

Since Cang Tian didn't want her to know all kinds of things in the study, just because of his sensitive and arrogant self-esteem, Li Mi could only pretend to be stupid and act as if he didn't know anything.

How aggrieved.

Cang Tianci didn't know about it at all.Because I can see that funny big brother Cang Tiansu every day, he has been very happy in the past three months, eating deliciously, and in good health.

From the father to the mother, from the master to the servant, everyone praised him for being obedient and sensible.

And what pleased him the most was that Cang Tiansu finally managed to show that he was not very disgusted with his approach.

What he doesn't know is that Cang Tiansu no longer refuses his hot face with a cold butt, it's only because he is by his side that the annoying buzzing sound in his ears won't ring.

When Cang Tiansu was around, no one would come within five meters of Cang Tiansu except himself.But as soon as he turned his head and slapped his butt and left, and followed the maid who came to pick him up back to the resplendent East Palace, several people would immediately surround him.

These people are very dedicated, rain or shine.Cang Tiansu raised his head sometimes, and what he saw was the shadowy crowd, what he heard was extremely vicious insults, what came to his heart, apart from hatred, was more of a kind of indescribable confusion and hesitation.

A long time ago, Li Mi pinched his ear to reminisce about the past. She once said that when she was young, she would often ask her parents where she came from. Whenever that time, her mother would tell her that she came from Picked it up in the dumpster.

Cang Tiansu felt that such a question was extremely stupid, since he was young, he had never been curious about where he came from.

But now such questions suddenly came to his mind, he really didn't want to question whether his biological mother's character was low or not, but he still couldn't help thinking about it, and asked himself more than once in the dead of night.

where do i come from?

Is my mother really such a person?

After all, he didn't avoid the most favorite question in every child's head when he was young, and the bone-eating pain flooded the sky, and he was extremely angry and guilty.

She is your mother, the mother who gave you life, how can you doubt her?What position and identity do you have to question her?

Guilt and self-blame cut him all over like a knife, but he still thought, even though he knew it was wrong to do so, the doubts in his mind did not weaken by half.

A word repeated a thousand times becomes the truth, and everyone tells him your mother is a mean woman.He is panicked and helpless, but he is unwilling to share this helplessness with anyone. He is competing with himself, and no one can bring him relief.

Even if it is Li Mi, Cang Tiansu knows what kind of answer Li Mi will give without asking. She will definitely excuse his biological mother, tell him the inside story, and tell him that his mother is Being wronged, he tried his best to create a pure white and flawless mother image for him.

Such a statement is naturally for his sake, and it is precisely because Li Mi's answer is the same no matter what the facts are, so it does not have any reference.

Cang Tiansu didn't want to let her know about such a shameful thing, he didn't want to let Yi Hao know, and he didn't want to let Cang Tianci know. Willing to speak out, to receive the compassionate gazes of these people.This gaze made him more uncomfortable than the malicious sarcasm and contempt.

On the morning of his eighth birthday, Cang Tiansu quietly opened his eyes, staring at the roof with a hole in it in a daze.It was his birthday on the summer solstice day. There was a house in the Lenggong palace complex with a hole in the roof, and the ventilation was excellent. Every summer, Li Mi led him to live in this house, and moved out in the beginning of autumn. Year after year, like migratory birds.

The eldest prince of the Cang Kingdom habitually stayed in a daze for a moment, until Li Mi woke him up with a loud voice when he was ready for breakfast, then he slowly got up from the bed, and after washing up, he took the longevity noodles and ate them all.

After breakfast, he went to the study with his backpack in his hand. It just so happened that the gods did not come because of the cold, so he silently accepted the ridicule and abuse all day long. After six hours from morning to afternoon, he returned with a happy smile. To the cold palace.

Li Mi and Yi Hao had already prepared a sumptuous meal and waited for him. Cang Tiansu ran to his seat and sat down. His dark eyes scanned the excited expressions of the two adults at this time, and their smiles became more cute and sweet.

In the center of the table was a chicken cake the size of a pot lid, one side was higher and the other was lower, with the words "Happy Birthday to Cang Tiansu" crookedly written in sugar juice in the middle.Li Mi smiled and insisted that this was the legendary birthday cake under the dubious eyes of the two.

"Honey, what birthday present do you want?" Li Mi lovingly stroked his little furry head.

Cang Tiansu was silent for two seconds, turned his face towards her, but aimed at Yi Hao indistinctly: "I want a knife."

Li Mi's bright smiling face froze, and she was also silent for two seconds before closing her smile and putting on a blank face as if nothing had happened: "What do you want a knife for?"

You do know it.

You really know everything.

This kind of reaction is simply self-inflicted, Cang Tiansu feels that his heart is completely cold, and he can't find any warmth.He pursed the corners of his lips, his eyes blushed, and said in a low voice: "The masters in the riding and archery class sent out unsharpened ones, and each of them prepared another unsharpened one. I want one too."

Li Mi moved her lips, but she didn't make a sound after all.

Cang Tiansu opened his eyes early the next morning, stared at the roof with a hole in it again in a daze, then sat up, and put the carved knife that appeared by the bedside at some time into his sleeve.