rebirth grass

When the car passed by the neighborhood they had rented, Li Yibei glanced at the familiar scenery, and his mind was overwhelmed by the messy and complicated pictures. The memories left over by time were arranged in disorder, and finally they were frozen in the morning of the breakup. Li Yuege said that you love no one, but you love yourself the most.

Li Yibei forgot which sentence he used to refute, probably because you don't love me, why would you want me to love you, or maybe he put on a gesture of indifference and told him to get out.

He knew very well how bad he was at that time, sensitive and suspicious, arrogant and surly, because he couldn't be perfect, he could only choose to destroy.

It feels good to be completely destroyed, to uproot and start over.

It's just that the ending is too different than expected, there is no rebirth of abuse, just put on a mask and throw yourself into the hustle and bustle of the world, and then force yourself to forget the past while pretending to be perfect and ready to meet love.

He always wants to use new feelings to prove that there is no regret in separating from Li Yuege.

In the end, I searched and searched, but after ten years of vain, I found nothing.

Since when did they go further and further away? If there were no messy interference and misunderstandings, would they have been able to keep going?

There is no if, only the future.

In the past, he could use this excuse to prevent himself from remembering, but God gave him a chance to be born again as a joke.On his way to the wedding, Li Yuege, who hadn't contacted him for several years, suddenly called, with a gentle smile in his voice, "Beibei, I'm at the airport, come and pick me up."

When the oncoming truck hit him, he didn't realize what he was going to say, and when he woke up again, he was the 17-year-old with Li Yuege who didn't talk about extraneous feelings other than having sex.

Li Yibei leaned on his chin to watch the passing street scene, and smiled with his lips curled up. No matter what, this time he turned and left first.

I didn't go back to school at night, but went to Ji You's house.

Ji You's parents are both doing business outside, so they seldom spend time at home, so home has almost become the best place for Ji You to hold private parties, and new friends also like to bring them home.

Even if you look at Ji's house ten years later, the decoration is very luxurious. There are too many powerful and rich people in Beijing. Li Yibei can't remember if he has heard of Ji's house.

Ji Youhe likes to show off his various strange collections, the most are CDs and shelves full of books, signed by singers and authors.Li Yibei looked through it with interest, many of them were things he liked before, and he felt like playing with antiques.

Before going to bed, Li Yibei suddenly asked, "Have you ever heard the name Li Yuege at school?"

Ji You shrugged, "If you want to ask me what the school belle is called, I know."

"A former classmate, just ask me." Li Yibei felt a little nervous, because he repeatedly recalled those things in college, and always thought of Li Yuege all night.

"Sleep, sleep, I seldom bring friends I just made home, you earned it." Ji You talked too much nonsense, his mouth was dry, and he yawned and went back to his room to sleep.

Classes started on the second day after the military training. Li Yibei's character is very suitable for this kind of slow-paced life. He enters the classroom with the bell ringing every day, listens to the class and takes notes. He is many times more obedient than before.In the past, his major was history, which was neither interesting nor useful. The courses he had attended in four years were estimated to be as many as one semester.

And Li Yuege has always been more motivated and smarter than him. He has been thinking about how to make money since he was in college, but he likes to do things with his heart.

Li Yuege was much more mature than him when he graduated from university. There are great differences between people before and after. The only thing that hasn't changed is that what they leave to each other will always be the most authentic side.

After life began to stabilize, Li Yibei found a part-time job outside.

He was not very good at making money before, his personality was too freewheeling, and he indulged in enjoying life. He never forced himself to do boring and hard work. After graduation, he was doing nothing for a while. He did some jobs in corporate publicity, sales and planning, and the salary was good. I worked in a foreign company, but it didn't last long, and finally joined a friend's entertainment company and got a position as an assistant to the president.

There he made his second lover after Li Yuege, who was a very model with a pair of beautiful and focused eyes. They had been together for many years, four or five years, but they never lived together.He needs that distance because he doesn't want to get tired of someone so close to him anytime soon.

This feeling finally ended in a very peaceful way, exactly the same as his subsequent relationships, surprisingly similar, always starting tentatively, working hard to get along, and finally ending peacefully.

It's not that there is no emotion at all, it's just that it's hard to get excited, and it must be too ugly to pretend to be sad. He feels that all his enthusiasm has been exhausted by his first love, and he won't make trouble for a trivial matter for a week. Desperately spoil their emotions.

It's just not in love, so always pretend to be in love, and always leave the best side for the other party.He pretended to be a perfect lover so many times, but gave all the bad things to Li Yuege, and he never tired of testing the bottom line.

Except for those eyes, he can't remember the boy's name anymore. The reason why he remembers it deeply is because he got nearly one-tenth of the company's shares after this breakup.

The cause and effect are nothing more than that he acted as a stumbling block in other people's love, and he was compensated as the abandoned party.

Very mundane and boring story, but with a happy ending.

Now there is no opportunity for windfall, nor a lot of money for hype. If you want to support yourself, you still need to start with simple things down-to-earth.Li Yibei didn't know if it was a little late to have such an awareness. In the first rebirth, the road to go seems to be longer than in the previous life.

The part-time job that was finalized was to work as a waiter in a western restaurant. He was in good shape and could speak fluent English. He was neat and dignified in his uniform, like a poplar after a rain. The green onions were fresh and tender, and he looked elegant and beautiful, with a low profile. The violin-toned restaurant atmosphere fits perfectly.

This is a job that looks pretty, and the remuneration is good, but it is not easy to do it. The training is only one week, but the job requires perfection. Every day, I stand upright and stand by the side to serve others. The time seems to be diluted. The same goes by slowly, and when I return to the dormitory at night, my legs are sore and trembling, and I feel like climbing the third floor is a burden.

Although Ji You has a bed in the dormitory, he spends more time at home, or stays in a hotel after playing outside until late, and occasionally goes back to the dormitory just to see Li Yibei, who he has just established a friendship with. Pull this lazy-looking guy into his circle.

Li Yibei still has the attitude of not caring about anything. He rarely refuses invitations, but he doesn't show enthusiasm. His cold and melancholy temperament is very attractive to girls.

On the weekend, Ji You invited two girls from the foreign language department to sing, and deliberately went to the restaurant where Li Yibei worked to pick him up.

When I arrived at the KTV, I realized that there were a lot of people, all young people in their twenties. The lights and music dominated the senses. For a while, it was hard to tell whether the girls who laughed indulgently were students or young ladies.

"They are all my friends, so don't be restrained." Ji You answered questions from behind, and put his arms around his shoulders.

Li Yibei curved his lips symbolically, and when he approached the sofa, he saw a familiar face.

Li Lanqing put on a mature and coquettish makeup, if it wasn't for those eyes similar to Li Yuege, he would hardly have recognized her.

The two greeted each other casually. They were not too surprised by this encounter, and didn't even intend to say a few more words.

Sitting next to Li Yibei, Ji You leaned into his ear and asked, "Are you on time? I have a new crush on a girl recently, but she seems to have a boyfriend."

Li Yibei leaned on the soft sofa, he didn't even bother to move his fingers, "I don't see that you are still a heavy taster."

Li Lanqing belonged to the kind of girl who was pleasing in appearance, she was a little pampered, but her good family background gave her a very good self-cultivation temperament, and she felt a little glamorous even when she was domineering.

"I just like this kind of difficult things. I have a temper." Ji You poured him a glass of wine and winked, "Did you see someone? Everyone is out to play, so I'm not afraid that I won't be able to afford it."

"My back is sore." Li Yibei smiled, and suddenly felt that he was really boring to come to this kind of party, as if life always needs a little bit of the original tone to reconcile, so as to feel that there is nothing lacking, but he forgot that there is no one he is familiar with here , You can't even get drunk with confidence, let alone show it to anyone.

This feeling of holding it is not good, like one drama after another that never ends, and I am tired and panicked.

When it was almost his turn to sing, he found an excuse to go outside to smoke, and when he was lighting the fire, someone patted him on the shoulder from behind, "Hey, this is our young master Bei?"

"It almost didn't make me eat the cigarette." Li Yibei took the cigarette away from his mouth, looked at Xu Xiaoting, "You are really everywhere."

"I can't help it. I was ordered by Miss Li to pick her up. Why didn't I hear that you were here? Otherwise, I would gather a few friends to join in the fun."

"I came here with my classmates by the way, just to join in the fun," Li Yibei explained with a smile, and asked casually, "Why didn't you come with Li Yuege?"

Xu Xiaoting smiled strangely, "He didn't tell you that he was sent to the military academy by his father, right? Oh, how old are you all, and you still play house, it's quite interesting."

"I said that there is no news recently." Li Yibei smiled to hide his embarrassment, squeezed the cigarette in his palm hard with his fingers, and couldn't explain why he felt uncomfortable.

"His father's plan is quite good. According to Li Yuege's personality, he only depends on whether he can settle down in the military academy. Maybe he will be the most successful among his brothers." Xu Xiaoting talked to himself alone, and finally Turning the conversation to him, "I've been very busy recently, so I didn't bother to visit you. If you need anything to help, remember to let me know. You're welcome."

Li Yibei replied with a few polite words, but didn't take it to heart.