Dressed as a heartthrob and the vicious cannon fodder

The mature aroma of various foods mixed together and wafted through the whole street. Students in school uniforms were all in twos and threes on the road, chasing and fighting or talking loudly.

Bai Zangji took Tao Jiayue's hand, and it seemed that he went back to a few years ago for a moment.

"Is there anything you want to eat?"

What Tao Jiayue liked in the past, I feel ashamed, Bai Zangji doesn't know or remember anything.

"Hmm... what does Quansheng like to eat?"

Tao Jiayue looked at the whole street. There was not only food here, but also boutiques, stationery stores, and bookstores that girls loved to visit.

The poster hanging outside the door still has popular celebrities printed on it, and several girls are standing in front of the poster to discuss.

A blurry picture flashed in his mind, it was a human face.

Tao Jiayue shook her head, and the pictures flashed through her mind, including pale fingertips flipping through the photo album, and a whole poster on the bedroom wall.

He couldn't see the faces on the posters clearly, nor could he see the contents of the photo album, but he was very sad.

He saw who was writing a letter, tears fell drop by drop, the hand holding the pen trembled, the dripping tears smudged the paper, wiped it with his fingers, and the world was blurred.

Is it... yourself?

Tao Jiayue held Bai Zangji's hand tightly, as if she could gain great courage in this way.

Until the dry and warm palms were applied to the eyes, a gentle voice pulled him out of the painful emotion: "Why are you crying?"

Bai Zangji reached out his hand to wipe away Tao Jiayue's tears, and looked at the water stains on his hands in a daze.

Tao Jiayue reached out and touched her cold face, "No, I didn't cry."

This is not his emotion, although his heart is indeed panic and sad.

"Quansheng, I was just thinking about how terrible it would be if we didn't like each other."

He looked up at Bai Zangji like this, and all he mentioned were the past facts that Bai Zangji no longer wanted to recall.

"Or, if you don't like me, how desperate should I be."

"Will not."

Bai Zangji felt that his heart began to tingle, and the past that he had forgotten began to rush out of his head again. In those days of youth and vigor, he never cared about anyone.

It's not that the young Bai Zangji didn't fail to see Tao Jiayue's despair, the pain of not being able to love even made his blood agitated because of pleasure.

Joking, irony.

Words are the most useless and sharpest knife in this world. When you pick it up, you always know how to use it to make the other person hurt more. The pain goes straight to the heart and blood is dripping. The pain makes him unable to breathe. The pain makes him sleepless all night. , the pain he will never forget.

At that time, Bai Zangji was the best knife-wielder, but Tao Jiayue was the only one with a heart that could be slashed again and again by him willingly.

He always sarcastically said words to Tao Jiayue that made her collapse even more: "Tao Jiayue, is there only ridiculous love in your world?"

"Can't live without it?"

"Tao Jiayue, don't be so childish and ridiculous? Who wants to watch those boring things."

"Tao Jiayue, don't tell me these things, it's annoying."

At that time, Tao Jiayue would always become crazy, "Yes, I am a love brain, I just can't live without you, so after I was rejected by you time and time again, I still posted to be your friend!"

Occasionally there will be poor cowardice, "I just think it's very interesting, can you take a look?"

"If you don't like it, then don't say it."

He knew Tao Jiayue's pain, he understood the collapse of the other party, he knew the heartlessness of his own words, but he couldn't help opening his mouth.

At that time, his love for Tao Jiayue was extremely annoying.

He had regretted it before, looking at his painful expression, but he hated Tao Jiayue's sadness even more.

Also disgusted, the momentary hesitation and soft-heartedness when I opened my mouth.

Every quarrel ended with Tao Jiayue's compromise, and then continued to be friends as if nothing had happened.

The past self was such a jerk, really a jerk, he didn't love anyone, and he probably didn't love himself either.

He is terribly selfish and terribly harsh.

He is the desperate ignorance of young people and the concealment of cowardice.

He will never be able to fall in love with someone lonely and courageously like Tao Jiayue, desperate and unable to extricate himself.

He didn't have the courage to face the pain, surrender himself, and let others trample on his sincere heart.

In order not to be disappointed, give up hope, in order to avoid pain, renounce the right to pursue happiness.

Bai Zangji analyzed his past self in this way: he was just a coward.

But the coward back then had grown up, but Tao Jiayue was still the same Tao Jiayue. Standing by her side now, he was still full of fearless courage as before.

Bai Zangji held his hand, as if going back in time and space to hold Tao Jiayue in the past, the damage of the past can be made up for in this world.

The regrets of the past can be realized slowly in this world.

This Tao Jiayue can always be a happy child, get everything he wants, and get his despicable love.

Bai Zangji couldn't change his past self, but got a brand new Tao Jiayue.

He didn't know how to wake up the other party, and he didn't know how to face Tao Jiayue who was hurt by him in the past after being woken up.

But this is not his selfish reason, the harm he caused to the other party in the past will be repaid in full one day sooner or later.

In the past, he had no courage, but now he can bear everything.

So the current Bai Zangji held Tao Jiayue's hand and said, "No."

In fact, he really hoped that Tao Jiayue could be a happy child forever.

He didn't want Tao Jiayue to recall the past, but if he didn't recall the past, what would Tao Jiayue do when he died and reincarnated in this world?

Bai Zangji could finally feel a little bit of Tao Jiayue's pain back then, but he hugged Tao Jiayue now, but he still wanted to say something despicable: If you recall everything in the past, can you not blame me.

"Now we just love each other."

Bai Zangji held Tao Jiayue's hand with a heavy heart.

"Why are you so serious."

Tao Jiayue laughed suddenly, "Look at your frowning, I just thought of some strange things in my mind, it's like watching a movie full of abuse, I'm suffocated."

He said and shook Bai Zangji's hand: "Could it be our sadomasochism in the previous life?"

The obvious teasing words made Bai Zangji stiff for a rare moment, and he seemed a little stumbling: "What if it's true?"

"Ah, that's so sad. Could it be that you were a heartless person in your previous life?"

"It may abandon you ruthlessly."

Tao Jiayue was feeling weird and wanted to laugh, she raised Bai Zangji's hand: "Then, in this life, won't I get my wish?"

"Then you can't run anymore."

Tao Jiayue's relaxed tone made Bai Zangji gradually relax,

"Then you think about the past when I abandoned you and trampled on you, will you repent and break with me?"

"Have you watched too many TV shows? Then can I throw away the things I finally got?"

Tao Jiayue joked about Bai Zangji, but Bai Zangji didn't look like someone who likes to watch dog blood at eight o'clock.

"No, you don't understand."

Bai Zangji looked deeply, and finally decided: "I'll take you to eat beef noodles."

Since Tao Jiayue hasn't remembered what happened in the past, and everything is not irreversible, then he is still not in a cage for the time being.

Bai Zangji has changed so much from childhood to adulthood, the only thing that remains the same is probably this kind of looseness, there are really few things in this world that he can take seriously in his heart.

Now Tao Jiayue has done it, because Bai Zangji can no longer recall the past, and he will be ptsd immediately, and the more he thinks about it, the more sad he becomes.

The author has something to say: Xiaobai is a fool

It was actually good for him to put aside his love for Tao Jiayue in the past.

But now he is a little scared when he falls in love with Yueyue. He always thinks about his bad past and forgets all the good things.

But in fact, if there was no Tao Jiayue in the past, he probably wouldn't love Yueyue now.

It's not complicated, woo woo woo I'm sure you guys understand what I mean.

Well... yes, it's all because love makes people dazzled and blinded.

Thanks to the little angels of the irrigation nutrient solution: 2 bottles of Ziyan; 1 bottle of life and return;

love you~