Dressed as a heartthrob and the vicious cannon fodder

The first time I saw Bai Zangji was the second day after he went to Haicheng.

The weather was not very good in those few days, the sky was usually mild and clear, and the sky was cloudy and rainy.

Tao Yinmeng repeatedly said in his ears that his mother had chosen the wrong place, and told him to go home.

That was the time when he was very curious about the world, because it never rained in his world.

He stood on the balcony and wanted to reach out to catch some rainwater, but he was so disturbed by the nagging in his ear that he didn't reach out for a long time.

The leaves were emerald green washed by the rain, and the creeper that climbed up was beaten and fell down. Tao Jiayue looked down from the scenery all the way and saw the boy walking in the rain.

He was holding an umbrella, with a cold and lonely look on his face. He was clearly holding an umbrella, but it seemed as if he had already been drenched by the rain.

A kitten followed behind him step by step, and it couldn't hide under his umbrella every time.

Tao Jiayue grabbed the railing and asked, "Why didn't he help that kitten, it's almost soaked."

Tao Yinmeng followed and checked the information, "There are a lot of stray cats in this world, they are just little things that no one wants. It's a little pitiful, maybe he has no love."

Bai Zangji had already gone a long way, Tao Jiayue turned her head to look over again.

"No love?"

"It means bad guy."

"Then why does the kitten follow him all the time?"

There are many places to shelter from the rain, and there is even a large open space under the eaves of his house just passing by.

Tao Jiayue felt that the boy was not like a bad guy, so he ran to the corner of the balcony and risked the rain to look over. The boy finally bent down and squatted in front of the kitten holding a slanted umbrella.

Tao Jiayue didn't know what the other party said, before he could even see more movements of the other party, Tao Yinmeng scolded him to shrink back.

He was still complaining: Mom shouldn't have asked you to come here.

Tao Jiayue thought it was very good here, he was very happy, but he had no friends, nor a kitten.

This was the first time he saw Bai Zangji, and he had seen Bai Zangji countless times later, but it was a year later that he had a formal talk with him.

That afternoon, he mustered up his courage and walked to Bai Zangji's seat with a box of small biscuits. He was putting on his school uniform and preparing to go to bed.

There was a whisper around her, Tao Jiayue listened to Tao Yinmeng's encouragement, took a deep breath and put the biscuit on the corner of Bai Zangji's table, maybe the other party would drop it to the ground with a wave of his hand.

He heard his stumbling voice say from his mouth: "Bai, Bai Zangji, can I make friends with you?"

"This is for you."

At that time, Bai Zangji only glanced at him and then pulled his school uniform, the small box at the corner of the table moved in because of his movement.

He didn't speak, and Tao Jiayue was a little frustrated.

But in the next second, he mustered up the courage to ask again: "Is it okay?"

His face was red and hot, and he stood there awkwardly holding his hands waiting for Bai Zangji's answer.

Someone behind him has already started to calculate his fate. Tao Jiayue asked Tao Yinmeng if Bai Zangji hit himself with a biscuit, can he temporarily block the pain, and the result was no.

He was dejected for a moment, and wanted to leave but couldn't pull his legs.

"I don't make friends, I only accept younger brothers."

Good middle school two! Tao Yinmeng commented like this, but Tao Jiayue was pleasantly surprised for a moment: "Then can I be your younger brother?"

Tao Jiayue didn't pay much attention to some words of "it's okay" coming from her side, her bright eyes were full of anticipation.

Bai Zangji seemed to be disgusted, but also seemed to have no emotions, "As long as you can follow me."

After he finished speaking, he got down on the ground and stretched out a hand to touch the box and threw it into the drawer, as if I'm going to sleep and you get out of here.

Tao Jiayue didn't bother too much, and went back happily.

He didn't feel that his way of making friends was old-fashioned, nor did he feel that Bai Zangji's answer was not what he wanted.

The memory of the past is still so clear, and the story of the past seems to be just a farce that teenagers love and hate, but in retrospect, love and hatred are so unforgettable.

Tao Jiayue hated Bai Zangji, the night before he left Haicheng.

He tossed and turned on the bed and couldn't fall asleep, he was shaking in pain, he couldn't breathe in pain, he hated everything, hated Bai Zangji for not being able to understand his painful heart.

Hate him for leaving in such a mess, and also hate his fate of not being able to stay.

But on the night he hated the most, he still couldn't do anything to curse Bai Zangji, he didn't want Bai Zangji to be in the same situation as him one day.

He was so resentful, but at the end he begged Bai Zangji not to fall in love with others, at least not to fall in love with someone who didn't love him.

He begged Bai Zangji not to forget himself, and he begged Bai Zangji to say that he liked him.

It's a pity that there will be no answer from the air, just like he can't predict the future fate of Bai Zangji.

So although death has become a farewell, it may not be a relief.

Tao Jiayue didn't expect that she would live in another world without memory. The so-called rebirth turned out to be nothing more than a step-by-step reincarnation.

Every life is ridiculous and ignorant, until this one.

He slowly opened his eyes, and the first thing he saw was Bai Zangji's worried face.

The doctor said that Tao Jiayue was fine, and he would be fine when he woke up. Bai Zangji stayed by the bed the whole time. He thought a lot but didn't seem to think about anything until Tao Jiayue opened his eyes.

From the first moment he saw those eyes, Bai Zangji knew that Tao Jiayue must have remembered all the past.

Because his eyes were foggy and quickly filled with tears.

He forced a smile when he spoke, and his suppressed cry was like thin strings drawing on Bai Zangji's sinking heart.

He said, "Quansheng, I'm hungry, I want porridge, and I want that dolphin."

Bai Zangji answered in embarrassment, he said yes, and then stumbled out.

Tao Jiayue couldn't face herself now, and she didn't know how to face him. It was the first time that Bai Zangji knew that she was such a cowardly person.

Tao Jiayue watched Bai Zangji turn and go out, the tears in his eyes finally welled up uncontrollably, he clenched his teeth so tightly that he would not let himself cry now.

His head hurt from holding back, and finally he pulled the quilt and contracted and cried bitterly.

He began to hate himself again, why he had to restore his memory, why he had to think of all this, Tao Jiayue, who didn't know anything, only had his Quansheng in his heart, they were still kissing before, and his Quansheng was still buying him The pink dolphin, his Quansheng will smile gently, say he likes it, and will firmly catch himself. His Quansheng is such a good lover, and the most important thing is...they are in love.

In the world, there is no Tao Jiayue and his Bai Zangji who cannot be loved, only Tao Jiayue and his Bai Quansheng who are loved.

Even if it is to exchange endless reincarnation for a lifetime of love, he is willing and will never regret it.

But everything was gone, he remembered everything, Tao Jiayue was gone, Bai Quansheng was gone.

How should he face all this.

Now that Bai Zangji heard him crying bitterly outside the door, he couldn't help crying along with him.

I can't understand this matter, I can't figure it out, I hurt others and myself, but I will always hurt Tao Jiayue.

He has never hated himself so much as at this moment, he always thinks things too well, he always thinks about what he should do, but he never thought about how Tao Jiayue would collapse when he remembered all this.

But now he is still escaping, and under the excuse Tao Jiayue gave him, he is back to the timid and unrestrained self he used to be.

asshole!Bai Zangji slammed his fist on the wall, his blanched joints were stained red with blood, he pushed open the door and walked in again.

Xu Shi heard the movement, Tao Jiayue curled up under the quilt covering her head and refused to come out, Bai Zangji stood beside the bed and could only hear the sound of his breathing.

Bai Zangji wiped his face and tried to calm down his voice.

"There is no Quansheng, no porridge, and no dolphins."

His words made Tao Jiayue's heart sink infinitely when she was huddled in the quilt, so is it true that Bai Zangji only likes Tao Jiayue who doesn't know anything?

In the next second, Bai Zangji picked up Tao Jiayue who was contracted together through the quilt, "There is Bai Zangji, and there is a bastard."

He peeled off Tao Jiayue's quilt, wiped away the tears on his face, and touched his bitten lower lip.

He exhausted all his tenderness: "Shall we go home? Buy a bunch of balloons on the way home, and you pick the one you like the most. When I get home, I'll make porridge for you, and you drink the bowl you like the most. "

Tao Jiayue couldn't bear it anymore and cried and threw herself into his arms, while Bai Zangji supported his shrugging shoulders.

"Don't cry little guy, I'll take you home."

Go fucking kill him, he only listens to Tao Jiayue.

The author has something to say: In my expectation, Yueyue shouldn't recover her memory so quickly, maybe he has his own ideas.

When I wrote this paragraph, I felt very confused, but later I was a little moved.

I feel like I can't explain a lot of things, I can't understand... oh