Dressed as a heartthrob and the vicious cannon fodder

I really miss that time, I was always behind you.

The sky is blue, and occasionally the wind blows over, blowing the green branches and leaves of the treetops, and you will look back at me and wait for me quietly, everything is so lively.

Although you are always unhappy and don't like to talk too much, and you are always very aggressive and don't laugh often, but I know that you are actually a very gentle person, I know it all.

I'm sorry, don't be angry, I say this, actually... It would be nice if I could see you angry now,

Dad said my health was too bad and I was dying, but when I was with you, I didn't feel that at all. I felt very happy, and I was in good health. I didn't have any diseases, but when I got home, I realized that it wasn't like this. I was in pain all over my body. , It turns out that the disease is really so serious.

Every time I was treated, I was in so much pain that I couldn’t speak a word and felt it was difficult to breathe. I thought it would be better to die, but I thought I could go to you again when I was cured, so I could hold on. .

I want to go to you when I am cured, can you watch the sunrise with me?

Ah... I think about a lot of things that we can do together, such as going to an amusement park together, going boating together, planting flowers together, going to the night market in Nanjiexiang together... There are so many things that can be done in life Ah, but everything without you means nothing.

I dare not ask you, have you missed me for a moment in these 320 six days, 320 six days may be too short for you, and it is not worth reminding you of a person, so what about three thousand 260 days?Or will you think back to those short days with me in your life, and then say something about me?

I still remember when we met for the first time, I was thinking why there are people so cold and lonely in such a beautiful place here; remember the first sentence you said to me?What you said is: I don't make friends, I only accept younger brothers.I thought you were going to accept me as your younger brother, ha~ I was so stupid.

I always thought that we haven't known each other for long and the future is still very long, but when I think about it, I realize that so much time has passed, I'm so stupid, I don't know how to please you, it took so long and I still can't make you fall in love with me.

...sorry, I started talking nonsense again.

But that's okay, I've said and written a lot, and I know I won't get an answer.It's really sad, I am willing to spend a lot of time and continue to work hard to make you like me, even for a lifetime?This can be regarded as being with you for a lifetime.

But I don't have time.

Bai Zangji's tears dripped on the paper, blurring a piece of words. The humbleness in Tao Jiayue's letter was like a sharp thorn piercing his heart. This thorn was handed to Tao Jiayue by himself in the past, and he continued. Look down, word for word:

Why do I always say some nonsensical words... I can't write anymore Bai Zangji, I really miss you, my tears have blurred my paper again, is my current handwriting ugly, because I have some I can't see clearly.

That day I tossed and turned in bed and couldn't sleep, it was that day, the day you rejected me.

I'm wondering why you don't even want to lie to me?Why are you so cruel, I cried for a long time, thinking how could I see you the next day after crying like this?Although I know, there is no tomorrow.

In fact, I had hatred in my heart that day, I hated myself, hated that I couldn’t stay here, I also hated you for a moment, hated that you never knew how painful I was, hated that you couldn’t understand my tormenting heart.

But I hated it for a while, I can't bear it, how can I hate you.

I'm thinking that if I'm gone, what will you be like?Will you meet someone you like?Do you like others like I like you? When I think of this, I can't breathe in pain. I feel that the world is spinning and the world is dark.

But I'm so selfish, I still hope that if there is no me, there will be someone who likes you like me and will continue to like you. I don't want you to experience the pain of not being able to love, never.

If you can't meet someone in love in the future, then I hope you will always be alone.

Am I being too cruel, I am hoping that you will be alone forever, who will my Bai Zangji fall in love with in the future, that person must be the most beautiful person in the world... I am so envious of him.

Bai Zangji's hand holding the paper began to tremble, and his shoulders shrugged uncontrollably. That person was Tao Jiayue, and he only liked Tao Jiayue from the beginning to the end.

The letter was too long, as if he was expressing his lifelong heartfelt love, he thought of where to write, Bai Zangji read it from the pain of his eyes to his heart, and finally saw the last point:

The days with you are really too short, your life is still so long, I am just a very small part of it, could it be that you have already forgotten me?

If you really forget me, I, then I won't know.

I only asked you one thing, but you didn't agree, but I still thought about begging you again, please don't forget me.

sorry Sorry sorry.

Please... remember me, remember that I love you very much, remember a person named Tao Jiayue, he loves you very much.

Really sorry……

This was followed by a large water stain on the end of the letter.

This was the worst letter Bai Zangji had ever read in his life. The letter Ma Youxuan wrote was illogical, and the words and sentences were not touching, but he still felt heartbroken and burst into tears.

Through this thin piece of paper, he saw his young man writing letters, crying and laughing, writing wherever he thought of, all of which were expressing the humble love that was not willing to be wronged and could not be asked for.

He said sorry many times, even though he didn't apologize to anyone.

Bai Zangji turned the letter over and looked at it again. The signature on the envelope was a string of codes.This is not a letter that will be sent. Obviously, when Tao Jiayue wrote this letter, he never thought that he would send it, but now that this letter is in his hands, it means that this may be the last letter written by Tao Jiayue Letter, or the last diary before death.

The boy's love and hatred are deep, but Tao Jiayue couldn't even bear the hatred. He walked a hundred steps towards Bai Zangji without hesitation, even though he didn't get the slightest response.

Bai Zangji's heartache was so pale in front of this letter, he never did anything for Tao Jiayue from the beginning to the end, but Tao Jiayue kept saying sorry, Bai Zangji's heart just thought of this. Started throbbing non-stop.

He held the letter and sank for a long time, exhaustion and sadness surged up together, and he fell asleep without knowing it. He didn't sleep well. In the dream, joy and pain were intertwined, and in the end it was all Tao Jiayue's crying face.

Bai Zangji fell into a dream and couldn't wake up, his pretty eyebrows were tightly wrinkled and couldn't be stretched.

Until a burst of unhurried knocks on the door kept ringing.

Button button ...

The knock on the door lasted for a long time, so long that it accompanied Bai Zangji's dream and never subsided.

Bai Zangji suddenly woke up from his dream. His first reaction was that Tao Jiayue came to him. He hurriedly stood up and ran to the front of the door. He didn't feel any pain when he bumped into his knee with the corner of the table. It was only when he grabbed the doorknob that he realized that he was in pain. Embarrassed, he hesitated and withdrew his outstretched hand.

"Tao Jiayue?"

is it you?There was no sound from outside the door, Bai Zangji was lost for a moment, how could Tao Jiayue come so fast, he should have come to deliver things, he comforted himself but his heart was still full of anticipation.

After hesitating again and again, he turned around and went back to put the letter away, washed his face before opening the door.

"Dong Ran?"

Bai Zangji froze for a moment, he didn't expect that it would be his student who knocked on the door.

"teacher."

Lin Dongran took a peek inside, "Aren't you going to invite me in?"

Bai Zangji liked this student at first, he was smart, sensible and good at learning, but now he was really not in the mood to let him in.

He didn't know how Lin Dongran found this place, and his usually indifferent face was a little tired when he stood in front of the door. "It's a mess at home, what's the matter with you?"

"I heard that the teacher has moved, and the school...doesn't he go?"

The handsome young man raised his good-looking eyebrows with a puzzled attitude.

"Well, let's go out and talk."

Bai Zangji didn't pay much attention to his emotions, so he turned back and took a pen and paper, wrote his phone number and posted it in front of the door.

He was afraid that Tao Jiayue would not find him after he left, and that Tao Jiayue would think that he was not waiting for him.

"teacher?"

Lin Dongran read the number on one side, "Why post this in front of the door?"

"I have a friend coming, and I'm afraid he won't find me."

Bai Zangji took the coat and put the key back into the mailbox.

Lin Dongran didn't ask any questions and quietly followed behind him, also looking obedient, and glanced at the phone number before leaving.

I haven't walked this street for a long time. I didn't think it was full of memories when I look at it now. Bai Zangji looked at it while walking.

In the small flower bed in the southwest corner, Tao Jiayue always likes to squat there and watch the ants crawling around to carry food; the tall poplar tree in front, Tao Jiayue always jumped up behind him and pulled the leaves secretly when two people passed by; Tao Jiayue would sneak over to poke and touch the flowers and plants planted every time, and the big locust tree, Tao Jiayue liked to watch the old men play chess the most.

He would follow toddlers to their destinations and wipe their snot from their mouths with feigned distaste.

He will tease the stray cats nearby, and occasionally learn to meow a few times. When he looks at him, he sticks out his tongue and smiles. He is so cute.

And when I was "rebellious" later, I pretended to be cool, but after only drinking a glass of wine, I vomited it out with a sad face, and would go crazy drinking if I didn't get a response from myself.

He will quarrel with the kitten on the side of the road with a cold face, saying that he will not play with it in the future.

The pierced ears were stunned, and the next day, he ran over with red eyes and said pitifully: Brother, it hurts so much.

The author has something to say: If there is no accident, there will be another chapter later and I will wish you an early year haha

The letter before Yueyue was lost by the nest 555~