between men and women

One hundred and third post

It is said that one cannot see a rainbow without going through the wind and rain, but how many people end up drifting in the wind and rain, and never see a rainbow again.

We are 26 years old and have no copper skin and iron bones. If the wind and rain really come, I don't know how long the two of us can survive.

That night Peng Zhiran and I hugged each other and lay on the bed, recalling our past, and talking about the funny things back then, I still couldn't help laughing out loud, but at the end of the laughing, I shed tears.I asked him over and over again, "Peng Zhiran, will we get through it? Will we get through it?" He reassured me over and over again and answered yes, but in fact we both knew in our hearts that once we start a war with our parents, it will be a big problem. A long and cruel war, until the last moment, it is unknown who will win and who will lose, and the saddest thing is that even if we win, our love may be bruised and bruised, not necessarily can have a good ending.This is the cruelty of reality.

I used to joke with Peng Zhiran, saying that if there is a time machine in the world, would you want to see yourself 20 years from now?Peng Zhiran said of course not, if you know everything in advance, then what's the point of being alive.But now I really want to know if we will still be together 20 years later.

If life can be fast-forwarded, I would rather grow old overnight, and just want to be with him for the rest of my life.

But in the end we still have to taste the ups and downs of this world one by one.More than ten days later, Peng Zhiran's mother called and asked him to go back to have dinner on the weekend, and specifically instructed him to call Chen Jia.

We know that the war is finally about to kick off.

Looking back now, the ten or so days from when his sister guessed about us to when his mother called were the days when Yali Shan was really big.

It's like death is not terrible, what is terrible is the day waiting for death.At that time, we were like two death row prisoners with a guillotine hanging above their heads. Every day, we wondered when the guillotine would fall. Every time the phone rang, both of us would be shocked, and sometimes I even collapsed. Think, come early and come late. Anyway, if you stretch your head, you will be a knife if you shrink your head.

On the day we went to Peng Zhiran's house, we both had to prepare for a long time before going out. Although we usually pay attention to our appearance, we were like two soldiers on the battlefield that day.

All the way in the car, Peng Zhiran held my hand tightly all the time. He protected my ring-wearing left hand in the palm of both hands, kept rubbing the ring on my middle finger, occasionally raised his head and smiled at me, and I responded back. With a smile and a determined look.

Come on, violent storm, I said to myself in my heart, no matter how Peng Zhiran's parents treat you, beating or scolding, Chen Jia, you will definitely survive.

However, when we knocked on the door of Peng Zhiran's house, it was a girl we didn't know who came out to answer the door.Both Peng Zhiran and I were taken aback for a moment, and I even took a step back to look at the house number of his house. At this moment, Peng Zhiran's mother shouted from the kitchen: "Son, you're back! Is Xiaojia here?" Only then did I confirm that we went to the right place, but in this situation... Is it really not the wrong place?

Peng Zhiran didn't react until this time, he replied yes and came back, and then dragged me in to change shoes.

His mother was busy in the kitchen, she raised her head to look at us, her eyes dimmed, but she still smiled and let us in.

There was a middle-aged woman in the living room, and the girl who opened the door for us was sitting next to her. I didn't look closely at her eyebrows, but I just remembered sitting there a little reserved.Pan Xiaoruo, who was chatting with them, saw us and hurriedly introduced us. This is my younger brother Peng Zhiran, and that is his good friend named Chen Jia. How about it? Auntie, I think Chen Jia is also very handsome, but I also treat him as my younger brother Look, Auntie, next time you have a nice girl, don't forget to introduce him.Come, come, brother, this is my mother's colleague, Aunt Fang, and this is her niece, named Jiang XX... Peng Zhiran and I immediately understood that he was asked to come back for a blind date tonight!

A meal made me feel like I was sitting on pins and needles.Peng Zhiran's mother and her colleague, Aunt Fang, have obviously exchanged information about both men and women, and they sang and sang together. One said oh, your Peng Zhiran looks much more handsome than the photo, and the other said oh, Xiao Jiang is really sensible, as expected of a so-and-so Graduated from university... I sat between Pan Xiaoruo and Peng Zhiran's mother like a walking dead, looking at Peng Zhiran who was separated from me by Pan Xiaoruo, and Jiang Moumou on his right.

The situation is so complicated, and there are outsiders present, Peng Zhiran can only cooperate, answering a few questions from Aunt Fang from time to time, or chatting with Jiang Moumou who is sitting on his right hand about the latest entertainment news.At this time, Jiang Moumou was no longer as cautious as before. After a few words, he gradually opened up the conversation box, and looked at Peng Zhiran with a smile of approval from time to time.

I think I probably have a heart attack, otherwise how could I have angina pectoris?

He ate the food quietly with his head down. Seeing this, Pan Xiaoruo picked up the food with chopsticks for me, pointed at Peng Zhiran and Jiang Moumou deliberately with the chopsticks, and said with a smile: "Hey Chen Jia, look, do they still have some food? Husband and wife?"

Jiang Moumou blushed in an instant, Peng Zhiran turned his head and gave Pan Xiaoruo a cold look when he heard the words, and said, "When did you change your career to look at physiognomy?" Then he looked at me and licked the corner of his mouth slightly.I know what he means, he wants to say strong Chen Jia, but I still can't stop my nose from getting sore.

After the meal, Peng Zhiran and Jiang Moumou exchanged phone numbers under the urging of everyone, and Aunt Fang took Jiang Moumou to leave. Peng Zhiran's mother repeatedly said, "Son, go down to see Aunt Fang and Xiao Jiang." out.

The moment I went out, I saw him look back at me nervously.I hurriedly gave him a ok smile.

As a result, as soon as they walked on their front feet, the air pressure in the entire room dropped suddenly on their back feet.

The leftovers on the table were ignored, and Peng Zhiran's mother's expression became serious. She sat across from me and looked at me directly. She stopped pretending to call me Xiaojia, and went straight to the point: "Chen Jia, tell Auntie the truth." , what is the relationship between you and Peng Zhiran now?"

Is this about to start?I lowered my eyes and took a deep breath, encouraging myself, Chen Jia, to be brave, then raised my head and said, "Friendship."

"Friend?" Peng Zhiran's mother sneered, reached for Pan Xiaoruo's cell phone, found a photo, and threw it in front of me: "What kind of friend? The kind you can have sex with? Both of you are men, do you know I know that this is not normal for you now!"

I looked at the photo, blinked hard, clasped my hands, looked into his mother's eyes, and said in a sincere voice: "Auntie, Peng Zhiran and I are sincere, we really love each other, it's just, just each other It just so happened to be a man..."

Peng Zhiran's mother looked at me for a while, lowered her head, and then looked at me with a serious face: "Chen Jia, it must be a few years ago that Auntie first saw you, and then she thought you were a good boy, yes It makes sense. Auntie didn’t tell Peng Zhiran’s father this time, but she just wanted to take the opportunity of his father’s unit to organize a trip to call you over to clarify this matter, and didn’t want his father to treat you with a rough attitude. Auntie still remembers When Peng Zhiran was a child, he once told his sister that he secretly liked a female classmate, so his aunt believed that he just went the wrong way on impulse. It is understandable for young people to make mistakes on the spur of the moment. , but you can’t keep being wrong. You should also know what kind of vision and attitude this society uses to treat your abnormal love. Do you know what it feels like to be discriminated against? It’s very painful. And you have to bear it for the rest of your life Have you ever thought about this kind of look? In addition, there is also the issue of job prospects. Peng Zhiran is quite popular in the company now, and the leader intends to promote him to be the deputy director. If your affairs are known, do you think about it? What will happen to his future, how will he gain a foothold in the company, and will he still have a future? Auntie doesn’t say anything else, just ask you one thing. If Peng Zhiran’s life is ruined because of this incident, do you think you two are worthless? Can we still be happy together?"

I was shocked when I heard this.

Peng Zhiran's mother sighed and continued: "Chen Jia, my aunt called you here today to let you know our family's attitude. Our family hopes that Peng Zhiran can live a normal life. Today is just the first time that he Blind date, if he and Xiao Jiang don’t succeed, Auntie will continue to look for him. If Peng Zhiran wants to be with you, unless his father and I are gone, we have nothing to do with it, but we won’t let him in one day. He's going this way. If Peng Zhiran is really determined to ignore the two elders for you, then I can tell you that even if he doesn't regret it today, one day he will regret paying such a big price. You, your relationship can’t go far. So Auntie advises you to turn back early. Sometimes Peng Zhiran is too rebellious, and Auntie forces him to go in the opposite direction. When he finally wakes up, he is in pain. Auntie I don’t want to see this kind of situation, so Auntie came to tell you these words, I hope you can figure it out and separate from him. Auntie also knows that love is rare and rare, but there are so many pairs in this world. Couples in love have also come here, but not everyone can bear a life without dignity and a life without blessings. Auntie hopes you think about it."

After speaking, Peng Zhiran's mother sighed and stood up: "Chen Jia, I hope you can listen to what Auntie told you. Turn around early, so that you can get together well, otherwise everyone will be torn apart." On the day when you are shameless, you will eventually break up and suffer in vain. Do you understand what I mean?" After finishing speaking, I started to clean up the dishes with Pan Xiaoruo, and let me sit at the dining table in a daze, my mind rumbling It was all the words his mother repeatedly circled around, until Peng Zhiran opened the door with a "bang".

I looked up at him blankly with red eyes, and suddenly felt as if my happiness would never come again. What Peng Zhiran’s mother said was right, if I ruined his life because of me, if his parents decided to break with him to oppose us , then we will not be happy even if we are together, thinking of something here, I can no longer hold back from falling down.Seeing me crying, Peng Zhiran's expression changed, and he rushed over to touch my face in two or three steps, looked carefully, and asked anxiously in a low voice, "What's wrong, did you get beaten?"

Pan Xiaoruo came out of the kitchen, leaning against the kitchen door with a half-smile: "Why are you so worried, mom doesn't know how to beat people, and it's not dad."

Peng Zhiran gave her a cold look, then turned to face her and subconsciously protected me behind her: "Mom can't, there's no guarantee you won't."

Pan Xiaoruo sneered: "Oh, then tell me why I have to beat him?"

At this time, Peng Zhiran's mother came out of the living room with a teacup, went into the kitchen to put it away, and then came out, looking at Peng Zhiran at the door.

Peng Zhiran took a deep breath, and put his arm around my shoulder: "Don't beat me around, I know you know. Tell me, what are you going to do?"

Peng Zhiran's mother glanced at me who was crying, and asked Peng Zhiran with red eyes: "You are so old, what do you think we can do? We can't put you under house arrest, and we can't beat you to death. Apart from persuading you to persuade Chen Jia, and I beg you to think about us for the sake of our parents raising you so much, what else can we do? Son, mom just wants to tell you that mom is not in good health, has high blood pressure and coronary heart disease , you don’t have to worry about it anymore, find a girlfriend to get married as soon as possible, and let Chen Jia live a normal life, which is good for you! Chen Jia is a good boy, and my mother believes that he will understand what our parents say For your own good, don't be obsessed with your own ideas, do you understand!"

Hearing this, Peng Zhiran's pupils contracted suddenly, he turned his head to look at me in a daze, and asked loudly: "What did you tell him?" Then he squatted in front of me, looked up at me, and said in a low voice: "Chen Jia, Chen Jia, don't listen to anything, don't think about anything, just trust me, trust me." I nodded wildly with tears in my eyes, but I didn't know anything.

Only then did Peng Zhiran stand up and turn to face his mother, who was already crying, holding Pan Xiaoruo to wipe away tears, I could feel that Peng Zhiran's mood fluctuated very much at that time, the hand he held on my shoulder was too Hard, almost scratching me, but I didn't say anything.Peng Zhiran looked at his mother for a while, and finally choked up and said: "Mom, I'm sorry, I know you are very disappointed. Dad doesn't know what will happen if he finds out, but I want to say that I still want to be with Chen Jia. I really love him. No matter what happens, I will be with him. Don’t be so stupid as to force me to go on a blind date. I cooperated this time, but it doesn’t mean I will cooperate next time. If there is another Once, I don’t promise that I won’t take the initiative to tell others that I’m gay! At that time, I won’t be the only one who loses face! I’m your son, you should know my temper, and what I believe will not change.”

Peng Zhiran's mother cried and asked: "Son, don't be confused. Do you know how much stares and discrimination you will face for homosexuality? Do you know that you will have nothing! The future of your friends and even your parents, do you have to be wrong even so? go down?"

Peng Zhiran's eyes were red: "Don't threaten me! You know that I hate others threatening me the most!"

Peng Zhiran's mother cried: "You were normal when you were young. You obviously liked girls when you were young. If Xiao Jiang can't do it, why don't you try other girls... If there is no Chen Jia..." I couldn't help shaking, I understand, he Mom is accusing Peng Zhiran of being the one who led me into trouble.

Hearing this, Peng Zhiran pulled me up, pointed at his mother with a finger, and said with red eyes, "I'll say it again, don't try to introduce me to a girlfriend. If you don't believe that I'm gay, you can call me a woman." Stand naked in front of me, see if I'll turn up! Remember, I don't want anyone except Chen Jia!" After speaking, he slammed the door on me and left!