My Young Ning [Rebirth]

Suddenly waking up, Yan Youning heard a man's voice whispering in his ear.He couldn't hear what the man was saying, but his voice was full of pain, just listening, his heart was already throbbing.He felt that this should be a person he was very familiar with, and he knew that every call from him would stir the throbbing in his heart, making him wish he could immediately throw himself into his arms and cry heartily.

But he couldn't remember his name, nor why he dreamed of this man.It seems that the existence of this man and the throbbing pain in his heart have been thrown into the depths of memory by the wheel of time, and even the reason for the pain has begun to become blurred.

Yan Youning was wrapped in great grief.No matter in the previous life or in the next life, he has never known so clearly how wholeheartedly he has devoted himself like this moment.His love for this person lasted until the moment of the end of his life, when he was abandoned, let down, and heartbroken.But never really regretted it.

"You Ning...You Ning..." The man called his name one after another, his suppressed voice was full of despair, "You Ning, look at me again..."

Yan Youning curled up into a ball in his sleep, sobbing uncontrollably.

"I'm sorry, You Ning, I'm sorry, I didn't know God would not even give me time to explain. I haven't said anything yet..."

"You Ning... I never thought that we would not even have time to explain... Never thought... This is your favorite thing, I stole it from Guan Yusen. I remember you always liked it Once you put it on, you are reluctant to take it off. I will let it go with you, this is the last thing I can do for you..."

"They say this gem has the mystical power to reverse the time and space we live in. I never believed that before, but now, I wish it to be true. I hope it can bring you back to being alive Go when you are here, change to a completely different scene, and meet me again..."

"If all this is true, if it happens..."

"You Ning, will you still fall in love with me?"

Yan Youning couldn't stop crying.

He never thought that his emotions would be stimulated to collapse by such an inexplicable nightmare at such an unexpected moment.

Perhaps it is precisely because in the dream, the tired soul can be completely relaxed, and the scars superimposed over the years are exposed in the corners that no one finds.Perhaps it was only at this moment that he revealed his complete self, like a defenseless city, easily hit by the nightmare at the most vulnerable point in his soul.

It is also the most stressful point.

Because that artificially armed strength was once the biggest motivation to support him to live.He told himself over and over again like hypnosis that he could do it, he could forget it, everything could start again, and it had already started... However, this sudden nightmare let him know that the life he had experienced was always stuck There, those unspeakable and unspeakable joys and sorrows are always entangled in the passing years and inseparable.Like a piece of gorgeous brocade, one side is radiant and the other side is obscure.

Such a scar, a pain, is a shackle that he cannot shake off as long as he is alive.

Like a brand, it penetrates deep into the flesh and blood, and cannot be peeled off.

Xiao Ding, the assistant in the same room, was awakened by his cries and was terrified. He ran over with bare feet and frantically tested the temperature of his forehead with the back of his hand, asking him repeatedly, "What's the matter?" What's wrong? Are you sick? What's wrong with you, You Ning? Don't scare me..."

Yan Youning cried until he lost all image, "I want to ask for leave today, Xiao Ding, I must ask for leave today."

"Okay, ask for leave, let's ask for leave." Xiao Ding sat beside him at a loss, patting his back like a child, "I'll go to Director Xu later, and I'll ask him for leave." He was told by Yan Youning His reaction was quite frightened. Although he has seen artists lose control of their emotions due to excessive pressure, this is the first time he has encountered someone like You Ning who cried so hard that he almost lost his strength.

Xiao Ding carefully recalled the filming of the previous few days, and felt that everything was normal. His scenes went smoothly, and Director Xu didn't yell at him too much.By the way, Director Xu lost his temper yesterday because of the supporting actress... But no matter how you look at it, it has nothing to do with Yan Youning.

Xiao Ding fetched a wet towel from the bathroom and asked him to wipe his face. Seeing that he had calmed down a little, he asked cautiously, "Is it because you are too tired?"

Yan Youning shook his head, "I'm going out today, and I'll probably be back before dinner."

"I'll go with you." Xiao Ding felt that it was uneasy for him to go outside like this. "Anyway, if you ask for leave, I'll have nothing to do if I stay here."

Yan Youning shook his head, "I'll go out by myself."

Xiao Ding didn't know what to say, mainly because of his current state, Xiao Ding didn't know how to persuade him at all, "Well, your phone is on, call me if you need anything."

Yan Youning patted him on the shoulder, "Thank you, buddy."

Xiao Ding couldn't bear to look at his red and swollen eyes from crying, so he pushed him into the bathroom, "Okay, my buddy will let you use the bathroom first."

Yan Youning was not polite to him, took a change of clothes and went in.

Xiao Ding was not at ease, so he called Ling Ao while Yan Youning was taking a bath.Ling Ao was woken up. He was full of evil spirits. After hearing Xiaoding's report, he was stunned. After pondering for a long time, he said: "If he wants to go out by himself, let him go out by himself. If he really feels pressured, it's up to him." Relieve yourself."

Xiao Ding got instructions from the leader and stopped nagging. When Yan Youning went out, he offered to provide a pair of sunglasses to cover his swollen, peach-like eyes.If it wasn't for Yan Youning who wanted to sneak away before the crew got up, Xiao Ding really wanted to suggest that he go to the kitchen to find some ice cubes to apply.Yan Youning is now a star anyway, if people recognize him with this appearance, there may be some "exclusive secrets" in tomorrow's entertainment edition.

Yan Youning left the island city at six o'clock in the morning, and drove all the way to R city.He was not familiar with the roads in the urban area, and it was almost noon when he found the commercial street according to the navigation.

When Yan Youning was parking on the side of the road, his breathing was trembling.He was starting to regret it now, he should have settled for the ring when he saw it, and if he didn't have enough money, he could find a way to borrow it, or... anyway, it was his.

Perhaps it was because of such a thing that he was able to go back to eight years ago inexplicably, to the age when he had not yet met the Guan family, and re-choose his own life.This ring should not be something that scares him, but a lucky thing that reverses his fate and gives him a chance to live again.

Among these reasons, what Yan Youning couldn't ignore the most was the sad voice in the dream last night, he said that he stole the ring from Guan Yusen, and he put the ring with himself, or it was because This action of his and the strong desire in his heart finally contributed to the occurrence of this strange incident?

There were two voices shouting in Yan Youning's head, one was jumping and shouting: "Liar! Liar! Mu Kun is lying again! He has been lying to you, he is a big liar! Never Speak the truth!" Another voice tried to rationally analyze the information from the dream, "It is very likely to be true, and you were already dead at that time, how could Guan Yusen let the jewelry of the Guan family accompany you Die? Don’t forget that Guan Yusen will deal with the Tang family of the jewelry family after taking office. The more antique jewelry bought from abroad like the eye of reincarnation, the better for them, so they won’t use it to be buried with you, a little cannon fodder. .”

But if it is true, Mu Kun...why did he do that?

Yan Youning couldn't figure it out, and was unwilling to think about it for the time being.He walked through the bustling crowd, looking for the shop he had been to with his vague memory.When he came here for the first time, he felt that the shops with uniform style on both sides of the street were very distinctive, but after another time, he found that it was very difficult to find a different one among these shops with the same style. .

Yan Youning could only find the place where he parked last time, and then repeat the route at that time.Small shops selling Indian handicrafts, jewelry stores for couples, snack shops, and...

Yan Youning breathed a sigh of relief, walked into the store with strides, and ran past the counter next to the cashier.but……

"I remember there was a ring last time I came here." Yan Youning pointed to the place where the ring was once placed, but now it was replaced by a colorful gold bracelet and asked the clerk, "The emerald one is right here."

The clerk was not the silly boy I saw last time, but a young girl with a ponytail. She explained with a smile: "The emerald ring has been sold. If you are interested, sir, you can take a look at the store." other accessories."

Yan Youning felt a chill in his heart, is it really still late?

"Can you tell me the buyer's phone number?" Yan Youning asked her without hope.

Sure enough, the girl shook her head and said apologetically, "I'm sorry, sir, we are not allowed to disclose the buyer's private information."

The girl probably couldn't bear to see him so disappointed, so she comforted him and said, "Why don't you leave your contact number. If the buyer wants to return or exchange the goods, we will contact you?"

The buyer spends a lot of money to buy a piece of jewelry, and then returns it to the store if he doesn't like it?Is such a small probability event really possible?

Yan Youning shook his head, feeling disheartened for a moment.

Yan Youning returned to the island city along the original road, not wanting to go back to the set, nor to go home, so he wandered around the inner bay twice, and stopped in a place where no one was around.

The sea in winter is far quieter than in midsummer.Without the annoying smog in the rainy season, the bright and pure color of the blue sky is reflected on the sea, as clean as a jewel.The fine waves climbed up the beach with a rustling, and quickly receded.

There is no wind, and there is an unnatural tranquility in the winter afternoon.

Yan Youning sat down on the rock, took out the cigarette case and lighter from his pocket, and lit a cigarette for himself.Looking at the sea in the distance, he felt that he could finally calm down and think about his problems.

If it was really because of the ring that he was able to come back alive, then the only person who could put the ring with him was Mu Kun.

But would Mu Kun really do this?

Yan Youning couldn't give a definite answer to this question.

After being separated for so long, Yan Youning tried for the first time to examine the process of getting acquainted with Mu Kun with a fair attitude.The Mu Kun in his impression is always the same: calm and alienated, as if he is separated from everyone by a certain distance.Even when the love is the strongest, it only shows a shallow smile.

Does he love himself?If love, why did he never say it, and he never felt it?He never talked about his thoughts with himself, never looked at himself with lingering eyes, never explained what he did, and never revealed his whereabouts to him.His hug was hot, but his eyes were always deep and unpredictable, full of mist that Yan Youning couldn't understand.

If you don't love, why would you take the risk of stealing the ring and putting it with yourself?

What reason does he have for doing this?

Yan Youning felt that he had gotten into a strange circle.He made all these assumptions based on the fact that his dream was real, but it was just a dream...

Freud, known as the master, once said that dreams reflect the unrealized desires in people's hearts.Perhaps for Yan Youning, Mu Kun's sincere treatment is the desire he most desires to realize?

Is that right?

Yan Youning flicked the cigarette butt far away, watching it fall into the sea water, bobbing up and down on the sea surface.It won't take long for it to be soaked in seawater, rotten, and finally decomposed and corroded, leaving no dross.

Just like these things that entangled him, true or false, so what?Even if it was true, could he still go to Mu Kun and say "I blamed you wrong"?

At this moment, Mu Kun is not the man who was entangled with grievances and grievances in his memory. Those things that have passed, even if he is not reconciled, have passed.

Yilian once asked him, "Son, what do you think is eternal in this world?"

At that time, he asked her in a ignorant manner, "Is it love? People say that love is eternal."

Yilian pinched his face and smiled melancholy, "No, son. Only memories are eternal. Because in this world, only those things that have happened can't be changed. It will stay in the fixed time In terms of coordinates, there will never be any change."

How Yan Youning answered at that time, he no longer remembered.Maybe she is right, but it is undeniable that things that will not change are far less alluring than things that are unknown.Because nothing has happened yet, everything is possible.

As for the past, what people can do is to remember it, except to forget it.

Also just remember.

Yan Youning stood up from the rock and stretched long.The sun was very warm, shining on his face, as if a little furry paw was gently rubbing against his skin, it felt warm and soft.

Yan Youning closed his eyes for a while, and took out the buzzing cell phone from his pocket.Sure enough, it was that person's phone number. The phone card will be overwhelmed by today's missed calls, right?

"Hello?" Yan Youning held the phone to his ear with his eyes closed, "Ming Feng?"

Ming Feng's voice was wheezing, as if he was climbing stairs or jogging, but he didn't seem to be able to react when he heard Yan Youning's voice, he was stunned for a moment before he said weakly: "Master, you can be regarded as answering the phone .If I can’t get through to your phone again, I’m going to call the police.”

Yan Youning couldn't help but bend the corner of his mouth, "It's too exaggerated."

Ming Feng didn't dare to say more, probably because he felt that Yan Youning's voice was quite normal, so he boldly asked, "Where are you now?"

"Basking in the sun by the sea." Yan Youning thought for a while, then said, "Come and pick me up."