My Young Ning [Rebirth]

My name is Rongqing, male, 29 years old.

businessman.

I am the only business owner in my family.My father, my grandfather, my uncle and his son are all from the military.If nothing goes wrong in my upbringing, I should be one of them too.But how does that saying go, life is like chocolate, you never know what the next piece will taste like.

Instead of going to military school like my cousin, I went to study finance.From then on, my family more or less regarded me as a freak.

In fact, when I was a child, there were some private discussions in my family, saying that my life was hard and that I killed my mother when I was born.When she was less than one year old, she died of her grandmother—she died of a heart attack.My father is so busy that he has no time to take care of his son.My grandma took care of me until she passed away.Later, this rumor spread to my grandfather's ears, and he lost his temper severely, so that this inexplicable remark was able to be silenced.

When I learned about the term fate, I was just in the first class of kindergarten.At that time, I heard many fairy tales from my aunt.I always feel like I'm just an unlucky Snow White: there is only one father on it, and it doesn't look very reliable.In a few years, if another stepmother comes in, I guess I will be able to eat poisonous apples too.

I'm disgusted by this wicked fairy tale.So when I was five years old, when my father was going to bring home the woman he raised outside, before my grandpa said anything, I was the first to object, "No, absolutely not!"

My dad was furious.Instead of losing his temper, my grandfather asked me with a smile: "Why can't it work? Look at other children's homes, who doesn't have a mother?"

"That's mom? That's stepmother!" I corrected his wording. I thought my grandpa must have never heard the story of Snow White, so it's useless to tell him that poisoned apples need friendship. "If she comes in Doesn't it mean that he forgot about my mother? Can my grandparents be happy? My grandparents are my future backers. If they are not happy, do I still have a backer? If anyone makes me have no backer in the future, I will kill her !"

My dad was about to undo his belt and whip me with trembling fingers.I was stopped by my grandfather lightly, "Wait another two years. What Qingzai said makes sense. You have to save some face for your in-laws."

Grandpa spoke, and my dad sprained immediately.

I sat on my grandpa's lap and thought triumphantly: Who the hell dares to make me Snow White, I'll feed him poisonous apples!

When I was 12 years old, I sat at the dinner table and said to my father: "Okay, I don't care about your business."

The old man was surprised and delighted, "Have you figured it out?"

"What are you thinking about?" I sneered, "I'm too lazy to care about you. You can marry whoever you like. Anyway, I will live on campus when school starts. From now on, out of sight, out of mind."

Dad, "..."

When I was 15 years old, I announced to my grandfather: "I will not go to military school in the future, absolutely not. If anyone tells me this again, I will run away from home!"

Dad and Grandpa looked at each other.Then the old man gritted his back molars and slapped me on the back of the head, "You are a fucking bandit! You are here to beat me!"

When I was 17 years old, I was a sophomore in high school and started doing business with my older brothers in the military compound.Cough, cough, everyone knows this, so I won't go into details.Also in that year, I had my first bodyguard.He is the nephew of Uncle Fu's family, my father's adjutant, and he also retired from the army. He is a very capable person.Can no longer play with guns because of a broken finger.But the kicks are great.

He was also my first man.

His name is Fu Chunning.

Chunning.

The spring is warm and the flowers are blooming, and the days are peaceful.

"Good name." The person next to me was also a little bit drunk, and sighed drunkenly, "What a good name. Uh, there is another word that is the same as my name."

I couldn't help pinching his face.The slightly drunken cheeks are greasy white with a light pink, and the amber pupils are also covered with a film of water, and the fine lights flow in them, which is so beautiful that it makes people's heartbeat.

Youning, Chunning, I don't know why I have such a fate with the word Ning in my life.

"What happened later?" You Ning held up a beer can and looked at me with a smile, "Did you fall in love with him?"

"Later..." I was silent for a while.I haven't thought about the past for a long time. When I first heard such a question from him, I felt a little dazed.

"He followed me all the time." I looked down at the beer can in his hand, and couldn't move my eyes for a while.Yan Youning is of mixed race, her skin is fairer than ordinary people, her fingers are slender, and her shape is beautiful.This is a pair of hands that have never done rough work, delicate and soft.Hold in hand, soft, very cute.

It is completely different from Chunning.

Chunning was a soldier, and he could feel the thick and hard calluses growing between his fingertips even with his eyes closed.His fingers are long, with thick knuckles, and even the scars between the knuckles are full of strength.He is a very quiet person, he speaks very little, and his eyes are silent and gentle.Always follow behind me silently, like a shadow.Even if you don't look back, you know he must be there.

He's been my shadow ever since I've known him.Wherever I go, he follows.Or it is for this reason that I have been used to his existence for a long time, but I have also ignored his existence.

until that day.

That day was actually an ordinary social gathering. A few close friends got together to eat and drink, and then went to another place to continue drinking and playing cards.They are all very close friends. Chunning didn't need to accompany me, but when I was about to leave, I called him anyway.After drinking for three rounds, I came out of the box to answer the phone.Before the phone was connected, out of the corner of his eye, he saw two entangled figures at the corner of the corridor.

It's Chunning.

I froze.Some couldn't believe their eyes.Because the impression this silent man left on me was so ascetic, I almost forgot that he was also a man in his prime and in need.What surprised me the most was the man in his arms.It was not a woman, but a boy about my age.A boy with delicate features, his age is between teenager and youth.Almost his whole body was wrapped around Chunning's body, and the exposed half of his face was blushing.

The phone rang again in my hand.But my eyes still stopped on Chunning, as if I was stupid, I couldn't take it back.

I can't describe how I feel.After the initial surprise, it was more of an indescribable depression - just like the feeling when I was a child when I saw my toys being touched by others.

Chunning, who is so vigilant, naturally saw me too.Across the eye-obstructing boy, he stared at me motionlessly.But those hands were still slowly walking on the boy's back.

I never knew that Chunning's eyes could be provocative, even... provocative.

Before I knew it, I was already striding towards him.I pulled the obtrusive boy away, pushed him aside, grabbed Chunning's collar amidst his screams, and dragged him out all the way.Chunning didn't resist at all, silently and docilely let me drag him stumbling out.

I was going crazy with rage.

Although at that time I didn't know why I was so angry.

I pushed him into the car and wiped his mouth desperately.And his hands, I can't wait to chop them off.

Chunning quietly let me toss about, until I took out a wet towel from the car to wipe his hands, then grabbed my wrist with a backhand, and asked quietly, "Why are you angry?"

All the rage in my heart became stiff because of his words.

why?

why?

Chunning smiled quietly, he pulled me in front of him, and gently kissed my mouth.

That year, I was nineteen.

He is 26.

"What happened next?" the slightly drunk young man was still asking stupidly.

But I no longer have the interest to continue talking.

It can be seen that this bar named "Second Night" is a place where Yan Youning can relax.Perhaps because of his status as an artist and the relationship between Guan Yufei, Guan Yufei did his best in terms of security.Without reporters, even if someone played too much, there would be no gossip.After coming and going, many artists are willing to come here for a drink or two in their spare time.

Today's gathering is actually for Li Ao and An He, it is said that it is the second anniversary of their cohabitation.I was not familiar with these two people, but Yan Youning has a very good friendship with them.So I've been around him for a long time, and I know all of his friends.

I can see that Li Ao is a very honest person.To Yan Youning, he is like his own younger brother, who takes care of his clothes in life, and seems to pay a lot of attention to emotional matters.Seeing me dragging Yan Youning to sit next to me, I glanced over from time to time, looking thoughtful.I think he probably also saw that You Ning and I were teasing Ming Feng.

I know You Ning has me in her heart.It's the kind of feeling similar to Guan Yufei's, where I feel secure when leaning on me.Maybe it's because I have always been too indulgent to him in front of him, like pampering a beloved child.Over time, he really spoiled him like a child, who can act coquettishly and willfully in front of me and do whatever he wants.

But Ming Feng didn't understand.So every time he saw Yan Youning leaning on my shoulder, he would turn red with anger.And then this bad boy next to me would have a blast.

Seeing him smiling makes me feel better too.

I once thought about chasing You Ning to my side and living it for a long time day and night.

really thought about it.

However, in the end, I still think it's best as it is now.

He leaned on me, played tricks with a smile on his face, and completely took me as his backing. For me, that was the greatest satisfaction.

As long as he is happy, I don't think I need anything else.Because my expectations for another person were finally fulfilled in You Ning.

"What happened afterwards?" You Ning asked me relentlessly, "Did you fall in love with him?"

I smiled wryly, "I was too young at that time, so I didn't know what to love or not to love. I was happy when he followed me. I can't see him going to be with others. It's like a child occupying his own toy and refusing to be with him." It’s the same as distributing it to others.” And he has always indulged my wantonness.No matter what lawless deeds I did, he was silently by my side.

At that time, I always felt that such days would last forever.

You Ning turned his head to look at me, his eyes were so quiet that it was almost pity.But I suddenly felt uneasy in my heart. The uneasiness of being seen through by others made me feel uncomfortable all over.

I coughed twice, and lowered my voice to tease him to change the subject, "Hey, hey, bad boy. You've already made the third child so angry. What else do you want?"

You Ning quickly glanced at Ming Feng's direction, and when he turned his head, there was a bit of childish narrowness on his face, "I just want to see how long he can endure. He is obviously not a patient person, but he just pretends to be like others." Gentleman. Tch."

I reached out and pinched his reddish cheeks, "You've learned badly, You Ning."

You Ning squinted at me, and asked disdainfully, "So what if I fail in my studies?"

"Not much." I pulled him closer, lowered my head and kissed him lightly on the forehead, "If you fail to learn, you will be my good baby."

You Ning hid for a while, and warned me half-truthfully, "If you do this again, I should misunderstand that you like me."

"I like you." I hugged his shoulders, "I like you from the very beginning."

Youning asked back, "You said you like it, but it's different from your Chunning."

"Is it different?" I lowered my eyelids and laughed silently, "But Chunning never knew..." After saying this, my nose felt a little sour for no reason.

"Ah?" You Ning was surprised, "You separated from him?"

"He's dead." I shook my head and smiled wearily. "To protect me, he was shot twice in the chest. He was out of breath before being sent to the hospital."

You Ning was dumbfounded, and looked at me helplessly, as if trying to tell whether what I said was true or not.

And how I wish it was all fake.I didn't see him lying on the steps with a pale face, his chest was bloodshot, and I didn't see him trying to force a smile on his pale face, and then he said the last sentence of his life to me.

"Come on, Qingzi, come and give me a hug."

"Come on, Qingzi, come and give me a hug."

This sentence was my nightmare for a long time.As long as you close your eyes, you can hear his slightly smiling voice speaking the same love words as usual.

Come and give me a hug.

Qingzi, come here and give me a hug.

I looked at the beautiful young man in front of me with complicated emotions. He would never know what kind of shock the same sentence and the same nightmare replayed before my eyes.I was so terrified that I started to believe that my fate was really hard.I began to believe that those rumors were true. I killed my old mother, my grandma, and then my Chunning, and then...

If that's the case, if I don't love him so much anymore, won't...he wake up?

I dare not let go of my pursuit anymore, but I am not willing to let go.

In front of him, I was in a dilemma.

What's more, there is another Ming Feng.

Taking love with a knife, for me, is not completely guilt-free.

"Do you regret it?" You Ning gently touched me with his elbow.A pair of cat-like eyes shone slyly, "You never told him you liked him, do you regret it?"

I leaned against the back of the sofa and let out a long sigh.

How can you not regret it, how can you not regret it.

But what about regretting?

I don't want to continue this topic anymore.For so many years, I must dream of Chunning every once in a while. When I thought I had forgotten him, he would always appear in my dreams, smiling silently and gently.Every time I was in a trance for a long time to come.

You Ning didn't seem to notice my lethargy, and asked again with reluctance, "If you could turn back time and let you go back to the past, what would you do?"

I know it's just a joke, but the sentence back in time makes my heart beat.

What will happen?

How can it be?

Of course, it is to hold that person tightly in my arms and protect him like he protects me, so that he will no longer have to face the dangers caused by my willfulness.I want to take him to eat the lion's head and Dongpo pork at Hongfuju. That man has always liked meat.I also want to take him to see the ancient towns and terraced fields in the south, because he was born in the north and grew up in the north, and he has never seen the apricot blossoms in the south, spring rain, small bridges and flowing water...

I want to hold him to sleep every night, and keep him in my sight all the time.

I want to kiss him, to enter his body under his tender gaze.

Lingering to death, spring night every night.

You Ning reached out and wiped my face, his expression frightened, "Are you crying?"

"No." I shook my head and lay on my back on the backrest, exhausted all over my body.Any topic about Chunning will always make me feel tired easily.

You Ning pushed me, "Brother, I want to give you something."

I laughed.He didn't know when he started to call me brother, and I got used to it.

"what?"

Yan Youning held a very thin platinum chain in his open palm, on which were tied two rings, one was slightly smaller, embedded with a teardrop-shaped emerald.The other one is slightly larger, with a round ring face, also inlaid with the same emerald gemstone, but it looks slightly smaller, and there are four more golden sunstones around it.

"Still a couple?" I pulled something in his hand, "What do you mean?"

Yan Youning solemnly put this group of strange things into my palm, "Wear it close to your body."

He said it solemnly, so I stretched my neck and let him wear it around my neck.The two rings rubbed against the skin of his chest, bringing up a strange touch like energy fluctuations.

There is a slight strange feeling in the chest.

In order to hide that strange feeling, I smiled and pinched You Ning's face, "Why do you still think of giving me a ring? Didn't you propose to my brother?"

You Ning laughed mysteriously, "Brother, if something strange happens to you, you must go to an expert in the jewelry business and ask about the origin of this pair of rings."

"Huh?" I didn't understand, "What do you mean?"

You Ning smiled like a cat stealing fish, "I won't say anything first. If nothing strange happens to you, take it as my wish for your early happiness. If it happens, you must Remember to inquire about the origin of the pair of rings. Don't forget."

"Okay." I answered casually.

Probably because I drank too much wine, when I got home I was very dizzy, and my temples seemed to be pricked by needles.

uncomfortable.

But no matter how uncomfortable it is, I am the only one.

I lit a cigarette and pushed open the window to get some air.Only then did I realize that it was raining outside the window at some point.The drizzle like ox hair was silent, but there was a cold air that soaked into the bones silently all the way.

Like the night Chunning left.

This is the first property under my name.It is also the place where Chunning and I have been living.After he left, everything remained the same here.I come back occasionally for a sit down.When I'm faced with a particularly difficult task, or when I'm particularly tired.

Just never came back for the night.

The nights without him are long and cold, and it seems that no matter how hard you suffer, you will never see the dawn.

unbearable.

A pair of arms reached out from behind silently, enveloping me in a warm and generous embrace like they had done countless times before.

Fog started to form outside the window at some point, and a mass of whiteness covered the nearby buildings.It seems that there is only a cloud of mist and two hugging people left in this world.

I think I'm probably dreaming.

But this dream was so real, it was so real that I didn't want to wake up.

I looked at the hands clasped around my waist. They were Chunning's hands, with thick joints and dark skin.Because of the phalanx injury, the little finger is always slightly curled up unconsciously. Every time I have sex/love, I will kiss his little finger over and over again. How can I admit my mistake?

I broke his hand away, turned around, and saw Chunning, who had been thinking about it day and night, standing behind me.A neat crew cut, a well-defined face, deep eyebrows and...a gentle smile that never changes all year round.

I held his face in disbelief, "Chunning?"

Chunning blinked, smiled, took my hand like he had done countless times before, and gently tugged in his direction, "Come on, Qingzi, come and hug me."

I cried like a child.