After being reborn, I was haunted by paranoia again

Gu Jing didn't know that the first time he saw him was not by the freezing pool, but in the classroom at five or six in the afternoon where the afterglow of the sun was about to fade away.

It was in the extremely hot and green summer when he was 15 years old, Gu Jing entered his classroom step by step accompanied by the sound of cicadas singing, since then it seemed like a prelude had been drawn, which made him pay more attention Think of this boy with deer eyes.

"Why don't you go home?" The boy smiled with his eyes bent before he could speak, not at all afraid of strangers, looking at him with moist and clear eyes.

"What does it have to do with you? What are you doing here?" At that time, he was slightly taken aback by such eyes, and then responded indifferently as always.

"I'm sorry, I came in because I looked at you from the window looking uncomfortable. Are you okay? Do you want to help?" The young man may have seen his pale face, and his eyes were fixed with worry. with him.

It's just a meddling person, so don't worry about it.

Thinking like this, he continued to flip through the book with his right hand, while his left hand pressed on the position of his left abdomen and stomach.During this period of time, his diet was not regular, and his stomach pain was tormenting him repeatedly like a gangrene.

"You have a stomachache, don't you? Have you brought any medicine? If you have any, take a few pills quickly." The boy said nervously, his tone hurried and flustered.

He lowered his head, fluttered his long eyelashes, pretended not to hear, and continued to read the math book.

"Why don't you talk? Aren't you in severe pain? Reading can help you relieve the pain, can't it?" The boy's brows were filled with anger, and he accused him angrily.

His hands that turned the pages of the book paused slightly, and he couldn't figure it out, how could there be such a person in this world, he was so cold and indifferent, why could the other party stick to him with a hot face?Is this young man so ignorant of practice?

"Or are you actually in so much pain that you can't speak? Forget it, I'll go and pour you some warm water, and you drink first." The water cup ran to the water dispenser to pour water.

"Here, here you go, drink it quickly, it might relieve the pain." The boy also helped him unscrew the bottle cap, as if he was afraid that he would not even have the strength to open the bottle cap due to the pain.

The young man was buzzing around his ears like a little bee. Although he knew that drinking hot water was useless, he thought he was noisy, so he still took a few sips of the water glass perfunctorily.

Then he raised his head and glanced at the young man, intending to express: I drank the water, why don't you leave?

The young man foolishly misunderstood what he meant, and foolishly thought he was thanking him, his round eyes were bent into two crescent moons, and he waved his hands repeatedly, "I know you want to thank me, you don't have to be so polite, you should .Are you much better now? I see that your complexion has recovered a little, not as pale as before. "

Chickens talk to ducks, and play the piano to cows.He simply kept silent and kept silent.

However, the young man talked to him a lot with great enthusiasm. It wasn't until it was getting late that the young man reluctantly said goodbye, "I'll come to see you again tomorrow afternoon. Remember to take some stomach medicine when you go back, did you hear me?"

It's just a stranger who doesn't even know his name, why should he care about whether he is uncomfortable or not?

With a stern face, he pretended nothing had happened and left.Even though he appeared to be like this, in fact, when school was over on the second day, he actually looked towards the door of the class frequently.

As he said, the boy still came to look for him in the afternoon.The boy is like a talkative upper body, there is an endless stream of topics to talk to him every time.

The young man came for seven days in a row, and before leaving on the seventh day, he said with a desolate expression that he would never come again.

The teenager came here to take the exam on behalf of other schools. Because there were preliminary exams, re-examinations, and debate competitions, it lasted for a week.Now that the exams are over, it's time for the boy to return to his original school.

"In the future, you must remember to eat well, and don't have a stomachache anymore." The boy stretched out his hand probably to rub his hair, but was finally persuaded by his cold expression, and the boy withdrew his hand in a daze.

The young man was like a drop of water rippling in his world, and after causing a pool of ripples, he turned and left.

He turned his head to look at the lonely sky outside the window, thinking in his heart: Instead of this, it would be better not to show up in the first place.

Seeing the boy again is the time when summer passes and summer and autumn are handed over. Due to the cold weather, yellow leaves have begun to fly all over the sky. He stood on the podium surrounded by a crowd of black crows. When the speech was over, he looked up and saw a picture A delicate and handsome face surrounded by flowers.

"This is a flower dedicated to you. You are so powerful and excellent. I admire you so much." The boy held a large bouquet of flowers and stretched out his hands and handed them to him.

The boy's appearance was not much different from Xia Tian's. His eyes were shining with admiration, but they were clear and clean.

The boy doesn't remember him...

He thought about it, and for some reason felt a little sad and a little unwilling.

Why?Obviously it was still about Xia Tian, ​​why did he often recall that ordinary memory over and over again, but the boy completely lost his memory?

Since then, the balance he thought was completely broken, because of the relationship in the same school, he began to pay attention to the boy's every move.

This is why he was the first person to know the news after the boy fell into the water.

He struggled to pull the boy up from the icy cold pool, and the boy looked at him with red eyes from crying.He took the boy back to the dormitory and asked him to change his clothes. The boy was even more moved.

Since then, there has been a little tail behind him, and that little tail is called Juvenile.Since he rescued the boy from the pool, the boy's love for him is obvious.

"Xiang Yu...Xiang Yu...Xiang Yu..." The young man often called out his name, and looked at him awkwardly with a pair of bright eyes, as if he was afraid that others would not see that he liked him.

The accumulated liking made the teenager blatantly pursue him, and the teenager even tried his best to move to his dormitory.

"What a coincidence, I didn't expect to be transferred to your dormitory." The boy pulled a suitcase and knocked on the door of his dormitory. When the boy bowed his head, his hair was so hairy that it made people want to touch it.

The boy said "what a coincidence", but in fact he knew that it was not a coincidence at all, he knew that the boy did it on purpose.

The teenager entered his world early, and now he has also entered his private domain, starting a "cohabitation" life with him.The boy was as ignorant and innocent as ever, completely unaware of how hard he endured every time the boy got so close to him.

"What are you doing?" When he came back from get out of class one day, when he opened the door of the bathroom, he found that the boy had no shirt on and was squatting on the floor washing clothes with only a pair of school pants on.

He took a closer look, and found that his clothes were in the basin, and the young man's slender white fingers were rubbing his underwear.

Just one glance made his Adam's apple roll slightly and his blood boil.

"Sorry, I accidentally overturned the clothes rail, and all your clothes fell to the ground and got wet. I wanted to wash it for you secretly and hang it back to dry, but I didn't expect you to come back early."

Hearing his voice suddenly, the boy was obviously frightened, and after explaining in a panic, he quickly hid the pair of black tight pants under other clothes.

He nodded with his usual face, turned around and left pretending he didn't see anything, but when he got out of the bathroom and stayed alone in the dormitory hall, his breathing was short and hot, and only he knew it.

Jingjing, if you like me so stupidly, how can you ask me to treat you well?

How can I bear it?He felt that he was about to explode, but the boy was still teasing him invisibly.

Invisible teasing without knowing it is the most deadly situation.

He liked the young man far more deeply than the young man liked him, but his emotional deficit since he was a child discouraged him. He didn't want to give anyone the possibility of hurting the young man, not even himself.

Until he saw the boy's diary, the straightforward but undisguised love was revealed to him in the form of words.

"February 2, Monday, sunny. I still like him as always. He got up later than me today, and I sat by his bed and stared at his sleeping face. He is so good-looking, I am not afraid that I like him The man, I saw it for a long time and couldn't help touching his lips, imagining how it would feel if I could kiss him one day."

"Friday, February 2th, cloudy day. I saw a girl chatting up with him today, and he also called back, and the girl obviously liked him, but he still called back. Why do so many people like him? I'm good." I think he can only belong to me alone, and I really want him to only talk to me. I am a little depressed today, so I won’t write in the diary anymore.”

"Thursday, March 3th, Gale. He smiled at me today, it's really not my illusion! He smiled at me today...he smiled at me today...he smiled at me today! I really I'm so happy, I don't know how to describe it."

"Wednesday, April 4th, drizzle. I heard a nice song, saw a tree with a weird shape, and met a white cat. I couldn't wait to share it with him. I think I like it It won't change, I will love him day in and day out."

"I have decided that tomorrow I will formally confess my love to him, wish me good luck, and I wish myself good luck."

He closed the boy's diary and put it back to its original place calmly, his heart started beating wildly like a thunderous drum, thinking that he would hear the boy's confession tomorrow, he couldn't sleep almost all night.

The young man really came to confess to him, he was overjoyed, but secretly worried, he had never liked anyone so much before, he was afraid of his reckless ignorance, he was afraid of his excessive paranoid desire, he was afraid of his inexplicable possessive desire, he Afraid of his anoaf, all of this would scare the teenager and hurt him.

This caused him to worry about gains and losses, and sometimes he would be indifferent to young people.

Later, for some unknown reason, the boy suddenly changed his attitude one day, and said that he wanted to break up with him.

He never thought that the boy would break up so easily, and for no reason.He was furious, and began to reflect in his heart whether it was his indifference to the boy before that made the boy so disappointed in him that he finally decided to leave him?

He began to pursue the boy again, and tried hard to overcome the trouble of lack of affection in his heart.

Later, he had a dream. In the dream, he saw that he was drugged by Duan Sicen, and then the young man misunderstood him and turned around and left. As a result, the young man was hit and killed by someone sent by Duan Sicen.

Even though it was just a dream, he was still terrified, so he did not hesitate to break through all obstacles and put Duan Sicen in a mental hospital.

He will not let anyone have the possibility of hurting Gu Jing, not even himself.

Gu Jing was the person he fell in love with in the summer when he was 15 years old, and he will continue to love him until his death.

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