Jiaojiu Nuanyang

"The transfer order has come down." Like a repeat of the past, Chen Jingdong and his brother leaned against the railing of the balcony to smoke.Across the door, there are several people talking and laughing happily, Mother Chen, Lin Qian, Yue Yue, and Fang Kun.their family.

"Does it have to run that far?" Chen Jingxi took a puff of smoke slowly: "Or are you running away from something?"

"What can I escape?" Chen Jingdong laughed at himself: "I'm already 29. Instead of being an eyesore to you and worrying mom, why not go back to the old army and try to make use of the remaining heat."

"You also know that you are 29?" Chen Jingxi's expression was as if nothing had happened, but the words he said hit the nail on the head: "Are you two confessing?"

After hesitating for a few seconds, Chen Jingdong nodded.A little irritated and a little outrageous: "Before Xiaokun moves to live on campus, let me wait for him for three years."

"What do you think?" Chen Jingxi's hand holding the cigarette trembled imperceptibly.

"I don't know." Chen Jingdong breathed out: "I know it's the best way to be apart for a while. But I can't make myself stuck in the same place, and I think of him when I go home, it's really fucking crazy. "

Chen Jingxi smiled: "Back then you were transferred back to the logistics department of city A in order to avoid Gao You's sacrifice. Now you have to go back because of Fang Kun's emotional pressure? Chen Jingdong, are you like this? Let me tell you a joke that is not funny at all, the army is Is your house open?"

"Brother." Chen Jingdong gritted his teeth, and simply said: "I'm not running away. I admit that I returned to City A because I couldn't face Gao You's sacrifice. For so many years, this incident has become my heart disease. I can't dig it out and I can't ignore it. That small stone reminds me all the time that deserters are shameful. This time, I want to go back and face the ones I left behind, and untangle my heart. As for Fang Kun, "Chen Jingdong He scratched his hair, and said in a low voice, "I want to separate and deal with it coldly. If he still hasn't changed after three years, I don't want to let him go."

With a long sigh, Chen Jingxi didn't know what to say: "Did you tell him? About the transfer to the field troops?"

"Not yet." Chen Jingdong was also a little apprehensive about this: "Let me think about it. They start classes on the seventh day of junior high school. I told him before."

"Aren't you afraid that he will cry and accuse you of abandoning him?" Brother Dang put out a half-smile and put out his cigarette butt on the balcony: "Promise to give him three years to grow up, and transfer him back to the field army behind his back. What does this belong to?" What about the nature?"

"Is that how bad I am in your eyes?" Chen Jingdong was also afraid of his brother: "Make it clear what needs to be said. It is also a test for the two of us to go forward. Don't laugh at me, brother. I really like him. I have thought about it. I will take advantage of the past few years to make up for the regrets of those years. I don’t want to be promoted or prove anything. I just want peace of mind. Where did I fall? , and the blood and courage to get up on the spot. Xiaokun and I, if we really get to that point, brother, don’t worry, I will take the initiative to apply to take off this uniform and go to the place.”

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It is a rare warm time for two people under one roof.

Chen Jingdong was reluctant, and kept procrastinating until the afternoon of the sixth day, when Fang Kun started to pack his clothes and prepare to go back to the dormitory. Only then did someone bite the bullet and confess honestly.

"Back to the field troops?!" Fang Kun's reaction was quite fierce: "What do you mean?"

The man swallowed quietly, and tried his best to put on a very peaceful attitude: "The old political commissar wants me to go back and help him. It just so happens that there is such an opportunity, I..."

"Chen Jingdong." The boy's face turned red with anger, "Did you run so far to avoid me? Is it not enough for me to live in school?"

"What nonsense are you talking about!" Chen Jingdong tried to pat his head like he did at first, but was slapped open by the boy.

"Am I talking nonsense, you know it well." Fang Kun's eyes were red, and those things that were trying to bear it, were stained little by little, and crushed him: "I think I have been following the rules for the past six months. It's written in the letter of commitment, study hard, work hard, don't fight, don't cause trouble, and don't fall in love early, you clearly promised me to consider it!"

With an old face on his face, Chen Jingdong scratched his short hair embarrassingly, he was a little embarrassed to speak, and he couldn't bear the elder's posture: "This has nothing to do with the promise letter. To tell you the truth, I am almost a waste as an agency soldier. The old political commissar I mentioned it the first time I came here, I was worried about you all the time, so I didn't move..."

Fang Kun sneered: "Don't worry about it now, do you? Since I said that I intend to act like a man, I started to bear it. Do you think you are finally relieved?"

Chen Jingdong was about to throw himself up in anger: "I found out that you are really capable. Fang Kun, don't you know what I mean to you? I want to get rid of you in a hurry? Where's your brain?"

"It's flooded!" The child said angrily, "I didn't say you treated me badly, I know you just want to be my uncle, my brother, and my family! You just—"

Those vigorous emotions couldn't be suppressed, Chen Jingdong pulled the nagging child with his head hurting, and for the first time he hugged him in his arms regardless, firm, not sweet talk but gnashing his teeth, it was heart-pounding.

"Fang Kun, I really want to strangle you!"

After hesitating for a second, Fang Kun stretched out his hand and hugged the man's waist tightly, his tone was the shallow hope of a drowning man hugging driftwood: "Brother, you won't leave me alone, right? You like me a little bit, don't you? "

"I have explained to Chen Jingxi and Chu Rong that they will help you deal with anything." Chen Jingdong selectively ignored the latter sentence: "If Fang Wei troubles you, either my brother or Chu Rong can settle it. .I didn't leave you alone, not now, nor ever."

The slender arms and legs in his arms, which were clearly a circle smaller than his own, miraculously stopped trembling, and a muffled voice came out of his arms: "Remember what you said, I will go to the university with the admission letter from the university. Looking for you, let's see how you still play tricks. Chen Jingdong, you are so cruel."

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Three years is like a white horse passing by.

Two and a half years, to be exact.

Chen Jingdong set off after completing the formalities in early February and drinking the department's practice wine, and he left for two and a half years.

Reborn is too exaggerated, but for Chen Jingdong these two and a half years, it is definitely a process comparable to the nirvana of the phoenix.

Gao You's influence on him, thanks to Fang Kun, is no longer so serious that the gun will shake at the end, but in the past two years in the logistics department, mediocrity has almost smoothed his sharpness, and many things have to be picked up. It is even more difficult when you are young and vigorous in your early teens.

Even if it is a civilian job, Chen Jingdong does not allow himself to lower the bottom line and relax those requirements.

He went out to practice with the recruits, accompanied him in field training, and shot targets in actual combat——

In the first recovery shooting, Chen Jingdong was stabbed into a glass heart all over the place, and he couldn't hold it together.

The sound of gunfire whirling in the ear canal, the painful recoil on the shoulder, the familiar smell of gunpowder smoke in the breath.

Ten shots, 69 points.

The familiar rough men didn't consider his self-esteem, they all laughed and laughed, Lu Ganning even poked wherever it hurt, teasing Chen Jingdong that he was older than his 60-year-old man.

The sharpshooter of the past, the king of guns, is now inferior to the recruits.

The smashed Chen Jingdong picked up the bones bit by bit, used tenacity as the foundation, threaded the thread desperately, and sweated, step by step, he reshaped an iron-blooded and proud man, no longer afraid.

It was in the middle of the second year that Chen Jingdong took the time to apply for Feiying.

He was going to see his brother, his bloodless but always proud comrade-in-arms, Gao You.

All the members of Flying Eagle who died were buried in the Loyalty Hall.It's just that most of them are a sign and a photo, behind a young smiling face, or a set of white-washed camouflage uniforms, or souvenirs such as nameplate armbands.

The day Chen Jingdong went was hot and dry, and the heavy rain did not feel cool at all. Instead, it was filled with a dull earthy smell, making it hard to breathe.

Zhao Quan accompanied him to Zhongyi Hall.

This is the first time Chen Jingdong has entered the Loyalty Hall.

When Gao You died, he didn't dare, so he fled back to City A. After so many years, he finally did enough mental construction, and walked back dignifiedly.

Zhao Quan was a saw-mouth gourd. Even though he had ten thousand words in his mind, he finally just patted Chen Jingdong on the shoulder: "Talk to Gao You. Let's have dinner together at night and arrange for someone to take you down the mountain." After speaking, he left, leaving Leaving Chen Jingdong alone, looking at that forever 23-year-old smiling face, I feel pain and shame.

"Gao You, I'm here to see you." As soon as the words fell, tears flowed out of nowhere.Chen Jingdong sniffed, and simply sat down cross-legged: "Do you think I'm so stupid? I've been cowardly talking about a memorial tablet, and it's been so many years? Brother, don't blame me, me," the man said with a choked voice. He wiped his face indiscriminately: "I'm cowardly, buddy admits it. Gao You, if you can hear it, you must be laughing like crazy with your hips on your hips. Because of you, I was transferred back to the logistics department of city A , and because of you, I mustered up the courage to transfer back. Brother can’t go back to Feiying, whether it’s skill or physical strength, or even this leg,” Chen Jingdong tapped his injured leg: “I can only help Political Commissar Lu Hit it, but it's different here. How can I put it? I feel like I'm alive again."

"Gao You, I couldn't see it back then, and even developed resentment and suspicion. In fact, as early as the day we put on the military uniform and the eagle armband, we were ready to sacrifice at any time. We enjoyed the The glory and pride of the eagle, we should also shoulder the greater burden and danger that comes with it. If I fell down at that time, I would not have been shaken. But watching you fall in front of me, that share A test of humanity and discipline, my mother... Ha, are you going to praise me for being eloquent now? Nonsense! If you had been with the political commissar Lu for two years, you would be able to talk about cross talk with your lips. With a draft."

The man stretched out his hand and flicked the photo: "When I came back, my dad asked me if it was worth it. To be honest, I was also thinking at the time, is it worth it? But now, oh, I have to say it's fucking worth it .Fortunately, I did not retire step by step in the logistics department. Fortunately, I still have the face to come back to visit you. Gaoyou, I have seen many problems clearly in the past two years. I have never seen myself clearly and know my own problems like today. Jin Liang, I know where I should go. Do you know? The first time I shot a target after I came back, I almost laughed at Political Commissar Lu and the others. Smile, I can bear it. Now, if you don’t brag, even if you can’t reach us The peak level of missions together is also the absolute leader in the entire XXXX field force, the first signboard."

The heavy rain outside the window gradually subsided, pattering, lingering and affectionate.

The man sitting on the ground in the window poured a glass of wine for his brother and put it in front of the photo: "Gaoyou, you are my best brother, in the past, and in the future. Dude, tell you something, you can't laugh at me " Quietly, Chen Jingdong snorted, unable to hold back: "If you are still here, I might not have the guts to tell you face to face. Dude, falling in love with a little guy is the most deviant thing in my life Yes. But," the man lowered his head, unconsciously drawing his fingers on the ground: "I don't regret it."

Last November, Fang Kun's birthday, Chen Jingdong took a day off, and went back quietly without telling anyone.

The Chen family helped Fang Kun celebrate his birthday as always. Mother Chen specially ordered the most popular 3D cake, and took several photos when Fang Kun made a wish and blew out the candles.

When Chen Jingdong received the photo sent to him by Chen Jingxi on WeChat, he was alone in the "little home" of the two, acting like a thief and not even daring to turn on the lights.

Fang Kun's breath filled his breath, penetrating into his heart and lungs, making him more drunk than old wine.

In the photo, his teenager has grown up.A little of the youthful roundness faded between the eyebrows and eyes, and gradually took on the appearance of a youth.

Chen Jingdong looked greedily, his rough fingers flicked awkwardly along the outline of the photo.Nice eyebrows, nice eyes, nice nose bridge, nice mouth...

Chen Jingdong thought he was crazy.After being apart for such a long time, those thoughts and loves have not faded at all, but have become clearer and stronger.

The distance and time made him gradually see one thing clearly.

Chen Jingdong is not gay, he just likes Fang Kun.This person tied all his emotions, and there was no room for anything else in his eyes.

Chen Jingdong counted the time, went to Fang Kun's bed and lay down, and when he got up, he restored the sheets to the original state without any trace.

He also saw a "gift" on the desk that surprised him.

On a piece of draft paper, there were a few mathematical formulas that he could no longer understand, and the three words "Chen Jingdong" were densely written in other places.Some of those strokes are correct and some are messy, some are gentle and some are strong through the back of the paper.Chen Jingdong could almost see that Fang Kun was sitting under the lamp, either gnashing his teeth or writing with joy.

He didn't dare to take this piece of paper away, even if he wanted to die.

After taking a picture with his mobile phone, Chen Jingdong turned off the desk lamp and quietly left the room.

How did he come and how did he return to the army.He didn't dare to meet Fang Kun, and he couldn't, because of the three-year agreement, he wouldn't break the rules and interfere with the boy's decision.

It's just that this trip wasn't fruitless.He knew Fang Kun's current intentions, and received the photo sent to him by his elder brother showing mercy.contented.

While waiting at the airport, Chen Jingdong received another photo from Chen Jingxi.A little familiar, a little funny, and a little unspeakably sad.

It's the photo of him hanging shoulder to shoulder with Gao You when he was young.It was discovered when Fang Kun was using an old mobile phone, and it was kept hidden by the child.But right now, Gao You's face was transformed into Fang Kun's face.

The photo P is not good, you can see those traces.Anyone can see that this is not the original.It's like the stupid things that fans of music and movies who are obsessed with stars will do.

"I saw this on Xiaokun's mobile phone. I have been convinced by you two for 100 years."

Chen Jingdong was sitting in the waiting hall with people coming and going, smiling like an idiot while holding his mobile phone.