Little Slag Rebirth

After Xiao Ya learned about Sun Qiwei, she wanted to end her treatment early and rush over immediately, but Mu Tianhua certainly couldn't agree. Although the other side is her friend, this side is her wife!Mu Tianhua, who loves his wife like his life, would never risk his wife's safety. Faced with Xiao Ya's "soft and hard foam", Mu Tianhua's attitude is very firm-this is a matter of principle. In other respects, his wife is the biggest. Absolutely not at all.

After the doctor repeatedly assured that Xiao Ya's current treatment was completed and she was in good condition, Mu Tianhua rushed to France with his wife to assist Sun Qiwei's treatment.

Although Sun Shaobin felt that Xiao Ya might be the one who could be of great help to his father's treatment, he still invited Mu Tianhua and his wife over. Can't ask my aunt to come over"... or something.What's more, Gailan said that people he knows well may be helpful to Sun Qiwei's condition, and Mu Tianhua, as Sun Qiwei's good friend, is naturally on the list.

Seeing his friend again, Mu Tianhua couldn't help sighing.

"You said you are so old, why are you so awkward? It doesn't matter if you do something wrong, we are a man and we must dare to admit our mistakes." At this time, Mu Tianhua's face could not find the majesty that belonged to the chairman of the Mu family in the eyes of outsiders. He was calm and steady, and his tone was familiar and teasing, as if the two were still in college more than 20 years ago, "The Sun Qiwei I know is a man who dares to do something, not a coward."

Mu Tianhua pressed the shoulder of the person opposite, "You are my brother, Mu Tianhua."

"So, hurry up and get out of your world, my brother is not someone who just blindly escapes."

***

"Uncle Qin, prepare the car, I'm going out for a while."

Uncle Qin hesitated for a moment, "Master, it's still early, do you want to go out after breakfast?"

Seeing the man shaking his head, Uncle Qin thought for a while and asked again: "Then young master..."

The man glanced in the direction of Mu Lianxia's bedroom, his cold brows softened, "Let him sleep." Yesterday Lianxia rested late, and now the little guy is sleeping soundly.

"Uncle Qin, if Lianxia wakes up, tell him I'll be back in a while."

The warm sunlight shone into the room through the light-colored curtains. The teenager on the bed was sleeping soundly with crooked eyebrows, and a few strands of hair curled up mischievously, which was reflected in the color of honey by the light.The boy unconsciously moved to the side, but frowned slightly because he didn't feel the familiar body temperature and embrace, stretched out his hand and fumbled for a while, the boy reluctantly opened his eyes, the amber eyes were still somewhat confused... ... Where is my brother?

"Brother?" The boy called a few times, but he didn't hear the man's answer. Could it be that he was having breakfast downstairs?Grab the electronic clock next to the bed...well, he woke up a little late.

The boy opened the bedroom door, only to see the housekeeper uncle standing at the door, "Uncle Qin, what's the matter?"

"Young Master, Eldest Young Master..."

"Eat breakfast downstairs?" The boy looked downstairs, but he didn't see the man, "Uncle Qin, where's brother?"

"The eldest young master went out early this morning. He said that when you wake up, he will tell you that he will be back in a while."

The boy was a little surprised, "Brother has gone out? Did he say where he went?"

Uncle Qin shook his head, hesitant to speak.

The young man looked at Uncle Qin for a while, then slowly narrowed his eyes, his expression was like a sly cat, "Uncle Qin, you know where brother is, don't you?"

"Young Master, this matter..." Uncle Qin was a little embarrassed. He had watched Mu Xiangqiu grow up, so he naturally knew what Mu Xiangqiu was going to do when he went out on this day. After so many years, he watched Also distressed.

Thinking of this, Uncle Qin glanced at the young man in front of him. However, if it is the young master, it should be fine. The eldest master has always treated the young master differently. If the young master can accompany him, the eldest master may feel better.

Sitting in the car, Mu Lianxia's expression was covered by her drooping eyelids, only her long eyelashes trembled with her breathing, and as the destination approached, the fingers under the cuffs slowly clenched.

The direction of the car is the cemetery.

Rows of steles stand quietly on this land, and under each stele live the dead who have been sleeping for a long time. They used to be fresh lives, but now they can only sleep here forever. The troubles in the world are full of love and hatred Cut off, they fell asleep unconsciously, and the past had nothing to do with it anymore.

A few withered and yellow leaves were swayed by the wind, and finally fell on the gray ground. Except for the wind and fallen leaves, there were almost no other sounds.The young man walked slowly among the stone monuments in the silence, and he couldn't help thinking, if he hadn't been reborn, would he still be lying quietly under a tombstone now, without breathing, without body temperature, without consciousness, just sleeping for a long time .

The boy stopped.

The man stood silently in front of a tombstone. He stood upright and upright as always, but Mu Lianxia felt that the silent back was somewhat desolate and lonely.Across several rows of tombstones, the young man looked at the man's back from a distance. From his angle, he could only see the corners of the man's tightly pursed mouth and the resolute arc of his chin.

It took a long time for the young man to approach step by step, and the man's deep outline gradually became clear. Those black eyes were quietly watching the photo on the tombstone, as if he had no emotion at all.

The boy blinked away the moisture in his eyes, and showed a warm and bright smile at the man, "Brother."

A trace of surprise flashed in the man's eyes, "Lian Xia, why are you here?"

The boy shook the paper bag in his hand, and said as if asking for credit: "Bring breakfast for brother."

"Uncle Qin said that you left without breakfast. Brother, you are wrong. If you don't eat breakfast, you will not grow taller, uh..." He sneaked a glance at the tall man who was a head taller than himself. , the boy paused, "Anyway, breakfast is very important, so I have to eat it."

Taking out a bun and putting it to the man's mouth, the boy said, "Eat it quickly, or it will get cold in a while."

After speaking, the young man seemed to have thought of something, turned his head to look at the tombstone, and said with a smile: "Auntie, you don't mind... right?"

Those quiet eyes stared at the young man, with a gentle expression slowly overflowing, the man took a bite of the steamed stuffed bun from the young man's hand, and then pushed the steamed stuffed bun to the young man's mouth.

Eh?The boy blinked suspiciously, won't you eat?

The man rubbed the boy's head, his tone was very serious, but there was a little smile in his eyes, "Lian Xia, if you don't eat breakfast, you won't grow taller."

Well, he did run out without eating breakfast, isn't he in a hurry... But don't always bring up the issue of height, he will grow taller again!

He took a hard bite of the steamed stuffed bun, and the young man looked so cute while puffing out his cheeks and chewing non-stop. The man couldn't help but stretch out a finger and poke it lightly.

"Wok, pot..." Because there was food in his mouth, the boy's pronunciation was a little vague. The boy with fried hair opened a pair of big round eyes and stared at the man, although he tried hard to express "I "Very angry" mood, but it looks more like being coquettish, Mu Xiangqiu's heart itches when he sees it, he stretches out his finger and pokes it, and at the same time, the corner of his mouth slightly curls up, it's really... .so cute.

The boy who "stared" several times to no avail could only lower his head helplessly, and took another big bite of the steamed stuffed bun, so that he wasn't dazzled by his brother's smile... Moreover, if he could change his mood... If it's good, let him turn into a mascot to be poked, hugged and kissed by his brother, cough, it's also possible.

"Lian Xia," the man paused, "this is my mother."

The teenager held the man's hand, "She is very beautiful."

The woman in the photo, or the girl is more appropriate, this is a woman who is completely different from Xiao Ya, even when she smiles, her brows and eyes are full of stubbornness, and the faint sharpness is very similar to that of a man.For such a woman, Mu Lianxia couldn't imagine how she accepted the family's arrangement for a commercial marriage.

The young man gently drew the outline of the woman with his fingers, and there was a cold temperature under his fingertips. He looked at it carefully for a while, then turned his head and smiled at the man, "Brother, your eyebrows look the same."

The man slowly embraced the boy behind him, and put his chin lightly on the boy's shoulder like in that rainy day in the ancient town.

"I actually don't remember anything about her."

"When my mother left, I hadn't had time to remember her."

After saying these two sentences, the man fell silent. He embraced the young man, which was obviously a protective gesture, but at this moment, there was a sense of dependence in the intimacy.

The boy turned his head and rubbed the man's cheek, "Brother, I will come here with you in the future, okay?"

The man tightened his arms, "Okay."

"Hey, brother, I have something to say to my aunt."

Hearing this, the man let go of the boy and took a step back.

The boy squatted down and looked at the woman in the photo, as if he didn't know what to say, he raised his hand and scratched his head, smiling a little shyly.

"Auntie, I'm Mu Lianxia."

"I haven't been able to say thank you to you. Without you, there would be no brother."

"My brother is very powerful, you must be proud of him."

"Please don't worry, I will accompany him and take care of him, cough, although it seems that I am the one who is taken care of more..."

"I will share every bit of happiness with him. If my brother is sad, I will try my best to make him happy."

"Also, I like my brother, I like it very much."

His face was hot, but the boy's eyes were shining brightly, like stars that were particularly bright on a certain night. He stretched out his hand to the man and said, "Brother, let's go home."

In the last life, in front of a certain tombstone, the man looked at the boy and said, "Lianxia, ​​come home with me."

The boy thought, as early as that time, he should have grabbed the man's hand and said these words.It's been so long now, fortunately, there's still time.

The man held the young man's slender palm, leaned close to the young man's ear, and asked in a low voice, "I like it very much?"

He didn't get an answer, but the man laughed out in a good mood, "Lian Xia, what should I do, it seems to be more than 'like it very much'."

"Every minute, every second, a little more."

When leaving the cemetery, the man glanced back at one place.

Mu Lianxia's memory of her previous life is limited to the moment she fell from the sky, because after that, his life will be over.

As for Mu Xiangqiu, he remembered much more than Mu Lianxia.

He remembered watching the boy fall straight from the 32nd floor with his own eyes.

He remembered watching the boy slump limply on the ground in a distorted posture, quietly, as if he had fallen asleep when he was a child.

He remembered that he was sitting in the pool of dark red liquid, bit by bit pushing back the white bones protruding from the boy's body, and the boy was obediently held in his arms without crying out for pain or waking up.

He remembered that he hugged the boy for a long time, the boy's body became cold, and he hugged him even tighter, but he still couldn't cover him.

He remembers burying his baby in the cemetery with jasmine and hyacinths planted next to it because his baby liked it.

After that, year after year, Molly and Hyacinth opened many times.

He watched those flowers blossom and fade, and one day he finally began to admit that he had lost that child.

His baby, never coming back.

"Brother?" The hand was pulled forward by the force, the man withdrew his gaze, his eyes were filled with deep and warm colors, "Let's go home, baby."

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PS: This chapter is the last chapter of the main text. In the next three days, Sajia will repair the article. There are various thunders, bugs, etc. Of course, the possibility of further collapse after repairing cannot be ruled out... Cough, so In the past three days, please ignore the update prompts, it is Sajia who is working hard to edit the article -_-|||

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74 Fan No. [-]

A few stars flickered on the distant black sky, quietly watching the noisy world fall into a deep sleep at this time.

In the almost pitch-black night, there is a warm light persistently lighting up in the corner, illuminating a small world.

——That's the second floor of the Mu Mansion, the study of the young master of the Mu family.

The spoon came to his mouth, exuding a tempting aroma of food.

The young man stared at the documents on the table, but when the spoon was stretched out, he swallowed the food in one gulp with incomparable accuracy. The small wontons in his mouth had the perfect temperature blown by the man, which was just right.

The pale pink lips touched the snow-white ceramic spoon wall, and gradually turned bright red under the influence of heat. The gorgeous lips were gently opened, and the small tip of the tongue was stuck out to roll the food into the mouth.The soup moistened the red and tender lips, and a layer of watery light covered them, forming an especially attractive luster.

The man looked at the young man's lips that were extraordinarily rosy against the white porcelain, and his cold eyes darkened a bit.

The corners of the sharp lips evoked a gentle arc, and he withdrew his hand and took another spoonful to the young man's lips, asking:

"Is it tasty?"

Mu Lianxia nodded while chewing on the small wonton in her mouth.

Well, it's not bad, the cook at home has gotten better recently...

The kid had no idea—

It is rare for me to be angry and strong in my two lifetimes. I have worked so hard for the Mu family these days, and even had to compress my sleep time to the extreme. All kinds of actions made my elder brother feel very distressed, so I deliberately found someone from the outside to agree. The master cooks a small stove for him.

The silly boy was still muttering while eating: "What kind of shrimp are you putting in this time? It's much more delicious than before, but the stuffing is too little. You said you put it in, but he can't put more.. ...."

After staying with Feng Xin for a long time, Mu Lianxia has made great "progress" with each passing day in his understanding of the problem of eating——

What to eat with wontons?

Of course it's stuffing!

If Xiao Feng is here, he will definitely shout: "Master, you are too mean, you said that you use [my family]'s materials, receive [my family's] wages, and cook food for [me], put so little What does stuffing mean? Uh huh? What do you mean?" (The content in [] is Xiao Feng's stress plus vibrato, cough, that's it.)

and so--

Those who are close to vermilion are red and those who are close to ink are black, what the ancestors said was too correct.

Also, how important the environment is to a child's growth.

The man who was only thinking of giving his hard-working younger brother a good boost did not realize that there was something wrong with the boy's pickiness. He subconsciously glanced at the wontons in the bowl, and it seemed that they were a little too small...

"Let the kitchen put more next time." It's always good for Lian Xia to like to eat, so naturally he has to do it according to his wishes.

Thus, the chef's "stuffing problem" was finally concluded. (Kitchen master: Hello!)

After getting a satisfactory answer, the young man couldn't help but look away from the document, and turned his head to show a brilliant smile to his elder brother, even those bright amber pupils were bent into shallow crescents.

Thick and slender eyelashes lined the two crescent moons furry, blinking like a restless little tail, tickling the man's heart.

The man couldn't help approaching.

The fluffy little tail swings back and forth, making people want to hold it in the palm of their hand.

The itching in my heart became more and more unbearable——

Not enough, not far enough.

Just get a little closer, a little closer.

Finally, the man took the boy into his arms.

The strong and powerful arms lock the young man's flexible waist, in a gesture of possession and protection.

Mu Lianxia let the man hug her calmly, raised her head, and the pair of crescent moons that were smiling still blinked restlessly.

The itching in the man's heart was strangely no longer unbearable.

Together with those secret and deep desires, they gradually calmed down.

There was warmth gushing out from an unknown corner, gently comforting the beast in his heart that only he knew.

The man tightened his arms, watching the boy tilt his head in doubt, and after less than half a second of confusion, he gave up and continued to lie limply in his arms.

Such a harmless gesture that relies on trust.

The invisible little tail was still wagging playfully back and forth.

Provides a slightly itchy yet soft and warm touch.

good feeling.

In other words, it was an extremely good feeling.

Harmless and soft like a small animal that has just grown fluff, being so unreservedly trusted and dependent, warm enough to make people nostalgic, and never want to let go.

The place that had been empty for a long time was filled again. The feeling of fullness that filled the entire chest and even brought a faint pleasure-like pain finally fed the ferocious beast that kept roaring in the bottom of my heart.

The dark eyes slowly glowed with a faint but warm light, like sea water spreading circles towards the unknown edge.

The resolute to sharp lip line was almost imperceptibly soft, and gently kissed the boy's brow.

The man lowered his eyes, and there was a glint of light reflected in the depths of his dark pupils.

That is a purer, yet deeper color.

The man's embrace was so comfortable, and the tiredness that had been deliberately neglected for the past few days sneaked out. After such a short time, the boy couldn't help being tempted to fall asleep in the familiar atmosphere.

Until the forehead is moist and soft to the touch.

The boy thought about it with his already messed up head——

Hmm... kiss good night, then you can sleep.

Thinking like this, the boy rubbed against the person he leaned on, and fell asleep with peace of mind...?

Well, he actually wanted to sleep, but the one who kept harassing him, kissed his forehead and nose, kissed his nose and eyes, kissed his eyes and cheeks, kissed his cheeks and ears, kissed his ears and neck, and There is a downward trend... blah blah blah blah!What's the situation? ? ! !

Jizhongshengzhi (eh?) recalled that Mu Lianxia, ​​who should have been reading the document just a moment ago, finally realized something was wrong, and it took a while to struggle to open his eyes.

Oh, it turned out to be my brother.

What, it's my brother? !

Nonsense, of course it is brother!

——The young man who had gone through such a mental journey in an instant showed a silly smile at his elder brother, "Haha...that, I accidentally fell asleep..."

Because he was interrupted just after falling asleep, there was still some tired sleepiness and confusion in the boy's eyes, and he looked really delicious and easy to bully.

A slight smile appeared in the man's eyes, "Well, Lianxia is exhausted these days..."

Saying this, the man slowly covered the juvenile's extremely delicious lips, and the end of the words disappeared between the lips and teeth of the two touching, with some vague and intimacy, lingering and never leaving.

The man patiently licked the outside of the boy's lips with the tip of his tongue, delicately and gently moistening every shallow wrinkle. The soft tip of the tongue moved back and forth, giving the boy a slightly itchy touch.The man sucked that plump lower lip between his lips and teeth and lightly grinded it, and the itch was entangled with a faint pain, which became even more unbearable.

The young man couldn't help sticking out the tip of his tongue to lick his itchy lips, but he forgot what was waiting there all the time, and was instantly entangled by the man. He just wanted to resist, but he softened after being sucked by the other party. Without strength, he could only be dragged over and gnawed and eaten thoroughly.

The narrow and long eye tails have pleasant arcs, stupid baby, you can't always learn well.

——That’s the point, the cutest thing.

The elder brother, who had been satiated for a while, finally let go of the boy who was paralyzed into a paste again, "Lianxia, ​​it's time to sleep."

The boy nodded obediently, "Oh, I'm asleep."

Sleep... sleep sleep sleep sleep can not sleep!He hasn't finished processing the file yet.

Reason prevailed, "Documents..."

"I'll watch it tomorrow, sleep first." How could Lianxia not sleep because of that kind of thing.

Rationality continued to hold its ground, "I'm almost done, soon..."

"Then don't worry, go to bed first."

It seems to make sense... But, there is still something wrong...

Rationality is still trying to resist, "Let's go to sleep after reading it..."

The man raised his eyebrows in surprise, his baby was unexpectedly principled.

In this case...

"Hmm..." The boy who was kissed again was stunned, this... It seems that the topic changed a little too quickly?

This time the kiss was extraordinarily passionate, every secret and sensitive corner of the mouth was licked and teased several times, the little strength was dissipated with this kiss, and the body was so soft that the whole body was attached to the other party On the firm chest, when the man finally let go of himself, his tongue was almost numb.

The fiery panting hit the young man's ears, making his skin red, "Sleep first?"

Reason was finally defeated and waved the white flag, "Sleep first."

The corner of the man's lips curled up happily, and his long and narrow eyes narrowed slightly in satisfaction.

The expression at that moment was very much like a fox whose plan had succeeded.

Of course, the only person who has a chance at this time is the one who can't see it.

The moment she was hugged to the bed by the man, Mu Lianxia seemed to suddenly understand the behavior of those stupid kings in ancient and modern China and abroad that "the king will never go to court early".

...Hey, is there something wrong?

"Brother, I haven't taken a shower yet." Although he was saying this, the boy's hairy head was already impatiently buried in the soft pillow...

"It's okay, get up and wash tomorrow."

"Oh." He continued to rub the pillow without any guilt because he had the elder brother's permission.

"Brother, I haven't changed into my pajamas yet."

What to do, I'm so lazy and don't want to change, just sleep to death like this——

These are the true thoughts of this bastard child.

"Let's sleep like this." At some point, the boy's clothes had been stripped clean, and the person in his arms was feeling the delicate and supple skin under his palms. His elder brother approved with satisfaction.

Sleeping like this seems to be very comfortable, although there seems to be something wrong, but it should be okay——

The above is the mental activity of this stupid child.

Obviously tired and messed up, but I still wanted to say something. I suddenly remembered that because I was busy late in the past few nights, I always had a big "extra meal"...

"Brother, if I continue to eat like this, I might turn into a fat pig."

Big fat pig...

The man suddenly laughed out loud, "That's good too." It would be very comfortable to hug.

"But..." the boy scratched his head in distress, "the belly will become round, like a ball, um... the face will also become a big disc, and the meat on it will be Crowded together, maybe you can't even see your eyes!"

The image in my mind became clearer the more I thought about it, the serious tone of the young man was as if he had already become the "big fat pig", "It would be very inconvenient to bend over to pick up things, and I didn't climb the stairs After a few steps, I would be panting to death, and walking on the street might scare a child to tears..." It's just too scary!

Seeing the strange expression on the man's face, the boy suddenly felt uneasy for some reason, "Brother, if I really become like that, you won't want me..."

Hearing the young man's words, Mu Xiangqiu took a lot of effort not to laugh out loud. It's just... what was going on in his little head all day long.

This silence was understood by the young man as the answer he was afraid of. The elder brother must not have said it because he didn't want to hurt his feelings. In fact, he also understood that such a big fat man can't do anything, maybe he can't even take care of himself. Bai: Sajia can’t bear it anymore, let’s talk about how terrifying your image is!), who would want it......

The man managed to resist the urge to laugh, only to find that the boy's little head drooped listlessly, falling asleep?

"Lianxia?"

It took a while to hear the voice of the man in his arms, probably because his head was buried in the man's arms, the boy's voice sounded muffled and uninspired, "Then if...if I work hard Lose weight, and then managed to lose weight again... Brother, can you please don't want me..."

He clearly knows that everything is just a hypothesis, and that "big fat pig" is impossible, but as long as... as long as he thinks of the possibility of "my brother will not let me go", I can't restrain the panic and despair that spread.

It felt like the whole world supporting him had collapsed.

Not even hypothetical hypotheses want to be true.

Because that is absolutely absolutely intolerable, unbearable possibility.

The man's hand on the young man's back paused for a moment, and a complicated look flashed in his eyes, which finally turned into a silent sigh.

"Fool, even if you become a big fat pig, it's also mine, and it belongs to me alone."

......treasure.

【The treasure that belongs to me, Mu Xiangqiu, no one will give it to me. 】

The boy's ears moved when he heard the words, and he raised his head suddenly. His red eyes blinked a few times because of surprise, and they met the man's doting and tolerant eyes.

This is his familiar look.

It's always been, it hasn't changed.

He seems to have... done something stupid.

Doubting his brother's feelings for him, questioning his brother so capriciously... is simply terrible.

Changing places, if it was my elder brother who doubted himself, he would be so sad that he wished he could die.

What about my brother?

When he stupidly asked the question just now, that person didn't show anything, but would he feel sad as if he was about to die, and yet come to comfort his wayward and ignorant self?

It's... sucks, myself.

The amber pupils gradually calmed down, condensing into a pure and deep color like gold.

The boy left from the other party's arms.

The slender but equally powerful arms supported the man's side, and it was rare for the young man to look down at the man.

"Brother, even if you become a big fat pig, it's better to do something else."

"I want you."

【You will always be my elder brother, my lover. 】

【my faith. 】

"you are mine."

[This kind of feeling is originally the same. 】

【It only belongs to me, and no one will give it to me. 】

The corner of the man's lips curled into a tiny smile.

"I know."

Just like this, Mu Lianxia quietly watched the cold man below him, watching the small but warm curve of his lips.

He lowered his head and placed his lips on the man's brow, and gave his brother a goodnight kiss as the end of the conversation.

"Good night, brother."

Feeling the gentle and deep breathing of the boy in his arms, the man opened his mouth softly, responding to the boy's words just now: "Have a good dream, baby."

The palm of the hand came to the front of the body along the smooth line of the boy's back, and slid from the lower abdomen to the chest.

Silly boy, he lost weight.

The man withdrew his hand and embraced the boy again.

A faint voice resounded in the quiet night, as light as a sigh.

"Silly boy......"

The author has something to say:

I'm sorry for being waywardly gone for so long.

In fact, I don’t know if everyone will watch this extra episode now.

Not even a notification, hiding like a turtle for such a long time, disregarding your expectations and moods, I am really a very bad author.

In fact, when I wrote Xiao Zha's words at the end, what I thought in my heart was that my self-willed behavior is really bad...whether it is as an author or as an individual.

In this place of lwxs, there are so many masters that it blinds me.

A newcomer like me, Little Transparent, can really be forgotten many, many times during this period of time.

Ah, I seem to have said something very frustrating.

Just like what was written in the copy, I originally wanted to edit the article and then add more extras. I know everyone has been waiting for a long time, and I even wrote the outline.

But something happened so suddenly that caught me off guard.

I thought that such a thing would never happen again.

At least, not so fast.

Later, when I thought things were finally getting better, the big boss of life gave me another stick.

Life can always be bloodier than fiction.

This sentence is really... right, so that people don't even have the strength to be helpless.

I'm scared.

Because when I finally made up my mind to persuade myself to start coding, I found that what I wrote was so ridiculous.

I'm afraid to admit it.

The person who created "Little Slag" at the beginning can't get back that kind of mood.

I lost it.

Things happened one after another in reality, and I pressed them on my body, so that I was about to suffocate, as if I had an excuse not to code.

Don't think about it... Maybe I can't write it anymore.

Words that make readers smile when they read them.

Well, let's not talk about this process, it was not a good experience.

I wonder if everyone who has been with me for so long will be disappointed in me.

I said something stupid again, right? I'm so disappointed in myself that I'm so easily overwhelmed and ravaged by Mr. Life.

I've said a lot of nonsense, do you really want to kick me and kill your good mood for reading the article?

I am indeed a bad person.

I don’t know how everyone feels after reading this episode, I lost the previous outline.

I can't go back to the original state.

But I think, now I may also be able to code words.

With my current mood, my current perspective.

It will not be deeper than before, nor will it be outstanding than before.

It's just that I now continue the world and story I once owned.

It's really garrulous, but you who are smart must understand it.

So, I'm very worried.

But also, there was an unexpected sense of relief.

Everyone's comments allow me to read slowly and reply slowly.

There will be more episodes, but not at the same speed as before.

In the past, I was also very slow, at the speed of a turtle.

I know that you have been tolerant of me all the time.

Now, I am a little more shameless than before.

No way, I feel that although I try to stay positive, it seems that one foot has already crossed the psychological line of old age.

Then, I crawled to catch up on sleep, so no matter how enthusiastically you SM sprinkled the house for a while, I couldn't hear you.

What a messed up biological clock.

Well, don't worry about such trivial matters.