memory castration

After falling in love with Xu Yifei, I became his dog, I will never go north if told to go south, I will bite whoever is told.He only wants to give in everything and does not expect anything in return. After being despised by cold eyes, he will take the initiative to move over to him and wag his tail to make out with him.

Sometimes I feel like a saint who doesn't eat people's fireworks, and sometimes like a wretched M. Ren Zhenxin can still be indifferent to his wishful thinking after being trampled on. It's really cheap to the bone.

Once upon a time, I thought that the way of getting along with him would continue like this, but when I saw the photos of him affectionately putting rings on the famous ladies in Jiangcheng in the newspapers, I was still deeply disgusted by my past.

You have paid for such an ungrateful beast for nearly seven years, Fang Yibai, where have your IQ and dignity gone?

I organized everything in the apartment and it didn't take much time to pack.

Before I left, I threw all the food in the refrigerator into the trash can, fished out Xu Yifei’s favorite goldfish and dried them on the balcony, then cut off all his clothes, and used oil-based pens to paint all over the surrounding walls. Vented graffiti, and finally took away the bank card he left in the house.

After working so hard for so many years, it shouldn't be too much for me to get back some of my hard-earned money, right?Absolutely not too much!

Carrying the lockbox, I went to the counter to withdraw all the money, and then re-deposited it in another bank, and then drove away from the city where I had lived for nearly ten years.

Watching the familiar scenery fly by outside the glass window, I feel like a kite breaking free from the rope, starting a journey without purpose.

Even if Xu Yifei's power overwhelms the sky, I don't believe that the two will meet again this time.

One is that he doesn't bother to look for me at all, and the other is that he is only familiar with my name and knows nothing about others, although we have lived together for seven full years.

People say that husbands and wives have a seven-year itch, but I didn't expect that the two of us could have an itch. It's ironic consolation, and it's not in vain that I once loved with all my heart.

After leaving Jiangcheng, I went to Ninghai, the former residence of my childhood, where the mountains and rivers are beautiful and the air is so fresh, it is an excellent healing resort for me.

Open the window in the early morning, and the brackish sea breeze blows in with a damp breath. This kind of life is really leisurely and comfortable.

Maybe it's because I'm used to the busy life in the city, but now I'm not used to the sudden quietness.

After half a month of regular life of eating, drinking, sleeping, and walking the dog every day, I am lonelier than fireworks.

At the age of 25, although my career has been muddled and almost nothing, the money in my card is enough for me to live the rest of my life, but the day of dawdling and waiting to die seems to have come a little early.

As for Xu Yifei, it has completely become a long-awaited dream, and now I can hardly remember his face...

Wait, what date was it yesterday?What did I do just now?What's your sister's phone number?It makes no sense to forget all these things...

"Excuse me, do your parents have brain diseases?" The doctor asked solemnly holding the diagnosis report.

Shaking my head, how would I know?I haven't even seen their shadows, "Doctor, what's wrong with me?"

"According to your description and test results, it should be the amnesia caused by damage to the cerebral cortex, but it does not rule out the problem of cerebellum and spinal cord nerve disorders. Because it is only in the early stage, it is still impossible to give an accurate diagnosis. I Now I suggest you go to Jiangcheng for treatment and observation, the medical skills and equipment there are much more advanced than here."

"I don't quite understand, can you tell me about the possible consequences?"

"If it's the former, you may just have a memory problem, and you will gradually forget everything in the past until it becomes a blank. But this does not directly affect your health, if it is the latter..."

"What will happen?"

The doctor regretted: "Memory confusion, slow reaction, uncoordinated limbs, and finally falling into lethargy."

Either way, I can't bear it. Although I don't have many happy things in my memory, if I forget them all... I don't know the difference between this and going to die.

Bought a lot of notebooks, I hope I can use them to record something.

I know that I may not even recognize the words one day, but I still don't want them to be forgotten so quickly.

After thinking for a long time with a pen, I began to really enter the memory.

At the age of 14, my grandmother who loved me the most passed away, and I have lived alone since then.

At the age of 16, I picked up Xiaomi on the road, and I decided to treat her as my sister.February [-]th is her birthday, and she is the cutest girl in the world.

, met Xu Yifei...

After spending nearly half a month, I finally drained my memory, packed all these books in my backpack, and decided to return to Jiangcheng.

In name, it is for the treatment of diseases, but in fact, there is still a little unknown vague expectation in my heart.

After returning to Jiangcheng, I rented a house near the central hospital, on the 27th floor. When I looked down, I found that this city was familiar but a little strange. Human beings are really small and scary.

The windows are facing the sun, with large glass windows, and the sun hits my face every morning, and I feel that I am still alive, which should be something to be thankful for.

I am not much happy now, but I still want to see the happiness of the person I once loved.

The cheapness that people love doesn't mean that you can change it just by changing it.

While looking through old newspapers, I found news about Xu Yifei.

It turned out that the two of them had a good thing, and it was decided a few days after I left Jiangcheng that they got engaged on the sixth day of June.

The sixth day of June is a good day, because it is my birthday.

go?Still not going?This is a problem.

After tossing a coin 65 times, I decided to go shopping for clothes.

The person I love is engaged, how can I not go?Although he doesn't necessarily appreciate it, I can't remember that day for a long time.

Xu Yifei is a young talent in Jiangcheng, and with his grandfather and Lao Tzu as his backers, the engagement ceremony is unreasonable and grand.

It was embarrassing when I was rushing to the dinner and realized I didn't have an invitation at all.

It doesn't matter if you don't go in, lest you make people laugh with a haggard and lonely face when you touch the scene.

Ask the driver to park the car opposite the hotel, and I just sit in the car and watch quietly.

Xu Yifei stepped out of the black Bentley, still looking cold and handsome.

I think the reason why I love him so much is definitely two-thirds because of his appearance.

Because his temper is not very good, and he never knows how to take care of others, and his speech is ugly, every sentence is as accurate as a needle piercing people's hearts.

If such a guy doesn't look good, I definitely won't love him so much. After all, Fang Yibai is also a vulgar person.

I looked at him greedily, wanting to engrave the outline of his back in my heart.

He seemed to have noticed something, and glanced back inadvertently. Knowing that it was impossible to see anything through the car window, I still broke out in a cold sweat.

The car stopped more and more, the taxi driver was a little anxious, and I finally reluctantly said let's go.

I knew that I shouldn't have come, and now my heart hurts so much that no one cares about it, and it's my own fault.

In the night bar, with the loud noise, I don't remember how many drinks I had, when a nice voice behind me said, "Fang Yibai, why are you here?"

"Why can't I be here? What's more, who are you to me?" Turning around and seeing a pair of familiar black eyes, I was stunned, "Xu Yifei?"

"I'm not Xu Yifei."

"I can recognize you even in ashes, how dare you say you're not Xu Yifei?"

"You're drunk," he came up to support me, with a strong aura that he couldn't refuse, "I'll take you back, where do you live now?"

where to live?Nowhere is my love, the rented house is cold, I don't want to go back and enjoy the loneliness at all.

"Go to your house."

He froze for a moment, then slyly raised the corners of his mouth, "I wish I could."

That smile was like a basin of cold water splashing on my face, making me suddenly sober.Xu Yifei would never smile like that, at least he never smiled at me.

Thinking about it, Xu Yifei must be in the arms of a gentle and soft jade beauty at this time, so why should I guard myself like a jade for him alone?It's just a one-night stand, just go!