memory castration

The painting is good, at least outsiders can recognize the person on it is me at a glance, but it is only limited to the face, and the figure is much taller and stronger than my current science popularization.

I tore off the drawing paper, crumpled it into a ball and put it in my pocket. I pulled out a few green hemp trees by the river, peeled off their skins, tied Xiao Ziqi firmly, and said to Yang Wenxiong: "You can go, everyone. Come and gather again at six o'clock in the evening."

Before leaving, Yang Wenxiong patted me on the shoulder and said thoughtfully: "Just teach him a lesson, don't go too far."

I calmly said, "Don't worry, I have a measure."

After everyone had left, the river fell into silence again. Xiao Ziqi lay on the grass, neither struggling nor calling for help.

I took out the ball of paper and threw it on his face, condescendingly said: "What does this mean?"

He was not annoyed, he calmly pretended to be confused, and said, "What do you mean?"

I knelt down and squeezed his chin hard, "Stop being fucking stupid, who would draw such a thing under normal circumstances? Are you really a psychopath or do you mean anything to me?"

He showed a nasty smile, "Guess."

"You think I really dare not touch you, don't you?" I raised my hand and slapped him across the face. Xiao Ziqi's face immediately swelled up, and his face was tinged with red. Coupled with his aristocratic temperament, he still It's really kind of pitiful.They are all used to deceive and deceive people's hearts. I know how dangerous this vixen will be in the future.

He pursed his thin lips and stared at me angrily, still stubbornly not speaking.

If it was in the past, I really couldn't do anything about such a person, but now, I hate Xiao Ziqi more than Xu Yifei.

God has decided for me to start over. I should obey the destiny, be a middle school student with good character and academics, go to the university that I dreamed of in my previous life, and then find a job to honor my grandma and live my life in an ordinary life.

However, just when I made up my mind to start over, he repeatedly intervened in my life. When I saw him, I couldn't help thinking of Xu Yifei who I missed, and the kiss he gave me before leaving... If it wasn't for him, Maybe I'm starting a new life with Xu Yifei now.I know it's wrong, but I can't control myself to think.

"You still don't tell me, do you?" I roughly unzipped his jeans.

His handsome face turned pale, and he began to struggle, shouting: "Stop Fang Yibai! What do you want?"

"Take off your clothes, and then ask the people nearby to come and watch."

"You bastard! I won't let you go..."

"I'm waiting for your revenge..."

"Stop! You fucking live..."

When the trousers were forcibly pulled to the knees, I suddenly glanced at his legs. The hardened part was dazzling and eye-catching. After a moment of stupefaction, I fell to the ground and laughed.

His eyes were wide open, his demeanor was gone, and he gritted his teeth and squeezed out a sentence, "What are you laughing at?"

I leaned over and breathed in his face.

He was stunned, his expression slowly relaxed, but the roots of his ears were rouge, and his eyes moved away uncomfortably.

"Xiao Ziqi, do you like me?"

"no!"

I rubbed my shoes against his tight panties, "Then what does that mean? Just being touched twice by me makes me so excited..."

He pursed his lower lips, no longer denying my words, but his face gradually returned to his usual composure.

I clicked my tongue and said, "Big Brother...you are such a pervert, I am not yet an adult!"

His body trembled, his expression couldn't hold back any longer, and he said angrily, "You're a pervert! I never thought about that at all!"

I despised him with mixed feelings, "I never thought that your thing is hard ass?"

Xiao Ziqi froze for a while, then began to sneer, "So what?"

Things have come to this point, what else can we do?I touched his face twice with my hand, "We have only met two or three times, tell me how you fell in love with me? Love at first sight?"

"You're less smug and narcissistic."

"Forget it, I don't want to know either."

He frowned, "Do you really like that sissy Li Xinlong?"

"How the hell are you talking?" I directly kicked him on the leg, "Longlong still thinks you are my cousin."

"Cut," he said disdainfully, "who knows where he picked up the bastard from."

"I'll eunuch you if you don't talk clean!" I've always wondered why he doesn't have the same surname as Li Xinlong. He seemed to understand something when he said that. No wonder Longlong's parents were willing to leave him at home all year round. Isn't it his own...

Thinking of this, my heart softened, and I stood up and patted off the grass clippings on my body, "You give up, I won't be interested in you. It's okay, go back to your Jiangcheng, don't keep glancing in front of my eyes."

He stared at me and said with a complicated expression: "Fang Yibai, transfer to Jiangcheng, where the education level is much higher than here."

"Stop talking nonsense, you think everyone will give you the same money, so you can study wherever you want!"

"Money is not a problem, I will give you as much as you need."

I laughed, picked up a small stone on the ground and threw it to him, "Are you taking care of me? Thank you for your kindness, but I don't need it, bye."

Let the grievances end like this...Love is not the original sin, what is wrong is that he did not choose the right goal and means, after all, he is still a child who has just reached his full age.

I loved Xu Yifei before, and I understand the pain of not getting what you want.

From that day on, I never saw Xiao Ziqi again. I heard from Li Xinlong that he went back to Jiangcheng alone the next day.

During the summer vacation of this year, I bought a new bicycle with the money I earned from working in a restaurant. In my free time, I drove Li Xinlong to wander around, and took a slingshot to hunt birds and catch frogs. My youth was fresh and beautiful.

Xu Yifei and Xiao Ziqi are getting farther and farther away from me now, so far away that I can no longer remember what Xu Yifei looked like, and the memory before rebirth is becoming more and more messy, like a dream that was cut and spliced ​​by someone. Walk with me.

But I can live in the sunshine with good mountains and rivers, and my grandma and friends are safe and happy. I don't dare to ask for anything more.

After school started, my grades improved by leaps and bounds, and my grades ranked first. I often sat with Longlong in turns.

Every time I see the names of Fang Yibai and Li Xinlong posted together, I feel a different kind of happiness, as if only in this way can I be worthy of him.

Li Xinlong began to grow up like crazy, but he was still too stupid to learn how to ride a bicycle. On a summer day with mottled trees, I drove him back and forth, and half a year passed in a blink of an eye.

At the end of the year, an unexpected blow came to my life. My grandma passed away.

Obviously that night she still smiled and told Dabai to eat more, and in the middle of the night she tucked the quilt for me in a trance, but finally lay on the bed and couldn't open her eyes again.

She passed away peacefully, without illness and pain, at the age of 65.

It is customary in Ninghai that relatives are not allowed to cry for joy and mourning, otherwise when the old people cross the Naihe Bridge, they will look back with concern, and their souls will never find their way back.

I don't have any relatives. The funeral was organized by the teacher and Yang Wenxiong's father, and all the classmates came to help.

Li Xinlong stayed with me at night, hugged me tightly and said, "Xiaobai, don't feel bad, you still have me. I will take care of you in the future, better than grandma treats you."

In the cold winter night, I thought of Xiao Ziqi's words full of infinite contempt, "Who knows where I picked up the wild species!"

I have enjoyed the care of my grandma, but he has not, but now he is comforting me with soft words.

There was no stove in the room, so it was cold, but his body was warm.

"Xiaobai, move to live with us, then I can hug you every day."

"Eat something, don't starve yourself, I feel so uncomfortable seeing you like this..."

After standing numbly for a long time, I slowly reached out and hugged him back, greedily absorbing his body temperature and smell, at that moment... I think I really fell in love with him.