memory castration

On the car back to Ninghai, I asked Xiao Ziqi, "Bringing someone else's hand to get rid of your rival, isn't it great for you now?"

He looked like a righteous gentleman, "I never thought of using you, I just thought you were inappropriate."

I gritted my teeth with hatred, "Then who is suitable for me to be with, with you?"

"No one can change the fact that the two of us completely own each other."

"What does it mean to have each other completely? Don't be so disgusting when you say it. A person declares his independence to the world as soon as he is born. No one can completely and completely possess another person."

To be honest, I am now a little curious about the pair of parents who have never met, what kind of person can give birth to such a wonderful flower that is invulnerable?

He has no shame, a strong heart, is not close to oil and salt, and does not eat hard and soft. The most creepy thing is that he is still a graduate of abnormal psychology.

Recalling the day when I took him to the psychological clinic, Su Pei seemed to look at him with admiration... I was so stupid at the time.

"Xiao Ziqi, no matter in terms of appearance, personality, or how we behave, we are not alike at all." If I were one-tenth as perverted as he is, I wouldn't end up being played around like a monkey today.

He said softly, "You are more like your mother, with a beautiful appearance and a simple personality."

Mom... She must be lying if she said she never imagined her appearance.

But forget it, after so many years, I am no longer a child longing for mother's love, and I survived with my grandma.

After a moment of silence, I changed the subject, "Can you tell me your future plans."

"Take you back to Egggardson."

"dream."

"What's the benefit of staying in Ninghai? Yang Wenxiong is not only involved in gangsters, but also helping people launder money. Don't look at the bright future, sooner or later there will be a rabbit and a dead dog, and he will end up miserable."

I understand what he said. Sometimes when I check the accounts, I feel terrified when I see those astronomical figures coming in and out.

Yang Wenxiong and I occasionally feel that people can't help themselves in the rivers and lakes, but once the white paper is stained with ink, it is too difficult to wash away reality.

But Yang Wenxiong is my best brother, Ninghai is also the place where I was born and raised, they are much more important to me than Xiao Ziqi.

Xiao Ziqi is a spider. When he sees his prey, he will spin and weave a web non-stop, making the edges and corners densely packed, making people fearful when they see it.

Even if we are related by blood, it doesn't change the fact that he is a pervert.

"You give up, I won't go back with you. Not before, not now."

"You can."

I don't understand his determination, "Why?"

"Xu Yifei doesn't want to think of you for the time being due to psychological reform, but he has been missing for more than a month for no reason, and the rest of the Xu family will never let it go. If they find out that you have done such a thing, what do you think will happen?"

Subconsciously, I shivered. I had only seen Xu Yifei's father with my own eyes. His face was stern and imposing, and his gestures looked like a mature version of Xu Yifei.

As for his grandfather, he is almost a character who only exists in legends. It is no exaggeration to turn Jiangcheng upside down with just one sentence.

When Xiao Ziqi said this, he just wanted to force me to submit. I am confident that this matter was done seamlessly, how could the Xu family find out?Unless... the pervert in front of me ran to inform.

There was no doubt that he would do such a thing, in fact he did.

He once sent Xu Yifei the video of sleeping with me, and that incident became the fuse of our complete break.

Look, this is this perverted love, scheming, framing, and conspiracies are all over the place!

When Xiao Ziqi saw me gnashing his teeth, he seemed to have guessed what I was thinking, "The power of the Xu family can be found out without me doing anything."

I was still resentful, "Isn't he your cousin Li Xinlong? How did he become Xu Yifei?"

I have wondered about this question for a long time, and never had a chance to ask it out.

Not to mention that the two have different personalities, even their appearances are vastly different. If Xu Yifei hadn't told us how we were together back then, I wouldn't have believed that they would be the same person.

Xiao Ziqi paused, "The process may be a bit complicated, but I can confirm that Li Xinlong is indeed dead, and I personally sent him to be cremated."

"Borrowing a dead body to return the soul?"

"maybe."

I snorted coldly, "Xu Yifei is really lucky to be reborn into him."

Xiao Ziqi smiled lightly, and a trace of emotion that I couldn't understand flashed in his eyes.

After a while, I suddenly remembered something, "How did Li Xinlong die?"

He said succinctly, "Car accident."

"Does it have anything to do with you?"

"Xu Yifei told you?"

I was a little impatient, "Don't care who told me, just answer whether you did it, did you do it?"

He said lightly: "Yes."

I was stunned, and a chill ran down my spine, "Why are you so bad, how old was he then? Didn't you abduct him to Jiangcheng? You tricked him there just to kill him?"

Xiao Ziqi's calmness made people criticize, "I just want him to give up his inheritance rights. I never thought of killing him. The death in a car accident was purely accidental."

"Fuck, people are dead, you can say whatever you want! How short of money are you, you dare to murder people for those things?"

"I'm not short of money, but the money belongs to my parents, and no one can touch it except us."

I choked, my anger was stuck in my chest and I had nowhere to vent it, and said sullenly: "I don't know what happened back then, but it's wrong for you to harm people!"

Xiao Ziqi said: "What harm is said, isn't he still alive right now?"

I slammed the car window hard, "You haven't had any regrets until now, it's unreasonable!"

He looked straight ahead, "I grew up so big, I only regret one thing, that is, I gave you away back then."

I thought of the situation where I was lying in the box and let my brother pull it, and I plucked hard on the glass with my fingers.

Xiao Ziqi once asked me, "If time could be repeated, what would you most hope to save?"

I said, "Don't fall in love with Xu Yifei, how about you?"

He said: "Love someone well, and never let go of his hand under any circumstances."

If Xiao Ziqi hadn't given up on that child back then, what would we be like now?

Nobody knows.

Time cannot be repeated.

After returning to Ninghai, I was beaten up by Yang Wenxiong. It hurts a lot, but it's good to be cared about.

We got drunk in the living room and sang loudly to the TV with our arms around our shoulders.

With a wound on his face?Acting like a lunatic?It doesn't matter, as long as you are happy.

Summer is coming slowly in early May, and Ninghai is full of vitality and dark green.

I packed my luggage and embarked on a journey to Egggarsen with Xiao Ziqi.

I don't know how long this trip will take to avoid the limelight, but I hope that when I return to my hometown again, I will be completely strangers to Xu Yifei and Xiao Ziqi.

I'm 26 years old, and I'm no longer a kid who can play games recklessly.

The sky in Egggarson is transparent, and there is a smell of fragrant grass in the green wind.

I am not religious, but I go to church every Sunday.

Little girls in white dresses sang poetry en masse, like cherubs.

The peaceful and peaceful atmosphere is like heaven, which can make people forget all troubles and unhappiness.

Xiao Ziqi is like a pious and abstinent pastor, he speaks and behaves well, and doesn't force me to have anything to do with him.

We finished breakfast together, and then he went to work on his business, while I wandered around the manor, and occasionally video chatted with Yang Wenxiong, listening to his complaints.

"You are quite old, and you should find a suitable partner and take care of yourself. Don't mess around outside all day long."

"You marry me, although good rabbits don't eat grass by the side of the nest, and I don't like men very much, but if it's white, it shouldn't be a problem to kiss and hug..."

"Your mother still expects you to receive her as a family member! If we get together, she will kill me."

"It's okay, just keep it from him, let's try when we come back."

"Okay, I also want to know how charming Xiong looks on the bed."

"Damn!" He leaned towards the camera meanly, "Tell you... I met Xu Yifei last month."

My smile froze for a moment, "How is he now?"

"It's fine, it's the same as before."

"Then what are you talking about!"

He was depressed, "I thought you wanted to know."

My body relaxed, "I don't want to know."

As long as it's okay, I didn't think of me when I saw Yang Wenxiong, does this mean... I can go back to Ninghai?

After spending the summer huddled in Egggarsen, I'm about to grow hairy from idleness.

When I mentioned this matter to Xiao Ziqi at dinner, his eating movements became a little slower, "Are you doing well here?"

I pulled the corner of my mouth, "It's not bad, it's just boring. I have been obliged to accompany you for so long, so it should be interesting enough."

"Go back to Ninghai and continue to hang out with Yang Wenxiong?"

"we'll talk about it then."

"Then I'll be with you."

"Isn't it?" I almost spit out the soup, and my voice couldn't help but raise, "Why are you so old and clinging to me?"

He took out a brown paper bag from under the table, "I'm going to discuss business this time."

"What business do you have in Ninghai?" I took out the document and glanced at it, then quickly took out my mobile phone and shouted, "Yang Wenxiong, you traitor!"

Yang Wenxiong wondered, "What's the matter?"

"You don't know what kind of guy Xiao Ziqi is, why do you want his wine?" After blurting out, I subconsciously glanced at the person concerned, he was still elegant as usual, as if he hadn't heard anything.

"This matter is a bit complicated. I'll tell you when we meet again. Anyway, I didn't know that the supplier was Xiao Ziqi before I signed the contract!" He assured me aggrieved.

I hung up the phone anxiously, Xiao Ziqi smiled at me with a napkin, "We've been living together for half a year, are you afraid to stay with me for a few more days?"

I'm really scared... My heart is always hanging because he hasn't done anything until now.

It's like a mouse spends a lot of time stealing potatoes, but after picking them up and pulling them into the nest, they don't eat them. This is unscientific.