memory castration

A long time ago, a wolf said to a lamb, "I love you."

The lamb believed it, and felt that he lived happily every day, ate a lot of grass, and made himself fat.

One day the wolf killed the lamb. Before dying, the lamb said sadly: "Didn't you say you love me? Why do you still want to hurt me?"

The wolf shed a crocodile tear, "Loving you is my heart, but biting you is my body's instinct."

So this story tells us that no matter how great love is, it can't match the bad nature of animals, and the same is true for people.

Instead of answering Xiao Ziqi's question, I told him the story.

After a long silence, he raised the corners of his mouth, "It's just for fun, you still take it seriously."

Whether it is true or false has nothing to do with me, I just want to find a free host and tour guide.

We sat by the lake for a long time, smelling the fragrance of green grass in the air, watching children running happily with kites not far away, listening to the peaceful singing from the opposite church...

The process of falling in love with Xu Yifei was like going through a mighty catastrophe, after hastily and tremblingly, there was nothing left except scars.

How many years have you not enjoyed this kind of ordinary comfort?My happiness ended seven years ago.

Walking on the way back under the setting sun, Xiao Ziqi asked: "If time could be restarted, what would you most hope to save?"

I thought about it and said, "Don't fall in love with Xu Yifei, what about you?"

His eyes were lonely and he said: "Love someone well, and don't let go of his hand under any circumstances."

At this moment, I believe he should be telling the truth, because he looks very sad, the corners of his eyes are slightly red, and his fingers are trembling uncontrollably.

What kind of person can make this guy like to give affection?I'm very interested to know, but judging by his appearance, forget it, after all, I can't do the act of rubbing salt in the wound.

After returning to the manor, I saw Xu Yifei sitting in the living room in the same posture as we left, as if he hadn't moved for hours.

Xiao Ziqi chatted with him, and was about to pull me away, but Xu Yifei spoke first: "I have something to say to Fang Yibai."

Xiao Ziqi said: "Xiaobai is tired..."

Xu Yifei interrupted him, "It won't take long, it's just a few words, I want to talk to him alone, is that okay?"

We've come this far, what else is there to say?But I'm just too curious, so I'd better listen to it, lest I have any worries.

When the two of them walked into the garden, Xu Yifei took out a cigarette from his pocket, put it in his mouth without a light, and asked me, "What's wrong with you?"

I clenched my fist, then slowly released it, pretending to be relaxed and said, "It's nothing, I've been fine."

He squeezed my wrist hard, as if he wanted to crush it, "I've seen the notebook you hid in the pillow, and it mentioned the hospital examination. What's going on? Tell me!"

"Oh, that's what you said, it's nothing, it's just that there's something wrong with my memory, and I keep forgetting the past."

"For example?"

"How I met you, how I fell in love with you, and some messy little things, I don't remember all of them."

The cigarette from his mouth fell out, as if struck by thunder, "You said...you...love...me?"

Now it's not just him, even I can't close my mouth, "Don't tell me you don't know!"

He clacked his fingers, his chest heaved violently, "You never fucking said that!"

Have we been together for seven years, have I never told him that I love him? !Xu Yifei doesn't even know that I love him?If I don't love him, why do I humiliate myself like this?It's just a nasty joke, and one, one, all, no, ok, laugh!

The two of us looked at each other like idiots, Xu Yifei finally spoke first, with a suspicious blush on his face, "You, really love me?"

I was discouraged, "Anyway, it's already in the past tense, what does it matter if you love or not? I heard that you have already obtained the certificate. Congratulations, happy newlyweds."

He gritted his teeth, his brows were full of anger and annoyance, "Fang Yibai, what do you mean?"

I broke free from his hand, and said irritably, "What I mean is, you go on your Yangguan road, and I cross my single-plank bridge. Everyone gets together and separates, and we will live our own lives in the future."

Why did you have to come out and listen to what he said?It's fucking messed up now, and I can't control what I think!

He grabbed my neck, "I see, are you in love with Xiao Ziqi again? When you say you love me, you actually want to destroy me!"

Also, in love with Xiao Ziqi?My mind went blank, and it took me a long time to say in a hoarse voice, "Xu Yifei, what do you mean?"

Xu Yifei frowned, his mood gradually calmed down, he slowly let go of his fingers, and looked at me suspiciously, "About Xiao Ziqi, do you really not remember?"

I had a splitting headache, and some vague memories quickly floated up in my mind. I managed to calm down and said, "I only remember meeting him for the first time half a month ago."

"Meeting for the first time?" He murmured, "You don't remember him, and you don't remember how you met me. You just remember that you love me...don't you?"

"I said it was in the past tense..."

He roared, "You just answer me yes, no, yes!"

I felt like my ears were going to be deaf, and I ran out slavishly and uncontrollably, "Yes."

Xu Yifei was stunned for a while, then suddenly laughed, hugged me vigorously and kissed, "Fang Yibai, wait for me, I will come back to you after divorce!"

Can anyone tell me what's going on?Xu Yifei... He actually kissed me on his own initiative?This is simply incredible!

I covered my face and watched him rush out the door, but I couldn't react for a long time.

After walking a few steps stiffly, his head suddenly hit a soft object, Xiao Ziqi smiled and said, "Xiao Bai, what did Xu Yifei tell you?"

His smile was perfect, but his eyes were cold, like wearing a mask, which made people feel horrified from the bottom of their hearts. I backed away involuntarily, "No, it's nothing."

Xiao Ziqi walked over step by step, "Are you going back with him?"

I subconsciously denied, "No!"

Xiao Ziqi forced me to the iron fence full of roses, and said softly: "Have you forgotten how he treated you? He humiliated you, abused you, and slept with other women in front of your face, Xiaobai ...Don't be fooled by him again."

Xiao Ziqi like this is too scary, his eyes are persistent and crazy, and his whole body is filled with a chill, it's just... like a madman who has lost his mind!

The rose pierced through the shirt, causing me pain. I trembled slightly under his gaze, and begged: "Xiao Ziqi, let's go back to the room."

He took my hand and said softly, "Okay, I'll take you back to rest."

The two distanced themselves from each other and stopped facing each other. It seemed that even the air became smoother. I breathed a sigh of relief and looked at Xiao Ziqi quietly.

Sensing my curious gaze, he smiled comfortingly, and my hairs stood on end again.It's really wrong to be greedy for petty gains. How could I be crazy to come out with such a terrible guy?

After returning to the room, he put his arms around my waist from behind and stretched his hands to the front to unbutton my shirt.I have just experienced those tricky things just now, how can I still want to flirt with him?

He suddenly said: "Xiaobai, I have a gift for you."

I was taken aback, "Ah, what gift?"

He put his lips on my neck, "It's in my trouser pocket, take it yourself."

I hesitated and put my hand into his pocket, and when I was nervous, I touched the wrong place, which caused him to chuckle.I've done everything, so what's the point of getting a gift?I cursed myself for being worthless, and after I stabilized my mind, I took out a small box, and when I opened it, there were two identical men's rings.

"Sorry, I can't accept this." I tried to put the box back in embarrassment, but he forcibly held me back.

He ignored it, took out the ring and put it on my ring finger, I was a little annoyed, "Xiao Ziqi, what are you doing!"

During my struggle, he bit my neck hard, "Let's get married, in the future, I will treat you well, and I will only love you in this life..."

"Xiao Ziqi, don't be like this... get married, I don't love you at all!"

The surface of his eyes seemed to have broken a layer of ice suddenly, making it so bright that people dare not look directly at them, "Are you still in love with Xu Yifei?"

I gritted my teeth, "Yes, so it is impossible for me to be with you at all!"

Xiao Ziqi opened the drawer with one hand, and bewitched with a very seductive voice: "Xiaobai, you shouldn't love Xu Yifei, say you love me..."

"It's impossible, you lunatic, let go...Xiao Ziqi?!"

Are you dazzled?Or hallucinations?I actually saw that he actually took out a pistol!

He pressed the muzzle of the cold gun against my temple, his attitude was still gentle enough to make people tremble, "Xiaobai, say you love me."

Xiaobai, say you love me... Xiaobai, say you love me...

When, when and where, did someone say this to me in such a doting tone?

I opened my eyes wide, tears fell uncontrollably, "No, I don't love you."

Whether it's Xu Yifei or Xiao Ziqi, I don't want to love anymore.

Love is a burden, it will make people stupid, crazy and unhappy, I have suffered once, I should learn to be good.

"noob?"

"Eh?"

"Stupid, looks like our little Ha."

At the moment of losing consciousness, some scattered fragments flew from all directions, and I suddenly remembered an insignificant past event: When I was young, I seemed to have raised a dog named Xiaoha, but there was God... it was strangled to death.