Regent, please concentrate on plotting rebellion

Renie has never seen Alan so excited, never seen Alan so desolate, Alan will be lonely, will be lonely, and there will be emptiness in his eyes, but it is not like now, as if he has lost everything, what kind of mood swings nothing.He couldn't help but stepped forward and hugged Allen.He wants to use his own temperature, his own existence, to tell Allen that he still has himself.His world is not empty.

silence.

"Not curious? Don't want to ask?" Allen broke the silence first, and has regained some emotional fluctuations.

"Don't ask, I'm not curious. I just need to know that now you are here and by my side, and you have me." Renie didn't know what happened to Allen, but he was neither curious nor confused. The past is It is useless to regret the past, because it has already happened and cannot be changed.

"It would be great if I met you earlier." Why did he meet now, making him lose the ability to love, how to distribute this thin emotional base, and how to obtain happiness.Indulging in the Internet, books and entertainment is just to forget the despair.It was too late, those things shaped who he is now, those things made him unable to respond to Rene's love without hesitation.No matter how much love Bulun Reine gives, even if he responds to Rene's love in the future, he will not be able to give his heart to others without reservation, and he will only care about himself, because he has tasted how terrible it is to lose himself one thing.

"I've lost myself once. Do you know what it feels like?" Allen leaned in Renie's arms, his tone was light and casual, as relaxed as chatting, but the content made Renie's heart ache.The wrists around Allen tightened.

"I don't feel anything." Allen didn't seem to feel the tightening force.Recalling, "I can clearly see and hear, but everything is like a layer of veil, far away from me. Do I really exist? I don't even have such doubts, and even my thoughts are lost. Just look at it like this Standing, listening, moving, obeying, without thinking about the meaning, I even lost the heart of fear. Even if I was stabbed to death, I would not cry out the pain, because I had forgotten myself. "

The meaning of existence, who am I, this kind of thinking is meaningless. During the time when I lost myself, I even forgot that I was a human being. Thinking, I was just a walking dead puppet at that time.To be alive is not breathing, not the beating of the heart, but the existence of a certain consciousness.He actually understands such a philosophical concept, but only because he has experienced it.

It was really like that. At that time, no matter how cruel and painful the experiments that Bu Lun imposed on his body, he didn’t even howl. The pain didn’t disappear, but felt far away.How did he find himself in the end, Alan himself didn't know what touched him at that time, Alan didn't feel anything special at that time.At the moment when Qingming came over, I just felt that the crescent moon in the sky, the bright and beautiful silver color was very cold.

"White is such an annoying color, it's so terrifying that people forget about themselves." At the beginning, I forgot myself, and the empty white was also a credit, "I would rather close my eyes and enter the embrace of black than bear the horror of white. "Closing your eyes and entering the embrace of black can really be regarded as wanting to die. At that time, even death has lost the psychology of fear, and death is just a relief.

He is just a mortal, he will be afraid, he will be afraid, and he does not have the natural strength. When facing those, he can not think about using death to free himself. In the face of harm, the human instinct is to escape. At that time, he The only way to escape is to die, or even lose one's will to live.After all, he had no choice between the two, so he persisted.

Reine surrounds Allen, what kind of pain can make people so desperate that they forget themselves, what kind of despair is needed to make people feel that the darkness of death is a safe destination, Reine doesn't ask, doesn't ask anything, digs people Wounds are not something worthy of praise. It is already a surprise to him that Alan can tell him such a thing. It is a performance that Alan has listed him as an important person again. Lun never told him what it was all his life, and he had no curiosity to ask.

It must be a regretful past that made him heartbroken. It was Alan's life that he had no time to participate in. It was not because he was afraid of heartache after knowing it, but because he didn't want Alan to recall that past, but Alan's current expression made him The pain was so bad that he could hardly breathe. He didn't want to see Alan's expression again, so he didn't ask.He just needs to be nicer to Alan and make Alan happy.

"Cry if you want to cry." Said softly beside Allen.What I got was Allen's chuckle.

"I've forgotten, I don't know how to cry." It's not that he doesn't have tears, he will cry because of yawning, being exposed to strong light, or being stimulated by things, but those tears are caused by physiological factors , those tears that are not shed because of the emotion of crying.

He will be happy, angry, resentful, and hateful, but he just forgot how to cry. He will not cry because he is too moved, nor will he cry because he is too sad. What is the degree of pain and sadness? He will cry, he will not have it, too deeply touched, he has already lost, he has forgotten the way of crying, and lost the emotion to cry.

Renie let go of Allen, walked in front of Allen, and met Allen's eyes, "I will remind you what it feels like to cry." Renie said very seriously, solemnly like an oath.

Allen's emotions have completely recovered. Seeing what Rene said, he raised his eyebrows and said, "I thought you would make me forget what crying is." Who would make a loved one cry.

"I won't let you cry because of sadness, I want you to be so happy that you want to cry." The feeling of crying is not all caused by sadness and pain, it also exists because of joy and happiness.

"Cut, I don't believe it." Allen's heart warmed slightly, but he stubbornly didn't believe what he said.He is a human being, he is loved, cared for, loved, and cared for, and it is impossible for him to feel nothing, even if his heart is as hard as a stone, he will still feel the warmth.

This is the end of the gloomy topic, leaving Claude in the dream made by the sleepy god, Allen went out to play without a trace of guilt, and followed Rene who was hiding under the black cloak.

Today, Rene already knows that Allen hates white, and has begun to avoid the colors that Allen hates on his body. I have to say that Allen's past performance really makes people unable to see his dislike of white, but he has already said it all. If Rei Nie didn't know how to avoid it, his high IQ and the city government's efforts would be wasted.Not only himself, but Allen will also avoid white in his diet and daily life in the future.

Under the dedicated and dedicated arrangements of the Kingdom of Keward, Alan had a very happy afternoon, and nothing unpleasant happened. As the day was about to pass, Keward was also relieved, and finally spent it peacefully After the first day, I hope it will be so peaceful in the future.No, it would be better to send the God of Plague away as soon as possible.

On this day, Coward explained to the outside world the appearance of the giant sword in the sky last night, saying that the royal family was experimenting with a new artifact, which led to yesterday's spectacular scene.The innocent and ignorant people of the Keward Kingdom were very happy with the powerful deterrent force of their own country, and spoke of the strength of the Keward Kingdom to outsiders with their heads held high.

The upper class of nobles with some energy in the Keward Kingdom is not as optimistic as the common people. They know very well why the commotion last night happened.Who would have thought that the Kingdom of Circe, which had been reduced to the end of the six kingdoms of mankind, would rise again.A sanctuary has given the Circus Kingdom a start of recovery, at least compared to a country with only a false sanctuary, the Circus Kingdom is already a little bit stronger.

I originally thought that the rise of the Circus Kingdom would take time, but it is absolutely impossible to catch up with the current Keward Kingdom. The advantages of the three sanctuaries cannot be compensated by time, and the Circus Kingdom is not without it. With this advantage, after all, before the Kingdom of Keward was strong, the Kingdom of Circelu was the most powerful among the six kingdoms of mankind. It has declined, but the foundation is still there.It just takes time and talent.

But when they let down their vigilance, King Alan I, who had always been considered a puppet of the Circus Kingdom, was born out of nowhere. With an absolutely domineering posture, the world looked sideways and dared not despise him.Because I didn't witness it with my own eyes, although it is impossible for the intelligence source to lie and exaggerate, the power displayed is really unbelievable.It wasn't until yesterday's personal experience that I realized that the kind of power that is unpredictable and can reduce human wisdom to waste, turns out to exist.

When the people were happy and proud, the real power class of the Koward Kingdom remained silent.

When Allen returned to the bedroom arranged by the Coward Kingdom and was about to rest, Jessica said, "Where's Claude?" Only then did Allen think of Claude, who was still in a sleepy dream.

When he came to the room that he left today, Claude was still lying on the sofa, sleeping in the dark, but the expression on his face was very solemn.Allen's anger had long since dissipated, so he untied the harp played to Claude.Claude woke up from an afternoon of sleep,

"Alan?" Claude, who had been cleaned, looked a little uncertain when he saw Alan in front of him, and his eyes were full of vicissitudes.In the dream, he spent a long time, and almost forgot Alan's young appearance.The dream of Hypnos is not like ordinary dreams that will be forgotten when you are awake. He will leave such an effect on the loved subject for a while, so that the subject will remember the lessons of the dream.