There is a kind of you to hit again

After Lin Yao pointed at Guan Ze and yelled, he didn't know what to do. His mind was as if he had been through more than a dozen high-speed trains.

The ears can't hear, except for the rumbling and bang, the vision is almost blurred, and I feel that my temples are bouncing and bouncing with my heart, which is not very regular but has a strong sense of rhythm.

Even his stiff body swayed back and forth with his heartbeat, so he had to walk forward half a shoe distance with his stiff legs in order to stand still.

"What's the matter with you!" Zhang Xing was the first person to react after Lin Yao yelled violently. When he turned around and saw Lin Yao who was standing behind him, he almost pulled out his eyeballs and raised his hand to have a look. , "How did you come here!"

"It's not easy for me to go this way with you," Lin Yao grinned at him, and then stared at Guan Ze's stunned face, his voice still trembling, "Guan Ze, are you really Absolutely enough!"

"Lin Yao, you..." Guan Ze never thought that Lin Yao would follow Zhang Xing and appear in front of him without warning. This was probably the first time in the past ten years that he was speechless due to shock.

"What about me?" Lin Yao finally recovered from the confusion and excitement. He walked in front of Guan Ze and took three steps. It only took three steps from the door to the front of Guan Ze. All kinds of emotions surged up at this moment, "What am I? Why did I come here? Why did I come here?"

Guan Ze didn't speak, Lin Yao's voice was quite loud, but he looked haggard, his complexion was not very good, and there were bloodshot eyes, which made him feel very distressed.

"Why are you running? Do you think these things are over if you run away and leave me sad for two days? Do you think I'm three years old, when the toy is gone, I cry, wipe my tears, turn my head and touch the next toy?" Lin Yao stared at Guan Ze, from his bald head to his forehead and then his nose, "I'm telling you! I've lost all the wheels in a broken car. I still treat it like a treasure. When my dad threw it away, I was so fucking depressed. It’s been almost a year, and when I think of my rickety car, I’m worried, let alone a person!”

Guan Ze still didn't speak.

Zhang Xing, who was standing on the side, probably didn't get used to Lin Yao's way of speaking, he was a little dazed, wanted to say something but didn't seem to understand the situation, he turned around and walked out of the ward, closing the door behind him.

"I said that I didn't think so much about what to do in the future, but it doesn't mean that I will never think about it!" Lin Yao gritted his teeth, "Guan Ze, you underestimate me, don't hypnotize yourself all day long! I am a child!"

"You know that I said goodnight to you the night before and went to the company the next day and you disappeared. When I went to your house, I couldn't find anyone to call on my cell phone, and I couldn't get through. How does it feel? What does it feel like to be pushed aside? You know it best!" Lin Yao's eyes began to sore as he spoke, he rubbed his eyes indiscriminately, he didn't want to cry when he cursed, "Say it! Have you ever thought that I would be pushed away by you like this? How does it feel when you are thrown aside and can't find anyone!"

Lin Yao grabbed Guan Ze's collar and yelled, "Tell me, you bastard!"

Guan Ze pulled Lin Yao's hand away from his collar, and hugged him tightly, holding his arms tightly.

The moment Guan Ze hugged him with a strong arm, Lin Yao's tears flowed down uncontrollably. The aura on Guan Ze that he was familiar with but that he hadn't felt for hundreds of years made him unable to carry it anymore. Go down and put your chin on Guan Ze's shoulder: "I really want to beat you..."

"I'm sorry," Guan Ze's lips touched his ear lightly, his voice was low, "I'm really sorry."

"I'm sorry for the fuck," Lin Yao's voice trembled violently, he put his arms around Guan Ze's waist, and his arms also trembled, "Fuck, you've lost a lot of weight, won't the hospital give you food?"

"It's not tasty, it's too bland to eat." Guan Ze buried his head in the socket of Lin Yao's shoulder, rubbing the tip of his nose against his neck, "I said, how did you find it?"

"Don't ask, it's enough trouble anyway." Lin Yao closed his eyes, tears kept streaming down his face and into his mouth, he licked his lips.

"Have you eaten yet?" Guan Ze patted him on the back, let go of his hands and looked at him, took a few tissues from the small table next to him and pressed them on his face, "Crying so much that this is a bankrupt Already."

"I didn't even have time to eat in the morning. I have to hurry to the airport. Your buddy is really awesome. I'll leave the house at six o'clock. I'm afraid the road will be blocked." Lin Yao took the tissue and wiped his tears with his head down. , He couldn't tell what he was feeling now, he just felt dazed and dreamy, "But I'm not hungry."

"I'll change clothes and go out to eat." Guan Ze rubbed his hair, "I guess Zhang Xing didn't eat either."

"Well," Lin Yao turned his head and looked out through the glass on the door, but he didn't see where Zhang Xingren was. He turned his head and looked at Guan Ze. He couldn't help crying again, and quickly pressed his eyes with a tissue, "What's wrong with you? ?”

"There is a benign tumor," Guan Ze smiled, and put on his coat, "Surgery tomorrow morning..."

"What! Surgery tomorrow?" Lin Yao yelled in surprise, his tongue almost spit out, "You are so fucking...you are so fucking good, bald donkey, this kind of thing..."

Guan Ze walked up to him, squeezed his chin and kissed him on the lips: "The Taoist priest calm down."

"Excuse me, sir." Lin Yao was a little dizzy from his passing kiss, "The Taoist priest wants to whip you."

Standing by the window in the corridor outside, Zhang Xing saw the two of them coming out, and glanced at Guan Ze's face inquiringly.

"It's okay," Guan Ze smiled at him, "Let me introduce formally, this is me..."

Lin Yao stared at Guan Ze very vigilantly. He didn't want Zhang Xing to know the real relationship between him and Guan Ze. He followed Zhang Xing's behavior every day like a psycho before adding to this relationship, which would immediately make him helpless Face Zhang Xing again.

"My little brother," Guan Ze glanced at him, then patted Zhang Xing on the shoulder, "Angel Zhang Xing, my buddy, he helped me with my illness this time."

"Brother Zhang," Lin Yao hesitated for a moment and stretched out his hand to Zhang Xing, "I'm looking for Guan Ze on an urgent matter, I'm really sorry about what happened before, please don't mind."

"It's all right," Zhang Xing reached out to shake his hand, then looked at Guan Ze, "Guan Ze, you..."

"I'm in a very stable mood now," Guan Ze turned and walked towards the elevator, "I'm in a good mood, let's go to the door and have something to eat."

During the meal, Zhang Xing didn't mention the matter of Lin Yao pestering him like chewing gum sticking to his hair. He just chatted with Guan Ze about the operation, and called the old man to help him.

Lin Yao didn't say much, his heart was still churning, he glanced at Guan Ze's face after taking a bite, if it wasn't for Zhang Xing sitting opposite him, he probably didn't bother to pretend to eat, so he just stared at Guan Ze. Do something else.

"Just now I found time to go to the nurse's station next door and asked to recommend an experienced companion." Zhang Xing took a bite, "You will be unable to move for a while after the operation. If you need someone to help, I will contact someone Be careful, young man, I'm afraid you won't be able to move me, girl..."

"En." Guan Ze nodded and looked at Lin Yao, as if waiting for his opinion.

Lin Yao's mind was full of mess and he didn't know what it was. He only listened to the conversation between Zhang Xing and Guan Ze that was related to his illness, and didn't think much about anything else. Now Guan Ze looked at him, he was stunned. It took a long time before he said, "Isn't your head cold?"

Guan Ze was happy, and patted his head: "You can't get over my head, right?"

"No, actually your bald head looks better than I imagined." Lin Yao was a little embarrassed, took out his ski cap from his bag and threw it to his hand: "Put it on, it's too conspicuous, I can't help but look up look."

After dinner, Zhang Xing was going to the old man's house, and instead of going back to the hospital with them, he called Guan Ze aside at the hospital gate: "I won't ask you what's going on, anyway, I think you're in a good mood, but I have to remind you, don't get too excited, you know? You should rest well, and you will have surgery tomorrow morning, nothing can go wrong."

"I know," Guan Ze smiled, and patted Zhang Xing's arm twice, "During this period of time, you have been worrying about my affairs a lot. I guess that kid didn't let you live in peace. I have to thank you very much later."

"Let's not talk about this," Zhang Xing clicked his tongue, then turned to look at Lin Yao, with a helpless expression on his face, "It's because you owe him money, or if you go to the moon, he might be able to make it himself. a spaceship to catch up."

Back in the ward, Guan Ze changed back into the hospital gown, and the nurse came over with the medicine again, took blood pressure and body temperature after a toss, and then saw Lin Yao standing aside: "Are you the patient's family?"

"Yes," Lin Yao's family immediately nodded as if he had been drugged, "Yes yes yes yes..."

"It's good to have family members around. Let me tell you, tomorrow's operation will be under general anesthesia. After coming out, there will be catheters inserted and monitoring equipment. You have to work hard to take care of it."

"Don't worry, I will stay where he is, and I promise not to leave."

"You don't need to be so exaggerated. Didn't you invite a companion? You can just watch a little bit. If you are tired at night, sleep less." The little nurse didn't know why he was so excited, she glanced at him and walked out. "Take a good rest, don't let him run around anymore, you know?"

"I know!" Lin Yao almost stood at attention and saluted.

"How many days have you asked for leave?" Guan Ze asked after the nurse closed the door and went out, leaning on the bed.

"Three days." Lin Yao took a chair and sat on the edge of the bed, propping the edge of the bed and grabbing Guan Ze's hand, "This is not the point, I will definitely not go back within three days, at worst I will resign."

Guan Ze sighed lightly, and squeezed his hand: "Isn't it enough torment these days? His face is really ugly."

"You also know how to toss?" Lin Yao's nose became sore when he mentioned this, "I really can't say you, I had important news to inform you on the day of our video, but I kept thinking about it to be more formal. I followed you the next day, but you disappeared, I really..."

"What great news?" Guan Ze stroked his face, wringing his hands again.

pressed on his brow.

"My brother promised to help me talk to my mother. He originally disagreed and said he would not take my side, but..." Lin Yao glanced at Guan Ze, lowered his head and lowered his voice, "I said we have already done it, I There must be no play with the girl, and it will be like this in this life."

Guan Ze raised his eyebrows in surprise, and was a little dumbfounded for a moment: "Did you tell your brother about this?"

"I just said it in a hurry, and I didn't mean to say it," Lin Yao rubbed his nose, "Anyway, my brother didn't want to do it when he heard it, so he said to help me."

"And then?" Guan Ze recalled Lin Zong's aggressive and tough attitude in his office, "Your brother really loves you."

"It's okay, it's not in vain to make him toss from childhood to adulthood," Lin Yao suddenly laughed, his eyes narrowed, "My mother also knows, and my mother has no objections! Do you know!"

"Is that so..." Guan Ze was surprised and sat up straight.

"Well, although she is quite uncomfortable," Lin Yao bit his lip and sighed, and couldn't help smiling, "but she still accepted it."

Guan Ze didn't say a word, looking at Lin Yao, the feeling in his heart was indescribable.

Practical, satisfied, and somewhat excited.

He suddenly found that because he had never experienced such a warm and down-to-earth family life, some things were beyond his expectations.

What a strong family relationship can contain is beyond his imagination.

"So, do you know how it feels when I went to the company to look for you with such great news, but suddenly I couldn't find you?" Lin Yao looked at him and grabbed his arm, "Despair, It's getting dark, you know!"

"I'm sorry," Guan Ze hugged him and patted him lightly, "I'm sorry."

"We'll settle this account later," Lin Yao waved his hand, "I'm too nervous now to take care of these things."

"What are you nervous about?"

"You want surgery, surgery tomorrow morning." Lin Yao frowned, "If I didn't come with you today, would you go to the operating table alone? You are really cruel to yourself, hero, what are you? What do you think!"

"I'm afraid you're worried," Guan Ze pressed his forehead again, "This is not a incurable disease, I don't want you to know and get nervous, and..."

"And you are planning to take this opportunity to say goodbye to me, right?" Lin Yao squinted at him, "You didn't even take a change of clothes, just left like this, playing tricks, are you planning to spend a year or two I’m going to sneak back when I’m done.”

Guan Ze didn't say anything, and looked at him very seriously.

"Guan Ze," Lin Yao moved closer to him, "Can we agree?"

"Well, what?"

"It won't be like this in the future, okay? No matter what happens, we both carry it together. I know you are used to handling everything by yourself, but that was before," Lin Yao looked at Guan Ze's face and glanced at Guan Ze again. When it reached his head, I couldn't help but reach out and touch it, "It's so smooth."

"Don't digress." Guan Ze flicked his wrist with his fingers.

"Now I have me, I admit that I am not as mature as you, and I always cry a lot, but I am also a man, I am not a girl, I don't need anyone to protect me like a girl," Lin Yao grabbed Guan Ze's hand Kissed her hand, "I called you my wife... Uh, I didn't really treat you as my wife, and I didn't intend to treat you like my wife. Do you understand what I mean? It should be carried by two people, if my dad can't get through it, I won't carry it alone, you have to help me carry it together, understand? Bald?"

"Understood." Guan Ze nodded, Lin Yao's words and the temperature of his hands made him feel very warm.

"That's fine, there is one more thing," Lin Yao pointed to his bag, "I have a big gift for you, do you want to see it?"

"want."

Lin Yao stood up, went to open the bag, and came out with a bag: "There was a package, but my bag wasn't big enough, so I didn't take the package."

"This..." Guan Ze looked at the bag in Lin Yao's hand. He didn't understand what was inside for a long time, "Is there any packaging?"

"Nonsense, how can the boss sell breakfast without packaging?" Lin Yao handed the bag in front of him, "Look, this is for us to celebrate when I am ready to inform you of the good news that day."

"Early?" Guan Ze took the bag inexplicably, opened it and took a look inside, his voice raised a lot, "Dumplings?"

"That's right, steamed dumplings, I really couldn't find a place to buy a gift for the celebration that morning, so I bought a steamed dumpling along with the basket on the way, but it took up too much space, so I didn't bring it. "

"Has it been a week?" Guan Ze sniffed it, but didn't smell anything. It should have been frozen before, but it looked really amazing.

"Well," Lin Yao came over and squeezed the dumplings, "I didn't find you that day, so I froze the dumplings. I wanted to eat them anyway. Anyway, I celebrated by myself when you weren't here, but I didn't want to. I just thought of me. I’m sure I’m looking for yours, I’m sure I can find this one, but I can’t keep it, I’ll find a place to vacuum pack them or something…”

Guan Ze didn't make a sound, and suddenly lay down on the hospital bed, raising his arms to cover his eyes.

"What's the matter!" Lin Yao was so nervous that his voice changed a little, and he raised his hand to press the call and cry, "Are you uncomfortable? I'm calling the nurse!"

"Don't move." Guan Ze said, still covering his face with his arms.

Lin Yao's hand stopped when he touched the pager button. He could hear the nasal sound in Guan Ze's voice. If he hadn't hallucinated, Guan Ze...was crying?

"Daughter-in-law!" Lin Yao rushed to the edge of the bed and hugged Guan Ze, pressed his face against his chest and desperately looked into the eyes under his arms, "Are you crying?"

"En." Guan Ze responded.

Lin Yao saw the teardrops falling from the corner of his eyes, and opened his mouth to say nothing.He never thought that Guan Ze, who was always calm and composed, would cry, and this man with a past he couldn't imagine would cry in front of him.

"What's the matter?" Lin Yao's hands were trembling, and he didn't dare to pull Guan Ze's arm directly, so he could only touch his arm, "What did I say, you are going to cry, I haven't cried yet, don't you Crying, don't tell me you can't be excited, you said that if I cry in the future, you will cry too, how can we live..."

Guan Ze didn't know why he suddenly wanted to cry, and he just cried out.

Lin Yao always looked silly in front of him, even when he said something serious, he was always foolish, but every time he could make him feel at ease and warm like never before.

He doesn't mind shedding tears in front of Lin Yao, this is the only person he can truly face without pretending.

But he was not like Lin Yao who couldn't stop the car when he was crying, especially when Lin Yao was in a hurry and muttered.

"Laughing fart, why are you like this..." Lin Yao frowned and took out a tissue to wipe the corner of his eyes, "I haven't choked up words to comfort you yet."

"Hey," Guan Ze sat up and patted his forehead helplessly, "You are really good at destroying the atmosphere."

"Why are you crying?" Lin Yao was at a loss, "What did I say, you are crying."

"Come here," Guan Ze hooked his fingers, "I'll tell you quietly."

"Here we come." Lin Yao leaned on the edge of the bed and got close to Guan Ze's face.

Guan Ze wrapped his arms around the back of his neck and hugged him, kissed his earlobe, and said in a low voice, "I love you."

Guan Ze's deep voice penetrated Lin Yao's body.

Lin Yao had never heard Guan Ze speak to him in such a serious tone, and it would be such a content.

For a moment, he felt that his arms could not support the bed, and his whole body wanted to tremble like a pendulum. After holding on for two seconds, his legs softened and he knelt down on the side of the bed.

"Lin Yao?" Guan Ze quickly grabbed him.

"I..." Lin Yao gritted his teeth, jumped up suddenly, and shook off Guan Ze's hand, "I'm going to the bathroom."

The toilet in the inpatient department was not big, but there was almost no one there. Lin Yao rushed into a cubicle, closed the door, squatted down, hugged his head and began to cry.

He didn't care about the fact that he was determined not to cry again but he couldn't hold back his tears once. Just cry, as his mother said, it's not good for his health to hold back his tears.

For so many days, he has been gritting his teeth and holding on, he wants to pester Zhang Xing, he wants to find out the whereabouts of Guan Ze, he has no time and no mood to cry, even when he met Guan Ze before, he was still there because Zhang Xing was still there. Don't dare to be too presumptuous outside.

Now he is like a puppy who has been chained in a cage for several months and finally thrown to the grass, he just wants to have a good time and cry.

So many years of depression, such a long time of being cautious, worrying about all the uncertainties, the future that I have never thought about and dare not think about...

Lin Yao was crying so well that his whole body was refreshed, and when his pores were all open, he heard someone entering the toilet, so he quickly held his breath and pressed the mute button for his crying.

The person who came in went directly into the grid next to him, Lin Yao was a little depressed, and was crying happily, but someone came in to shit!

The man closed the door and there was no sound. Lin Yao didn't hear the sound of taking off his pants over there with his ears pricked up. He was just wondering if someone came to the toilet to stand for punishment, when the man suddenly spoke.

"Are you done crying?"

It was Guan Ze's voice, and Lin Yao jumped up: "What are you doing here!"

"I'm afraid you'll fall into the pit because you're too excited to cry." There was a smile in Guan Ze's voice.

"Get out," Lin Yao also wanted to laugh, he raised his hand and wiped his face indiscriminately, closed his eyes and took a few deep breaths, "Guan Ze, do you want to repeat what you just said?"

"Can we not talk about these things in this kind of place?" Guan Ze sighed and knocked on the partition.

"No, I just want to hear what's wrong with the toilet. You still have a drawer of steamed dumplings waiting for you who don't know if it's broken or not."

"I love you."