Restlessness

After a lot of tossing, Gu Yuan finally stopped in front of a fast food restaurant. He turned his head and looked at Xu Yue who was three meters away from him, who was hunched over with his hands on his knees.

"You...you can... run." Xu Yue didn't lift his head, his face was facing the ground and his chest heaved up and down, "Didn't you just... borrow his bicycle for a little bit... it didn't steal or snatch it, and ran... What are you running for?"

Gu Yuan let out a long sigh of relief: "Ah? I... conditioned reflex, if someone is chasing you, can you not run away?"

Xu Yue was happy, he raised his head and wiped his face, "That's right, with your mouth, it's not easy to live to this day."

It's really impossible to have such a mouth and live to this day.In particular, he was fortunate enough to witness Gu Yuan fight with his own eyes.

With a "tsk", Gu Yuan pushed open the door of the fast food restaurant on the left.

The store is clean and tidy, and its location has a great advantage. It is just in the middle of two high schools and an office building, so the business is extremely hot from morning till night.In addition to the students of the attached middle school and No. [-] middle school who like to come here, there are also some young white-collar workers who also choose to eat here.

In addition to convenience, there is another point that is favored by young people.

There is a wall in the fast food restaurant with simple decoration. There are a few strings of small light bulbs around the wall, and post-it notes of various shapes are placed beside it.It completely inherits the style that only exists in milk tea shops.The wall is covered with all kinds of wish notes, some hope to meet the star they are chasing, some want to fall in love, and some complain about being too tired to go to school...

"Order first, I don't like to eat alone while others watch." Gu Yuan picked up the menu on the table, glanced at Xu Yue, "If it wasn't for your 'Xiao Hei', I’m probably at home watching the live broadcast of the game, drinking Coke and eating a table full of takeaways.”

Although Xu Yue had dinner, after running and laughing and being frightened just now, she sat down quietly and realized that her stomach growled twice inexplicably.He randomly chose a donburi and pushed the menu in front of Gu Yuan.

Gu Yuan didn't even look at it, he took the menu and went to the front desk, and drew a number "2" with his right hand.

When he came back and sat down holding his phone again, Xu Yue's eyes looking around slowly shifted back to Yuan's face.The wound under the corner of the eye has healed, not even a little scar is left, but on his own, although the entire neck is not swollen, the bruises have not faded to some extent.

Gu Yuan flipped through the phone a few times, raised his eyes and asked, "I invite you to drink milk tea, what flavor do you want to drink? Let the phone show you and choose one for yourself, just choose the plus sign at the bottom."

? ?

Xu Yue was startled, when did this person become so kind?

Seeing him before, it was as if he wanted to peel off his skin, but now he actually asks him to drink milk tea?

He took the phone and looked at it for a while, then picked out a fruit tea with ice and handed the phone back. "Feeling sorry? Conscience found out? Or do you have any other purpose?"

He always felt that Gu Yuan had bad intentions.

Gu Yuan narrowed his eyes: "What do you mean?"

"Huh? Well, it's nothing. I just asked why you suddenly invited me to drink milk tea?" Xu Yue wondered.

"Oh, there's no reason, they don't give you a glass."

"..."

Xu Yue wrapped her coat, and suddenly felt a little cold, as if there were a few crows flying over her head.

The whole paragraph fell apart.

Just when Xu Yue was embarrassed, the phone in his pocket vibrated twice. He thought it was Li Ranran who was going home to show off his computer tablet game console or something, but as soon as he took out the phone, Xu Yue immediately regretted it.

There are two big characters written on the screen - "Xu Lu"

Unlike others, Xu Yue's notes to everyone are full names, including his biological father.

Gu Yuan glanced at it, lowered his head and took a sip of tea, "Your dad's phone number?"

The phone vibrated desperately, Xu Yue pressed the hang-up button without hesitation, and then put the phone screen down on the table.

"Ah."

Within a few minutes, Xu Lu sent a few more WeChat messages.

Xu Lu: Xiaoyue, are you studying by yourself last night?

Xu Lu: Can I call Dad back after class?

Where is the self-study on Friday?

The way Xu's father and son get along with each other is always in a tentative tone.

After staring at the desktop for 2 minutes, Xu Yue finally picked up his phone, turned around and pushed the door out.

The weather in Shanghai is very strange. It was strange that it was so cold in the evenings a few days ago that he didn't even want to go out, but in the last few nights, he felt a little warmth from the wind.

Xu Yue unlocked the phone and dialed Xu Lu directly.

"Is it... Xiaoyue?" Xu Lu hesitated, and he didn't even believe that his son made the call himself.

"Hmm," Xu Yue replied.

"Did you just finish your self-study class? Dad didn't bother you, did you?" Xu Lu was stunned for a moment, then continued to ask: "Isn't it cold in Shanghai? Is the living expenses still enough? Did you go out with friends on weekends?"

Xu Yue took advantage of the situation and squatted down, drawing something on the ground with his fingertips. He didn't bother to explain why the attached middle school didn't have evening self-study on Friday. Facing Xu Lu's many questions, he just picked a few random answers.

"It's not cold, it's enough." Xu Yue listened to the sound of a child crying in the background of the phone, and said slowly, "Xia Lan isn't here?"

"Your Auntie Xia just went out to buy groceries. So..." Xu Lu couldn't speak the last half of the sentence, and was interrupted directly by Xu Yue.

"I see, let's hang up. I'm outside with my classmates." Xu Yue hesitated for a while, then continued: "I'm fine, you don't have to worry about me."

After leaving home for a month, just from the sound, Xu Yue felt that Xu Lu seemed to be a different person.He didn't know if it was a cold or something else, but he always felt that the person on the phone had a strong nasal voice and was breathing heavily from time to time.

Xu Yue shrank her neck, and even all the cells in her body were resisting this cautious emotion.

"Xu Yue?"

The glass door behind him was pushed open, and Gu Yuan yelled softly in a calm tone.

Xu Yue was stunned for a moment and turned around, he sniffed and stood up, "It's over, let's go in."

Xu Yue poked the rice on the plate again and again with his chopsticks, and soon lost his appetite.

Gu Yuan inserted the two straws, randomly picked one of the two identical cups of fruit tea on the table and pushed it in front of Xu Yue.

"Do you have a bad relationship with your father?"

Xu Yue didn't expect Gu Yuan to ask such a direct and tricky question, he just bit his straw and nodded without saying a word.

"What about your mother?"

"Not anymore."

Gu Yuan's hand paused, his eyes trembled a few times, and he slowly raised his head to look at Xu Yue.

The tip of Xu Yue's nose suddenly became sore. He leaned against the back of the chair with his eyes wide open, and raised his head to stare at the ceiling. After a while, he coughed lightly and lowered his head until the layer of mist in front of him dissipated.

"He died of cancer five years ago. At that time, I was still young, so I didn't take it seriously. I could always hear people saying 'this child has lost his mother', but after hearing it a lot, I got used to it." Xu Yue slightly embarrassed Yang, forced a smile, "It was only when I grew up that I really knew what it meant to be gone."

"My dad has never been a tough person. My mother used to take care of everything in the family alone. Many people said that he has no skills..." Xu Yue continued, "But my dad loves my mom very much."

"Otherwise, you wouldn't have thought of bringing me to die with my mother." Xu Yue said lightly, as if telling a story that had nothing to do with him.

Hearing this, Gu Yuan drank a few sips of fruit tea in a sullen manner, and the coolness spread in his body instantly.He suddenly understood why the person in front of him always looked so cold that no one would approach him.

"It was winter at that time, and the riverside was very cold, and the water was up to my knees. My dad stood holding my hand for a long time, and then hugged me and cried." Xu Yue took out the straw and put it on the table casually, "Finally asked Am I afraid or not?"

In the winter five years ago, the weather was clear, and the temperature dropped sharply in the evening, but the night sky was full of stars, and the moonlight spread wantonly on the two of them.

Xu Yue's short figure was reflected on Xu Lu's back.

At that time, Xu Yue was no more than Xu Lu's shoulders, and he often carried a hard-shell schoolbag with cartoon characters on his back.

It was a 10th birthday present from his mother, and Xu Yue couldn't put it down, insisting on memorizing it for two years.

He was very cold, his whole body was icy cold, and cold water poured into his shoes and trouser legs.

Xu Lu's eyes were dull, he clenched Xu Yue's right hand, knelt down and touched his face, and said with a smile, Xiao Yue, are you afraid?

The surface of the river was shimmering with circles of water patterns rippling towards him, and Xu Yue was afraid of the dark, so he shook off Xu Lu's hand and took a few steps back, staggered and sat by the river, and began to cry loudly...

"Probably because I was crying too loudly and unpleasantly, so I managed to pull my dad back a little bit of reason." Xu Yue laughed at himself, "And then..."

Later, Xu Yue learned to accumulate his thoughts, and since then, the word sharing has never been seen in his world.

Happiness will not be shared, and sorrow will not be vented.All the worries had already been knotted and rooted deep in his heart.

For several years after that, many neighbors in their courtyard could see that little Xu Yue often went out with her schoolbag on her back, and came back with her schoolbag alone in the evening when the sun was setting.

Until he entered high school, the boy grew taller, his hair grew longer, his eyebrows became clearer, and the schoolbag of the cartoon character was replaced by a black backpack slanted behind his back. He always raised his head slightly, and put his hands in his trouser pockets casually. .

The light in his eyes has long since disappeared.

The relationship between Xu Yue and Xu Lu also began to cool down at that time.

The fast food restaurant was quiet for a while, only a piece of romantic light music was playing from the stereo behind him.

Xu Yue pressed his back against the edge of the dining table behind him, and suddenly smiled, "So you should be thankful that you can still see a living person like me sitting in front of you."

Gu Yuan, who had been silent all this time, was suddenly amused. He stretched out his hand and pushed Xu Yue's shoulder directly, "Fuck, can you stop talking about these gods and ghosts at night? Have you eaten well? Go straight to my house after eating." Well. Anyway, there aren’t many people in school on weekends, and you’re just staying in the dormitory by yourself, why don’t you just go to my house to play games. The game console I just bought a few days ago, I haven’t found anyone to be with me.”

"Aren't Li Ranran and Zhou Hui human?" Xu Yue didn't hold back, and laughed out loud, "If they knew that you, the big brother, never regarded them as human beings, they would probably cry like hell."

"They're too noisy."

Gu Yuan moved the stool away, scanned the payment code on the wall with his mobile phone, stretched out his foot and lightly kicked Xu Yue's stool leg after the transfer was successful.

"Go away. Go home."

Out the door, they walked side by side on the sidewalk.Under the streetlights on both sides, the shadows of Gu Yuan and Xu Yue intertwined and superimposed.

The two were speechless all the way, didn't say anything, but understood everything.

Gu Yuan stopped suddenly and looked sideways at Xu Yue.

"It's broken, I seem to have left something in the fast food restaurant, you wait for me here, I'll be here soon."

After finishing speaking, Gu Yuan turned his head and ran back.

Pushing open the glass door, Gu Yuan went straight to the wish wall.He tore off a post-it note and stuck it in the blank space.

He bit off the cap of his pen, leaned on the wall and wrote seriously

"Xu Yue will definitely not stay in the past."