Restlessness

Three days passed quickly amidst laughter and laughter, and at the last moment when everyone was about to lose touch, Li Ye dragged the other end of the thread that was gradually loosened and stretched it back forcefully.When Gu Yuan was standing at the gate of the attached high school with his suitcase in his hand, he even felt that he was probably still in a dream.

After waking up from this dream, he and Xu Yue were still standing in the valley with the fresh air and the melodious birdsong...

"Brother Yuan, why are you standing there? Move your position." Zhou Hui found his suitcase from the bottom floor of the bus, looked at Gu Yuan who was beside him in a daze with his eyes closed, with a puzzled face, "It's still heatstroke ?”

Just as Xu Yue got out of the car, he noticed Zhou Hui's eyes and looked over.

"What's the matter?" Xu Yue's voice was very soft, and when the breeze blew, it took away the heat from the words.Xu Yue patted Gu Yuan, "Why are you standing there in a daze, stand a little forward, you are blocking the classmates behind you."

The fantasy was shattered by the reality, and the dreamy scene gradually blurred. Gu Yuan reluctantly moved forward a few steps. No one could guess what he was thinking in his heart now, but it is very likely that he would be the same as the other returned students. That little thought is the same.

On Children's Day, Xu Yue bought two pockets of lollipops, all kinds of lollipops, except for half of the cantaloupe.It was the last evening self-study, Xu Yue stood in the corridor holding a few lollipops, and said to Gu Yuan personally: "Little Gu, I wish you a happy Children's Day, and you will always be three years old."

Therefore, Gu Yuan laughed.

Love and hate, he chased Xu Yue all the way from the class to the school gate, and finally met Li Ranran and Zhou Hui, and had a hot pot meal together.

Or the kind with lots of peppers.

Of course, it was Gu Yuan who paid in the end.

Afterwards, daily life began to become as boring as before the summer tour theme activities. The scorching sun was still hanging high in the sky and scorching the entire Shanghai city. The desks, and even the densely packed papers that had already finished checking the answers, were thrown by Xu Yue on the window sill. Under the strong light, they reflected a white glare.

The temperature in the whole of Shanghai is getting higher day by day, and the newly installed air conditioners in the classrooms are buzzing amidst the sound of flipping books.

After Gu Yuan finished writing a history paper, he raised his hand to wipe off the sweat on his neck, walked up to the podium with an irritable face, took the remote control of the air conditioner, and lowered the temperature by two degrees.

"Li Ye said that the minimum temperature cannot be lower than 25 degrees." Xu Yue glanced not far behind, saw the numbers on the LED screen and laughed, "Aren't you afraid that the leader will come to check?"

"Brother, click on the weather forecast to see the latest maximum temperature." Gu Yuan flapped his collar, still not satisfied, got up again and walked across the aisle, this time standing directly at the air outlet of the vertical air conditioner.

Xu Yue's brows twitched a few times, he put down his pen and took out his phone to look at it, and finally couldn't help but curse in a slow voice.

The name of the city and a large number displayed on the screen of the mobile phone made the already boring atmosphere a little hotter.

37 ℃

The beads of sweat on Gu Yuan's face faded a little, he sat back in his seat and picked up the pen dropped on the aisle again.

"How much is it today?"

"37."

"Look, I think it's really hot today." Gu Yuan pursed his lips and wrote down the answer while murmuring the question in a low voice.

Finally, when the bell rang for the end of get out of class, Li Ranran and Zhou Hui never appeared in the back row of the classroom of Class A during the 10 minutes between classes. Gu Yuan chose to ask after this situation lasted for a week, but the answer he got was "It's still cooler in the classroom."

In fact, it doesn't make sense, because of the high temperature, the number of students passing by in the corridor after class has been greatly reduced by half, and even all the substitute teachers and school leaders have hid in their offices, no longer layer by layer like before. Go around all the classes.

Xu Yue no longer brought the review materials back to the dormitory, the sun still set in the west and the night came quietly. The cicadas and frogs who had survived the heat were especially presumptuous at night, but fortunately, the midsummer evening wind brought only a little bit of coolness.

There are more and more young couples on the tree-lined road at night, and some brave ones will hold hands and touch each other's noses.

The windows of dormitory 207 have not been closed since some time, and they become natural ventilation holes at night.Li Ranran was always afraid of the heat, so he changed the position of his pillow in a daze, Gu Yuan rolled up the heavy curtains and hung them on the shelf by the window.

Facing their sophomore dormitory building was the boys' dormitory of the senior year. They also opened the glass windows wide, and the curtains in some rooms were directly removed and thrown into the cabinets, waiting to be hung back when the next winter came.

After Xu Yue took a shower, he wiped his hair twice and glanced outside, and saw a few shirtless boys writing something around the long table opposite the dormitory building. If you look carefully, you can even see their mouths flicking Move a few times, like reciting, and like complaining.

"What's the date today?" Xu Yue sat down at the table and wiped his wet hair with a dry towel.

“20。”周辉正趴在对面看漫画，指尖戳了下手机屏幕，“6月20。再过10天就7月了。”

Gu Yuan was leaning halfway on the pillow on his bed, and he couldn't help turning his head to look at the high school dormitory opposite him when he heard this.

"In July, those buddies in the opposite building are about to take the college entrance examination."

"Well, there are still about two weeks."

Xu Yue put down the towel in his hand, clicked on WeChat and took a look. It had been a full month since the last Moments update, he couldn't help but turned on the camera to find a better angle, and took a picture The dormitory building opposite looked busy and full of hope.

Gu Yuan suddenly remembered that he had seen Xu Yue's circle of friends before. He clicked in from his WeChat, and suddenly there were a few more pictures on the page that was blank before. The first content posted.

Xu Xurusheng: Come on for the college entrance examination. [picture]

Gu Yuan conveniently liked it and added a comment below.

Yuan Yuan wants to hug: We also have to work hard.

The national college entrance examination came as scheduled, and the entire attached high school began to get busy. Even the teaching area of ​​the first and second grades was brought into a tense atmosphere.In spite of his busy schedule, Li Ye also made arrangements with the school for leaving school for the senior year and changing the teaching area for the second year. The final time was determined on the second day after the college entrance examination.

Changing the teaching area is a trivial matter. The real big event is that they are about to enter the third year of high school.

Stepping into a threshold that could determine their future.

Hard work and cruelty.

With the arrival of July, the graduation season of the third year of high school has also entered the most exciting final stage.When Gu Yuan and the others walked through the tree-lined road and passed the teaching area of ​​the third year of high school at noon, they would unconsciously take a look inside.

The ground, which used to be so clean that not even a scrap of paper could be seen, was now covered with torn white test papers and other review materials.

Gu Yuan clearly remembered that physical education class. When he and Xu Yue went to the supermarket to buy ice water, the corridors of the entire third-year teaching area were full of students, and everyone's hands were tightly clenched. It was torn into very shredded pieces of paper, and finally, under the order of a certain voice, they were all thrown into the air.

Countless white confetti swirled in the air like snow.

"Goodbye--my-high-three--, goodbye--" I don't know which girl shouted.

Immediately afterwards, there were waves of cheers, like a release, but also like a farewell.

Xu Yue's eyes were a little red, and he couldn't help but stick ice water on Gu Yuan's back, and the 1.8-meter-three boy in front of him jumped up instantly.

"Fuck! It's so cold! Xu Yue, did you do it on purpose!" Gu Yuan turned around and was about to stuff the ice water in his hand into Xu Yue's collar.

"Gu Yuan, let's go to a university in the future." Xu Yue suddenly stood still and met Gu Yuan's bright eyes seriously, "In this way, next year when we are in the third year of high school, we don't have to shout at the top of our lungs. We Not only in high school, but also in college. Right?"

Right?

Xu Yue's voice was very soft, but it made him breathless.

Gu Yuan's nose suddenly became sour, and he nodded heavily.He watched Xu Yue laughing and jumped a few steps forward, swaying left and right, raised his arms and stood on the wooden balance beam beside him.

He couldn't move his feet anymore.

While Xu Yue wasn't paying attention to him, Gu Yuan took out his phone and checked out Gao Li's WeChat.The fingertips typed a few lines gently but firmly.

Yuan Yuan wanted to hug: Mom, I don't want to leave.I want to finish high school well and then go to university.

Yuan Yuan wanted to hug: Can I?

This WeChat message did not receive any response at the time, but Gao Li called Gu Yuan during the dinner time after school in the afternoon.

Gu Yuan avoided Xu Yue, and found a place with few people before pressing the answer button.

"Hello? Mom..." Gu Yuan's voice was so hoarse, it sounded like too much evening wind.

"Ah Yuan, my mother had a meeting in the afternoon, so I didn't check WeChat." Gao Li was still gentle, his voice as soft as a feather, "I saw the message you sent. Mom wants to ask you, why did you suddenly have this idea? There is a reason, right?"

reason……

what reason.

I just said what I wanted to say.

The simplest and most common idea of ​​ordinary people needs a reason when it comes to Gu Yuan.

A reason why you should rebel against the arrangement at home.

"A Yuan, you are still young now. You have to listen to your parents' opinions on many things." Gao Li didn't give Gu Yuan time to think. She knew Gu Yuan, everything about him, and even all his thoughts. "Mom and Dad are doing it for your own good. After you stay here for the last year, you will go abroad next year. The mother at the school has contacted you, and you have settled down on majors and so on... And this matter, Didn't you promise your mother when you were in junior high school?"

"Mom..." Gu Yuan interrupted Gao Li, although he couldn't think of the reason, but the desire to resist was always hitting deep in his heart. "Mom, since I was a child, I have always done what you asked me to do. You said to learn piano, and I learned...you asked me to learn English, and I also learned...but this time, can you let me do it myself? choose--"

"What do you know as a child, the choice your parents give you is the best choice."

After Gao Li finished speaking, he quickly hung up the phone.

The woman who has always been elegant, generous, and orderly in dealing with things suddenly loses her modesty.

Her precious son of almost 20 years is telling her.

Can I make my own choice...

Gao Li squeezed the phone tightly, his eyes were cold.All the emotions were finally collected into a few lines, which appeared in the chat records with Gu Yuan.

Mom: There is no need to discuss this matter. You will go abroad after graduating from high school.

Mom: You promised Mom before.

Gu Yuan suddenly felt sad, and the memory in his mind was forcibly pulled back to his junior high school days.At that time, he had excellent grades and good looks, but he became an item used by the family to show off.

In an English competition, Gu Yuan won the first place in Shanghai.When he went to look for Gao Li with the weighty crystal trophy in his hand, the only response he got was "it should be."

You deserve an award.

Gao Li imposed all the hopes that parents in the world should have on their children on her son. She hoped that Gu Yuan would always be excellent and be the one who stood at the front. Little did she know that she had cared for the boy for more than ten years, and since then she has always loved him. There is no hope for the future.

From then on, Gu Yuan will always be surrounded by smiling faces with masks and perfunctory perfunctory.

In the winter of the second year of junior high school, it happened to be Gu Yuan's birthday. Many unfamiliar faces came to the villa, facing him, A Yuan was long and A Yuan was short.During the short conversation after dinner, Gu Yuan carefully listened to Gao Li's entire life plan for him, from the current junior high school to high school, and even talked about what major to study after going abroad, and what to do after returning home after graduation.

Gao Li helped him arrange everything clearly and orderly.

When Gao Li turned his face back to ask the boy standing motionless beside him, Gu Yuan just replied blankly, "Okay."

A "good" completely crushed Gu Yuan's own vision for the future.

Therefore, Gu Yuan gave up the compliment of excellent grades, no longer needed friends, no longer needed grades, no longer needed communication between parents.Everything is going on as usual, completely overlapping with the route arranged by Gao Li.

But now, on this overlapping straight line, there are other redundant branches spreading out, and they are just about to move.

After a few years, Gu Yuan finally had new courage. He wanted to walk his own path, which was not arranged by anyone, and he just followed the path he wanted to walk in his heart.

When Xu Yue came out of Fanxing, he caught sight of the tall figure from under the streetlight. He was very familiar with it, but at the moment it seemed to be covered with a layer of tulle.

"Gu Yuan? Have you finished the phone call?" Xu Yue forcibly pulled Gu Yuan back, who was in a daze, and he took a few steps forward and gently pushed him, "Isn't it hot to stand here? The air conditioner is not blowing -"

"Xu Yue." Gu Yuan turned around and stared into Xu Yue's eyes, "If... I said if, I did something wrong in the future... will you forgive me?"

Xu Yue was stunned for a moment: "What are you talking about, did you quarrel with your parents?"

How much Gu Yuan wished that he could have a big fight with Gao Li and then go his own way.But he can't, he can't.Like a tamed beast, it finally wears shackles and forgets to resist.

Do not,

It's not forgetting, it's not knowing how to resist anymore.

"Gu Yuan, as long as you don't betray me, I can forgive you anything." Xu Yue felt that Gu Yuan was a little dazed, he pressed his voice and touched Gu Yuan's head, his eyes were still full of tenderness. "real."

So much so that one day later, Xu Yue recalled all kinds of things now.

What he preferred to say at the time was "No."