After choosing a big adventure at Lupine's Bar

"But fortunately, because of your momentary hesitation, I held you back."

Natsume Reiko was originally holding Mingyin's wrist, but when she said this, she looked up into his eyes, let go of her hand and moved down, and held his hand with her backhand.

After the voice fell to the ground, at the moment when the two sides were silent, in the nothingness where there was nothing, on what the two of them were stepping on, which was probably the "ground", suddenly fainted with water.

Reiko smiled and said, "My soul is not attached to you."

She looked sideways, her long hair fluttering with this movement.

"This is a dream."

"That's your subconscious world."

"I just entered your dream in this posture."

"There are some not-so-good things going on out there right now, and the solution I think is that you need to think about it—"

"who are you?"

Mingyin believes that memory shapes personality.

A person's personality is constantly shaped by the joint action of physical memory and spiritual memory from birth.

Therefore, he has been resisting to think about his "self".

Because what "May 6th Mingyin" has is only those short [-] years.

What about memories before that?I am afraid it is much longer than these 6 years.

If he thinks about it, he must not be the self before he became Mingyin on May [-]th, because that self had already died at the moment Mingyin was born on May [-]th.

But at the same time, at the moment of memory recovery, I can't be the current self, but under the influence of the lost memory and the memory I have now, I become another "other" who is still unknown.

So, who is "this thing" that exists here now?

On the evening of May 6, about 5 years ago, Akane noticed some unusual auras in contact with Natsume Takashi.

Somewhere up the street.

There is an empty void in his heart, no matter what kindness, love, and responsibility he puts into it, it will be a void that cannot be filled.

There might be something to be found there to fill the gap.

So, I want to take a look in that direction.

As a result, I ran into Gui Jiang on the road.

The order of priority has changed, and Gui-chan's wishes will be fulfilled first.

But coincidentally, the mansion that Guijiang led to seemed to be exactly the place he was looking for.

But things backfired, doing so only made me more deeply aware of the fact that I was hopeless.

From the perspective of Ming Yin, or the original person who existed in this body, Natsume Nakuro, he has been in a state of falling.

But in fact, as he grew older, he discovered that the whole world was actually falling, and he was only falling at a slightly faster speed.

Natsume Mingkong described such a mood in "Falling", and May [-]th Mingyin also poured all these actually ambiguous thoughts into "Falling".

After moving to Yokohama, and before taking the little snake to Yahara to find someone for more than two months, chapters 47 and 48 have been printed and published, telling the memory of the hero before he became this posture. .

Higurashi Ochiryu’s uncle, Asahina Aoi, lived in the lines of the heroine Ochiryu before the official appearance of Chapter 46. It is roughly positioned as the kind of Hawaii and Domeki in "Detective Ke [Wow——]" Quiet grandpa and the like.

At the same time, he is also a graduate of the high school that Ochiryu attended.

Xuqianliu suddenly remembered this when the students covered her eyes.

At the same time, she also understood what the phrase "don't look" refers to.

Sheng is a friend of my uncle, whom I met in the first year of high school.

And the reason why they became friends is also very simple. When Sheng was bullied on campus because of his background and personality, Aoi didn't join in, and even had a few words with him occasionally.

That's it.

Therefore, when Aoi faced the threat of "If you don't join the bully's side, it will be your turn next", before he himself had made a choice, Sheng made a decision first.

【In school, stop talking to me. 】

Shengyun smiled lightly and said such words.

And Aoi agreed.

But with the passage of time, the gap continued to be dug open and expanded, and the student's psychological problems were so serious that he could not continue to go to school. After a few days of recuperation at home, the class teacher informed the whole class of his transfer.

But presumably, actually dropped out.

Before I was born, I would occasionally go to Aoi's house to play.

[It's okay, I'll definitely be popular in the new school, after all I'm a handsome guy. 】

He smirked and said such a thing.

But Aoi knew that he was only smiling on the surface.

In fact, when he faced himself as a "peer", he was just barely having a conversation.

Only when facing small animals and children, will there be no strong resistance.

After the so-called "transfer", Asahina Aoi never saw this friend again, and her social account did not respond at all until the spring of his second year of high school when he was 13 years old 17 years ago.

Aoi had a strong sense of guilt because he failed to muster up the courage to do something for his friends. This guilt affected his studies, social life, and even all aspects of life, reaching a peak on a certain day.

In the evening of that day, when even the students from club activities left the school scatteredly, he came alone to the rooftop which was forbidden to enter.

On the other side, Sheng was standing in front of Higurashi's house.

While hesitating whether to ring the doorbell, Ochiliu, who was playing Temari alone in the yard, trotted to the fence in front of the door, looked up at the stranger in the same school uniform as his uncle, and tilted his head.

【Brother Aoi, he hasn’t come back yet. 】

[It should be at school. 】

【Mom also said it was strange, she should have come back long ago. 】

Hearing this, Sheng opened his eyes wide.

At this time it is 17:40.

He originally wanted to say thank you, but he just twitched the corner of his mouth stiffly, nodded at the young girl, turned around and ran towards the school.

When she arrived at the rooftop, Aoi had already jumped over the railing, and she would fall straight down if she stepped out.

Since Sheng hadn't spoken much for a long time, he couldn't shout loudly, so he went up and grabbed his hand, and then grabbed his collar with his backhand.

【I didn't expect you to do anything at all...I said it earlier, you just need to stay there. 】

【You are doing this kind of thing now because you want to know how I will react in the future? 】

Aoi froze, even forgot to blink.

He realized his meanness.

Whether it is against life or against oneself.

But at the same time, he also developed long-lost anger towards the student who appeared in front of him without authorization.

【how about you?Why did you come to school to find me? 】

【ha--? 】

Sheng let out a puzzled sneer, loosened the other party's collar, took off the outdoor shoes that were illegally worn into the teaching building, put them at his feet, and stepped over the railing with one hand.

[Of course I came to say goodbye to you. 】

After he stood firmly, he rested his elbows on the railing, and turned his head sideways to look at his friend with a shocked face. His overly long bangs were blown by the wind, and the corners of his mouth curled up.

[I didn't want to be in the school at first, it would cause trouble for the school... But it doesn't matter now. 】

[Look, the standard ritual of suicide by jumping off a building is like this...]

As he spoke, he bent one foot, touched the ground with the other, turned around, and jumped down with his back to the ground.

Aoi gripped the railing tightly with one hand, and reached out with the other to grab his hand the moment he jumped.

But at the moment when he was about to grasp it, Sheng himself bent his fingers and avoided it.

In the end, what was fixed in Naoi Asahina's eyes was the corner of the school uniform jacket that was turned up because it was opened.

The watch on his outstretched wrist showed that it was 18:00.

Chapter 48 ends here.

The original line was that the resentment was not aimed at anyone, not even Aoi, but at herself.

And his obsession is just to be able to confirm that Asahina Aoi has spent her three years of high school in a stable way and has become an adult.

So, upon seeing the now 30-year-old Aoi, his ghostly body begins to unravel.

Although the original plan is like this, because there is no clear description of life and death in the front, there is still the possibility that he is "not dead", and there is still a lot of room for maneuvering.

And this is also the direction that many readers on the forum have guessed the most by shouting "Mr. Chigen, please be yourself".

Originally, Mingyin didn't care about the ending the readers wanted, and just wanted to follow the plan that was set at the beginning.

But not long ago, he started to hesitate a bit.

Because of that person's words.

【I will catch you. 】

Because of the shock of memory recovery, he suddenly remembered something.

Now that I think about it, it was probably because of the impact of the accident that I can't remember clearly, but it did happen.

Nearly 6 years ago, when Mingyin was still in the sixth grade of elementary school on May [-], because of Jun Xun's "accident" of falling from a building on April [-], and because of too much substitution the next day, she was in a daze in the school corridor. When he was on the edge of the window, the whole person fell down.

It was indeed falling, or jumping by itself.

Instead of "almost jumping off" as he claimed later.

As for why he didn't even get hurt at the time, it was because someone caught him.

In the gradually darkening vision, he could only see the red hair.

at the same time.The moment she remembered this, Akine heard a "voice".

Someone is calling him.

The way it is called is, "May [-]th".

Only Mr. Oda Saku would call him that.

"Did you go to elementary school once more than 5 years ago?"

"...I have indeed been there."

"I just suddenly remembered this incident. We met at the time, but you may have forgotten it because my existence was not stable at that time."

"It's true that I forgot it before, but when I think of you, I also think of it."

"…why?"

"Because some miscellaneous work entered the school, I happened to see a student fall from the window on the 6th floor. Of course, my first reaction was to save people."

"Knowing that it will break a bone?"

"Knowing that it will break a bone."

"And you're a mafia."

"Although it is still a mafia."

"..."

"..."

"why?"

"At that time, I couldn't answer your question, this is my answer..."

"When I die, I will probably understand that my obsession with 'not killing people' is not just for the superficial purpose of becoming a novelist, but more to seek redemption for myself."

"And in the meantime, I'll be thinking of you, May [-]th."

"I'll catch you."

"This sentence is for you."

"I?"

"you."

【Who are you? 】

"Speaking of which, your friend called me before and asked me to persuade you to be a person."

"...huh? Now say this?"

"Although I don't know about them... ah, it's Nozaki, Sakura, and Mikoshiba. I don't know what they mean by 'being a person', but it's about the ending of your manga."

"I think the dreamy happy ending where the main character is still alive, just in a coma and finally wakes up, is pretty good."

"However, if it is set to be alive, it will lead readers to think about various practical issues such as age gap, injury, economic pressure, and social disconnection."

"On the contrary, according to my idea, the hero died 13 years ago, and finally ended up as a ghost to get rid of his obsessions in life, spent the high school time he yearned for, and disappeared when he was redeemed. Isn't it more romantic?"

"I'm not qualified to interfere with your creation, but as a reader's suggestion, is this 'sense of reality' really a bad thing at all?"

"..."

"I don't think you think so either. Because, if so, you would have completely cut off the way back on May [-]th, and just said that the hero is indeed dead."

"why?"

"Because I know you who do."

【Who are you? 】

"On May [-]th, you said at the time that I was in the stage of shaping my personality. I have not yet determined what kind of person I will become in the future, and my life has just begun. So, why do you think I am like this, but you don't think I am? Are you like this too?"

【Who are you? 】

Why don't I see myself as such?

【Who are you? 】

I often feel that I wish I had never been born in the first place.

In this way, neither the mother nor the younger sister will have to work so hard.

【Who are you? 】

Therefore, the "self" is denied.

I don't think I'm the master of this body, I don't think I should be here.

【Who are you? 】

Therefore, it will become this kind of physique that is easy to be taken away by outsiders.

【Who are you? 】

And as the self grows slowly, this physique gradually becomes controllable.

【Who are you? 】

……

【Who are you? 】

In the conscious world, Mingyin let go of his hands covering his ears, put them down slowly, and opened his eyes.

Starting from his feet, the pitch-black nothingness was dyed a transparent blue, and the water rippled, and the water level rose to his ankles.

"I am Mingyin on May [-]th."

The big fox turned into a black mist and dissipated, leaving behind the young man inside as the core.

He rested his head on the shoulder of the man who was hugged by him, and said this.

"The ending of "Falling Now" will definitely be a happy ending, please help me tell Nozaki and the others that way."

"...It will be more convincing if I tell you in person."

"That's right, I'll tell them myself later."

He raised his eyes, moved up from the long snow-white hair that was hanging down, and met those eyes that were like ripe berries.

The Lord Snake God whose name was returned lifted his feet off the ground and floated in mid-air. He only lowered his head and stared into Mingyin's eyes.

Mingyin smiled, "Thank you, Dengguo."