accidental conflict

I'm afraid, he doesn't want to be in such a mess.Ever since he knew his sexual orientation, he was afraid that his parents would find out and be disappointed in him.There is only one child in the family, and his parents have met all his needs as much as possible since he was a child, and he has no or no freedom to forgive him, so he doesn't want and let his parents be criticized by others, and he doesn't want to destroy the harmony of this family.

He knew that he was far less indifferent than he pretended on the outside.

This summer vacation is really too long, and the never-ending chirping of cicadas has been announcing the surface temperature.In the second half of the holiday, A somehow suddenly had the idea of ​​going out to play.

The first choice was City S. I wanted to go to the university I wanted to go to, the sea, and him.

I sent him a message and asked if he was home.

I don't know what they are doing over there, and it is already afternoon to reply to the message.

—Of course, at home.Recently, I was doing extra lessons for my mother's friend's daughter, but I was exhausted. I thought I could sleep until I woke up naturally every day.what's wrong?

——Yo, you can still tutor others?Don't misunderstand your son.Nothing, just asking.

——Don't look down on people, I can still tutor elementary school students.Tell me what's going on!

——I want to go to your house to play. Didn't you say that I can find you when I go to play?Does that count?

— Count, of course count, when will you come?Come and stay at my house instead of booking a hotel!fly with you.jpg

——Okay, then I have booked the ticket and tell you that I love you.jpg

——? ? ?You are so disgusting, quickly withdraw this shocking expression

--I ordered the wrong

On the other side, his scalp was numb from the excitement of this expression. Thinking about finding a porn movie that day, he always paid attention to the actor's body. Thinking about it, he felt terrible, and he had to wait for him to tell him that it was wrong to cut it off. relationship.

After telling my parents that I wanted to go out to play, my mother was very surprised and said: "You are finally going out to play, and I told your father that you are bored at home, and you are not afraid of getting bored. Boys just want to go out more. play."

He had mixed feelings in his heart. It would be fine if his parents stopped him, but his parents supported him in doing what he wanted to do.Perhaps it was this openness that made him feel so guilty.

On the day of arriving in City S, when I got off the plane A, I felt a completely different climate from the inland area.The air is filled with moisture, not as dry as the inland area, and the whole city looks clean. When walking through the corridor, following the passing wind and seeing that person, the heat in my heart seems to be relieved a bit.

As expected, he was dark again, his teeth looked particularly neat, and he was still so full of vitality. For some reason, A suddenly remembered that he was like a puppy, staring at him eagerly with his eyes open.

He greeted his family in advance, saying that some college students would come to play.His parents were cooking for them at home early, and when they heard them coming back, they greeted A enthusiastically in southern Mandarin, telling him to have fun and treat this as his own home.

A actually felt guilty towards his parents. Seeing his parents eagerly serving him food, he suddenly regretted making this agreement with him, but only a little.

After eating, he took A to his bedroom.A very ordinary boy's bedroom, with a double bed covered with blue sheets, a one-piece desk standing next to the bed, and a basketball under the table, it can be seen that the owner has cleaned it up.

He blinked and said to A a little embarrassedly: "We sleep together at night, my house doesn't have a guest room, but I cleaned my room in the morning."

A said teasingly: "Are you not afraid of what I will do to you at night?"

His heartbeat stopped suddenly, and then accelerated again.He didn't know how to tell A that he wanted to end their relationship, and A told him as soon as he came, wasn't it embarrassing for the two of them sincerely?After making up his mind, he decided to tell him the day he sent A away. Anyway, it shouldn't be difficult for A to find another p friend... right?

Seeing his wandering look, A patted his face and asked him what he was thinking?

He glanced at A, and prevaricated: "I was wondering which side do you sleep at night?"

A seemed to be in a good mood and said: "I'll sleep next to the table, it's more convenient for you to sleep by the door." It seemed as if he had forgotten his teasing just now.

It was night, and it was the first time for the two of them to lie quietly on the bed without doing anything, and the atmosphere was rare and gentle.

A suddenly said: "Didn't you teach that kid today?"

"Ah, that's right, they started school the day before yesterday. Her mother also paid me my salary, which is just enough to treat you to a few good meals." He replied.

"Have you ever thought about whether to take the postgraduate entrance examination or work?"

"No, it's too late to think about it next year. Thinking about it now, I don't know anything, it just adds to my troubles."

A was a little surprised, but he was relieved after thinking about it, after all, he has always been like this.

A said: "When I was in college, I decided to work directly, and I didn't want to spend money from my parents."

"You...do you have a bad relationship with your family? No wonder I think you have been working part-time outside. "

"The relationship is very good. It is because of the good relationship that I don't want them to pay for me for granted. Maybe it's because I can't face their careless dedication. After all, you also know my aptitude."

"Well... your family knows you... do you like men?"

"I don't know, of course I don't know. I dare not say it, and I have no face to say it."

"I haven't told them, how do you know they will blame you? And this is what era, homosexuality is no longer a disease, your parents are teachers, they must know it. Don't put too much psychological burden on yourself "

"If you come out of the closet, you will not only have to face your parents. What I fear most is that your parents will be judged by others. If they are found out, the spittle of those people will make them lose their heads."

"Then you don't want anyone other than your parents to know? Why do you have to guess your parents like this before you tell your parents?"

"It's too easy for you to think."

"I think your thinking is too complicated. You have to trust your parents."

A turned over and didn't know how to answer the conversation. Maybe he was thinking too extreme, but he really didn't want to make his parents sad.

Seeing that A did not seem to continue talking, he also turned over.Two people back to back, but thinking about the same thing.

In the early morning, when A was half asleep and half awake, a flying leg kicked his ass, and A who was hanging by the bed woke up instantly.Turning around, he found that the two people whose backs were turned away were already facing each other. In order to prevent him from moving again, A simply held him in his arms and locked his legs between them.Just like that, he didn't even intend to wake up, he really wanted to sleep, A sighed.

In the light outside the window, A lowered his head and looked at him carefully. The face shape is small and exquisite, scoring 8 points, the lips are soft and nothing special, scoring 7 points, the brow bone is high and the nose bridge is straight, 9 points, the single eyelid and eyelashes are short, recall the appearance of opening, Very bright and energetic, scoring 8.5 points.The average score is 9.5. I don’t give full marks because I’m afraid you will be proud. I give you more favorability points. I reward you for enlightening me today, A said in his heart.

Looking at his lips, A couldn't help rubbing them again, and finally kissed him lightly like a chicken pecking at rice.Then he got a "slap". He was so hot that he felt like there were mosquitoes, so he slapped it mercilessly.

A sighed helplessly, you guy.

What A didn't know was that the person in his arms had actually woken up when he kissed him.

When he felt the kiss on his lips, his first reaction was to pretend not to know.He thought of the kiss he thought was a dream last time, which was exactly the same as this time, a little gentle and undeniable.For some reason, he was a little shy, obviously he had already done anything more shy than this.

He thought, he had to tell A quickly, otherwise there would be a big problem.

In the next few days, they wandered around several scenic spots in the city to see A and always wanted to go to S University.Sure enough, it was the white rose in his heart. A only hated himself for not telling his parents seriously.

And in these days and nights, I don’t know if it’s because A, who is out of the habitual environment and in a place where no one knows, feels that he has changed. It may be because of his company, cheerfulness and vitality.Sometimes this person can make him laugh until his stomach hurts. A no longer has any worries, and laughs wantonly. Anyway, he is a tourist, and everyone will understand.

On the penultimate day after A left, they went to watch the sunset together by the sea.

When they came to the beach that day, the first thing A saw was people on the beach, lying on their stomachs, running, and building castles, full of people.Then I looked towards the sea, the waves kept beating against the shore, one after another, the nearby sea water was yellow, I don't know if it was because of the shallowness.Someone is riding a motorboat on the sea, looking extremely happy.In the distance is the sea level where the sea and the sky meet. The closer to the sea level, the bluer the sea and the more charming it is.

A looks at the sea in the distance, and is not as yearning as he imagined.

The two of them went to the locker room to change their swimming trunks, saved their things, and then walked along the coastline at the same time.About to reach a place where there are not too many people, A tentatively took a few steps forward, the sea water is very cold, even under the sun's exposure.

The feeling of being caressed by the sea water on the soles of his feet was very good. A couldn't help but move forward a little deeper, he thought, he began to understand why he yearned to see the sea so much.It is freedom, the inclusiveness of the sea, and the gentleness of the sea that make him feel that everything is possible.

Water was splashed on the back, A looked back and was splashed with water again.The thoughts full of thoughts were interrupted, and immediately, not to be outdone, they poured back, and the two began to talk without any scruples.