Searching for food through the beast world

Ding Xiao

In this world, Ding Xiao has only one relative, his father.Although Dad didn't have a lot of money, he just opened a small grain store in the suburbs, but he never made Ding Xiao suffer.

When he was in kindergarten, Ding Xiao saw that other children had mothers, and when he got home, he asked his father why he did not have a mother.My father said frankly that my father and mother were divorced, and my mother lived in a faraway country.Xiaoxiao has a mother.It's just that Xiaoxiao can't see her mother until she grows up.So Ding Xiao stopped making troubles looking for his mother, but seriously looked forward to growing up every day.

When he was in elementary school, Ding Xiao once asked to write "My Mother" for an essay, but he handed in a blank paper.The new Chinese teacher was very angry and criticized Ding Xiao face to face as a disobedient and bad boy.There was a "little bully" in the class who said that Ding Xiao was a motherless wild child in front of the teacher.Ding Xiao gritted his teeth and didn't cry.The head teacher rushed to the classroom at this time and took Ding Xiao to the office.And sent Ding Xiao home.Since then, Ding Xiao has never laughed again in school, and he no longer plays with children.But got the care of the head teacher and Chinese teacher.At that time, Xiaoxiao's Chinese score was the best in the whole grade.

When he first entered junior high school, Ding Xiao met his Chinese teacher in elementary school and kissed his father at home.He didn't quite understand why the Chinese teacher was in his home and why he wanted to kiss his father.So he tilted his head in doubt, hoping that the two startled adults would give him an answer.On that day, Ding Xiao found out that his father and his Chinese teacher met after the composition incident in the third grade and became a couple.They kept it from themselves because they were both men.In fact, Ding Xiao didn't really understand why two men had to hide their relationship, but he honestly didn't tell others.The next day, there was one more person in the family, which he thought was forever.

In high school, Ding Xiao gradually understood the concept of homosexuality and the secular misunderstanding and discrimination against this group.But the taciturn Xiaoxiao didn't quarrel with his father and father because of this.Yes, after getting along for a year, Xiaoxiao changed her words to the Chinese teacher.This is not difficult for him.Because only in front of my father, my father will smile very relaxed and look good.So he hopes that his father and father can live together all the time, like ordinary couples.

In his sophomore year, Ding Xiao's father suddenly left his father.Ding Xiao looked at his father sitting at the door with red eyes but refused to cry, and hugged his father distressedly.You still have me, Dad!This is what Ding Xiao shouted out.But he resented in his heart, why did he choose to betray after such a long time, if not forever, wouldn't it be better not to show up in the first place?From then on, Ding Xiao began to love to laugh, because only when he laughed, his father would look at him and laugh.Ding Xiao also began to be very talkative, because now there are only two people who are not talkative in the family of three people. They are very quiet, so quiet that it is scary.So he would keep talking at home, about things in school, on TV, and in books.Just don't talk about the past, don't talk about the original.

In the year of graduating from university, Ding Xiao's father threw himself into the river.Ding Xiao cried miserably, but when he saw the man crying with his father's body in his arms, he picked up a brick on the ground and slapped it hard.You don't deserve to cry, liar!It's better to go to my father's funeral than pretending to cry!

The man was wounded and taken to hospital with six stitches in his head.Ding Xiao was brought to court by the man's wife.But the other party withdrew the complaint a few days later.Ding Xiao didn't have any psychological fluctuations about this lawsuit that seems to have nothing.It doesn't matter if he is sentenced for intentionally hurting someone, as long as the man and his family are not afraid of being ruined.He only hated himself for not hitting hard enough.

At his father's funeral, Ding Xiao saw "relatives" he had never seen before.Only then did he realize that he had grandparents, aunts, uncles, and brothers and sisters.But Ding Xiao has never seen it before, "Look. I told him that being with a man would not lead to good results. He must be disobedient. If he was willing to live with Rong Rong, why did he make it like this!"

Ding Xiao didn't know if the woman who said this in front of the mourning hall were his aunts or just his aunt.But Ding Xiao glared at him fiercely.He stared so hard that the other party ran out of the mourning hall as if he had seen a ghost.Ding Xiao shouted in his heart.If there were no discrimination from people like you and the cynicism from so many irrelevant people, they would not be separated, and Dad would not die!everyone!Everyone is a murderer! !

After that, Ding Xiao became different.There is no expression on his face. Although his life is very regular, he buys food, sells food, collects money, and saves money.But he ate less and less, and people who were not fat before became thinner and distressed.Ding Xiao didn't know what was wrong, he knew he was very uncomfortable, but he couldn't tell whether it was because he was sad or he was sick physically. Picking up the kitchen knife at home, the man ran away in fright.After those two times, Ding Xiao never saw him again.

Ding Xiao's cousin often comes to see Ding Xiao after Ding Xiao's father's funeral.Ding Xiao ignored him, but his cousin came almost every day.Talk to Ding Xiao and help Ding Xiao organize the rice noodles in the small grain store.Ding Xiao is actually a very simple person, if someone treats him well, he will return it tenfold.When others treat him badly, he just chooses to remember it and stay away from it, but don't bully him in person, he won't take revenge, he will only fight back in person.Once or twice, Ding Xiao regarded his cousin as his only friend.

My cousin, Ding Jun, is an orthopedic surgeon.He met his little cousin for the first time at the funeral of the uncle who had been kicked out of the house for decades.Ding Xiao is not short, with a height of 1.7 meters 1.7, which is a little taller than Ding Jun's height of [-] meters [-], but he looks very thin.The flesh on the cheeks has a tendency to be sunken, but the childishness can still be seen on that face.He felt that Ding Xiao should have a baby face, but he was forced to keep a straight face by the pressure of life, and became weaker and weaker day by day.Maybe it's because of blood relationship, or maybe it's just because of the benevolence of the doctors.He began to gradually walk into Ding Xiao's life, hoping to see his little cousin smile more, that face must be pretty if it smiles.

After a long time, Ding Jun realized that Ding Xiao would not laugh no matter how funny a joke he heard.Only when holding the photo of his uncle, the corners of his mouth will be curved.The law of life is like clockwork. Although three meals a day are eaten regularly, the amount of food is frighteningly small.Although the door was still open for business, he didn't say anything except answering the price.After one month, the business of the small shop has decreased by [-]%.But he still didn't see any worried expression on Ding Xiao's face.As if to be alive is to be alive.

Ding Jun dragged Ding Xiao to the hospital where he worked.I went straight to the psychiatric clinic.The answer given by the doctor is very simple.Mild psychological depression.Without treatment and counseling, it will definitely get worse.

After that, Ding Xiao started the treatment process.

Ding Xiao cooperated very well.Because he doesn't want to die.But before, he did have a feeling of lovelessness.The doctor told him that this feeling was a disease, and told him not to think about why he was alive, so he didn't have to think about it.At this stage, what he needs is a good rest.To give yourself a vacation, to completely relax.To communicate with people more.If you don't want to tell others, you can come to him, even for private time after get off work, and he will never charge.

Ding Xiao's psychiatrist is very humorous. Every time Ding Xiao chats with him, he feels very happy and even feels better physically.He thought that maybe he really lacked someone who could speak.But when you get home, who do you tell yourself?

After nearly half a year of psychological counseling, Ding Xiao's condition was identified as healed.This is mainly because of his active cooperation, and of course the care and help of Ding Jun and the psychologist.On the day when Ding Xiao was announced to be cured, the doctor patted Ding Xiao on the shoulder in relief. "Young people, there are still many things in the world that deserve your attention. For example, keeping a pet, going to further studies to increase knowledge, and traveling to increase your knowledge."

Ding Xiao thought it was a good idea to go on a trip.Anyway, the store is no longer in business.He simply cleared out the storefront on the first floor and rented it out.Then bring your own money and start preparing to travel.His goal for the time being is to be able to travel around the country.

Both Ding Jun and the psychiatrist agree with Ding Xiao's decision.But the premise is that he must pay attention to his state at all times, and if he feels restless or inexplicable panic, he must come back immediately to continue treatment.And let him come in two days to pick up a box of Chinese patent medicine that helps sleep, and a bottle of Western medicine that regulates brain nerves.And told Ding Xiao to send them a postcard and write a letter every time he went to a city.Don't use the phone, don't use the Internet, and write to them in the most original form of letter.Writing, like language, is an excellent way to relieve psychological stress.

Ding Xiao, who is in a much happier mood, now puts all his attention on setting the itinerary and purchasing app items.

He still has an instinctive resistance to crowded places.It has nothing to do with his depression, but that he didn't like to be in contact with too many people since he was a child.The doctor also said it was due to his personality.As long as you don't deliberately alienate the crowd and fear to communicate with people normally, these are within the normal range.No one stipulates that people have to be gregarious.So the goal Ding Xiao set for himself is the high mountains everywhere.He first chose Changbai Mountain, which is also in the northeast, and he felt that it was relatively close to home.The point is that he wants to see if there are any water monsters in Tianchi.

Now that the first destination has been decided, the next thing to prepare is the necessary supplies.Since Ding Xiao doesn't like crowded places, he will naturally not go to the developed scenic spots. That is to say, he needs to buy a lot of things, and most of them are outdoor survival items, and the prices will not be very cheap.Fortunately, I still have this money at home.He didn't care at all who made the extra 2 yuan in his father's account every month for the past two years, but Ding Xiao would not forgive a betrayer for the sake of money, let alone ignore the money because of this betrayer.There must be principles in life, but the principle is definitely not to abuse yourself and treat your enemies well.

The day was sunny, Ding Xiao chatted with the psychiatrist for a while, took the medicine from the hospital and rushed into the shopping mall.

Facing these men, women and children who have nothing to do with him at all, Ding Xiao's mood is very calm.Without the previous panic and disgust, he knew that these were the results of these months of treatment.He even felt that his current state was a little more relaxed than before his father's death.After all, there are some things that have been taken away, and after talking to others, you will be calm.He is very grateful to his cousin Ding Jun, and also to his psychiatrist.Without them, I would probably end up like my father, not knowing that I couldn't hold on that day.Of course, he will no longer regret because he failed to discover his father's mental state in time, after all, that is in the past tense.He knew that his father was waiting for the day when he graduated from college, and he had to live for the name his father gave him.

My name is Ding Xiao.I should face life with a smile.

Standing in the camping area of ​​the supermarket, Ding Xiao couldn't figure out the dazzling things for a while.Fortunately, there was a thick stack of "Wild Survival Handbook" in the special price area, and he thought he could just pick it up and buy what it said.And he found that there should not be too few people who choose to go out for a walk, at least a lot of people in this area are loading their shopping carts.It should be of some help to myself to observe what other people have bought.

Follow the manual.He first picked out an oversized travel backpack, a messenger bag, and a fanny pack.Then choose a set of all-in-one tools that combine the functions of an axe, hammer, pliers, and screwdrivers.This thing is not big, less than thirty centimeters, and it is assembled on one handle like a multi-function knife.It will definitely not be too durable, but one outing should solve some problems. It doesn’t need to be too durable. At worst, if it wears out, just buy another one next time.Of course, one must buy an all-purpose military knife, and Ding Xiao specially chose one with scissors and nail clippers.And he chose the best quality for this set of universal knives. Of course, don't expect it to be so good on the supermarket shelves, but more than 300 is already very expensive for Ding Xiao.

There are a lot of discounted items on the specials counter.He bought two solar flashlights in one go, and the instructions said it was very good.But 51 should not be too durable.Of course, there are cheaper ones, that is, five yuan a small flashlight with power generation. Out of cheapness and curiosity, Ding Xiao also bought two.Anyway, it's smaller than a palm, flat, and doesn't take up much space.He also took three multi-functional tableware from the shelf, the kind with a fork and spoon on one handle, the handle is made of metal, and one is only twenty. He felt that he was a little sorry for himself for not buying more.

The windproof lighter should be useful, so he bought a small pack of ten in one go.Although you don't smoke, you must prepare for wild fires.He didn't buy the compass, because he had a waterproof multifunctional mechanical watch on his wrist, which was a birthday present from his father when he was 20 years old.The watch not only has a compass, but also a calendar.

A sewing kit is a must.Clothes are easily scratched in the wild, so a box must be prepared for this.There are a lot of needles and threads at home, so it is not as convenient as this small bag, and I have to find someone to pack it.However, the bunches of threads of different colors in the thread bag really make people feel dumbfounded.But forget it, what more can you ask for for a pack of ten yuan.

Military water bottles are more expensive, one cost more than 100. Of course, this is because he didn’t touch the more expensive ones. He always buys things based on cost performance.That's why I have a habit of buying more things at special prices.

It is unrealistic to bring a pot in the wild, so he bought a stainless steel lunch box set.It costs 240 RMB.But he thinks it's worth it, because there are three lunch boxes in this set, which can be put together without taking up a lot of space.The smallest one is just right for military utility knives and multi-function cutlery.

Originally, he should have bought a tent, but the tents in the supermarket looked weak to him, so he didn't buy one. He planned to go to a store that specializes in buying camping supplies.He didn't buy rain gear or anything, he still had rain ponchos at home.Just bring one.

The author has something to say: Do you feel abusive?In fact, it's nothing, how can you feel sweet without bitterness?Xiaoxiao's father (pseudo) and the betrayer (pseudo), behind them are very important characters.Xiaoxiao will find her father and father in another world.And then to find a good husband, the only thing left is to open the eyes of the sky!Also, in addition to pure eating, this article will have a little struggle or something.But I try to write less twists and turns, and try to make the story as relaxed and enjoyable as possible.Ah, and there is no drama of attacking the king for a while.But you have to be patient, the emotions in this article are definitely not slow to heat up.