The little teacher of rebirth

Guan Zhongzhi disappeared. The two had a meal together that Friday, and Zhou Mengxi went home. The family was busy that weekend, and he was directed by his parents.

It's already late autumn, Zhou Mengxi did some work outside on weekends shirtless, and after being frivolous, he developed a high fever. He didn't get up abruptly on Monday morning, and slept all morning until the fever subsided at noon. Zhou's mother didn't let him go to the school. .

When Zhou Mengxi walked to school, she was still thinking about when Zhou's mother was so gentle. Although she used to be considerate and caring, as long as it was not serious, she never asked for leave for minor reasons such as a cold or fever.

When Zhou Mengxi walked to the door of the class, he habitually swept the class around.

Find Guan Zhongzhi.

But he didn't see him, Zhou Mengxi frowned and stopped walking.

He asked for leave today, so he came late, the afternoon reading has already started, why hasn't Guan Zhongzhi come yet?

"Why don't you go in? Is your cold better?" The old horse's leisurely voice came from behind.

Zhou Mengxi looked back, and the old horse was looking at him with a smile.

Zhou Mengxi turned slightly to say hello: "Mr. Good afternoon! I'm much better, and I'm basically fine. Thank you for your concern. By the way, old class," Zhou Mengxi glanced at the class, and asked casually: "Why didn't Guan Zhongzhi come?"

The old horse still had the same smiling expression, but he was a little surprised: "Guan Zhongzhi didn't tell you? His parents brought him here this morning to complete the withdrawal procedures, saying that he was transferred because of family reasons." I patted him on the shoulder as a comfort: "It's okay, I guess I was too anxious. When I went through the formalities in the morning, I saw that kid was red-eyed and haggard. Study hard and get in touch. Maybe he can do it again in high school and college. met."

Abnormality of mother and father.

Guan Zhongzhi's sudden alienation and surrender.

It seems that there is an answer all of a sudden.

Zhou Mengxi stood there silent.

The thumb of the right hand seemed to be pinched too hard, making a brittle sound.

Thumbs off.

Zhou Mengxi walked into the class calmly, nothing unusual as usual, and when he got to his seat, he straightened his thumb again.

He Yue came to him after the first class, and Zhou Mengxi gestured to her to go out and say something.

corridor--

He Yue looked at his expression a little cautiously, and felt relieved when he saw that his expression was normal.

"Guan Zhongzhi's parents seem to know about your affairs. They came here overnight and in the morning they expelled Guan Zhongzhi from school. He read him early. I watched Guan Zhongzhi keep glancing at his class when he was dragged away by his father. Zhou Mengxi, you Why didn't you come in the morning?" He Yue's words unconsciously carried blame.

Zhou Mengxi remained silent.

Zhou Mengxi, why didn't you come this morning?

I don't know, I should... know?

Zhou Mengxi remembered the alarm clock that his mother had taken away.

"I..." Zhou Mengxi tried to speak, only to find that his voice was suddenly hoarse and he couldn't speak.

I.

I know why I didn't come this morning.

Zhou Mengxi nodded to Heyue to express his gratitude, and went to the security room at the gate to find Lao Ma.

Outside the security guard—

"Teacher," Zhou Mengxi coughed, "Did my parents ask you for the phone number of Guan Zhongzhi's parents?"

He used declarative sentences.

The old horse froze for a moment: "Yeah, what's wrong?"

Zhou Mengxi bowed to express his thanks and went back to work.

I was wrong about Zhou Mengxi.

You can punish me any way you want.

Zhou Mengxi remembered what Guan Zhong said while watching him with tears in his eyes a few days ago.

When he closed his eyes, he felt that those big black and white eyes were looking at him, as calm and inclusive as the sparkling lake surface in the afterglow of the morning sun.

Guan Zhongzhi.

I am sorry.

Where did Guan Zhongzhi go?

What will his parents do to him?

The most important thing is that he was about to leave, but he found out that he just asked for leave and couldn't find him everywhere. What was his idea?

Zhou Mengxi's mind was a little dull.

As soon as his eyes were dark, he didn't know anything, he just remembered that his head hit the square bricks on the ground, and there were a few coherent bang bang sounds, just like before his death in the last life.

In the dream, Guan Zhongzhi was reading a poem, and Zhou Mengxi tried to concentrate on listening, because he always felt that the voice and lines were very familiar. What was he reading?

Zhou Mengxi was unable to think anymore, his head was in chaos, but a long poem suddenly jumped out.

It was read by Guan Zhongzhi in a 3-minute speech before a Chinese class:

what can i do to keep you

Borges

I give you skinny streets

Desperate sunsets, wild moons.

I offer you the sorrow of a man who gazed long and long at the lonely moon,

I give you my dead ancestors, the souls of the ancestors who have been sacrificed in marble:

my father's father,

Died on the frontier of Buenos Aires,

Two bullets pierced his chest,

He had a beard and died,

Soldiers wrapped his body in cowhide;

my mother's grandfather—

I was only 24 years old

Lead a charge of 300 men in Peru

now it's all gone

Ghosts on horseback.

I offer you all the insight my books can contain, and all the manliness and humor my life can have.

I offer you the loyalty of a man who has never had faith.

I give you the core of myself that I have tried to preserve.

——Don’t make sentences with words, don’t trade with dreams,

A core untouched by time, joy and adversity.

I give it to you, many years before your lifetime,

seen at sunset

The memory of a yellow rose.

I give you an interpretation of your life,

about your own theory,

Your real and amazing presence.

I give you my loneliness,

my darkness, my hunger;

I try to impress you with impermanence, danger and failure.

Zhou Mengxi remembered that after a long period of silence in the class, amidst the roaring applause of everyone, Guan Zhongzhi looked at him, his eyes were extremely bright, as if carrying the heat of burning the soul.

Zhou Mengxi couldn't help but shed tears.

In a trance, I don't know who said "thank you", the voice is so familiar, it seems like a teenager who read poetry seriously not long ago.

Zhou Mengxi suddenly recalled the startling glance when he first saw him.

The young man's jade face was deep, his eyes were black and white, and his eyes lightly passed over him without leaving a trace.

It seemed to herald their end.

Zhou Mengxi cried and laughed.

Guan Zhongzhi's voice came out again.

"Where did I go wrong?" Guan Zhongzhi seemed to be screaming.

Zhou Mengxi had never heard him speak like this.

"Boom!"

It's the sound of a heavy object hitting the ground.

Zhou Mengxi's heart seemed to be tightly clenched, and he held his breath.

"How did I give birth to such a wicked child like you..." The adult's voice was cursing far away, Zhou Mengxi could no longer hear clearly.

Guan Zhongzhi's clear and cold voice sounded again, trembling with forbearance: "I said, I was right. Is this a disease?"

Homosexuality is not a disease.

I just happen to fall in love with someone, his name is Zhou Mengxi.

He is warm and kind.

He is a teenager.

Guan Zhongzhi's voice gradually became quieter, until it was barely audible.

He was injured, why is there no sound?

Zhou Mengxi panicked uncontrollably.

He is going to find Guan Zhongzhi.

He is going to find Guan Zhongzhi!

Zhou Mengxi lifted the quilt, put on slippers and left.

"Boss, where are you going?"

A strange yet familiar voice suddenly sounded, and Zhou Mengxi stopped.

He slowly turned his head to look at the non-mainstream boy, his eyes were so fierce that he wanted to choose someone to kill.

The boy shut up and stood there trembling.

Zhou Mengxi suddenly remembered that he was a follower that he used very well, and suddenly forgot what he was going to do when he woke up.

After standing there for a long time, I realized that I seemed to be... looking for someone named Guan Zhongzhi.

Zhou Mengxi touched the back of his head, which suddenly started to hurt, and was suddenly very puzzled.

Why did he seek Guan Zhongzhi?

Also, who is Guan Zhongzhi?

——End of the play——

A floating dream,

But laughter and ignorance.

Teenagers are also dreams.

Now that he woke up from the dream, he left.

Really, Zhou Mengxi was puzzled.

He remembered that it was Guan Zhongzhi who had left, and he woke up from the dream.

That's right, when Guan Zhongzhi left, Zhou Mengxi woke up from his dream.