COSER, I became the leader of despair

Haruyuki Xijianzi knew that he was a special person since he was a child.

Haruyuki Shimiko was born in a relatively remote countryside in Yokohama, where even a bus is a luxury.She once read a book called "Ghoul", in which there is a girl named Shimizu Megumi.Megumi Shimizu was born in a village called Waichang Village with a total population of [-] people. In her eyes, the simple bus station in the village is the most important means of transportation to the city.But she failed to go to the city in the end, and dying in the village as a ghoul was her final outcome.

Is that really the ending?Xi Jianzi actually forgot a little bit.When she wanted to borrow that book again, she couldn't find him anywhere.Whether it is on the library list or searching the almost omnipotent Internet, I can't find this book, nor can I find the existence of this author.

She gave up.

And then, strange events followed one after another.

First of all, some strange memory fragments appeared in the dream, which she had never experienced before.This point can be guaranteed.But if you look carefully at the characters in those clips, Xi Jianzi will find that the main characters all carry her familiar and unique characteristics.

Long black hair, green eyes, and a yellow butterfly hair accessory.

Are these all her?Xi Jianzi is not too clear.Although those characters look somewhat similar to her, their birth and growth experiences are not the same.

When he was a little older, Haruyuki Shimiko found that the book had been stuffed into the mailbox in front of his house.The person who stuffed the book in must have been a very rough person. There was a lock on the mailbox, and the mailbox opening was very small, but the book was five or six centimeters long, and the paper was not very hard, with about [-] pages.

After finally taking out the book that was stuck at the mouth of the mailbox, Xi Jianzi found some rough fibers on the sides of the book.When I opened it, I found that it was a completely blank book, not even spots or streaks.

What the hell is this for?Is it an initiative to deal with waste?

But Xi Jianzi had a mind, so he kept the book in the shoe cabinet.A few years ago, there was a series of murders in Japan called poisonous cola poisoning.Someone put a deadly amount of meth into the then-popular Coke and put it under telephone booths and street lamps.Many people died of poisoning from drinking such cola.

For this reason, Xi Jianzi is also very careful about this book from an unfamiliar source.She could have just thrown it away, but she didn't know what thoughts controlled her and made her put this book in her shoe cabinet.

When I remembered this completely blank book again, it was when my parents cleaned up the shoe cabinet and found this book during the New Year.

"Xijianzi, is this my notebook?"

Xi Jianzi's answer is "no".

The mother who usually uses a notebook to record some advertising calls said: "Then I will use it to write."

Haruyuki Xijianzi objected at that time.

"No, I will use it."

Mother showed a puzzled expression, but still handed the book to Xi Jianzi.

But Shi Jianzi, who transferred the notebook to his room, did not use it for anything.She put the book with some broken edges in the bookcase, and put it together with Senchuan Ring's "Latent" and Stephen King's "The Outsider".

It didn't take long for a singer named Lily Zhou to set off a wave in the music world. The other party was a singer who sang with "ether", and even caused a fan suicide.At the same time, Xi Jianzi also read a novel called "Black Leather Handbook".

"A person who can create is amazing." She couldn't help but sigh with emotion.When she said this in the coffee shop, on the other side of her, there was a red-haired teenager who had experienced a lot of vicissitudes and said, "Yes. I admire them too." The other party stirred the black liquid in the coffee cup with a spoon, Said in an almost sad tone.

Xi Jianzi looked up at the other party, and found that it was a man who had appeared in her dream memory fragment.Is it called... Oda Sakunosuke?She was a little unclear.Stirring the coffee indifferently, Xi Jianzi murmured, "Then I also want to create a story." Afterwards, she felt that her tone sounded a bit like an awkward female junior high school student who wanted to show off.

Xi Jianzi rubbed the wall of his cup with his fingers uncomfortably.

"What a wonderful dream." That man, Sakunosuke Oda intertwined his hands, "My dream is to become a novelist."

So from that day on, Xi Jianzi had a dream of "wanting to create stories", but she could neither compose nor draw, and finally cast her sights on "writing".

But it is a pity that Haruyuki Xijianzi is an ordinary person who does not have the ability to write.

She wrote countless stories on the page, only to find that they all had the same taste—dry words and dry emotions.

She is not really a writing material.

After the "Postscript" was written, Xi Jianzi almost angrily tore up this novel that had never been published for others to read.Lured by an inspiration higher than herself, she reached out her hand and pulled out the blank book with a torn corner hidden in the bookshelf.

She opened the book and found that the first line was already written on it.

When was it written?

Neither Papa's handwriting nor Mama's.

...It was handwriting that looked like print.

[Chun Xuexi knew from birth that he was a special person. ]

[What is so special about her? ]

[Through the existence of the self-world, this is the magic of this carbon-based creature. ]

Under these three lines of black characters, there are more traces below.There are three lines of text on the first page, and below that, there is a large blank space.

It seems to be guiding her to write something down.

Enticed, Xi Jianzi dropped the first dot of ink on it.

She likes the way the pen moves on the paper.

[In a certain world, she is a kind priestess...]

After writing down such inherent impressions of pure women, Xijianzi stopped the actions she wrote.She just wrote this sentence without thinking, but she still doesn't know what she wants to write after all.

Xi Jianzi closed the book.

When going to bed at night, Xi Jianzi had a dream that was different from the past, which could be described by the word "long".That dream is not so much a dream as it is a person's life.From her birth until her death.

It is the story of a girl born in Sendai City, who was born in summer and died near winter.Lived to be 16 years old.

A shrine maiden who served a great man who had passed away but still remained famous and revered.

Miko.Haruyuki Shimiko's impression of the shrine maiden all came from the shrine maiden Kikyo.Long black hair, white clothes scarlet hakama.Just like her impression, the girl whose face could not be clearly seen in the dream also had straight black long hair, and a shrine maiden costume on her slender body.

Xijianzi heard another witch call her "Xijianzi".

For some reason, Haruyuki always accepted this setting very easily.In Yokohama, where she was born, there are people with superpowers called "supernatural beings".

After witnessing the death of the girl who was also named Shimiko in the attack of an evil spirit (what kind of creature was that), Haruyuki Shimiko expressed a sense of loss.

Died just like that?

When she woke up the next day, Xi Jianzi was still thinking about that thing, that girl.This day happened to be the day when the Yokohama Red Valley Comic Exhibition started.As a person who kept her promise and promised to go to the manga exhibition together with her friend Qingzi, she got up early and began to put on makeup for herself.The make-up is very simple, because what she wants to cosplay is a man who is not very flashy—Ghost Mai Tsuji.

But at the moment when he stepped into the venue with his good friend Tianshangyuan Qingzi, a strange feeling appeared in Xijianzi's heart.When she opened her eyes again, she had disappeared from the comic exhibition venue.

What Xijianzi faced was a mountain road full of cherry blossom trees.At the beginning of the mountain path, there is a stone carved with the characters "Toshogu Shrine".

This is... the Tosho Shrine?

Xi Jianzi walked up slowly, the surrounding area was empty, and the wind was a bit bleak, it didn't seem like a warm season.

Xi Jianzi looked down at her strange and conspicuous outfit for others, and after sighing, she still walked up.This temperature looks like autumn.September?Or October?

more or less.

Haruyuki breathlessly saw Zi go up, and the medical box in his hand suddenly gained weight, as if someone had put something into it.

The pace became heavier and heavier.

Then, after a long time, Xi Jianzi finally walked up the mountain.She saw the shrine in dark tones, and the dark clouds hanging over the shrine.But she soon discovered that it was not a naturally formed dark cloud. Between the sky and the earth, there were only black clouds floating in that area.

...It's almost like being cursed by some evil spirit.

There was an unreasonable association in Xi Jianzi's mind, and she thought of the dream that didn't seem like a dream, and the shrine that was attacked.

Xi Jianzi carried the medical kit and strode towards the shrine with its gate closed.She was soon surrounded by a wave of evil breaths, and those disgusting breaths made her nose bleed.After wiping it off with her finger, she pushed open the door.

squeak-

The heavy wooden door made a fragile creaking sound, and the atmosphere inside was stronger than that outside.Everything is black, and there is a thick smell of an unknown substance reverberating inside.There were no lamps and no candles.

However, inspiration guides Shi Jianzi forward, just like before.

She passed through yet another door, sensing a hateful smell that couldn't even be described as evil.It smells like moldy soy sauce mixed with hundreds of catties of brown sugar, like the smell of burning durians stuffed into the stove.

Terrible taste.

A burst of flashlight-like light shines from the top of the head. At that moment, Xi Jianzi saw the bodies of people lying scattered all over the ground, including a terrified priestess sitting on the ground, and above the zenith, a A white-faced monster shaped like a matryoshka doll (Shimiko thought so) opened its scarlet mouth, revealing its pitch-black teeth.

A feeling of anger rose from the bottom of Xi Jianzi's heart, and she could even feel that her anger was about to jump out of her chest.Every movement of the other party will make her angry, and every negative world of the other party will make her painful.

"Go to hell!"

In the boundless darkness, a metallic sound came out of Shi Jianzi's throat.

The white-faced monster in the shape of a matryoshka screamed, and then disappeared like a vortex like a large amount of water flowing through the hole in the pool leading to the sewer.

Disappeared.

Xi Jianzi groped to find the candle, and one on the ground had been trampled out.

She rubbed the match and lit the candle.

A witch with black hair and green eyes sat down on the ground, her face turned pale, and her eyes were scattered around in her green pupils.

She is dead.

Xi Jianzi suddenly thought that in the dream yesterday, the witch died in the same way.

They turned out to be one person.

In this way, isn't the other party also "seeing the child"?

Haruyuki Shimiko felt a sense of being fooled.

The tragic scene she faced seemed to be turned by someone, and the time was changed.The next scene is in front of a cemetery.Xi Jianzi saw a girl weeping and offering a bouquet of white flowers to the tombstone that said "Chun Xue Xi Jianzi".

It turned out that the dead girl also had to see her child.

Xi Jianzi thought, how could it be so funny?

So she approached the other party, and this time, she finally saw the face of the crying girl clearly.

It turns out that she is also "Qingzi of Tianshangyuan".

Using a soft tone, Shijianzi asked the story of the dead Shijianzi from Tianshangyuan Qingzi.Tianshangyuan Qingzi has been crying and talking sobbing, and by the time she finished telling the story about the other party, her voice was already a little dry and hoarse.

According to Qingzi of Tianshangyuan, her friend Xijianzi is a beautiful, smart, arrogant and fragile girl.Kiyoko said that "Xijianzi" came to the shrine to be a witch with the hope of her parents wanting to atone for her sins.

What is it that you want to "redeem" for?

After Qingzi hesitated for a while, Tianshangyuan Qingzi told the truth to Haruyuki Xijianzi.It turned out that some of the ancestors of "Xijianzi" were possessed by evil spirits and did many bad things, so later generations always wanted to atone for the sins of other innocent people who died.

In Xi Jianzi's view, this is almost like a family story of a tragic heroine.

After listening to her words, Xi Jianzi couldn't help asking "Do you want her to come back to life?"Tianshangyuan Qingzi's eyes were dim.

"Yes" was her unspoken answer.

"If Shimiko is alive, she will definitely graduate from the shrine, go to school, and become an ordinary or extraordinary student...in the future. She might become an elegant urbanite. I I envy the city people."

When Xi Jianzi stared at the other party's teary eyes, snowflake-like debris flashed in front of Xi Jianzi's eyes.When he opened his eyes again, Xi Jianzi had reappeared in the venue.

"See you soon."

"See you soon."

"What are you doing in a daze?"

Qing Zi shook Xi Jianzi's arm, not knowing what happened to his friend just now.

Xi Jianzi hummed, ending the meaningless conversation.

At night, Xi Jianzi pulled out the notebook as if attracted by a ghost.Last night, she wrote the words [In a certain world, she is a kind priestess...] under the three lines of printed characters that suddenly appeared.

……

This shrine maiden came to the shrine of Toshogu Shrine in order to eliminate the sins brought down by her ancestors. When all the gods went to Izumo to meet the Lord of the Kingdom, Kannazuki was attacked by a monster named White Face, Red Lips and Black Teeth. That shrine.Apart from the Miko of the Heavenly Court who left on leave, the only one alive was Miko Haruyuki.The witch lost her leg, but fortunately, she was helped by a kind doctor.The doctor's name is...

Named... Shikiya, Shikiya Masae, is a western doctor with superb medical skills.

Haruyuki Miko, who escaped from hell, ended her life as a shrine maiden.Her parents figured out a way to let her leave the country and go to school in Tokyo.The school that this ex-princess attends is a very famous school in Tokyo, and the students gathered there are all students with inhuman talents.

After writing this, Xi Jianzi thought for a long time on the question of "what talent does she have", and finally, she wrote the words on it according to her own preferences.

……

The kind doctor saw at a glance that the former witch had the ability to play other people. The doctor told her, you have such ability, you are very powerful, and you have such talent.

A girl with such a talent encountered a strange event in Tokyo.

……

After writing here, Xi Jianzi will not write any more.It's not that she has lost her mind, but that her hands can't move as if they were controlled by someone.Then, she watched the pen in her hand move naturally.At that moment, it seemed to have life.

This illogical story is filled with logic by inexplicable forces.

Xi Jianzi was frightened and dropped the pen in his hand.

……

After about a few years, she finally knew what this weird book was.In Shimiko's hometown of Yokohama, there was once a rumor circulating.There is a treasure that can change reality, and what it shows is a completely blank book.The content written on it will be turned into reality, and the unreasonable will be automatically made reasonable.

So, can I (Xijianzi) become a great novelist with the help of such objects?

……

In fact, it won't happen.

From that day on, Xi Jianzi could no longer write words on this book.

Xi Jianzi originally thought that she would miss this book, but by mistake, she escaped with her parents who were accidentally involved in gangsters into the port mafia with the highest status and the largest number of people in the local area.In order to protect herself, her parents once made an agreement with her not to allow activities under her own name.Then that day, Xi Jianzi suddenly remembered the name of the novel he had read.

The name of the author who wrote the novel "Ghoul" is...

——Ono could not help but be beautiful.

So from that day on, she was called Ono Inuimi.

She has kept that book very well, even when she was the cadre's female assistant, she didn't let that cunning man named Osamu Dazai find out about it.But when will that book be written again?Xi Jianzi has been waiting for that day to come.

Then, one day, a blond man passed her on the street.Although it was a man, a man with short light blond hair and golden eyes, and a man dressed as a detective, a man who was called a "murder detective", Shi Jianzi still realized who the other party was.

Shi Jianzi once wrote in a book that the girl encountered a wonderful thing in Tokyo.And after that, the book was no longer under her control.That night, she opened the book again and found that the following story had been automatically written on it.

Logical story.

People say that "books" have the powerful power to turn illusion into reality, and turn non-existence into real existence.

On that day, she realized, her frozen world was moving again.

The desire to "become a great novelist" has never left Xi Jianzi's heart.Want to be a great novelist who can write great stories, want to write better stories than "decent".

She wrote the story on the page, waiting, waiting for the moment when it would come true.In her opinion, there is no more satisfying story than the reality of her men's stories.

The actions, thoughts, and emotions of the characters in the book are all controlled by her, but she is just an arrogant and vulnerable young woman.

From a certain point onwards, everything was no longer under her control.

The joyful emotion of being friends with someone.

Has the mood of wonder and delight of an eccentric family.

The feeling of being protected...

No one knows what the protagonists of this story will write next.

……

Xi Jianzi, who failed to submit another manuscript based on this story, has already used her pen name—Xia Ye, and walks through the streets of Yokohama with her only printed manuscript.On the screen that is open to the whole city, there is a portrait of a talented and beautiful girl writer who has become famous recently.

The other party has long curly hair in pink and orange, and always wears very fresh white dresses.

The other party's name is...

Xia Ye narrowed his eyes and looked at the big screen.Countless pedestrians walked past her, and some also stayed in front of the screen with her.

The name of the beautiful girl novelist is being typed next to her portrait.

The other party's name is weird, but cute and noble.

Xuehua Qijing.

That was the name of the novelist.