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Su Yu was placed in the living room for three days. On the third day, everyone just finished breakfast and Su Yu couldn't hold on anymore. There was still a moment before he died, and his expression was clear. Wen Changjing grabbed Su Zhi's hand and asked him to say In the last few sentences, Su Zhi bit her lip and watched Su Yu temporarily lose the ability to speak, what else could he say?At the last moment when the fireworks burn out.

Su Yu finally died, and no one could hear what he muttered before he died.Wen Changjing finally burst into tears after helping Su Yu close her eyes. Su Zhi held Wen Changjing in her arms and felt her sobbing, suddenly felt that this calm and calm woman was so fragile.Su Zhi crossed the ruins of memories and saw a green and green outside the window, summer is here.

It was not suitable to break ground that day, so Su Yu stayed in the room for another day.At night, Su Zhi woke up from a long-lost nightmare. There was a person sitting at the end of the bed. Su Zhi almost screamed out. Only when she saw the fire went out did she realize that it was Yu Zhening.Yu Zhening sat in the dark and Su Zhi couldn't see his expression clearly, but could only hear Yu Zhening's voice coming from the other side of the bed, with incomprehensible emotions in the faint voice, "Did it scare you?"

Su Zhi didn't speak, Yu Zhening was still smoking, "You said you didn't like this place."

"You have been indifferent to Su Yu these days."

"This is the place where you grew up, but I can't feel the breath of your life."

"I want to ask a question, and I must answer it truthfully."

"Su Zhi... What are your worries about the past?"

Su Zhi was silent for a long time, Yu Zhening could clearly see him sitting in the moonlight with his flickering expression, but Yu Zhening just smoked quietly and did not urge him.After a long time, Su Zhicai finally said, "Yu Zhening, I don't want to lie to you about this, but I don't have the courage to tell you yet, I can only say that some bad things happened in this house, wait for me, I think I'll tell you when it's clear, okay?"

Yu Zhening didn't speak, he pinched out the cigarette, and said after a long time, "Su Zhi, I'll wait for you." In the dark, Yu Zhening got up and slowly approached Su Zhi, his upper body was naked and his muscles were in good shape, he walked into the moonlight When he came to Su Zhi's side, his voice was soft but firm, "Memories can be overwritten."

Under the white moonlight, they kissed side by side and slept in each other's arms.

The memorial service the next day went on for a long time. Nearly half of the junior high school students in the small town were taught by Su Yu and Wen Changjing. They were poor but highly respected in this small town. Shed a tear.

Wen Changjing left halfway and found Yu Zhening in the lounge. Yu Zhening was on the phone, arguing fiercely with the person on the other end of the phone.Seeing Wen Changjing, Yu Zhening quickly hung up the phone, "Auntie, why are you here?"

Wen Changjing didn't speak, and pulled Yu Zhening to sit down in the corner.

"Xiao Ning, have you ever asked Ah Zhi about the past?"

Yu Zhening was startled, "He said he would tell me after he thinks it through."

"He didn't intend to hide it from you. I shouldn't have said this matter. It's just that these things will be burned after today. This matter will only live in the memory of those who know it. Su Yu is full of peaches and plums. Deeply admired, this secret may be his only stain, people die like a lamp goes out, the past has no meaning to the dead, it can only bind the living, I hesitated for a long time, you will be the last to know this secret People." Wen Changjing handed Yu Zhening three diaries, the pages were yellow and fragile due to age.

"Here is a secret that even Su Zhi didn't know. After reading it, I will burn it with Su Yu later. This secret..." Wen Changjing sighed, "It has tortured us all our lives, so we should Let it end with Su Yu's departure."

When Su Yu was buried, the mourners were blocked all the way, and it took a lot of time to kneel down one by one.Su Zhi took Yu Zhening and walked past the stone monuments. People of all kinds were buried here. This is the world closest to heaven.

"You asked me what my concerns about the past were."

"I've thought about it for a long time and don't know how to tell you."

"It started a long time ago..."

So Su Zhi slowly told Yu Zhening the stories about him, Su Yu, and later Wen Changjing, from losing her parents at the age of eight to being forced to have sex with Su Yu at the age of 13, and from being exposed to high school in a neighboring city at the age of 15. After being bullied and ridiculed until the age of 22, he came back to avenge Su Yu's failure and then left sadly.

Su Zhi turned around and looked at Yu Zhening, her voice was very calm, but Yu Zhening could hear the deeply suppressed emotions, "Yu Zhening, I have such a past, do you still want me?"

Su Zhi's eyes were flushed, but Yu Zhening shed tears before him. Yu Yuning couldn't imagine what kind of mood Su Zhi was in to pretend to speak lightly about the past. He only knew the shock he felt when he heard this with his own ears. , Heartache is far more than when reading a few words on paper.

Yu Zhening lowered his head to take out a cigarette, his hands were shaking when he took the cigarette, the lighter lit up the cigarette three times, Yu Zhening only took a puff and squatted down to cover his face, "Su Zhi, why the hell didn't I get to know you sooner?" you."

But to be honest, if the story had been earlier or later, it would not have come to this day.

It was raining heavily on the day of leaving the town. Wen Changjing sent Su Zhi and Yu Zhening to the car. The trunk of the car was filled with special products prepared by Wen Changjing, just like every mother treats her children who leave home.

Wen Changjing does not intend to leave the city where she has lived her whole life. In Su Zhi's eyes, this city may be closed and backward, but it is the place where she has lived her whole life. Mind dying here.

The car was driving on the highway, there was the sound of dripping water outside the window, and the air conditioner in the car was in a comfortable atmosphere.Farther and farther away from the town and Wen Changjing, that absurd past was just sealed in the rain.The past is meaningless to the dead, and when the living also choose to let go, love and hate will no longer be mentioned.

Chang Jing, Chinese at the funeral home, once gave Yu Zhening three diaries, one of which recorded a man's forbidden love, moral torture, soul struggle, and finally, a lifetime of redemption and waiting.

One book remembers that a woman waited for a man for many years, but was disappointed after marriage. After the child died, the marriage should come to an end, but on the eve of divorce, she witnessed a teenager's revenge and a man's guilt... She understood everything, but Choose to stay and spend your whole life torturing each other with men.

In the last book, the boy recounted his nightmares over and over again, such as the burning flames, greedy relatives, and the man who came to the bed at night to touch and penetrate him... The boy never wrote a diary after high school, perhaps He is no longer tormented by nightmares at night, so he will never see the man's handwriting on the last page of the diary, "A Zhi, I will wait for you to grow up."

These secrets have been laid down by the living and buried with the dead.