Yu weep

After the weekly exam is the National Day.

I was very lucky in the first year of high school, and the National Day was full of seven days.There are only three days left in the second year of high school, and in the third year of high school... I have to show up at school on the [-]nd of the thirtieth month.

After school the day before the holiday, Yu Qi and I walked slowly back to the old house.

When Yu Qi saw that I didn't leave directly after school, he asked me, "Aren't you going home?"

I shook my head and said, "I'm going back to get my clothes. And isn't my car still parked in the yard?"

Yu Qi: "Oh, yes!"

When I arrived at the old house, I temporarily put my schoolbag on the sofa on the first floor, and went upstairs to get the clothes and books I wanted to take home, another bag.

Yu Qi saw what I was carrying when I went downstairs, and asked me, "Can you get it by yourself when you go home?"

I nodded: "No problem."

Yu Qi hesitated to speak, but finally said: "Shall I help you take it over?"

I smiled: "No need really. I can do it myself."

Until I rode out of the courtyard, Yu Qi leaned against the gate and looked at me.I waved to her and she waved back to me and smiled at me.

I don't know why, but I seem to like seeing Yu Qi's smile very much.

Not long after we finished our meal, we set off again and returned to our hometown in Chunjiang.

On the way, Yu Qi sent me dinner.

My mother saw me holding the mobile phone and said, "Baby, be careful of motion sickness when playing with the mobile phone in the car."

My mother and I explained: "No, I'll reply to the message. It's Yu Qi. I want her to send me all three meals when I'm not around."

Mom immediately said: "Is that so! That's great, our baby can take care of others."

Me: "...not to the extent of taking care of her, I just supervise her to have a meal."

This National Day is no different from previous National Days.First I stayed with my grandparents for two days, and then I was dragged by Hui Ge to his farmhouse for two days.

During this period, the contact with Yu Qi was not broken. She stayed at Liang Sheng's house for two days on the [-]st and [-]nd, and had a party with several other brothers. On the [-]rd, Uncle Liang took her to a follow-up visit and prescribed a new medicine.She would send me messages complaining about the childishness of the boys, saying that she was a little nervous at Liang Sheng's house, and a little irritable when doing homework (mainly English homework). I would also send photos of playing in Brother Hui's farmhouse to she.

Me: [Picture.jpg] Are you envious~ Let’s pick strawberries together next time!

Yu Qi: too lazy to move

I:?You are exaggerating a bit, picking strawberries is almost the easiest thing!

Yu Qi: Then you have to bend over!my waist is bad

Me: That's true...you don't like to move, so if you have a chance, come fishing!I caught four tails this afternoon!

Yu Qi: One more tail than last time!

This person really can't open the pot and lift the pot!

Me: You are so powerful, come here!

Yu Qi: Hmph, do you think I can't!When I was a child, I followed my grandfather every day, he was so cute fishing!

I didn't expect that Grandpa Yu would take Xiao Yuqi to fish... I imagined the scene, the gray-bearded old man was fishing quietly, and the little Yu Qi was sitting next to him... No matter how you think about it, it's kind of cute.

Me: When you were young, could you really sit and fish obediently?

Yu Qi: What are you doing!

Yu Qi: You seem to be doubting me

Yu Qi: Hmph, let me tell you, this is of course...

Yu Qi: Impossible!

I laughed, this man is really.

Yu Qi said again: Of course I was messing with this and knocking on that. Grandpa was very helpless because of my tossing around, so he held me and said, "Be quiet, little bastard!"

I couldn't help it, hahahaha passed by.

Yu Qi: How can a child sit obediently!

You have a good point.I thought about it, and the picture in my mind became, the old man was fishing, and a little Yuqi ran around beside him, tinkering with fishing gear for a while, tinkering with bait for a while, and finally being sat obediently by the old man holding his collar.

I really want to see Yu Qi when I was a child, it must be very cute.

On the fifth day of the holiday, we returned to Xinghu, and Mom and Dad started to go to work.I thought about it, I was bored at home by myself, so I went back to Yu Qi's house with my schoolbag and a bunch of things.

Put the lo mei and fruits in the refrigerator, put some long-sleeved clothes in the closet, take out the homework and put it on the desk... After finishing things, I checked the time, it was almost twelve o'clock at noon, after thinking about it, it should be It's time to go to lunch.

Do you want to call Yu Qi together?Speaking of which, I have been back for a while, and Yu Qi has not made any movement.

I can't help but feel a little worried.If it's sleeping it's fine, if it's...

I tense up.

Running to the door of Yu Qi's room, I knocked hard, but no one answered.

I shouted: "Yu Qi! Are you okay! I'm going in!"

Still no answer.I depress the brass handle and push the door open.

Yu Qi's room was the same as before, with the curtains still drawn. She was lying on the bed, holding her head, curled up into a ball.

I hurried over, but didn't dare to touch her, so I could only shout anxiously: "Yu Qi...Yu Qi!"

Yu Qi was unconscious, she hugged her head and shouted in a low voice: "Don't come here...don't leave me..."

Don't come here... Is it time to dream of being beaten? ...Don't leave me behind, did you dream that Grandpa Yu passed away?I heard that people with depression will have hallucinations, so is Yu Qi having a nightmare or falling into hallucinations?

I was really flustered and didn't know what to do. When I was about to make a phone call, Yu Qi stopped crying.

Should be better?I lowered my body again, afraid of scaring her, and called her softly: "Yu Qi, Yu Qi, can you hear me? Yu Qi..."

Yu Qi's eyes slowly opened, without focus, and after a while, slowly, focus was restored.

I asked her worriedly: "You, are you okay? Can you see me?"

Yu Qi was panting violently all the time, her heart seemed to be beating very fast, she stretched her trembling hands to the head of the bed, took the pills and water, and took a pill.

I looked at her, the temperature of the air conditioner in the room was just right, but Yu Qi was covered in sweat, I suspected it was cold sweat.

Yu Qi calmed down and said to me: "It's okay. I just..." Her voice was very weak, like a wisp of smoke.

I looked at her and said, "It's okay if you don't want to say it."

She huddled under the quilt, shook her head and said, "I don't want to say it. I just... fell ill."

I guess it's sick too.The first time I saw her like this... how many times did she do this when she was alone?

Yu Qi noticed the worry in my eyes, she forced a smile, and said, "Although you may be more worried if you say it, but I want to say..."

I shook my head and said, "You can say what you want, but it doesn't matter to me. It's up to you."

Yu Qi held the corner of his mouth again, and said, "That feeling is amazing...I feel like I fell into the deep sea, falling straight down, without focus, without end...The sea water pressing down on me is black I have been engulfed in despair, I can't see the light..." Yu Qi's eyes seemed to drift far away, "I can't see the light... I was overwhelmed by despair, I couldn't breathe, I wanted to take a deep breath , but no, I saw my grandparents leaving me..."

I seem to have experienced this feeling in her description.The dark deep sea... What kind of despair is this that will converge into a black deep sea?I can only rely on imagination, but the pain of Yu Qi, who is really tortured by the disease, is a thousand times more painful than I imagined, right?

I was really sad and looked down at Yu Qi.She curled up in the bed, only a little shoulder was exposed, and the white pajamas were wet with sweat, sticking to her body, and she even ignored the discomfort.

Usually, she is the one who feels uncomfortable when she sweats and wants to take a bath immediately...

Yu Qi lifted a little bit of the quilt, pointed at his heart and said, "Here, it seems to be beating wildly... It seems that there are blue vines, binding the heart very hard."

I really want to hug her.But considering her rejection of physical contact, I could only clenched my fists and said, "Change your clothes, don't catch a cold. I...I want to hug you."

I still said it.

Yu Qi froze for a moment, and finally showed a sincere smile: "Are you worried about me?"

Me: "...Hurry up and change your clothes!"

Yu Qi smiled: "Okay."

She slowly turned over and got out of bed, took a suit of normal clothes, went into the bathroom, and said to me, "Sit on the sofa and wait for me."

When she was changing clothes, I vaguely felt that something was wrong, and I didn't realize it until she came out.

Shouldn't I be asked to wait outside... I stayed in her room and she went into the bathroom, what happened?Although the bathroom is already in her room...

It feels weird.But it seems strange that this is also a better direction?No matter how much you cry, you don't treat me as an outsider...

never mind.I didn't think of an answer.Yu Qi looked as if he had washed his face and became more energetic.She said to me, "Have you had your lunch yet?"

I just remembered that I originally planned to have lunch with Yu Qi.

I answered her: "Not yet, I came here to eat with you." Yu Qi smiled and said: "That's fine, let's eat now? I'm afraid I can't go out now." She raised her hands forward, and I It can be seen that there is still obvious trembling, "Still trembling... Shall we order takeaway?"

Of course I agree.If it weren't for her, she would never agree, and I'm afraid I would put the idea of ​​"helping her down the stairs" into action.

Forget it.

Considering Yu Qi's current state, when Yu Qi asked me what to eat for lunch, I chose seafood porridge.After we finished eating, we rested for a while, and Yu Qi's pale face eased a little.

I asked Yu Qi, "Do you want to sleep for a while?"

Yu Qi nodded: "I'm a little tired, a little tired." While talking, he planned to go upstairs.

After hesitating for a while, I said to Yu Qi, "If you need anything, call me anytime."

Yu Qi nodded and said, "Thank you."

We each went back to our rooms.Yu Qi slept until evening, but she came out for dinner on time. Although she still looked a little weak, she was much better than at noon.

It was not until before going to bed that I watched her take the medicine, and I was slightly relieved to let her go to rest.

That night, I tossed and turned in bed, unable to fall asleep, experiencing insomnia for the first time.I stuffed myself in the bed, wanting to experience the feeling of Yu Qi.It didn't take long to feel a little hypoxic, and quickly opened a small hole in the quilt.When the fresh air poured in, I gasped, as if I had been reborn.

Yu Qi is bound like that in a hallucination, or in a dream. The time in the dream is different from the reality. After all, I can't feel her pain personally.

In fact, I can feel that if I hadn't gone to find Yu Qi, she might have been immersed in it for a longer time, and after waking up, she might not return to normal so quickly.Most likely lying on the bed, staring out the window in a daze.Maybe she didn't want me to worry, so she forced herself to be normal.

Is my existence good or bad for her?

if i could hug her...

We will spend the next two days studying.During this period, Yu Qi and I started to tutor each other in weak projects.Yu Qi explained to me the Chinese thinking, and I continued to supplement her English.In fact, her current grammar knowledge is not a big problem, and she has gradually developed a sense of language.In fact, judging from her sensitivity to language, she should be gifted in language. The main problem now is her poor memory.According to my observation and her inference, it should be that the more recent the memory, the harder it is to remember. She forgets what happened yesterday, which is her normal state now.On the contrary, the longer the memory, the clearer it is.

I secretly guessed, is it possible that the memory of growing up beside my grandparents was more pleasant when I was a child, and as I grew up and became more sensible, I had more and more troubles, and the memory of being around Yu Zhanpeng was particularly bad, so subconsciously Yu Qi was nostalgic for the past , to escape reality...?

Of course, this kind of speculation cannot be shared with Yu Qi.In fact, I also suspect that the drugs may have affected her memory.

I looked at Yu Qi's side face with glasses and was lost in thought. I didn't recover from my distracted thoughts until Yu Qi turned his head in doubt.

Yu Qi:?

I looked away: "I'm thinking about this question."

Yu Qi does not doubt it.This unusual National Day is over.

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