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Aside from that little episode, Jiang You is indeed a very easy-going and enthusiastic person, suitable for being a friend.

Yu Qi obviously thought so too.In the past, she mostly rested or wrote on her stomach during recess, but now she spends less time lying on her stomach, and often writes and then discusses games or books with Jiang You.

Whenever this happens, I will do my homework silently, and then listen to their conversation.Every sentence is in Chinese, but I can't understand it.In Jiang You's words, "We have the same rivers and lakes."

In fact, in all fairness, Yu Qi did not neglect me. We also studied, chatted, and walked side by side as usual, just like any pair of close friends.But there is always something unspeakably awkward in my heart.

There is no difference between the life of the second year of high school and the first year of high school. Classes are held every day, classes are over, and exams are taken every month, day after day.

In such a fast pace, the National Day comes again.

Because of the National Day holiday, my parents were also on vacation, so I went home.Mom hugged me as usual.She looked at me and said, "Did the baby encounter any confusion?"

I put down my schoolbag and looked at my mother curiously: "How do you know? I usually have the same attitude when I'm hugged by you."

Mom raised her eyebrows proudly: "I'm your mommy. How could I not know what you're thinking? Usually, although you are disgusted verbally, your expression is actually peaceful. Today's baby is frowning."

I raised my hand and rubbed the space between my eyebrows, it was true, I didn't realize it myself.I said to my mother: "Maybe... there is indeed a little confusion." So my mother decided to have a long-lost heart-to-heart talk after dinner tonight, and I did not refuse.

Heart-to-heart talk is one of our family traditions.Unlike discussions when something happens, heart-to-heart talks are often when I am confused, and my parents listen to me and then give advice.Generally speaking, my doubts can be resolved well during heart-to-heart talks.

After dinner, my mother and I rarely paid attention to posture, but leaned on the sofa and relaxed our bodies.Dad has to work overtime again tonight, and now he has plunged into the study again.

My mother looked at me and said, "What makes Zhao Zhao so distressed?" Distressed?Is it that serious?

I frowned again, and my mother came to rub my eyebrows.I thought about it, and said slowly: "Where should I start...? This matter is very strange. Although I care a little bit, I think this care is very unreasonable."

Mom listened attentively.I sighed and said, "Actually, you probably guessed it." Except for interpersonal communication, or even communication related to Yu Qi, I have nothing to worry about.Studies, life, they never need to worry about me.

Mom smiled and rubbed my head with her hands.Normally, I would definitely avoid it, but today I don't know why, I am motionless.Mom smiled and said, "Just like mom knows you, you know mom too."

She let go of my head and said, "Is it related to Xiao Yu?" Sure enough, she guessed right.I nod.

Mom said again: "Would you like to talk about it in detail?"

I thought about the wording: "It's like this... In the past, Yu Qi and I made new friends, and Yu Qi also had a lot of good friends from elementary school. I didn't think there was anything wrong when we interacted. But recently, Yu Qi Qi made a new friend, they have a lot of common topics, that new friend gave me a different feeling from Yu Qi’s other friends... I don’t know why, when I see Yu Qi communicating with her, I feel a little bit awkward."

Mom looked a little relieved.But I can't figure it out.

Mom should have thought it over and said, "Maybe, you think Yu Qi is your best friend, and you also vaguely think that you are her best friend. Other friends are not as close as you, but Jiang You's appearance makes you feel , Jiang You may replace you, right?"

I was thinking about my mother's words, and my mother continued: "You care about Yu Qi very much, but it's actually quite normal. It's normal for girls to be possessive, especially for the closest friends like you."

possessive?

That's right, whether it's Yunling or Jiang You, they either have a deep relationship with Yu Qi, or their interests are very similar, but I don't have both.

Does Yu Qi really think I'm her best friend?

For the first time, my mother solved one of my doubts, but brought me deeper doubts.

On the National Day of the second year of high school, we were lucky enough to have a four-day holiday.We spent two of the four days at Nagasawa Bookstore.

There are still five of us, as if nothing has changed, we are doing our homework in Nagasawa while chatting about our respective classes.

The difference is that the subjects of our headaches have changed.

There is another difference, Yu Xiaonan is planning to grow long hair.

"Are you serious?" We all cried out in surprise.Since we met, Yu Xiaonan's hair has never exceeded the ears, even in junior high school.Therefore, even Yunling felt great surprise.

"What's your reaction!" If it wasn't for the consideration that this is a bookstore, Yu Xiaonan would probably jump up.She suppressed the raised voice just now: "Before, it was because of the convenience of running, and I got used to it, so I kept cutting it short. Now I want to try a different style."

"Is it really just like this?" Fang Kexin expressed doubts.

"... Otherwise!" Yu Xiaonan jumped like a small animal whose tail had been stepped on.

"Please, I'm a girl after all!" she resented. "Speaking of which, you are all so surprised when I grow long hair, wouldn't you be even more surprised if Yu Qi grew long?"

"?" Yu Qi finally raised her head from her homework, obviously her ears didn't let go of our movements: "Why do you take me? Isn't my hair longer than yours?"

Yu Xiaonan looked speechless: "What kind of hair do you look like? Your hair style is basically a Japanese boy's hairstyle. It hasn't changed since I met you."

Yun Ling: "She has been like this since she was a child, let alone you, I have never seen her with long hair."

Fang Kexin: "... Putting it this way, it is indeed even more difficult to imagine Yu Qi with long hair."

Yu Qi: "... Dreams flew out of the skylight one after another. You have too little homework or the drinks are not good enough?" She took a sip of tea: "Besides, didn't you see Jiang You, monitor?"

Fang Kexin: "...you don't have to go to Jiangyou."

She mentioned Jiang You very frequently recently.Their relationship really took off, too.

The other two friends of Li A were confused: "Jiang You?"

Fang Kexin explained: "Jiang You is a classmate of Wen A. She used to be in Class Ten. Her hairstyle is more boyish than that of boys, with a very short cut."

Yu Xiaonan suddenly realized: "Do you still often wear a thin silver chain and Martin boots?"

Yu Qi: "It should be."

Yu Xiaonan sighed, "That's really a cool girl. I passed by Wen A two days ago and saw her chatting with Yu Qi."

Yu Qi smiled: "Yes, I often chat with Jiang You recently, and she also plays swordsman." Swordsman is a martial arts game they all play.

I don't know if I was overthinking, but I saw Yun Ling glanced at me a few times.This confuses me again.

The two days passed quickly, on the third day Yu Qi went to Qisan, on the fourth day she didn't go anywhere, and just lay lazily in the old house all day.

Until I came over from home, Yu Qi was still lazy, didn't go out, just nestled on the sofa to pass the time.

I belatedly realized something: "You didn't hang out with your brothers this time off."

Yu Qi nodded: "Yeah, I don't know what to play when I go out. I have gone out so many times since I was a child, and I have played everything in Tongcheng."

Me: "Is it okay?"

Yu Qi was silent for a while, and said, "It's okay. In fact, every gathering is initiated by me, and they come. Now everyone has their own friends, and I am the only one who stands still. I chatted with Li Zi a few days ago, and his family also has a little Due to the accident, the two of us are relatively close in mentality. The others are either naive or naive, and they don’t take their future seriously. We have tried to persuade them, but it was useless. Essentially, they were all too protected by their families. Well, it’s so good that the lack of empathy is not just their problem, many boys...not even just boys, many people of the same age will be like this. In the end it is not enough experience.” She paused, “And every time I go out There are no topics to talk about, everyone has new friends, and it feels like they have moved forward in terms of interpersonal communication, and I will just hang around in place."

"I chatted with Li Zi for a long time, and I was shaken by our persistence. I don't understand whether this group needs to be maintained. It's really hard for me to feel the same care for them."

"I think, I should also look forward, meet new people, try new contacts. Every new stage, it is normal to have new friends." Yu Qi came to a conclusion.

I should be happy.But why do I feel a little worried?

That's right, Yu Qi doesn't want to be too attached to the past, and wants to have a new life, which is a good thing, but all the changes in the past make her want to let go of the old part while welcoming the new life.

She was afraid of changes in the familiar past, and she was afraid of losing the past, so she pushed away first to protect herself.

I should have figured it out, Yu Qi's sense of insecurity was too strong, but I had concerns at the time and didn't realize it.

I was afraid that I would become Yu Qi's past, her "old person".

As a result, I overlooked that Yu Qi's thoughts may not be correct.

So much so that I didn't notice that she was so defensive and distrustful of intimacy.

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