stand-in offense and defense

When Tianlan saw Sheng Bin, she smiled awkwardly.He has been dragged by Su Shi until now and can't leave. He only hopes that Sheng Bin, the savior, can quickly rescue him from the sea of ​​suffering.

"People are inside, you can do what you want."

Compared to the office, Tian Lan didn't even bother to wait for Su's reaction before grabbing her coat and running away.

Not to mention whether there will be a storm here for a while, but it is not a bad thing to stay away from the battlefield as soon as possible because of the sullen and pot-like atmosphere on Su Shi's face this day.Having known each other for such a long time, Tian Lan is very clear about Su Shi's problem of turning the world upside down every time he gets angry.

Sheng Bin pushed open the door, and Su Shi was sitting quietly behind the desk.

Lazily raising her eyelids and seeing him, she just twitched the corners of her mouth coldly: "Say something quickly."

"I want to talk to you."

"Let's talk."

Su Shi snorted: "I'll see if you can pop flowers."

"You mean, you just want to hear from me." Sheng Bin's sentence should be a question, but the question was without any emotional ups and downs, just like a conclusion. Su Shi frowned, and wanted to answer him at first, but the words When he got to the edge of his mouth, he swallowed it back, which was a tacit consent to the other party's somewhat inexplicable words.

Sheng Bin put down his clothes, squeezed the throbbing eyebrows, and tried to clear his mind: "Su Shi, I don't want to make you angry." His speech was very steady: "To be honest, I don't know what you are doing. I like me for some reason, but no matter whether I feel guilty or distressed for you, I care about your feelings. This is the reason why I didn't leave in the first place. I didn't like Suye. I can't deny it, but I can't explain it. I'm not a person who can express my feelings. Many things happen for no reason. I can't make sense of it myself, so I can only accept it passively. It's true for Su Ye, and it's true for you..."

Having said that, Sheng Bin raised his head and glanced at Su Shi: "In terms of personality, both of us insist on ourselves too much, and conflicts are inevitable... But I don't like conflicts. If you like me, you will waste me For such a long time, it is only meaningful for two people to live happily."

He rarely talks so much.

Su Shi's expression changed from being indifferent at the beginning to being slightly surprised later on. Sheng Bin's willingness to analyze his own matter was far more surprising than what he said.

"I didn't like Su ye on purpose, and I couldn't forget it on purpose. Since I realized that my feelings for him surpassed ordinary friendship, I tried countless times to change this state deliberately, but none of them were really done. Arrived. Just like from the day you entangled me, I was soberly admonishing myself not to entangle you more, but I still got to this point. "

If things could be resolved and controlled rationally, then none of this would happen today.

What Sheng Bin said couldn't be said to be an apology, nor could it be said to be an explanation. He seemed to be calmly trying to tell Su Shi about these things, and he really came to "talk".

At this time, Su Shi finally interjected: "I've always been very clear about the fact that you like Su ye, you don't need to specifically explain..."

"I'm not trying to explain that I like Su Ye." Sheng Bin smiled slightly, but he was mostly helpless: "I just want to tell you that I'm trying to bring Su Ye back to his original position."

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friend's location.

"I can't deny the existence of Su Ye, and neither can you. He is not a person who can never be mentioned again if he avoids it deliberately, just like I can never change the process and beginning of our acquaintance." This is what Sheng Bin has always resisted to accept. Su-style for a reason.

They stood at the worst starting point at the beginning, reminding Su Shi like a stick in their throats, there is another person in the development of this story, and they don't know when and for what reason, they will explode.

However, these issues were also considered by Sheng Bin before he agreed to Su Shi to stay that day.

Trying to accept the Su style is not impulsive for him. He has never planned this relationship for a long time, but since he decided to try to respond, Sheng Bin is not a person who will give up easily: "I didn't plan to I won't do it as Suye's guardian. However, I can't give you any promises or guarantees right now, Su Shi, I need some time..."

The last sentence even had a hint of pleading.

Su Shi thought he had heard it wrong at first, until Sheng Bin wiped his face a little tiredly, and he read Sheng Bin's fragility from the helplessness that was exhausted.

The fact that he liked Su ye almost exhausted Sheng Bin's energy to make any extra attempts.

His life didn't have to be shared with him alone in order to go on. For so many years, except for Su Shi and Su Ye, his life was all by himself. He didn't need to express his feelings, nor was he good at it.However, because he can't let go of Su Shi, no matter what the cause of this can't let go, he hopes to do something to change the state between Su Shi and him.

Faced with the same face every day, Sheng Bin couldn't immediately explain clearly in black and white.

He initially accepted the proposal of Su Shi's stand-in because he couldn't let go of Su Ye, but now, when holding Su Shi in his arms, Sheng Bin couldn't help asking himself whether Su Ye and Su Shi were separated. No, can it really be separated.

He couldn't and didn't want to lie to Su Shi about this question, so he couldn't come to a conclusion for the time being.

The only thing that can be confirmed is that he does not want to conflict with Su Shi, nor does he want Su Shi to be unhappy because of it.

"I can't say I love you yet, but a person without feelings, I won't let him put medicine in my soup, and he can sit behind the desk and talk to me so arrogantly."

Su Shi couldn't help laughing at Sheng Bin's words: "You ate something bad last night, and you're joking after not seeing you all night."

"I always make jokes." Sheng Bin closed his eyes: "It's just not very funny."

He really couldn't hide his tiredness.

Even sitting in such a posture made him feel an unbearable discomfort all over his body. If it wasn't for self-control that restrained his behavior, Sheng Bin was likely to vomit.This uncomfortable feeling is overwhelming and cannot be ignored.

Su Shi also noticed that something was wrong with Sheng Bin's state, he stood up and walked around the table: "I said, what's the matter with your dead face?"

"If I told you it was because of what I just said, would you believe it?"

"Believe, why don't you believe it?"

Getting Sheng Bin to say something from his heart was almost more difficult than killing him. Su ye hadn't heard a single word of the truth in so many years. To be able to speak the truth today, Sheng Bin must have already peeled off a layer of skin.

Su Shi lowered his head and measured Sheng Bin's temperature with his forehead: "I'll give you time."

The simple five words suddenly relaxed the nerves that had been tense for nearly a day and a night. Sheng Bin narrowed his eyes and covered up all the emotions in his eyes.

So far, the relationship between him and Su Shi is not equal, but I hope there will be a day when they will be equal...

At least, these are the only reasons he is doing these things now.

Because Sheng Bin's spirit was so bad, Su Shi fell asleep halfway back driving.

When I got to the place, I couldn't wake up no matter how much I called.

Su Shi felt that Sheng Bin might have a little fever, but it wasn't serious enough, so he simply parked the car in the garage, turned on the heater, played music to let Sheng Bin sleep, lit a cigarette, got out of the car and leaned against the door smokes.

He knew very well in his heart that frequent friction with Sheng Bin was not a good thing.

I don't have a strong relationship in the first place, and I'm always tossing back and forth like this. I'm afraid it's harder to hope for a good ending than going to heaven.

He was a businessman and knew better than anyone the folly of futility.

It's just that what Sheng Bin said is right, it's about Su Ye, he always seems to have a hard time calming down, probably not just Sheng Bin, there are too many things involved between the twins, the more you want to forget, the more you want to take it lightly, the more is not easy.

The words "let it be" means standing up and talking without pain in the back, and when it's my turn, I can really pass without smiling.

Sighing, he finished his cigarette, glanced at the time on his watch, and finally opened the car door reluctantly and pushed Sheng Bin: "Don't really sleep in the car, wake up."

After sleeping like this for a whole night, I am afraid that Sheng Bin will not be able to go to the hospital tomorrow.

As a result, the latter opened his eyes as soon as he finished speaking. Although he was still a little dazed, he was very conscious.

"Damn, I thought you had passed out..."

He could actually wake up.

Sheng Bin moved his slightly stiff shoulders and sore neck: "Not everyone is lucky enough to be able to faint." He was able to maintain consciousness in the situation in Palestine before. It may not be easy to naturally activate the hidden function of defense and protection.

"You live so tiringly because you live too clearly."

"It's not tiring for me." I've always lived like this, and the standards are different compared to others.

For Sheng Bin, perhaps the Su-style philosophy of being in control of everything would be even harder.At least, he can't use such a strong way to influence others or be influenced by others. He is overjoyed, saddened, angry and sad. The Su style of life is very real, but it seems to burn everything very quickly.

Maybe one day, when he can't let go of this relationship, Su Shi can turn around and leave very coolly.

At that time...

Probably he would turn around and leave whenever he met someone surnamed Su in his life.

With a self-deprecating smile, Sheng Bin took the overcoat that Su Shi handed him, and then the two of them went up the elevator in the garage together, and returned to the place they barely called home after a long absence.

The first thing Su Shi does when he enters the door is to shout that he is hungry.

The first thing Sheng Bin did when he came in was to sleep.

The first quarrel after cohabitation ended when they entered the same door but met their own physical needs separately. After watching Sheng Bin lie down, Su Shi helped him pull down the quilt, then leaned against the door and said: "Good night."

The man who had already closed his eyes was silent for a long time. After realizing that the person at the door would probably not hear the answer and would not leave, he sighed a little helplessly: "Good night."

A little stiff, but gentle.

Su Shi smiled with satisfaction.