I want to cover up the tide

That day, Lu Qinan did not catch up with Lu Qizhen, but fell on the way - he passed out due to exhaustion, which was a stain in Lu Qinan's life.

Before that, he seldom even missed any serious business related to his studies or work because of his illness. However, this time, he fell headlong in the corridor. If the nurse on duty hadn't discovered him in time, the consequences would have been unimaginable.

Lu Qinan was lying on the hospital bed less than one meter away from Lin Yan. Through the not-so-bright light of the wall lamp, he saw Lin Yan sleeping peacefully. Hearing his even breathing, he lifted the quilt and got out of bed, and got into the bed. Lin Yan's quilt, hug him and fall asleep together.

Because of excessive fatigue, he suddenly fainted in the hospital. As the acting general manager of Lu's consortium, even though he tried his best to hide it, the board members still knew about it.

The board of directors expressed great dissatisfaction with him because he could not coordinate the proportion of public affairs and private affairs in daily life, and did not reasonably allocate work and rest time, which eventually led to fainting and delayed the company's official affairs.

In name, the board of directors sent someone to the hospital to give condolences to Lu Qinan, but Lin Yan looked at the young representative, dressed in suits and leather shoes, and looked arrogant, as if Lu Qinan was just an inconspicuous little subordinate in the company After conveying the meaning of the board of directors to Lu Qinan arrogantly, he left directly.

He said he was here to visit a sick person, but he didn't even bring any flowers or fruits.Apart from the pile of documents he threw to Lu Qinan and the vicious accusation just now, Lin Yan didn't know whether this person came to visit or to burden the patient.

Turning around to look at Lu Qinan, he found that the other party picked up the pile of folders expressionlessly and began to read and process them one by one, and he felt a little admiration in his heart.

Falling down from exhaustion and being blamed?This was the first time Lin Yan knew about such a thing.

After he realized that most of the reason why Lu Qinan was blamed so far was because he had been taking care of himself during this period of time, and he had been staying in bed without sleep for a few days after his surgery.Lin Yan always remembered Lu Qinan's haggard face when he woke up.

When Lu Zhi brought the suit to Lu Qinan, he accidentally said that he had been trying his best to bring his work back to the hospital to do. Except for the necessary outings to meet guests, he almost spent the rest of the time in front of Lin Yan's hospital bed. .

Lin Yan was a little at a loss for his waiting.

He would be afraid when Lu Qinan was violent to him, and he would be even more afraid when Lu Qinan was so gentle and considerate to him - he was not afraid that Lu Qinan would treat him well, he was just afraid that everything Lu Qinan did to him was only temporary, and when that person was tired of After that, what should I do when I get used to his tenderness?

This is what Lin Yan is most afraid of.

The strong uneasiness deep in his heart made him shut out all the good things.

Over the years, Lin Yan has kept herself confined in a small world, unwilling to have any more contact with the outside world.

He is GAY, and since he was a child, he found that he likes boys, and he knows that this is abnormal. Others say that it is a perverted thing for a man to like a man.He knew that he couldn't change the fact that he liked boys, so he could only stay away from the crowd as much as possible-he was afraid that a little more contact would make people see through his essence.

Although he has always had an inexplicable fear of crowds, as a social person, Lin Yan is also very clear that he cannot leave this society, and social interaction is still indispensable.

So, he found the best way.

He has a small world of his own, in which there are only him and his own shadow.In that world, I will always be accompanied by a shadow.

Shadow will not hurt himself or laugh at himself, he is always with him so quietly, he is the best friend and the best life partner.

Now, Lu Qinan is lingering in front of that door, should he be allowed in?

Can he really let him know the fear deep in his heart?

Or continue to maintain the status quo, treat him as if away from him, and kick him away when he detests him?

Lin Yan couldn't find the answer.

He longs to love someone, and longs to be loved.

However, this small expectation has never been realized in the past 27 years.

Lu Qinan's feelings are too strong, and he always has an intuition that he will be burned.He knew that Lu Qinan was very dangerous, staying by his side or running away from him, these two choices had almost the same risks.Neither one will make you feel better.

Lin Yan knew very well that without Lu Qinan's protection, what was waiting for him outside was even greater wind and rain, and the earth could hardly bear it.He also wants to be an upright man with enough strength to protect himself and his family, but the reality is so cruel. The enemies he meets are stronger than him, and they can kill him.

Lu Qinan is very gentle now, almost dripping water from his tenderness, but who can guarantee that this gentle lion who has fallen into a deep sleep will open his bloody mouth in the next moment and bite himself to death?