Don't get drunk

At night, everyone was asleep, and I was sitting alone in the room in a daze, when I heard the bugs screaming outside.Later, my mother and Lin Yuan didn't make things difficult for me, they just told me to rest well and keep everything in my heart.I can only listen to them and go back to my room to rest.

In the dark, I didn't dare to take my insomnia seriously, so I only left a bedside lamp and leaned on the bed to fall asleep.

Rubbed his forehead.

I haven't made up my mind to grow old with Zhou Lei yet, so you just throw me such a big question.

Come out, or come out.

I don't want to do it, especially for the current Zhou Lei.

I don't think it's worth it if he doesn't wash off his scum smell.

If you really want to be together so resolutely, at least you have to give me a reason to work hard for it.

But the problem is I can't find it now.

I neither think he is worthy of my guarding for the rest of my life, nor do I feel that I am worth his life.

Just like it now.

I just fell in love with him at a certain time and under certain circumstances.

Just as I was thinking about it, there was a knock on the door, which made me startled.

How could anyone know that I wasn't asleep when the desk lamp was turned down so dimly?

Reluctantly, I walked to the door and opened it.

Looking at the person in front of me, I suddenly didn't know what to say.

I thought it was either Lin Yuan or my mother...

——But it turned out to be Lin Junnan.

I saw him standing alone in the corridor with only one dim light, his face looked a little pale.

Wearing baggy pajamas, with his fingers tucked into his sleeves, he stood in front of me helplessly.

I was really surprised, so I asked, "It's so late, what's the matter?"

Lin Junnan lowered his head, only then did I realize that Ya wasn't wearing slippers, and the toes of her left foot were stepping on her right foot. He spoke softly: I... I don't want to say it at the door.

I stared at him for a while, sighed, moved away, and invited him in.

Lin Junnan walked to the only chair in the room and sat down.

I looked at him coldly: It's cold on the chair, and you don't have shoes on, so sit on the bed and come.

When Lin Junnan heard this, he didn't say a word, he just raised his feet and hugged his knees with his hands, and fell into a ball on the chair.

I am funny: Who are you angry with?

He curled up in the chair motionless.

I simply walked up to him, hugged him, and he was stunned. When he reacted, he frantically struggled in panic. I had already hugged him on the bed with a standard princess hug.

Putting him down, I went back and sat down on the chair, and said lightly: Why haven't you slept so late?

The air conditioner in the room was turned on very loudly, Lin Junnan propped himself up on the bed, crumpled the quilt into a ball and hugged him in his arms: You... didn't you sleep too?

I laughed: How do you know I'm not asleep, I just woke you up.

Lin Junnan lowered his head: Liar, you turned on the light.

What about you, why don't you sleep?I asked.

Holding the quilt in his arms, only showing his white toes side by side, he whispered:

Today John told me that many gays bought your photo book... Then I met such a person after dinner today... But you said... You... You are not... I don’t know, I...

He stopped talking.

I frowned in my heart, still because of such a thing, I am troubled by this, can you talk to me about this without this point...

I was a little impatient: what on earth are you trying to say?

Lin Junnan raised his face as if he had made a lot of determination, and when he met my gaze, he turned his head timidly: I...I...actually...that...

What?I asked.

Lin Junnan spoke quickly: By the way...it was that week or something...did it be because you took that photo...that they bothered you...?

I looked at him, and couldn't help curling my lips mockingly: Why, at such a young age, you care so much about other people's privacy.

I...I'm just worried about you...you...why are you like this...

Lin Junnan complained authentically.

I looked at him silently.

The dim light made his outline particularly petite and frail.Only a pair of beautiful eyes, especially in the dark night.

I sighed: some things are not your business.

Lin Junnan was taken aback when he heard the words, and suddenly pulled aside the quilt that he had been holding in his arms: So, it turns out that I was meddling in my own business.

I looked at him silently.

Seeing that I didn't speak, Lin Junnan bit his lips, showing an angry face, got off the bed and walked out the door: Forget it, pretend I haven't been here.

I really convinced him.Why is he betting on me? If he goes out in this state, it's not appropriate for my mother or Lin Yuan to find out.

Seeing him walking to the door, I reluctantly caught up with him a few steps, took his hand from behind, and tried my best to soften my voice:

Junnan...

He turned his head to look at me, on this quiet face, only these eyes were particularly lively.

I calmly said: If you have anything to say, I will listen.

Lin Junnan looked at his toes, but pouted angrily: I have nothing to tell you.No one cares about you anyway.

Seeing him like this, I really wanted to rub his face flat, I laughed: Oh, you have nothing to tell me and came to your brother's room late at night?Do you know how reckless you are?

Lin Junnan just turned his face away for me, and there was still emotion in his voice: I...how can I...I'm just afraid that you will be caught by bad guys...

He didn't go on.

Staring at Lin Junnan's face in the dark, I am really at a loss.

I can't fucking serve such a child, I let go of his hand that I had been holding, and raised my chin: "Okay, then you can go."

Lin Junnan was taken aback for a moment, and just stood there straight, not intending to leave for a long time.I couldn't see his expression clearly, and I didn't intend to tell the difference.

Lin Junnan bit his lip, turned around, opened the door and rushed out.

I was stunned for a moment.

If you say go, just go, what are you rushing for!

Such a big movement must not wake up my mother and Lin Yuan.I'm really convinced.

I had no choice but to drag him back again, and this time I knew to take precautions.Throwing an arm over his shoulder, he closed the door.

This time he didn't make it clear to me that I would not let him go if he untied the knot in his heart.

I had a smile on my face, knowing that he was angry with me now and didn't want to talk, so I said to myself: "Think about it carefully, and tell me after you think about it."

I checked the door, it was indeed locked, and then I didn't want to bother you, so I just took advantage of this time to take a shower in the bathroom that comes with the bedroom.

It's too hot here, I wanted to take a bath to sharpen Lin Junnan's ignorant temper, but the problem is that the weather is really not suitable for taking a bath, so I had no choice but to take a shower.After washing for a long time, my hair was washed, I looked at the watch, it was only 10 minutes,

There's no way, I'm going to go out with a bath towel wrapped around it.

I saw that the glass of the door was empty just now, but now there is a shadow of Lin Junnan reflected.

I asked through the door: What's wrong?What do you want to say?

A very firm question came from the door: Brother Xiang, you are still gay after all.

As soon as I heard this, I was annoyed.

Is this question so important... Ya is also a top student, why don't you study the top ten unsolved mysteries in the world of quantum physics due to global warming, why do you have to fight me.

I was really speechless, so I quickly opened the door, and then I saw him standing in the doorway, looking up at me in a daze.

As soon as the door opened, he took a sudden step back as if startled.

As for what, isn't it half-naked?Ah, I have never seen a man.

Lin Junnan seemed to have seen something he shouldn't have seen, and instantly lowered his head, seeing his silence like a cicada.I'm really afraid of him, as expected from a higher education institution, why are you so curious about things that you can't be sure of?

Give me a reasoning.From the photo to gay, and from gay to Zhou Lei, let me have a late night to verify.You said, can you stop going back to the source like this.Didn't Lin Yuan and my mother have eyes... They all played it down and didn't ask, I said Lin Jun, Nanya, what a fart!

Well, they gave me a straight ball and asked me if I was gay.

I just smiled: how do you know?

Lin Junnan was about to hide against the wall, and he hesitated to say: It's just... just the feeling.

I nodded, and said lightly: "Okay, I am, you are satisfied."

Lin Junnan's expression froze obviously, and then he took a few steps forward, and gave me a timid look, then...what did you do with you that week...he...he had been talking to me to find out about you.you...you...

He was just muttering and blocking the door of the bathroom, and I was going out to dry my hair. Now that the truth was revealed after explaining it, I wanted to push him away.

As a result, as soon as I put my hand on his shoulder, Ya took a step back in a startled manner; in fact, this step back was okay, but the bad thing was that Ya made a push-off movement with both hands.

In fact, this refusal action is nothing, but isn’t it short, he pulled my bath towel off when he wanted to refuse.

Lin Junnan's lips trembled, his face was definitely going to hell, it was distorted, and it was red, I said, why is there such a big prejudice against homosexuality, isn't it just naked.

He has lived for so many years and has never been to a bathhouse. How could he react like this?

I was quite reluctant to pick up the bath towel.I surrounded it here leisurely, and Lin Junnan said out of nowhere, "Just... just now... just like in the photo."

ah?I frown.

Lin Junnan shut up again.

When I looked at the environment, I understood that the light here is quite dark, and I didn’t turn on the lights too much before, so he said that my nakedness is the same as in the photo?

Of course it's not bad, isn't that my own naked body, and I didn't find a substitute.

Sitting on the bed by himself, feeling bored, he took out a pack of cigarettes he bought in the afternoon from the bedside table, pointed to the bench for him to sit on, and lit the cigarette at his fingertips: Jun Nan, what... this matter Well, can you not tell our parents?

I still spoke.

To be honest, I was a little impulsive just now, but I understood right away.I really don't want to make a final decision with Zhou Lei right now, but coming out of the closet just forces me to get along with him.No matter how hard Lin Junnan responds, it will be easier to deal with than Zhou Lei.

As a result, when I said this, Lin Junnan stared blankly at me sitting on the bed smoking a cigarette as if he hadn't recovered, and didn't respond.

I thought about it: You can tell your dad, but you have to promise not to let him tell my mom first.I wasn't ready to come out, and I wasn't ready for so much pressure in the world.I hope you can understand me.

Only then did Lin Junnan regain his senses in a trance, and whispered: If you are not ready, I will not tell anyone.

I nodded, and flicked the ash on a piece of paper on the bedside table: "Okay, let's talk about it."

For some reason, Lin Junnan went to the chair opposite to me and sat down again, showing no intention of going back to the room at all.

I was stunned.

You said I didn't make it clear just now, he kept running out; now that I have said everything I should say, why are you still here.

But I just asked for help, and I was too embarrassed to make a sound to drive him away.

After sitting opposite each other for a long time, Lin Junnan spoke softly: That...then...then I'll go back today first.

what……

I came back to my senses and nodded.

Remembering the sound of the door closing, I finally leaned into the pillow and sighed.

At breakfast the next day, I suddenly realized that Lin Junnan seemed to be a little evasive towards me. Although she kept silent and kept her head buried in eating, I still felt this way.

Look at the other two, Lin Yuan is reading the newspaper, and my mother is serving me soup.

Looking at my mother, it seems that she is still angry with me.

I must have been completely shocked yesterday by the fact that I haven't had hemorrhoid surgery so far.

Lin Yuan folded the newspaper, put it aside, raised his face and swept around the table: Yang Zi.

ah.I promise.

Over the past few days, domestic business will be fine, right?

Don't worry, it's all right.I answered.

I couldn't help thinking in my heart, what could happen to me, with Zhou Lei covering me, unless you pick something for me.

Lin Yuan nodded when he heard the words: Then take it easy when you come here, treat it like a vacation.We have a lot of beautiful beaches here, if you have nothing to do, go out more often, and don't stay at home all the time.

I was taken aback, and I really wanted to go out to play: Which places are better?Uncle Lin recommends one.

Lin Yuan smiled and said: I happened to buy one just before, so you can ask Jun Nan to take you there.

I asked Lin Junnan: Do you have time?Don't delay you?

What I mean is that if you disagree with me, just say you don’t have time, but in the end you raised your panda eyes: ah?Oh, okay.