Rebirth of Su Shi

I hesitated to speak and looked at Fang Lin's back as he turned and left.

No matter how good our relationship is, some things are beyond his control.

When he came to City B with me, because I changed a body that was unfamiliar to him, he was uncomfortable for at least half a month and he was a little alienated from me. Unfamiliar eyes, but I have a grudge against my heart.

I didn't explain to him that it was not [me] who looked at him with strange eyes, and further explanations would not solve the fundamental problem, but would only make him more worried. For him, I felt anxious inside, and I didn't know how to make him feel better.

Lie on the bed and close your eyes to calm down, your mind is in a mess.The affairs of the Tang Dynasty, Fang Lin's affairs, and my own affairs forced me to toss and turn, unable to sleep.

Turn on the desk lamp, climb up from the bed and sit for a while, then get down, wanting to wash my face with cold water to calm myself down.

Turn on the faucet and splash a handful of water on your face, then look up, just facing the mirror.Looking at the person in the mirror, he unconsciously touched the mirror with his hand. The cold touch came from his fingertips, and he quickly withdrew his hand.

A sense of panic rose in my heart, and the next second, I took the mouthwash cup containing toothpaste and toothbrush placed on the sink and smashed it.

As if it wasn't enough, he went crazy and took whatever he saw and continued to smash it.

With a bang, the mirror hanging on the wall shattered, and the fragments jumped around indiscriminately. Some fragments flew to my body, and cut bloodstains on my exposed arms.

As soon as I saw the blood, my brain started to feel dizzy, and my stomach acid started to churn, I took a few steps back, and slid my back against the wall and sat on the ground.

My breathing became short of breath, I opened my mouth wide and breathed heavily, the only thing left in my mind was clarity, and I yelled inwardly.

The few cuts from the fragments were not deep, it was just that the surface was cut and overflowed, but because I was afraid of blood, I smelled a strong smell of blood even though it didn't smell much.

I leaned on the wall and wanted to stand up, but my hands and feet were weak, and I fell back when I got up, and fell to the ground.Looking at the countless figures created in the shattered lens on the ground, I suddenly thought that Su Shi's death was caused by his poor breathing and his inability to call for help, and I began to feel terrified.

Don't die, I don't want to die!It's hard to come back alive, I don't want it!

The fear in my heart became more and more intense, I kept forcing myself to calm down, and then tried to breathe efficiently with the breathing method Jiang Youming told me.

When a person is afraid of something, there will be self-psychological hints, and things that did not actually happen, but because of the hints in the mind, they are constantly rehearsed in the brain, which will create a "false sense of reality".And the me now—is out of [false reality].

After the last attack of my lung disease, Jiang Youming changed the way he treated me, and my body felt much better after that.Coupled with the uninterrupted drinking of the traditional Chinese medicine prescribed by Master Liu these days, it has already improved a lot.

The lungs were just aching, but the pain was magnified countless times in his mind.Breathing, like pain, can be relieved by following the correct breathing method, because the uncomfortable feeling has been enlarged several times, so no matter how hard I breathe, I can't feel the air passing through the nose or throat.

Faintly heard the phone ringing...

Lie on the ground and crawl out little by little, the shattered fragments on the ground pierced into my palm, causing me to hum softly in pain.

A wet and greasy feeling came from the palm of my hand. I knew it was blood, and the smell of blood at the tip of my nose intensified again. I turned my head and retched for a while.

There were bursts of stinging pain in the eye sockets, but no tears came out.

I closed my eyes and didn't look at the red liquid on my body that could deepen my fear, and put all my thoughts on the action of crawling out of here to get the spray to save myself.

I lost some sense of fear, and my body finally had some strength. I tried my best to crawl out. Because I couldn't see the ground with my eyes closed, I couldn't avoid the debris on it. I could only feel the debris sticking to my body. the pain.

Maybe it's the pain, spurring all the strength and energy.

Obviously the distance from the bathroom to me is very short, but I feel that it is very long.Based on my impressions, I knew that I crawled out of the bathroom, and the ringtone of the mobile phone became clearer in my trance.

I no longer have a sense of direction, and I am based on human instinct. I moved in the direction of the ringtone, and my body hit a hard object. I opened my eyes slightly, and my eyes were blurred.

The ringing sound of the incoming call was still there, and I was panting heavily, but I didn't think about answering it, because I remembered that my spray was put in the bag with the mobile phone.

She crawled over with all her strength, opened the bag with shaking hands, fumbled for it, opened the lid, and sprayed a few times in her mouth.

The cough shook my chest, and my lungs and chest pain made me sweat. This medicine can only relieve it, and the effect is not bad. After spraying it in my mouth, I feel that my breathing is much smoother.

In fact, this is just my psychological reason. I leaned under the bed and breathed heavily. Every time I got sick, I felt that the air that I didn’t care about at ordinary times was so precious. People’s habits became natural, but I ignored a lot.

The phone was still ringing, I raised my hand with difficulty and took it out from the bag on the bed, my vision was so blurred that I couldn't see the caller ID clearly.

Pressing the connect button, he panted and said hello.

No one answered. I thought I pressed the wrong button. I held the phone and put my hands flat on the ground. I put my whole body in a relaxed posture. I rested my head on the edge of the bed and closed my eyes to calm myself down while adjusting my breathing. .

I vaguely heard a voice, and I opened my eyes again.After listening for a while, I realized that the voice was coming from the phone.

He raised his hand and put the phone to his ear, "Hello?"

"What the fuck are you doing? Fucking that kid?"

"……what?"

Now my brain is very dull, and I don't understand what the other party means?What boy?What to bed?

"Su, listen to me. I'm your man now. It's fine if I don't see you this time. If there is another time, let's see how I deal with you!"

I finally recognized who the other party was. It turned out to be Tang Chao...Because I opened my eyes and put my hand next to my face, looking at the discolored blood on the palm, the blood filled the tip of my nose, my stomach acid surged up instantly, I couldn't control it Under the circumstances, I can only retch on my side.

"...Hello? Hello? What's wrong with you?" Tang Chao on the other end of the phone finally heard something was wrong.

Unable to reply to his words, he fumbled with his fingers on the keypad of the phone and cut off the call.

The strength in his body was exhausted, he put his hands on his sides, closed his eyes and fell to the ground to control his breathing rhythm. After an unknown period of time, he gradually fell asleep with the sound of smooth breathing.

I was awakened by the sound of knocking on the door, and my mind was in a state of chaos. I couldn't make any response in a moment, and I could only slightly open my eyes and look forward without focusing.

"It's not rain!"

"Su Shi!"

In a trance, I heard the voices of two people, and then there was another scream, it seemed to be Fang Lin's?

It feels like someone is picking me up.

"Where are you going to take him to Feiyu?" This was Fang Lin's voice. I finally had a reaction. I rolled my eyes and saw Fang Lin rushing over. Before I could recover, I saw him He was kicked to the ground by Tang Chao.

"He lives with you, and you don't even know what happened to him? You don't have the right to approach him again." Tang Chao said angrily.

His kick didn't leave any energy left. Seeing Fang Lin's pale face and unable to stand up, I finally woke up sideways. I said hoarsely, "Put me down!"

"Okay?" Seeing that I finally reacted, Tang Chao held my hand tighter.

Ignoring the worry on his face, he just continued to repeat without expression: "Put me down!"

"Don't let it go!"

At this moment, I heard Fang Lin's cry.

"It's not rain...it's not rain...it's not rain..."

Hearing him crying and calling my name, I no longer have the energy to care about whether he will cause any trouble by calling me in front of Tang Chao.

It doesn't make sense to talk to Tang Chao, so he just raised his eyes and looked at him.

After staring at each other for a while, he finally compromised, carefully letting my feet touch the ground first, and holding my waist with the other hand to stabilize my weak body.

Snapped--

A slap was thrown on his face, "I can't even bear to beat someone, why do you beat him?"

Tang Chao looked at me in disbelief.

Before he could react, he pushed him away and staggered to Fang Lin, squatting down and hugging him.

"Feiyu..." Fang Lin hugged me and cried even louder.

Seeing him crying heart-piercingly, I knew that I had really frightened him just now. I hugged him tightly and used all my strength to make him feel me.

"I won't leave you." I blinked my interfering eyes, took his head over and leaned against my neck, and comforted him in a low voice.

After a while, I felt his crying die down.

He raised his head, his eyes were as red as a rabbit, full of tears and snot, I burst out laughing when I saw it.

He stared blankly at me and said nothing, I pinched his face, "Don't worry, I just lost my temper when I was in a bad mood." I explained.

He still looked at me silently.

Sighing, "I don't die so easily! It's hard for us to be together again, how can I be willing to leave you?"

As soon as he finished speaking, he heard the deafening sound of closing the door. Following the sound, there was still no sign of Tang Chao.

I lowered my eyelids in silence.

"He misunderstood." Fang Lin pulled me.

I pursed my lips and shook my head, "I have nothing to do with him. Does it hurt?" I moved my hands to touch the place where he was kicked just now.

He nodded, "It hurts, but it's much better now."

Ordinary men can't stand a kick, let alone the Tang Dynasty who has been trained in the army since childhood.

"Just now, you hit him...is it okay?"

After he mentioned it, I just remembered that I slapped Tang Chao just now.That slap was completely unconscious. Thinking about it now, the little finger of his right hand holding Fang Lin couldn't help trembling.

His expression when he was hit by me emerged in his mind, his heart seemed to be grabbed by something, and his nose was a little sore from the pain.

After this slap, he won't contact me again...