Rebirth of Su Shi

Fang Lin's reaction made my heart tense up suddenly. I put away the expression on my face and looked up at him, "Why not?" I knew that he was most afraid of me staring at him blankly.

Sure enough, his body shrank, and when he realized that he had lost his composure, he pinched the hem of his clothes nervously, glanced at the other party, bit his lower lip and did not speak.

After staring at him for a while, I raised the corners of my lips again and patted the place beside me.

Fang Lin sat back slowly, then looked at me uneasily.

"Fang Lin, how long have we known each other?"

He lowered his eyes, looked at the hands on his knees, moved the corners of his mouth, and it took him a long time to reply: "It's been almost 20 years."

"Do you know why I am so nice to you?"

"Because we grew up together and went through so much together."

I shook my head, "That's not what I was talking about....Do you remember what kind of personality I was when we were in the orphanage?"

He looked at me and said nothing.

"It's lonely, isn't it?"

Seeing him nodding, I leaned on the sofa and looked at him with my head tilted: "In the orphanage, I was bullied so much that I didn't like to get close to anyone, even Dean Fang...but I just accepted you. Do you know why I accept you?"

Fang Lin seemed to have sensed something, and reached out to grab my arm firmly.

"When I was seven years old, Fang Qi and his group tore up Dean Fang's book. When Dean Fang checked it out, they unanimously said that I did it, so I was punished by Dean Fang." Speaking of this, I took a deep breath and then said: "I am withdrawn, but it does not mean that I will accept punishment obediently, so when no one is around, I quietly left the orphanage alone, ready to go to the orphanage. Stealing other people's sweet potatoes to fill my stomach. Not far from the orphanage, I found a woman holding a child sneaking towards the gate of the orphanage. I was curious, and I went back. Then I heard the woman kept talking Say sorry. Not long after, the woman left. But the child remained at the gate of the orphanage.

I'm curious why the child doesn't cry or fuss.When I got closer, I realized that he was sleeping soundly with his eyes closed. He looked thinner than the children in the orphanage, and there were many scars on his face, obviously from being beaten.

And the woman who left didn't know when she turned back. When I saw her, she suddenly knelt down like me.She said that as a mother, she really wanted to raise the child herself, but...she had cancer and couldn't raise it anymore.

Although I have no parents myself, I know that even without her, at least there is the father of the child.When I mentioned the child’s father, the woman picked up the child’s clothes. When I saw the bruises on the child’s body, she told me that the child’s father was drinking because of his failure in business. He either beat her or beat the child at home.

If there is only a woman in the family, if she has cancer, the child can be sent to an orphanage or adopted by a well-meaning person through proper channels. The consequences of growing up are unimaginable, so she made up her mind and secretly sent the child to the orphanage.The orphanage is full of children. Even if the children are bullied, at least they will not hit as hard as men, and they will not starve to death.So she begged me, begged my child to help her babysit. "

Speaking of this, I have to think, I was only seven years old at that time, and I was only half-sensible, why I remembered the woman's words so deeply and firmly, and even the appearance of the woman crying is still so clear in my mind.

Feeling a tightness in my arm, I came back to my senses, and continued: "After the woman left with tears and reluctantly, I carried that sleeping child into the orphanage when I was only seven years old. For this reason, I was also scolded by people other than Dean Fang for a long time."

I patted Fang Lin on the head, "Do you know who the kid I'm talking about is?"

Fang Linhong grabbed me tightly with eyes fixed on her, but she couldn't utter a word with her lips trembling.

"That child is you." I rubbed his head, "You know how I treat you since you entered the orphanage, but you..." Thinking of what he did, my heart is full of tears. There was a feeling of discomfort.To him, I can be regarded as the most benevolent, it is time to let go.

For Fang Lin, I have paid enough.In my last life, I put my life on it for him, but in this life, I will never allow myself to be such a saint again.

"You mean, you are so kind to me because of that woman?"

Hearing this, I had no choice but to push him away, then stood up and sneered at him, "Fang Lin, should you say such things?"

"I……"

He was nervous and wanted to grab me.

I took a step back, avoiding his hand.

"I've said so much today, but I just want you to understand that I, Fang Feiyu, have nothing to say sorry to you."

"I'm sorry Feiyu, I just...just..."

"Fang Lin, you're wrong, it's not just a sentence!" I was agitated, and my voice raised unconsciously, "You know in your heart what you have done to me! I pamper and protect you, this is what you gave me. My return?"

When Fang Lin heard what I said, his face paled instantly.

"We have been together for so many years, you understand the consequences of challenging my bottom line better than anyone else!!"

Fang Lin saw how terrible I was, so frightened, he rushed to my waist, "Feiyu, I didn't mean it, I just don't want you to leave me..."

I took a deep breath, raised the corners of my lips and smiled, touched his tearful face and said softly, "You... have ruined all my care and trust in you."

After finishing speaking, I broke his hand hard, turned and walked out.

"It's not rain...it's not rain..."

Hearing Fang Lin's panicked shouts from behind me, I stopped and turned around. "I'm not Feiyu!...I'm Su Shi! The Feiyu you mentioned was killed on the bed three years ago because of you."

Fang Lin, who was chasing me, looked at me with big eyes in disbelief after hearing this sentence.

After staring at him for a while, I clenched my fists and turned to leave.

My mind is like a projector, constantly playing bits and pieces of the past between Fang Lin and me. Every picture is so clear and yet feels so far away.

Thinking of the little him, following behind me like a follower.

Thinking of how he was so scared when Fang Qi and his group used snakes to nest in my arms and cry hoarsely when he was a child.

Thinking of how I was punished to stand by Dean Fang, and he foolishly stood by me.

Thinking of the way he looked at me with tears in his eyes after he fell while walking.

Thinking of the way he raised his chin and said, "Except for eating and dressing warmly, sleeping until I wake up naturally, and having a car instead of walking, I don't think about anything else" after I went to school with him.

Thinking of how he struggled frantically to save me when I was raped.

Thinking of him being adopted, holding on to me and not letting him go.

Thinking of him chasing me into the void.

……

Too much too much.

Protecting him, loving him and pampering him for nearly 20 years has almost become a habit.Even when I changed from Fang Feiyu to Su, this habit continued.

I never thought that he and I would get to where we are today.

Before I brought Fang Lin to my side, I had already planned to find him a decent job, so I had a bookstore.Give him a serious identity, so he moved his household registration into the Su family.Find him a man who loves him... On this point, before I agreed to associate with Tang Chao, I was thinking, if I can't find it, I will accompany him for the rest of my life...

I planned the future very well, but... How could the plan win the change?

"What are you dazed for?"

Being hugged from behind, I shrank myself into his arms uncomfortably.

"Tang Chao, I went to see Fang Lin today."

After the words fell, the people behind him instantly relaxed.Tang Chao walked up to me, "Didn't I say not to see him?"

I raised my eyes slightly, "Don't worry, I just prepared him mentally."

"Prepared mind?"

"kindness."

Tang Chao breathed a sigh of relief, "Why did you forget to wear socks again?"

"It's not cold, isn't the heater on?"

"You have to wear socks even when the heater is on!" While talking, he turned and walked into the bedroom, and after a while, he brought out a pair of clean socks and threw them to me, "Put them on."

I raised my foot and moved my foot against it.

"Hey, do you think I raised a pig?" He squatted down speechlessly, and took the socks for me to wear. "Have you got a meal yet?"

"I ate already, how about you?"

"have eaten."

"Oh."

"In a few days, you will accompany me back home."

"The Tang family?"

After putting on the socks for me, Tang Chao stood up, "My mother celebrates her birthday."

"It's your mother's birthday, I'll go... Wouldn't that please you?"

"What's wrong? Boss Zhou and Qin Er will go there."

"Okay then." I was relieved to hear that a few of his small meetings would go.

"What happened to your eldest brother-in-law?"

"Called them at noon, and he was reinstated. You didn't do this, did you?"

"Pay attention to the wording, why don't you say you are [helping]?" Tang Chao pinched my nose.

"Have you found out who killed my brother-in-law?"

"There are already clues, and it is estimated that they will be found within two days. Don't worry, the person who is being watched by my Tang Dynasty will not be able to escape."

"Is it the man named Xie Cen, or is it my brother-in-law's work unit?"

"Neither. There is no result yet. Don't ask. I will tell you when I find out." He paused and said, "I will accompany you to Liu Ye's place tomorrow. Seeing that you are in good health We have learned a lot, so we need to strengthen it.”

When the sixth master is mentioned, I feel uncomfortable.I thought about it, and then said: "Since you already know about me, let me tell you the truth. My drowsiness may be the sequelae of [Borrowing the dead body]."

"Sequelae?"

I nodded and recounted the symptoms from the first to the last attack.

After listening to my words, Tang Chao frowned and fell into silence.