Sao Nian, you lost your integrity

"That's not an ordinary bug, it's a silkworm." Facing Ye Wen's suppressed smile, I think I need to emphasize and explain, so as not to damage my stalwart image.

Ye Wen took a sample from the bag and shook it under my nose, "It's really not an ordinary bug. Many children keep them as pets at home."

I grinned at Ye Wen, not wanting to continue this topic at all.

But Ye Wen disgusted me as relentlessly as I pestered him before, "I remember when I was in elementary school, I put a few boxes of silkworms on the windowsill of the classroom for everyone to raise together, saying that it was to use this to deeply understand the ancestors. At that time, the whole class observed the growth process of the young silkworms, and recorded every time they shed their skins, until they finally spun silk and formed cocoons, and then broke out of the cocoons to become silk moths..."

Ye Wen said these words slowly, and looked at me and smiled while talking, obviously on purpose, I blocked my ears and yelled at him, "What's wrong? Who doesn't have anything to be afraid of, you must have one, it's best not to let me Find out, or I will find you and scare you to death!"

"I don't think I'm afraid of anything you dare to find. At most, I don't like it." He said, pulling my hand away from my ear, and gently scratching my palm with his index finger, "Let the silkworm baby hold it in the palm of my hand." Crawling inside, that itchy feeling... have you tried it?"

In an instant, my hair stood up from head to toe, and I slapped Ye Wen's hand off with a slap, and instinctively stepped back a few steps, feeling as if he was holding a silkworm in his hand.

I rubbed my hands against each other for a while, and Ye Wen smiled even more happily, "I thought you lied to me just now, but now I believe it." He put down the bag, and pointed his palms at me, " Hey, look, I don't have anything in my hand, don't be afraid."

I gritted my teeth, "You did it on purpose."

Ye Wen had a warm face, "Don't worry, I promise you, I will never tell anyone about such a shameful thing." After he finished speaking, he patted me on the shoulder.

I raised my middle finger at him, and he smiled and walked away like he didn't see it.

He was in front and I was behind, and after visiting a few stores, Ye Wen stopped and turned his head, "To be honest, I think the main material of your design should be silk."

I squinted at him, "It's all said..."

He interrupted me, "If you want to say that you are not going to use silk for the rest of your life because you are afraid of silkworms, then I suggest you go to psychological treatment. And you will be afraid of silkworms, isn't it for no reason? What happened?"

"..." I scratched my head. If I had to say it, it really wasn't for no reason. It's just this reason that makes me feel nauseous when I think about it.

Ye Wen looked away, "If you don't want to say it, forget it."

I just wanted to say forget it, but I heard him add in a low voice, "There are many things I shouldn't ask, after all, I don't know you well."

What I said, I am not familiar with you, I have already lived like this with you.

I held him back and refused to let him go, "No, that's not what I meant. I don't want to recall that thing if anyone asks me. It's not a question of familiarity."

"Okay," Ye Wen turned around, "Just pretend I didn't ask."

How does this feel more and more wrong?I raised my hand in surrender, "Don't, I'll tell you right away."

Although I said I will tell you right now, but you have to give me some time to prepare mentally, don't you?Ye Wen just looked at me without blinking, as if waiting for a criminal to confess.

I took a deep breath and shook my heart, "A long time ago..."

A long, long time ago, when Guan Erye was not called Guan Erye, he was less than 1.2 meters tall, his eyes were not short-sighted, he did not wear glasses, and he had no tattoos on his body. The second child was always silly and quiet. I don’t know what it means to use the lower body Thinking, I didn't know Teacher Cang, and I was still a virgin at that time.

Probably in the second and third grades of elementary school.

Just like what Ye Wen said, many little kids kept silkworms as pets and played with them. Once upon a time, the silly and naive Erye Guan was no exception.

In spring and summer, there is always an old lady sitting on a small stool at the gate of the school, with a cardboard box in front of her and two snakeskin bags beside her.There are also small paper boxes in the big paper box, and the silkworms of different sizes are contained in the small paper boxes, and the prices are different for different sizes.

As for how much the small silkworms and big silkworms sold at that time, I definitely can’t remember, but I remember that I took out all the belongings in my pocket and bought the largest one.

It is too troublesome to raise them from a young age. What I want to see is how they cocoon.

The old lady gave me a small plastic bag and put two silkworms in it, then grabbed me a handful of mulberry leaves from the snakeskin bag, and pinched me two mulberries from another smaller snakeskin bag .

I looked at my two silkworms in the plastic bag, and then at the box full of silkworms on the ground. No matter how I looked at them, I felt that my two silkworms were too shabby.But I touched my pocket, and there was no money in it.

The old lady was very kind and said that she would give me one more, but I thought three or less.She moved her hand slowly into the box to pinch the silkworms. I reached into the small box before her and grabbed a few. Put it back in the old lady's hand.

She was stunned, and in just a second, I fled the scene of the accident with the spoils of war.

I ran all the way to the classroom, and there was still a while before class, I opened the bag and counted, one, two, three until 26, and I was so beautiful.

I was really ignorant and stupid at the time. I didn’t know what extreme joy begets sorrow, nor what it means not to take evil for a small thing, and I don’t even know what it means to repay the present world. If I could know these principles, I wouldn’t steal things , maybe my mother's Jesus will show mercy and prevent me from encountering the following things.

Few kids are rich. When the kids around saw me carrying a bag of more than 20 fat silkworms, all of them were eager to get close to me.Guan Erye was not a stingy person at that time, basically whoever wanted to give it to someone, before class, the children around him had a silkworm in their hands to play happily.

Counting the remaining seven in the bag, although not as spectacular as more than 20, but still enough to see, I spread the bag on the table and hoped that these little guys would grow up and make cocoons for me, just like this Seeing the preparatory bell rang, the boy sitting at the same table at that time suddenly appeared.

He sat on the side, looked at me out of breath, opened his mouth unceremoniously and asked me to give him three.

?Let alone three, I can't even give him a piece of silkworm droppings.

The boy at the same table is clean and likable, and has good grades. He is also good at flattering and flattering, and he is loved by the teacher. Guan Erye is no exception.

If I want the silkworms that Lao Tzu risked to snatch back, there is no way!I made a face at him, and put all the silkworms into the table hole.

That kid was a stalker, and he never stopped chattering with me from the first two classes to the recess. At first I just ignored him, but then I got really annoyed, so I gave him stool legs after the second class I kicked my son and watched him fall on all fours.

That kid didn't say a word at that time, and got up with an angry expression on his face, which made me feel refreshed.

It's a pity that I didn't know when I was a kid. There is a saying that it is better to offend a gentleman than a villain.

I didn't take a nap at noon, and I felt sleepy in the third class. The teacher's hypnotic lecture made me sleep very soundly.And it's not just hearty, but also dreaming of delicious food. There are ten or two pieces of brown candy on the stalls at the gate of the school, or sandwiches. When you bite down, there is... jam?

Smacking your lips, it tastes fishy, ​​bitter, sour and salty, definitely not jam.

I woke up immediately, and when I opened my eyes, I saw the brat at the same table smiling smugly.

I felt normal when I woke up, and I immediately realized that the lump of soft stuff in my mouth was not brown sugar, so I panicked and spit it out on the table.

The white and wet two ends are filled with water that is neither yellow nor green, and the calf and the tip of the tail are still moving there.

I looked at my deskmate. He was holding a fat white silkworm in his hand. The silkworm was obviously uncomfortable, and it was twisting back and forth in his hand.

At that moment, I felt that my world was dark.

I chewed a living silkworm as if it were brown sugar.Bitten a big white and fat bug in half.

After trying to understand this fact, I threw up in a daze.

After I vomited until my stomach was empty and there was nothing left to vomit, I ignored the teacher who came to see the situation and the students around me, and threw myself on the insidious boy who was feeding me silkworms, and beat him to the ground.

The next day, I took the money and went to compensate the old lady selling silkworms. Of course, this is a later story.

Later, because of this incident, I almost transferred to another school, and I ended up fighting with my deskmate for several years, which is even more of a later story.

I covered my mouth and suppressed the feeling of disgust. I looked at Ye Wen and waited for him to express his opinion. Of course, I thought that anyone who heard such a tragedy in the world would be comforted.

Turns out I was wrong.

Ye Wen came closer to me, and asked softly, "Have you ever eaten silkworm chrysalis?"