Sao Nian, you lost your integrity

The picture I saw in the alley before suddenly popped up in my mind, a big insect with flapping transparent wings flew around the lamp, bumped into the old milky white glass light bulb with a "boom", and then fell down When it fell to the ground, it turned over and shook its legs. It was a green grasshopper inch long.

After inexplicably thinking of the grasshopper jumping on the ground, my attention returned to Ye Wen's face.I'm a little distracted right now, I'm in a daze, I don't need to look in the mirror to know that my expression must be stupid.

Ye Wen looked at me tenderly, and I swallowed, "What? Don't you hate it?"

There's nothing wrong with my ears. I just said that I hate me. How can I sing this?

Ye Wen pursed his lips, raised one corner of his mouth, his expression was a bit childish, but he looked at me with the same seriousness as before, "It seems that if you put equal amounts of likes and dislikes on the same person, and It won't cancel each other out, otherwise... I wouldn't have bothered for so long."

His words matched his tone, together with the bunch of strange questions he asked before, I seemed to understand in an instant, and a series of inexplicable questions suddenly became meaningful now.But in one second, he clearly felt that he had grasped some key point, but in the next second, the key point slipped away from the palm of his hand like a loach.

Ye Wen was silent, as if waiting for me to speak, so I said, "So, I'm the one who bothered you?"

Ye Wen took out his signboard again and asked back, "What do you think?"

If I can feel it, I can feel it myself, right?Why are you asking?

Let’s just say that the relationship is troublesome. If it’s a friend with benefits, then all the problems boil down to harmony on the bed. After waking up, you don’t need to talk nonsense or try to figure out what the other person thinks. It couldn’t be simpler.

But Ye Wen is not a friend with sex, and all problems will become complicated if he touches him, very complicated.

I try to keep things simple, "do you like me or hate me?"

Ye Wen went to look at the ring on his hand again, "You always talk too bluntly, and you seem to be careless and heartless, when you should be serious, you don't take it seriously, no matter what you say or do, it's like you're just playing , always being slovenly, disorganized, and playing with emotions...all of which would turn me off."

I didn’t pay much attention to the slippery words mentioned earlier, perhaps because they were right to the point. Only the words “playing with emotions” sounded particularly harsh.

"Uh..." I was just about to defend myself, but Ye Wen hugged me, his forehead pressed against my shoulder, and the strength on his arm gradually increased, "But why do you say, there are so many places to let me go?" People hate you, but I still can't help not paying attention to you. I always pay attention to your every move unconsciously. Although I will be disappointed when I see it, and I will be angry when I hear it, but I still can't control myself and want to get close to you... Heh, How about you tell me, do I like or hate you?"

Guan Erye's emotional life for more than 20 years has been blank, so he was naturally stopped by this question, and he was speechless thinking about Ye Wen's words over and over again in his mind. Although he didn't want to understand, he still slowly Breeding a subtle never-before-experienced...surprise.

Ye Wen's voice was low, completely different from the usual sharp and defensive tone, as if he was talking to himself, "What if it were you instead? You would want to get close to someone you hate Would you drive like crazy for half an hour just because you saw someone you hated being taken away from a bar? Would you have the urge to kill someone because you saw someone you hated was almost raped? Are you unable to control your emotions at all?"

I took a deep breath, sniffing the light scent of perfume and sweat on Ye Wen's shoulders, the smell of sweat was heavier than usual, probably because he was really anxious when he drove after Xu Hui.

I couldn't tell what kind of mood I was in, I just lowered my head and kissed Ye Wen's shampoo-scented hair, "I understand."

Ye Wen slowly pressed his forehead to mine, dripping with sweat and wet, "Today I realized how afraid I am of losing you, heh, although, you never belonged to me."

The feeling of indescribable joy just now was gradually replaced by a more inexplicable emotion, and my heart was messy and sour.

Forehead to forehead, nose tip to nose tip, I naturally raised my head slightly, and it was lip to lip with Ye Wen.

But he withdrew his body back, "Let's go, you have to take a bath before you can apply the medicine. It's not good for the wound if it's delayed."

This time it was my turn to frown, "And then?"

"Then you can eat after taking the medicine."

"I didn't mean this and then!"

Ye Wen looked away and stopped talking.

It's really not a good time, if you can move freely now, make sure you put Ye Wen on the sofa first, and make sure you have a thorough understanding before talking about it.However, there are advantages and disadvantages in everything, and it is not a bad thing if you can't move. My way of dealing with problems is probably what Ye Wen hates.

After thinking about it for a while, I really came up with a more correct attitude than a graduation defense, "Let's try it together."

Ye Wen turned his gaze back, but still didn't speak, and still frowned, I continued: "Don't you hate me? But you also like me, right? So try it out together, or you hate me more and you don't want to see it at all If I’m married, then we’ll break it up, or if you like me more, I’ll be with you, and you’ll never be perfunctory if you’re serious.”

Seeing what Ye Wen was about to say, I was afraid that he would refuse, so I hurriedly added, "Also, I'm not a person who plays with emotions. All my life until now, let me be so stubborn and resigned. You, Ye Wen, are the only one who struggles!"

Ye Wen's lips moved, and then fell silent again.

I let out a long breath, "Ye Wen, they are all men. If you have anything to say, don't be sloppy. I made it very clear today. If you don't accept it, you still feel annoyed when you see me. That's good. After returning to Beijing, I will Just resign, and stay far away from you, so that you can't see it."

Ye Wen finally spoke, but it was unexpected, "Aren't you... Already with Wang Yuqing? If I say I hate you, you'll get along with him. Now, if I say I like you, you'll want me immediately." Try it with me, don't you still say that you are not playing with your feelings?"

I was a little anxious, "Where is this? When did I get together with Wang Yuqing?"

Ye Wen's face was not very good-looking, "You came to the company wearing his clothes that day, and on your neck... Forget it, I have no position to say anything about you."

Although I think I'm right, I still feel a little guilty, "Wang Yuqing and I are just friends with benefits." This sentence is obviously an explanation, but it is not convincing when I say it.

Ye Wen smiled, "That's all?"

I was serious, "That's it."

Friends with sex, a purely physical relationship, two people hugging each other for warmth and having sex to vent out the primitive desires that every man has. If he thinks this way, if he doesn't think so, it seems useless for me to say anything more to explain it.

The atmosphere froze for a while, before Ye Wen asked lightly: "Then how many other people are there besides Wang Yuqing? How many are 'just' to you?"

I really want to say that I have been trying to be a vegetarian for a long time because of your few words, but I just said, "The closest one is Wang Yuqing."

"That means there were many before?"

I could hear the sarcasm in Ye Wen's tone, and I felt unhappy, "There are many, but what's wrong? I don't think there is any problem."

Ye Wen turned to face me, resting his chin on his hand, "Don't tell me if you have any problems, that's your own way of life."

Why is this getting more and more wrong?I was very anxious, and as soon as I stretched out my hand, I grabbed Ye Wen's wrist vigorously. After I grabbed it, I realized that my hand could move. I was busy trying the other hand and leg, but there was still no response, but there was one. better than nothing.

"Ye Wen, try to be with me, I really like you, I like you very much. Although I can't guarantee that I can get rid of the problems that make you hate, at least I will try, I want to be with you, really , I have never been so fucking serious in my life!"

The corners of Ye Wen's mouth turned up, but it didn't look like he was smiling at all. He looked at me, his eyes were... lonely.Reminds me of the moment he looked up when I first saw him in a bar.

The picture flashed by, and Ye Wen's words floated into his ears, "Together...and then we kiss, hug and have sex...Then what is the difference between me and your so-called friends with benefits?"

I firmly grasped Ye Wen's wrist with the only left hand that could barely move, "Of course! How many times do I have to confess my confession before you can listen? I like you, Ye Wen! I like you! Only you!"

Ye Wen raised his head which had been lowered for a while, and the circles of his eyes turned red, "If I can't get a complete one, I'd rather not have it."

I sighed in distress, "How do you want to be complete?"

Ye Wen said: "I want your complete relationship, not the physical relationship that everyone can get from you."

"so?"

"So," Ye Wen suddenly grabbed my hand with a strong backhand, "If you are serious, start a spiritual relationship with me."