Sao Nian, you lost your integrity

People have a fluke mentality, and this mental state will not be weakened in extreme cases but will become stronger and stronger, becoming unrealistic or even absurd.

From time to time, some thoughts popped up in my half-strike state:

Ye Wen may have his own plan, and he has a way to deal with Lin Chuan and escape safely.

Ye Wen may have brought people to ambush around, and when he gives an order, those people will break through the wall and enter.

Maybe a few darts will fly suddenly, kill the two people behind me, and then cut the rope on me by the way.

Maybe the police or something would break in and turn things around at the last minute.

……

These ridiculous thoughts keep popping up, and they are not controlled by reason at all. Maybe I have lost my reason, or I can’t accept the fact that is now naked in front of me-because of my carelessness, Ye Wen will be killed by Lin Chuan. Strong on.

However, no matter how absurd the fluke psychology is, it needs certain realistic conditions to support it. I can expect an unexpected turning point in the next second. Fa'er continued to get lucky when there was no next second.

The sound of viscous water came from that room without warning, and the sound effect was so good that it could be compared to a movie theater. I heard almost every detail.

The sound of liquid dripping on the skin, the sound of friction between the skin and the skin, the strong collision sound and the special rhythmic sound of water produced by the action of thrusting...

Even more clearly, there was Lin Chuan's panting voice.

"Bitch, have you been so cooperative?"

"Ye Wen, I want you to remember today for the rest of your life!"

"Bitch! Pretentious! Why don't you just let me fuck you in the end!"

"You should call out and I'll listen, call me!"

"Damn it, I don't believe you can keep silent even if I fuck you up."

Ye Wen didn't make a sound from the beginning to the end.

I clearly listened to the physical collision sound that seemed to be amplified countless times, trying to divert my attention but with little success.

I have no concept of time at all, the movement in that room is repeated, the sound of collision and water witnesses the passage of time, very real, but completely unreal.

For a few moments, I almost felt that there was only a computer in that room, playing pornography endlessly, if it wasn’t for Lin Chuan’s voice occasionally, if not every bit of sound and tremor rhythm was real It's so chilling, I really would rather choose to deceive myself and not believe what happened.

From the anger that almost burst my blood vessels at the beginning, to the despair and self-blame later, to the desolate and numb feeling that is completely indescribable now.

When the sky outside the window obviously began to turn white, I stared blankly at the increasingly blurred stars, feeling very dazed.

In the end, that kind of bewilderment returned to reality after all.

Lin Chuan's weary and excited voice sounded for the last time, and he said, "You have served me very well today, Ye Wen, are you satisfied with this birthday present?"

I calmly listened to the sound of getting dressed and footsteps, watched Lin Chuan walk out of the door, and watched him straighten his wet and messy hair.

The two men in black came to Lin Chuan's side. Lin Chuan turned around and smiled at me. Looking at his face, I felt surprisingly calm.

The three whispered something and went out the door.

I looked down at my knees, I couldn't feel the time, I couldn't feel any pain in my body, and I couldn't feel if I was still thinking about something in my head at the moment.

All I know is that nothing can be undone.

I was in a daze in a completely quiet environment, I couldn’t hear any other sounds except my heartbeat, I kept staring at my knees, until I heard some movement in the room, I slowly raised my head, maybe my eyes were open After sitting for too long, it suddenly became sour and astringent.

I blinked my eyes hard, feeling a little normal, and moved my eyes to the door in an unconscious state, waiting, wanting to wait, but afraid of waiting.

After a while, when the footsteps approached, I first saw the slightly pale hand with slender fingers holding on to the door frame.For a moment, I wanted to look away, but in the end I could only let my gaze be fixed on the tall figure.

Ye Wen's hair was a little disheveled, and some of his shirt buttons were buttoned and some were missing. He supported the door, and after standing for a while, he crossed the short threshold. As soon as his front feet landed, he frowned and pursed his lips.

Subconsciously, I wanted to rush over to support him, but when I came back, I realized that I was still tied tightly, unable to move or speak.

This was probably the most embarrassing and cowardly time in my life. I really felt ashamed to face Ye Wen, but I couldn't take my eyes off him.

After Ye Wen stood by the door for a while, he came straight over. Seeing him walking, I finally turned my head and looked at the white wall. My eyes were burning, but I tried my best to hold back.

Ye Wen walked in front of me, I raised my head and met his bloodshot eyes, still so beautiful light brown, but with haggard bruises on the bottom of the eyes.

His face was almost bloodless, his lips were slightly chapped, and there was an inconspicuous bloodstain at the corner of his mouth.

Ye Wen raised his hand and helped me pull out the cloth in my mouth. When his fingertips touched my face, I felt a chill.

There is no heating in this room, and I felt stiff after sitting in my coat all night, not to mention Ye Wen, who had been tossed all night... When I think of this, I feel like I was burned by fire, and my mind automatically turns around and puts those The nightmare-like picture in his imagination jumped over.

Ye Wen helped me untie the rope, touched my neck with his fingers, and said in a hoarse voice, "I'm sorry that this happened to you, let's go, I'll take you to the hospital."

I yelled in a voice that I didn't think was my own, "Go to the fucking hospital!" Just after I yelled, I saw Ye Wen's expression froze, and I immediately wanted to beat myself to death.

Enduring the feeling of numbness and coldness, I stood up, and after shaking my legs a few times, I barely stood still. I lowered my head and said, "Yes, go to the hospital, you must go..." As I spoke, there was no Realizing what he was doing, he stretched out his hand, wanting to take off Ye Wen's clothes, "Let me check first."

As soon as I said it, I didn't realize the problem, but Ye Wen's body froze there. As soon as my hand touched his collar, he slapped it open.

"Do not touch me!"

I looked at him a little helplessly, he avoided my sight and turned his head, his voice softened but trembling slightly, "I'm sorry, don't touch me now."

My hand was frozen there, he said so, I couldn't take the initiative to touch him, but I also didn't know how to take it back.

I looked down at my toes, and after looking for a while, I heard Ye Wen say again, "Guan Guan, I'm fine, today's matter... has already passed, and you have no responsibility at all."

When I passed the sliding door, I glanced in unconsciously, and saw a mess, with scattered red on the white sheets.

I feel like my head is an empty coconut, there is not even a little water left in it, even if I shake it for a long time, I can't shake it, and my mouth is like glued, half I can't even utter a word.

I walked slowly side by side with Ye Wen, walked out of the door, out of the community, took a taxi from the small road to the main road, and arrived at the private hospital where I had a fever a long time ago.

In a blink of an eye, the young nurse has already cleaned the wound on my neck and applied good medicine.

She poured me a glass of water, "Drink it, you see your lips are chapped."

I don't know if I have chapped lips, but when she said it, I felt like fire was burning in my throat, and I drank it dry after I took the water.She gave me another glass, and I drank it all in one gulp.

After two glasses of water, my mind started to think about things again. I asked the nurse, "The man who came with me just now, how is he doing now?"

The little nurse took the empty cup from my hand, "You mean Ye Wen? Dr. Bai has always been in charge of his physical examination. I just took a look and I haven't come out of the consulting room yet... Ye Wen said This time, his complexion is not very good. Is it because he has a cold? I remember that he has always been in good health. He hasn't been sick for a long time. Every time he comes here for more than a year, he has a physical examination... Oh no, it seems that he also had a cold once... "

"Does he come here often? Why do all the nurses seem to know him very well?"

The nurse smiled, "The whole family came to our hospital for any problems, so they are familiar with each other. In addition, he is a friend of Dr. Bai, so it's normal for everyone to know him." She patted me on the shoulder, "You rest for a while, I'll go see what's going on."

About 10 minutes later, the nurse came back and asked me when she saw me, "You came with Ye Wen, do you know what's wrong with him?"

I'm dumb.

The little nurse bit her lower lip, "I just heard that he was transferred to a single room in the intensive care unit. I asked Dr. Bai, but he didn't say anything, and he didn't keep the medical records for me like before. Dr. Bai's face was not very good. , I dare not ask too much... Ye Wen, is he all right?"

She seemed to be asking me and talking to herself, I pretended not to hear, and just asked, "Where is the intensive care unit?"

"I'll take you there." The little nurse stood up, stopped before leaving, "He is currently under observation, only family members can visit the patient, and registration is required. Are you his family member?"

I nodded, and the little nurse said to herself, "Well, that's right, otherwise he wouldn't have brought you here. I thought you were the one who was going to be hospitalized this time, but in the end he stayed... What's wrong……"

When I entered the ward, I saw familiar furnishings. Although I don’t remember if it was the same ward, the furnishings of this room were similar to the one I lived in at the time.

Ye Wen leaned on several pillows and sat on the bed, his body was covered with a quilt, his arms were placed on the quilt, a needle was stuck in the back of his hand, and the infusion tube dangled slightly in front of his eyes.

Hearing us come in, Ye Wen raised his head and smiled gently. He was wearing a hospital gown, and his face was indescribably haggard.

The little nurse walked over a few steps first, helped him adjust the infusion set and tucked in the quilt, and asked, "Are you feeling better?"

Ye Wen nodded, "It's much better."

The nurse looked at Ye Wen for a while, then went out and closed the door.I walked over, and the moment I saw him, I felt my mouth was stuck with glue. I couldn't utter a word, and I just stared at the drip he was taking, which was glucose.

Ye Wen said, "Is your wound alright?"

I nodded.

After being silent for a while, he said again: "I'm fine, you can go back first."

I shook my head, I want to be here with you.

"You go back, I don't want you to stay here." Ye Wen looked up at me, that kind of look made me feel like my heart was hollowed out, and he added, "I will feel embarrassed."

I stood there holding back for a long time, until I felt my head was getting hot, and then I opened my mouth, "Is there anything you want to eat? Or a change of clothes? If there is anything you need to bring, I will bring it to you."

Ye Wen shook his head, "No need, you go back, I'll call you after I'm discharged from the hospital."

Although he said so, I still felt that something should be done. Thinking that he might feel that the things in the hospital were not clean because of his cleanliness, I went home and took two clean sheets and quilts. The food was not tasty, so I went to a few stores to buy some delicate, nutritious and light food.

It was getting late after these trips. I sent my things to the hospital, but I was stopped at the entrance of the inpatient department.The nurse refused to let me visit the patient, so I had no choice but to leave my things behind, and after giving instructions and dawdling for a long time, I finally had to leave.

After finishing these chores, I suddenly felt relieved that Ye Wen is safe in the hospital and I don't need to worry about it, and I have a more important thing to do for him.

When I got home, I immediately rummaged through the boxes and cabinets. After searching for more than half an hour, I finally found the business card printed in dark blue black letters on beige cardboard.