[Waiting for the end of the world] Dongli chrysanthemum

Eleven always felt that after waking up, his mind was very dull and his memory was a little confused. When he woke up, he didn't recognize Yan Changnian, which scared Yan Changnian. The doctor said to take his time, and Yan Changnian pushed Eleven into the garden Sunbathing on the lawn in the neighbourhood, sitting beside him and reading documents by himself, Eleven seldom spoke in the first place, and now he is even more silent.

Yan Changnian knew that he should not come in a hurry, so he talked to him patiently. When he was away, the nurses in the nursing home took care of Eleven. Qin came to visit him in the nursing home on the third day after he woke up. Qin came to know half a month ago. I came over to read the news of his accident twice, but at that time Shishi was lying on the bed unconscious.

After Qin Lai left, there was a woman in her twenties, with exquisite makeup, thin eyeliner, raised eye ends, and a beautiful smile. The bodyguards brought a lot of nutrition and said to Eleven: "You saved me. Brother Yan, we are very grateful to you."

Eleven seemed to have seen her before, and she looked very familiar with Yan Changnian.Yan Changnian didn't seem to welcome her very much.

Sometimes he would quietly recall some things that happened these days, and he always felt that this woman was always trying to tell him something, the more he thought about it, the more he had a headache, so he just stopped thinking about it.

After lying down for two months, although someone gave him regular massages every day, and sometimes Yan Changnian would also give him massages, but the feeling that his bones were going to rust all over his body made Eleven very uncomfortable, and the broken bones were about the same length Well, after several requests, Yan Changnian finally agreed to let him go out of the hospital after asking the doctor.

On the day he was discharged from the hospital, Yan Changnian took Shiyi back to his parents' home. Shiyi finally met Yan Changnian's parents. Yan Bawang was in his fifties, but he looked to be in his early forties. Not very outstanding, but the high-ranking temperament emanating from the inside out is not to be ignored. No matter how amiable he is, Eleven still feels on pins and needles.

Mother Yan is like the ladies in those TV dramas, she has an elegant temperament, she is considerate to the eleventh reception, with a warm smile, and very solemnly thank you.

Contrary to imagination, their family did not employ a chef, and they did all the cooking and cleaning up the dishes by themselves. When Yan Changnian was helping his mother wash the dishes, Yan Bawang called Eleven to the study and asked Eleven what he was doing. Shi Shi didn't want to whitewash his family situation and economic life situation, but just said a few innocuous words. I'm afraid they already figured it out, and Bawang Yan didn't ask much after hearing it.

"In order to save Nan Tian, ​​your own body was injured, and you will not be able to do your previous job for a while. You need to have regular inspections. The expenses are indispensable. You can keep the money." Yan Bawang took out a check, "Human life is priceless. Nantian is gone, no matter how much money you have, you can’t buy it back...the money is not much, but it can express our gratitude a little..."

"I heard Nan Tian mention you a long time ago. Although he seems to be quite satisfied with you, but today I can also see that the relationship between you may not have reached the point where you must have each other. I don't know how you get along, how Looking at your future, I will not interfere with you, emotional matters cannot be interfered by external forces, I just hope that you can see the reality clearly and better handle your mutual feelings..."

"Parents always want their children to have a good life." Bawang Yan sat on the grand teacher's chair, with his hands on the armrests; "Nan Tian is our only son, and we couldn't accept him when we knew he was with a man, but later we figured it out." Well, people, once in this world, in just a few decades, you have to live happily. Maybe you will think, don’t you want him to marry a woman and have a child, and leave a descendant for the Yan family? Have a child? It's good, but there's no need to ruin Nan Tian's life happiness for a child. Besides, we are older than him, and we are very likely to die before him. People are tolerant and can get the blessings of their families. I believe they will live better. Your family doesn't know about you and Nantian, right? Do you plan to tell them?"

Eleven's cheeks were pale as if he had just recovered from a serious illness, and he shook his head lightly, maybe answering that his family didn't know about him and Yan Changnian, or he was at a loss for "do you plan to tell them?", he just shook his head subconsciously .

Not to mention family members, even before meeting Yan Changnian at eleven times, he never thought that one day he would be entangled with men. The concept of family inheritance is always deeply rooted in rural people. Father Tao has three sons. Although none of them are married yet, they are unprecedented. The matter is insignificant, besides, the eldest brother is definitely going to get married, that kid has been in love with girls since junior high school... He himself has not married yet, not because he loves men, but because he has never had the chance to get married... and he also lives alone all his life preparations for...

He was sitting on the sofa, and the check was placed in front of him. If he was only a teenager, he would have picked up the check and slammed it in Yan Bawang's face, but he is 31 years old, single, tired He can't earn much money all year round, and no woman wants to marry him if he has no money. He graduated from high school anyway, and ordinary rural women look down on him, but he can't turn to good ones... Now his body is broken, even if The doctor said that after two years of proper treatment, he can fully recover, but who can tell what will happen in the future?

The past after the reunion with Yan Changnian flashed in my mind one after another. Beside Yan Changnian, he is the most downcast one. He doesn't have a family background that can support him, and he doesn't have enough talent himself. How can he be worthy of Yan Changnian?Their status and education determine their ideology, and their ideology differs too much. Now, he has saved Yan Changnian. Although he did not use this to "kidnap" Yan Changnian, Yan Changnian would definitely say that he would with him...

Because he saved Yan Changnian, this incident prompted Yan Changnian to make up his mind to be with him.Is this the result he wants?

Bawang Yan remained calm, and he could see the struggle in Eleven's eyes, but he didn't say anything, wanting to see how Eleven would do.

Eleven reached out to get the check, and things developed as Yan Bawang expected.

After Yan Changnian and Shiyi left, Mother Yan asked Father Yan, and Father Yan said, "He took the check."

Mother Yan sighed: "It's rare that Nan Tian cares more about him, but... this child is far worse than Ying Zong."

"I just analyzed the reality with him, and I didn't object to them being together. In any case, he saved Nantian, how they deal with their emotional problems, we have no right to interfere, and we can't interfere. They can only solve it by themselves .” Father Yan called the driver and went fishing with his old friend.

Yan Changnian, who originally rented the house, has retired for Eleven, and all his belongings are placed in Yan Changnian's apartment. Eleven does not want to live with Yan Changnian. Although he has been discharged from the hospital, he cannot do physical work anymore. If his body wants to fully recover to the state before the injury, he will need at least two years of support, and he will go to the hospital for regular check-ups. After much deliberation, he decided to go home.

Taking Yan Bawang's money is tantamount to making a choice for their relationship. Yan Changnian saw that Eleven's expression was wrong, and thought he was tired, so he thoughtfully let him rest well. He arranged a lot of affairs, some of which could be done by his subordinates, but some of them had to be discussed with clients in person. After sending Eleven back to the apartment, he hurried to work.

Yan Changnian is really a good lover, considerate and careful, but he deserves someone better, someone who matches him, no matter man or woman, except Tao Shishi.

sorry.Tao Shishi watched Yan Changnian leave from the balcony, and at that moment, warm liquid poured into his eyes.

It was autumn, and the autumn wind was blowing, rolling the dead leaves hiding in some corner to the sky, and the dead leaves went around, and finally returned to the ground.Just like his life, in the end there is only one person.

He is not a passionate person, he does not give affection easily, and he always warns himself that giving should be reserved.When he got the check, he felt that he could withdraw easily. In fact, he overestimated his ability and underestimated Yan Changnian's weight in his heart.

He went to the train station on Eleventh with only a small travel bag with him. He couldn't carry heavy things now.

The train station is always brightly lit, and there are not many people in front of the ticket window. After lingering for a long time on November [-], he temporarily gave up the idea of ​​going home. Now he is in a mess and has no mind to deal with possible inquiries from his family. Tibet ticket.Tibet is a mysterious place. When he was still a student, he fantasized about going there sometime, to see the Potala Palace, to see the blue sky closest to heaven, to buy a prayer wheel, and to forget all the unpleasant memories of the past.

In fact, he can only think about many things because he has no money.Now he has money, to some extent, it is the money he exchanged for his feelings.Maybe Yan Bawang paid the reward simply to thank him, but in Eleven's view, as long as he got the check, he exchanged Yan Changnian and his feelings for money.

I am such a person.Not worth anyone's love at all.So, Yan Changnian, if I give up, you should too.Eleven walked through the tunnel, thinking so.

The ticket is a hard sleeper ticket, upper berth, express train.

Eleven wrapped the quilt around her body, half asleep and half awake, and occasionally saw the cold light of the platform flashing outside the window, went to the bathroom on the way, did not eat, and drank two sips of cold mineral water.After dawn, there was noise in the carriage, and he couldn't sleep, so he opened his eyes and looked at the roof of the carriage.

The mobile phone has been automatically turned off, there is no power, and there will be no incoming calls or text messages.

He got out of the car before arriving at the terminal eleven, and he heard a familiar place name in a haze. He had a fever, and that place name made him feel a little comforted.

It was a small town. I stayed in the hospital for two days. After I was discharged from the hospital, I rented a house. I had nothing to do every day, and occasionally walked the streets and chatted with the locals.

My health has not been very good, altitude sickness, repeated low fever, there is nothing I can do, this body is like this.

There is a meadow near the town where Tibetans graze. When they see a man with plateau red cheeks sitting on the half-withered grass, he will smile at him.Language barrier.There is nothing wrong with being alone.Maybe he can raise a Tibetan mastiff, herd a flock of sheep, and lie down and wait for death when he can't walk. When he thinks of these things, he is not afraid. Everyone has this day, so what is there to be afraid of?

It's just that when he couldn't sleep in the middle of the night, his chest would suddenly hurt. He could only curl up as much as possible, just like sleeping alone in a dark room when he was a child.