Rebirth and pet for a lifetime

Ye Chuan obviously began to weaken mentally. He didn't deliberately think about those clips, but when he was free from work, they were like little devils wrapped in soap bubbles, scrambling to rush out.As a doctor, Ye Chuan felt that he had a mental problem.He started to get up very early in the morning, and then stared at Gu Hang who was still asleep, waiting for the moment when he woke up to confirm whether he really existed.He panicked, afraid that he was the same as Nash (mathematician, schizophrenic), and that the real people who were by his side did not exist.

This is the case with many things. The more repeated confirmations, the less sure his authenticity will be.If he persisted in going to work in this state, the youthful radiance on Ye Chuan's face would disappear in just two or three days.Jiang Nan called Gu Hang privately, but Gu Hang vaguely avoided him and only asked him to spend more time with Ye Chuan.

Gu Hang's life is not easy, there are still business entertainment, what is even more sad is that he keeps thinking about how to expose this matter.Gu Hang imagined countless possibilities, but confessing everything before rebirth was the last thing he wanted to face.This is equivalent to re-analyzing yourself, facing not only the dirty behavior of Ye Chuan, but also the guilt towards his parents and family.Thinking of the rape-like sex every three or two days, Gu Weiguo's death, and the contempt and resentment in Lei Lei's eyes when he looked at him, Gu Hang couldn't breathe from the pain.

People, no matter how old they are, still want a place to hide.This truth came to Gu Hang's mind when he drove aimlessly around in the car and saw the small villa of Gu's family when he woke up.Gu Hang sat in the car and smoked a few cigarettes, making the car smoky, his eyes hurt from the smoke, and when he saw Liu Dongmei walking out with the dried clothes, his eyes got wet for some reason.

Liu Dongmei saw the shadow of the black car from the gap in the gate, walked quickly and saw that it belonged to Gu Hang, opened the gate casually, waved to Gu Hang who was in the car, and shouted at Gu Weiguo and Lei Lei who had already returned home from vacation: " Sailing back."

Gu Weiguo put down the newspaper and went to the door to take a look, then walked back to the sofa and continued to sit and read the newspaper.Lei Lei helped Liu Dongmei dry her clothes on the balcony, called "Brother" and continued to take out the clothes she had shaken.

When Gu Hang parked the car and came down, it was still smelling of cigarettes. Liu Dongmei fanned her nose in distaste, went over and rolled down all the car windows, and muttered: "Smokers don't open the windows, look at the smell inside. .”

Gu Hang snuffed out the last cigarette butt and threw it into the flower pond beside him, took a deep breath and gave Liu Dongmei a sensual hug. Suddenly, he realized that his mother who used to be a foreign and neat mother seemed to have become a lot shorter at some point.This hug is nothing to Gu Hang, but it is very important to Liu Dongmei.You know, ever since Gu Hang started rebelling in junior high school and refused all her intimate gestures, he hasn't had such benefits for many years.It was precisely because of his abnormality that it made Liu Dongmei a little uneasy.

Liu Dongmei rubbed Gu Hang's big hand with a slightly rough hand, and asked worriedly, "What's wrong with you?"

"Mom." Gu Hang felt that he was extremely strong, and only after he yelled out did he realize how unwise it was to speak at a sad moment.Shouting out like this, seems to be back when I was a child, crying and howling all over the place when I was beaten by my opponent outside, but when I got home, I still hugged Liu Dongmei's leg and cried a few times, announcing how many times I was hit and how much it was. pain.Gu Hang's eyes were red and it was too late to get rid of the beginning. Liu Dongmei kept rubbing her son's hands, and started to cry without saying anything. She choked up and said, "What happened? What's the big deal, no. Let’s go home and live, we won’t be hungry or cold.”

The mother and son are two long-term relatives here, and Gu Weiguo, who listened with his ears open, couldn't sit still. He raised his chin and said to Lei Lei, who came out with the washed sheet and quilt, "Look what's wrong with your brother?"

Lei Lei looked outside, but instead of going out, he said to Gu Weiguo, "I don't know, it's either a relationship or a business, which one do you think it is, Dad?"

Gu Weiguo stopped talking, and continued to read his newspaper with his head down, but because he changed hands over and over just now, he didn't even realize that the newspaper was down.

Gu Hang hugged his mother who was crying so much that her nose was running out, and entered the room, the sadness faded by such a disturbance.The family eats lunch together, but after all, it is the parents who know the child best. After the meal, no matter how normal Gu Hang behaved, Liu Dongmei still saw the difference.Liu Dongmei thought that Gu Hang and Lei Lei should have more common language, so after the meal, she stabbed Lei Lei to tell him to talk to Gu Hang.Lei Lei was repeatedly stabbed in the waist by Liu Dongmei, and he smiled wryly at Gu Hang a little bit speechlessly.

The two brothers went to the second floor. Gu Hang looked at the still green holly in the yard through the window glass. Lei Lei smiled bitterly and said, "What happened, can you tell me? If you are so bored all the time, my mother You can wake up in the middle of the night when you sleep."

Gu Hang took out his trouser pocket, only to realize that he had already run out of cigarettes.When Lei Lei went out and came back, he had an extra bottle of Wuliangye and a plate of dried tofu in his hand.The two brothers did not sit on a stool, dragged a blanket and sat cross-legged on the ground, and began the so-called heart-to-heart talk.

Lei Lei took the initiative to say: "I'm talking about a girlfriend. I'm a junior, the lead dancer of the school's dance team. She was supposed to take it home for a look during the Chinese New Year this year, but when she got excited, she was allergic to the mask for four or five days, and her face got pimples." It’s like something, but it didn’t work out. How about you, brother, if you say things are going well recently, brother Ye Chuan is back too.”

Gu Hang drank three or four cups in a row before he said, "Do you believe that people will reincarnate?"

Lei Lei shrugged, "I don't believe it."

"I didn't believe it at first." Gu Hang frowned and took another glass, then sighed and said, "Then suppose, if you did a lot of bad things to your lover before, and then he lost his memory, but now he's slow Think about it slowly, are you confessing, or are you refusing to admit it, and waiting for everything to pass?"

Lei Lei rubbed his chin, hesitated for a while before saying: "Although it was hurt before, if it is true love now, it should be forgiven."

Gu Hang nodded and closed his mouth again.Perhaps a person can only relax completely when he is drunk to a certain extent, but Lei Lei didn't stop him from drinking, and quietly accompanied him.An hour had passed by the time most of the bottle of Wuliangye entered Gu Hang's stomach. Gu Hang leaned back against the bed, his eyes were red, and he couldn't explain what he wanted to say.Gu Hang pulled Lei Lei to lean on the bed as well, held his hand for a long time before he asked inarticulately, "Everything you recall is true."

When these words came out, tears also came out.These things have been suppressed in the bottom of his heart since the first day he saw the world turned upside down from the big poplar tree outside the experimental middle school campus. He has suppressed it for too many years, and it seems that if he does not spit it out, the whole person will collapse one day.

This was the second time Lei Lei saw Gu Hang cry. The first time was when Gu Weiguo fell ill and was hospitalized in the year of the car accident, and he had to come back and stay in front of the hospital bed.At that time, Gu Hang cried and gritted his teeth and said, "I promise, I won't look for it anymore!" That time he knelt there upright, weeping silently, but this time he choked up.

Gu Hang talked about the things of that life upside down, from how he raped Ye Chuan in junior high school to how he beat him so much that he didn't dare to complain, didn't dare to miss appointments, and let him play obediently.Talk about how he broke his college dream, how he humiliated him in front of cronies, and even almost passed it on to his buddies like playing escort.Talk about how Ye Chuan hurt himself several times at that time, and why he was beaten by himself every time so that he never dared to try a knife on his body again.Those dark and dull years, those ten years of falling into darkness after one wrong step, those bloody scenes so bloody that you can't help trembling and nauseating just talking about them, those smoke scars that he burned on Ye Chuan's body with his own hands, those scenes he left behind. The scars on his body...

When Lei Lei moved Gu Hang to the bed, Gu Hang was still crying and said with his tongue out: "Chuan'er, forgive brother Chuan'er, never again, forget about it, and never hit you again."

Gu Weiguo and Gu Weiguo, who had been hiding outside the door and eavesdropping, did not speak. Liu Dongmei covered her mouth and went downstairs crying. When Gu Weiguo came down, her face was still very ugly.What Gu Hang said was not clear, but when he was sober, he talked about amnesia or something. It probably means that his son is a pervert. He not only raped the well-behaved Ye Chuan, but also did many things that they didn't even dare to think about. .Later, Ye Chuan may have been tortured unbearably, and finally lost his memory, and his son changed his past, and he must treat others better.Now that Ye Chuan remembered, the two of them had problems again.

Gu Weiguo felt like he had heard a big play, showing all the ugliness he had never seen before, and the protagonist of that play was his proud eldest son.Liu Dongmei waited for Gu Weiguo to sit down before crying and asked: "Xiao Chuaner, if you remember everything, how will you survive?"

Gu Weiguo suddenly burst into tears, and there were too many reasons to be sad.In addition, his proud son is a homosexual, so let’s just let it go and be a hooligan. The things he did, are enough to be put in prison and get shot.Gu Weiguo finally realized that his seemingly perfect son was actually the one who should be beaten the most.

When Lei Lei went downstairs, Gu Hang had already cried enough to fall asleep, his whole hand was red from being clenched, and it was so painful that he couldn't even stretch it out.None of the three said a word, Liu Dongmei felt sorry for Ye Chuan, Gu Weiguo reflected on himself, and Lei Lei scientifically analyzed Gu Hang's words in his mind, and found that re-analysis was like fantasy.Lei Lei was always there when the friendship between Gu Hang and Ye Chuan was upgraded in those years. If those years are excluded, if it can match what Gu Hang said, unless he did that kind of thing in elementary school, but that would be too precocious. , theoretically unreasonable.In the end, Liu Dongmei, who had had enough crying, wiped her nose and asked, "Why have they been fighting again recently? A few days ago, Hang called and said he wanted to take Chuan'er home for the New Year."

Lei Lei looked at the elder with a heavy face, licked his lips but still didn't express his thoughts.Gu Hang's level of sadness is definitely not acting, but it is also not in keeping with reality.

"Lei Lei, call your brother Ye Chuan and tell him that your brother is drunk, let him come and have a look."

Lei Lei looked at Gu Weiguo, saw that he nodded before going upstairs again, found Ye Chuan's number from Gu Hang's phone and hung up.

The military hospital is very close to here. When Lei Lei drove to pick him up, Ye Chuan had just finished his work and hired a good person to replace him.Wearing a mask and rimless glasses, it wasn't obvious. It was only after removing the mask that Lei Lei believed that there might be something wrong between the two of them.Ye Chuan's face was said to be believed by people in the third year of high school, but now the face of a master's student who is not worthy of the name looks quite gloomy.

Ye Chuan reflexively confirmed and asked, "Is that Lei Lei?" Seeing that Lei Lei nodded in doubt, he continued to ask: "What's wrong with your brother?"

"I don't know, I cried after drinking, and said I wanted to confess to you, but I didn't understand."

Ye Chuan's heart skipped a beat, and he thought of Ke Rui first, maybe they still didn't know.Lei Lei didn't make him think too much, and continued: "It seems that I was wronged by saying that I didn't treat you well before, and I will treat you even better in the future."

Ye Chuan never had the opportunity to ride a car in his previous life, so everything in front of him should be real, it's impossible for everything around him to be fake.After analyzing these, Ye Chuan began to think about what was wrong, and followed the clearer memory, and found nothing wrong with him.

It wasn't until the car drove into the yard that Ye Chuan became nervous after realizing it.This was the second time he saw Gu Weiguo after they separated, and he never thought that he could walk in so openly.When I walked in with Lei Lei, I was still thinking about how to face this father who I once envied and envied, but when I walked in, I realized that everything was just my own thinking.Liu Dongmei's eyes were still red, and she directly took Ye Chuan's hand and said, "Why are you making trouble again? That guy Hang has such a temper. If he bullies you, tell me, and I'll teach you a lesson."

Ye Chuan didn't know why, Liu Dongmei felt like crying when she saw his face that was much more haggard than last time.Ye Chuan went to see Gu Weiguo, and saw that he didn't say anything, but he didn't show any disapproving expression, that was enough.

Ye Chuan was dragged upstairs by Liu Dongmei's hand, and when he pushed them forward, he even asked: "Did you not sleep well? You child, you like to keep things in your heart. Tell me what you have in the future. Gu Hang It’s not for you to make noise, don’t bore yourself. Go in, sleep for a while if you’re sleepy, and have dinner at home at night.”

Ye Chuan was pushed in miserably, and he was still confused when the door closed.Turning around and seeing Gu Hang sleeping there with his head folded, he quickly walked over to straighten his head.In his memory, this was the first time Ye Chuan saw Gu Hang getting drunk. From his point of view, Gu Hang had been friends with him since junior high school and knew the seriousness. Will be drunk, not to mention sinful so ugly.

Ye Chuan sat by the bed for a while, and heard Gu Hang's strange breathing sound as if his throat was clogged with mucus. He sighed and climbed onto the bed, turned Gu Hang's body sideways, patted his back and began to massage him.However, Gu Hang seemed to regain his senses. He looked at Ye Chuan with hazy eyes, and then spontaneously climbed onto his lap and lay on his stomach. He didn't know what to say, but he knew he was holding Ye Chuan's hand. Put it to your own mouth, and rub it lightly, like a kiss.

When Gu Hang was pulled into bed by Lei Lei, he was still neatly dressed. Ye Chuan bent down and untied his belt, and pulled out the shirt that was stuffed in, making it as loose as possible, and then pulled up the quilt to cover him up.Being smelled of alcohol was uncomfortable, but Ye Chuan felt very peaceful at this moment, and even lowered his head and kissed the corner of Gu Hang's mouth.This kind of tranquility with a little happiness accepted by his family finally calmed down Ye Chuan's brain, which was running fast all the time to distinguish the truth from the false. Gu Hang's occasional nonsense and snoring fell into a dream.

It's no wonder that Liu Dongmei had a lot of things to do. He ignored Gu Weiguo's warning eyes and secretly opened a crack in the door when he didn't hear anything for a long time.There was nothing inside, but Ye Chuan was hugging Gu Hang on his lap, leaning against the head of the bed, frowning and sleeping hard. I don't know which nerves he had touched, so he stepped back and patted Gu Weiguo and began to wipe his tears again.