father's tree

While the car was on the road, Li Changen asked his silent son with his head down, "What did An Wei mean just now? That person is unreliable, you can't like her? Who is it? Baby, is someone chasing you?"

Li Su didn't say anything, but turned her gaze out of the car window.

Li Changen asked again, before he said, "It's nothing, Dad don't ask."

Li Chang'en said, "Someone is chasing you, right? Dad will be your adviser, and An Wei's words can never be trusted."

Li Su said, "No, don't ask."

Li Changen felt that his son was about to enter the rebellious period. He was such a well-behaved child when he was a child, but now he always said things like "don't ask" and "you hate" to him.

During the three days of the final exam, Li Su's science exam was extremely painful, and he only hoped that he would be divided into arts and science classes in his second year of high school, so that he would not have to study physics.

Winter vacation is coming soon, Li Changen took Li Su to America to visit relatives, Li Su is not very used to these relatives.

Uncle said, "come here to study, the quality of teaching is better than in China, and the pressure is not as great as in China."

As if he was not Chinese.

The cousin is even more hateful, he can only speak a few words in Chinese, speaks birdsong, and is very obscene. When Li Su went to his room, he found that his drawers were full of used toilet paper.

The cousin is also not pure, so he took the fucking lipstick and wanted to smear it on Li Su, but Li Su got angry on the spot, just endured it, and pushed him to the ground.

My aunt is married to a rich man in the United States, and she tells Li Changen to come to the United States to develop, saying that nothing is good in China.

Moreover, he kept introducing a partner to Li Changen so that he could remarry.And also because Li Su is too introverted and doesn't like Li Su.

Li Su was even more reluctant to contact other relatives who were farther away. When Li Changen took him with him and asked him to say hello, he only asked in a low voice, and usually hid behind Li Changen, or was just sleeping.

After returning to China, Li Changen asked Li Su at home, "Honey, do you like Uncle's house? How about staying at his house when you study in university?"

Li Su replied very simply, "No."

Li Changen asked, "Why?"

Li Su said, "If you don't want it, then you don't want it."

Li Changen touched his cheek, "The older you get, the more bad-tempered you become, brat."

Li Su said, "Do you just want to throw me away? You don't want me to be by your side anymore."

"How do you say this, I'm just doing it for your study." Li Changen put on a straight face, and sat with his son on his lap.

"For the sake of studying, so what if you study?" Li Su leaned her face on Li Changen's shoulder, and touched Li Changen's face with her hand, the stubble felt like a prick.

Li Chang'en said, "For you to have some future, even if it's not for this future, you should learn more about this world."

"Then where is it not studying? I don't want to leave you. It's fine to go to the art school in the southern district. Isn't brother Li Xiang from that school? I think the school is very beautiful."

Li Changen said, "When you go abroad to study, you will always have different experiences and get in touch with different cultures. I think this is good for you. You can't always be by my side, which limits you."

"Unless you accompany me, Dad, I won't go, I don't want to leave here." Li Su was very unreasonable.

Every time Li Su was asked to go abroad to study in university, he would get stuck at this point in the discussion.

Li Changen can only think that this is because Li Su is too young, so he doesn't want to leave him. When he grows up, he will be willing to leave. Even if he doesn't leave, he has someone he likes, and he will want to be with him of people.

Li Changen hugged his son, feeling that it was a kind of happiness that his son could not do without him like this. It seemed that every parent would prefer their children to stay by their side.

Li Changen thought for a while and thought that if Li Su was not around, he would feel a sense of loneliness. At this moment, he hugged his son tightly and kissed his neck, "Well, my silly son, just stick to him all the time." I'm fine, seeing that you are still clinging to me when you are old, you are being laughed at."

Li Su said, "Just make a joke if you want to, it has nothing to do with me."

Li Changen rubbed his hair, Li Su's cheeks were flushed, like a child.

Li Changen sighed, "My baby, when will I grow up?"

Li Su said, "I've grown up now."

Li Changen laughed, "You still want to sleep with Dad when you grow up?"

Li Su blushed and stopped talking.

Li Su's shy look, in Li Changen's eyes, should be the most beautiful scenery in the world, and he would never tire of seeing it. He touched his son's hot and tender cheek, and kissed him again. There was no need to think about his feelings for Li Su. , you know it is the deepest.

This kind of beautiful family affection moved Li Changen very much. No matter how cold and intriguing this world is, as long as Li Su is by his side, it is enough to make him feel at ease.

He kissed the corner of Li Su's lips again, and whispered, "My dear."

Li Su felt a little embarrassed, but she was very happy in her heart.

The second half of high school is coming soon. After Li Su returned to school, because of his trip to the United States, he almost forgot about Cheng Ge.

During Wednesday's physical education class, he went downstairs too late, almost late, ran downstairs quickly, and passed Cheng Ge who was going upstairs on the stairs. At that moment, Li Su felt hatred from Cheng Ge, which made He was startled before he remembered what happened with Cheng Ge.

But it was too late to care, and quickly staggered away.

Because many people liked to look at Li Su before, so when everyone looked at him secretly again this semester, he didn't notice any problem at first, but he realized it when there were too many voices later.

"Really, he's gay, and he's been seen kissing men."

"Looking at him like a girl, I think he is."

"Really? Impossible, it's really gay."

"Don't talk about it, I liked him very much before, but I didn't expect him to be gay, it's disgusting."

"It's disgusting. Last time he came to talk to me specifically."

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Li Su was very confused about these rumors. He was a passive person in class. No one talked to him, and he didn't take the initiative to talk to anyone. friend.

So when the classmates in the class looked at him strangely, he didn't know what to do.

Everyone regards homosexuality as an incurable infectious disease, and they hide away when they see him.

Let Li Su not even have a chance to refute, besides, he is not gay at all.

Li Su thought that this rumor could only be spread by Cheng Ge, it was too much.

But let him go to Cheng Ge's class to find him, and he can't do this kind of thing.

There are no friends around him who can help him, even if he still maintains a relationship with his classmates, it is impossible for him to ask others for help.

A girl even came to him and said, "It's okay to be gay. I don't think there is a problem. We will still be friends in the future."

Li Su didn't have a good impression of this girl, she just stared blankly and didn't respond.

Li Su is like a poor little animal, so he has to arm himself with more indifference, as if he doesn't care about these rumors, anyway, everyone here is just an insignificant passer-by in his life, and he doesn't deserve his care at all.he told himself so.

Li Changen soon found out that Li Su was gay.

Li Su's homeroom teacher called and told him.

"...someone saw him with a boy. As a teacher, I can't say anything about those things. However, this is absolutely true. Mr. Li, Li Suping is indeed a good boy, but this matter , indeed should be educated, he is still so young, how could he go astray. Treat him as soon as possible while he is still young. "

Li Changen was stunned at that time, sitting in the office, motionless, dazed for a long time.

The secretary came in and gave him the documents, but he didn't move.

Li Changen is well-informed, so he naturally knows more about homosexuality than ordinary people, and he also understands that this is not a disease that is so serious that everyone avoids it as the teacher said.

Instead of going to Li Su first, he called Dr. Lin, a psychiatrist in Hong Kong.

Dr. Lin is a very insightful psychologist. He introduced some books to Li Changen and advised him, "Li Su's heart is very fragile, and he is very autistic. You have to be very careful about his mental state, otherwise he may get sick. Homosexuality is not a disease, but his sexual orientation is different from the general public. Parents’ understanding is especially important for children. Mr. Li, what do you think of him? It is very crucial, it is best to understand him."

Li Changen thought that Li Su had been silent for the past few days, and even drew pictures when he got home, and hardly talked to him, and his spirit was not very good.

Li Changen couldn't manage his work affairs at all. After reading a few books recommended by Dr. Lin and learning about gay people from others, he decided to have a long talk with Li Su. Before that, He has been getting along with him with a normal attitude, not daring to provoke him.

Knowing that his son is gay, he doesn't think his son can't understand, but it's unfair for others to look at his son with colored eyes, so he can't help feeling pity for him.

Then he blamed himself, thinking that he had a problem with Li Su's education, which led to Li Su's current situation.

He still believes that Li Su became gay because he raised her like a girl.