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The past is like floating clouds, and there is a sense of confusion in time and space.

Lin Xi sat on the bench and looked at the crowds of people coming and going, and couldn't help thinking about the first time he came to this city.

He ran out of Ye Zhong's underground laboratory in a panic. The sky outside was full of stars, and it was late at night.Under the cover of night, he wrapped his blood-stained clothes tightly, mixed into the crowd of firefighters, and then escaped smoothly from the so-called high-end community that was usually quiet and abnormal.

Although the pain in his lower body was unbearable, he still didn't dare to delay for a moment. Lin Xi ran all the way back to the teacher's dormitory building, almost collapsed.

Because he didn't go to work for too long, and didn't even ask for leave, the school posted a notice on the door, asking him to move out of the building within a limited date.Tearing off the notice, Lin Xi, in a cold sweat, dug out the key hidden under the flowerpot, and entered the door with difficulty holding his shaking stomach.

Everything in the house remained the same as he left in a hurry that day, only covered with a thick layer of dust.

Lin Xi staggered into the bathroom, thick and hot blood had already flowed to his ankles, and his thin pants were soaked in the smell of blood.He didn't have any systematic knowledge about production, but with this appearance, he also knew the seriousness of the situation. He stumbled and almost fell into the bathtub when he took off his pants. Lin Xi had to hold on to the wall for support. Sliding down, his whole body stiffened.

The corners of his eyes were bitter and red, he was choked up and unable to make a sound, he knew that the child had already left.

The only family member left, still abandoned him.

In chaos, Lin Xi followed like a walking corpse, cleaning his body, cleaning the bathroom, packing his luggage, and spent a few days in a trance. When he realized it, he had already set foot on a foreign land. The imprint of his life, he came to this bustling metropolis alone, subconsciously, he seemed to have a soft spot for this place.

Maybe it's just because of that person, who mentioned it once when talking about applying for college.

He accepted the money from Jin Luo's father, even though it was not out of intention, the college entrance examination was approaching, and he didn't want to disturb Jin Luo at this time.What's more, with this broken body and withered and desperate state of mind, he just wanted to find a small place to hide quietly.

At least until that debt is paid off, he won't be going back.

He thought he had escaped from the nightmare that Ye Zhong forcibly bestowed upon him and put aside all his fears, but as time went by, Lin Xi found that in the dead of night, there would often be inexplicable commotions. soothe.He has resisted, hated, embarrassed, and suffered, but the secret place he once activated is no longer taboo.

Lin Xi once saw Ye Zhong flipping through a book during that time, mentioned blood and infection, he didn't know if it was a disease, he wasn't sure if it was a serious disease, let alone whether it was contagious or not, he didn't dare It is confirmed that the fear of hospitals has become instinctive.

Subtle and indistinguishable entanglements simultaneously complicate his feelings for Jin Luo, and he even subconsciously avoids and resists.

For more than 1000 days and nights, he tried to avoid contact with strangers, and even developed social phobia.Hiding in one's own corner has become a habit, fearing interference and harm from the outside world, so simply cut off all contact and communication, going to extremes.

Another escape, but it was just a replica of five years ago.

"Bang!" The sound of a heavy object waking up Lin Xi who was immersed in the memories of the past. It was a girl carrying a heavy luggage, with several black bags dangling in both hands, her forehead was covered with beads of sweat.Maybe it was an imbalance, and one of the bags fell off, rolling out several clothes.The girl bent down anxiously to pick it up, and the other bags also fell down and rolled into a ball.

This should be a student who is going to enroll in a new school. Lin Xi thought of his past self, and he was also in a mess at that time.

It is a bit difficult to go out alone.

"Hey, and this." Lin Xi picked up the booklet that fell under the stool, and handed it to the girl.

"Thank you." The girl hurriedly thanked her, her face flushed as red as an apple, and she felt a little embarrassed when people came and went.Suddenly the weight in her hands dropped sharply, she was startled, looked up, and found that the person who returned her things helped lift the heaviest bag.

Before going out, her mother repeatedly told her to be careful of liars, but she faltered hurriedly: "No need, I can do it myself."

The man's eyes fell on her washed white school uniform, and he said with a faint smile, "I also attended this high school before."

"what?"

"Haicheng Middle School."

As soon as the town's name was called out, the noisy waiting hall fell silent for a while.It is inevitable to be cautious when you go to a strange place. The girl is not very old, and she is even more uneasy. When she meets a man from a fellow villager who is gentle and demeanor, her guard is no longer so strong.

"Do you want to register at school?" Even after five years, Lin Xi will still be driven by the teacher's instinct, and he will not avoid children like adults, just like he treats Xiao Ran, subconsciously wanting to help and care for them.

"Yeah." The girl nodded, jumping with a little nervousness, "This is my first time in this city."

"After that, you need to refuel well." There was a bus outside the train station, and it arrived in front of the bus in a short while.

"En." The girl nodded vigorously, her red face glowing in the sun, her voice was clear and clear, "Thank you."

"Wait a minute!" Just as Lin Xi was about to turn around, the girl suddenly ran down from the car and handed him a newspaper, "I just bought this, I think you just came to this city, if you are looking for a job Useful."

Carrying a light luggage, the bewilderment of the future is written all over his face. No wonder others have such misunderstandings. Lin Xi squeezed the newspaper and replied, "Okay." This girl reminded him of his former self, Come to a new place to start a new life.

A long-lost, zest for life.

His enthusiasm has been polished bit by bit in the face of the cruel reality, so that now, he is only at a loss for the future.

Isn't the original intention of coming here to live a new life and get rid of the shadow of the past?Then why did you leave in such a hurry?Lin Xi asked himself, if he escaped once five years ago, if he escapes again five years later, he will only fall into endless escape, always longing for a new life.

In the end you get nothing.

The cloud that shrouded in darkness has dissipated a bit, Lin Xi thought, helping others will also gain something for himself.Opening the newspaper, I really planned to look for a job, but my eyes were immediately attracted by a huge bright red headline-"Ghost Composer, New Works Frequently Cause Controversy".

The picture configured above is a man with a distinctive style. The suit and shirt are completely open. From the delicate skinny collarbone to the beautiful and tough abdominal muscles, you can see everything at a glance. His straight and slender legs are crossed at will, and his posture is indulgent and wanton, but his temperament is very outstanding.

Under the spotlight, the broken wine-red hair shone with a strange light, and a pair of long and narrow phoenix eyes were full of brilliance, showing infinite charm.

Lin Xi was dazed, staring at the name marked next to him in disbelief, almost burning a hole in a thin piece of paper.

——Han Chen, this strange name struck the dull Lin Xi like a thunderbolt, his thoughts went blank, he scanned the large report at a glance, and couldn't grasp the key points at all. In dizziness.

He once wondered whether Jin Luo had dual personalities, but he never thought that there were really two people.The photo may be biased, but he can be sure that this man is the one who appeared for the second time last night and had sex with him.Recalling the details, he suddenly felt a chill in the hot summer, his fingertips trembled, and colorful newspapers fell to the floor.

How can it be?How could such a thing happen?

Clenching his fingers tightly, Lin Xi tried his best to calm himself down, picked up the newspaper that was almost blown away by the wind, and searched it again.

The word "Han Chen" was indeed on it, and he didn't look at it.

"Sir, can you let me go?" Another bus arrived, and the crowd swarmed in. Lin Xi was stuck in the middle of the road without moving. Standing on the shoulders of the person, "Sir?"

"I'm sorry." When he came back to realize the situation, Lin Xi apologized and stepped back, when a big red bag sped past.

"Be careful!" The passer-by was startled, and hurriedly grabbed Lin Xi to prevent him from being hit by a vehicle. Once the danger was over, the passer-by sighed helplessly, "If you want to be in a daze, don't be in the middle of the road. Not to mention the danger, it hinders the traffic..." Before the heartbroken exhortation was finished, the person who looked back had disappeared, and passers-by could only: "..."

Staring at the bustling urban area through the car window, this is the second time Lin Xi has traveled to the central area of ​​the city. The first time he came here with the help of An Mo. He met Jin Luo, whom he hadn't seen in five years. The peaceful life of the tortoise.

This time... this time he was determined to find an answer, an answer five years late.

The newspaper in his hand reported that Han Chen was about to hold a press conference today, only two hours away.

I hurriedly fled in the morning, and changed my mind in less than half a day, completely overturning the original decision.

If it is said that Lin Xi chose not to look for Jin Luo at the beginning, not only because of the painful past, but also because he had to dodge because of his identity as an arsonist, then this time he attacked bravely because of this feeling, which he thought was sincere. Deceit, then the good memories he insisted on and cherished that he dare not touch easily are all illusions and phantoms that he imagined alone?

He already had nothing, and he couldn't even lose this bit of spiritual sustenance!

In fact, it's not that there are no signs, but I just don't want to doubt it. Besides, I have checked that Jin Luo has no brothers, so I let go of my guard.In retrospect, there are indeed many differences between them: one is calm and polite, the other is almost domineering as he pleases; the one with black hair is always buttoned to the top, and the other is eclectic with red hair, and the neckline is always open at will.

The more I think about it, the more I feel that I am only one step away from the terrible truth. Intellectually, but emotionally, Lin Xi is still unwilling to believe it.If they are two independent people, it means that he has had relationships with two men, and even the child he has conceived is not sure which one belongs to.This realization sent a chill down Lin Xi's spine, and he couldn't imagine the chaotic situation.

That night when he was drunk, he was caught in the middle of two similar-looking people in a daze, and they entered together one after the other...