Cannon Fodder's Rebirth

In his No. 20 seven years of "living afflicted", Jiang Xi finally put an end to this aggrieved life by "dieing a useless one".

Counting all the grievances in his life, the most extreme one is the wedding he attended not long before his death.In the gay bar he often goes to, the man he secretly likes is married to another man. Although it is not legally recognized, formally, he is indeed married.

He bravely went to the wedding, and when he saw them kissing, he clapped numbly along with other friends in the circle, which made his applause and his heart ache.Raise your glasses, bless them, and say you are happy for them, so happy that tears are about to fall.

However, when the tears really fell, it was in the back seat of the taxi.He turned his face to the wide open car window, and the strong night wind quickly dried away the tears.

In fact, if Zhong Yifan really could be happy, he probably wouldn't feel so unwilling, but just yesterday, from the window of the company's tea room, he saw the other protagonist of the wedding, Tong Le, get out of the car of their boss' son... Jiang Xi didn't know if Zhong Yifan knew about this, but he knew Zhong Yifan, a fellow villager, because of Tong Le, a colleague, so he couldn't even let Zhong Yifan find out what he wanted, and he couldn't even ruin their wedding for the purpose of secret love .

The last time we had dinner together, Zhong Yifan once said that Tong Le just followed him, and he had the responsibility to be more tolerant.Jiang Xi could only secretly fantasize that if he hadn't left his hometown so early, maybe he would have met Zhong Yifan even earlier.

Unwilling to return, but since this is Zhong Yifan's own choice, all he can do is to bless.I tried my best to smile in the mirror, and then made a short-term plan for myself from forgetting to cheering up.It's a pity that he hung up before he could actually operate it, under a bowl of instant noodles.

He felt uncomfortable after drinking too much on an empty stomach. When he got home, he boiled water for instant noodles.Maybe because he was too absent-minded, the overflowing water extinguished the gas stove, and he forgot to turn off the gas valve.After staring at the empty noodle bowl for two hours, I brought the bowl back to the kitchen with the cigarette I was about to smoke between my fingertips. The moment I opened the closed door, everything was over...

How hard is life?Not only did he become cannon fodder in other people's love, but he was more thoroughly cannon fodder in life.Probably the only thing that can be counted as luck is that the pain of death came so quickly that I didn't feel the pain.

Uh... Maybe it's not completely painless, at least the ear still hurts.

"Ah! Mom!" Opening his eyes from the darkness in horror, Jiang Xi saw his mother's upside-down face, with a faint dissatisfaction on his face.

What is the situation?Jiangxi was in chaos.

"Don't get up yet? Isn't today the final exam? If your grades fall out of the top three, Mom will have no face to hold a parent-teacher meeting for you!" Jiang's mother took her hands away from her son's ears, took the cotton-padded jacket and trousers on the chair next to her and went He piled it up next to Jiangxi's pillow, and stuffed his close-fitting autumn clothes and long trousers into his bed: "Put it on as soon as you warm up, and the meal will be ready soon."

As soon as Jiang Ma's face moved away from the top of the line of sight, Jiang Xi suddenly saw the familiar roof of his hometown.Turning his head again, uh, it was the more familiar fire wall, he really slept on the hot kang in his hometown.

Completely dumbfounded, did he die and return to his hometown?But the cold air from the long johns that his mother stuffed into the bed really icyed his bare arms, and he had the habit of sleeping in only underwear no matter whether it was winter or summer, and this feeling was too real.

Confusedly, he took out the clothes and trousers for a look, and he still had a vague impression of the clothes, but could it be too small?

As soon as he discovered this problem, he found that not only the clothes were small, but also his hands were not big enough to hold the clothes, and he also had thin arms like hemp sticks.This made Jiang Xi sit up "squeaky", and nervously lifted the quilt to look at the ball under his crotch.

Pussy pussy, he shrunk!He was blown up until he shrank!

A shrill scream came from Jiang's house, startling Jiang's mother who was buying fried dough sticks at the door, and ran back with six fried dough sticks.

Jiang Xi was wearing a pair of shorts and standing on the leather sofa his father made himself when he got married, holding the month card in his arms, and he had already entered a state of madness.

"Damn you kid!" Jiang Ma put the fried dough sticks on the table, picked up her son, and stuffed her back into the bed.Although there are fire walls and kangs in the house to keep warm, the weather and temperature in the twelfth lunar month of the Great Northern Wilderness are not a joke.

Now Jiang Xi was completely awake, his mother was able to hug him, what does this mean?It means that he has indeed returned to the year marked on the calendar card!

And this year is: January 11, Jiang Xi was [-] years old and two months old.

In Jiang Xi's memory, this period of time was a watershed in his life. The happiness of childhood was replaced by the word bitterness. It is really not a memorable day, and it is not worth living again!

The place where Jiang Xi was born is a mining area between the city and the countryside - Hongqi Coal Mine.The coal mine belongs to a certain construction corps in the Great Northern Wilderness that was established in [-] out of the strategic concept of "reclamation and defense of the frontier" and under the command of Chairman Mao himself.Because it was first detected that there were coal resources in the ground, the nearby coal mine family area was built, so the location is a bit out of the way.

In the 90s of the last century, which is the year Jiangxi is in now, a new term for unemployment, not just unemployment, appeared in the land of China that was blown by the spring breeze of reform-laid-off workers.After state-owned and collective enterprises began to "reduce staff and increase efficiency", Jiangxi's parents were also forced to become part of the army of "staying without pay".

This is a period of panic, and wages have been replaced by "white strips" for a long time. Although they can be used to buy food at the state-owned grain store in the mining area, and can be used directly to pay school fees, etc., it is not money after all. After leaving the mining area No one will admit it.Under this background, the mine leaders began to encourage employees to buy out their working years to make a living. The next year, Liu Huan recorded a public welfare song for laid-off workers - "Start Over".

But, how easy is it to start all over again?

Of course, the mining area is not so heartless as to drive people away, and the employees who promise not to leave will be diverted and arranged separately.However, the new workplaces are all at the Construction Corps farm 170 kilometers away, and the hospitals, schools, and kindergartens in the mining area will all be removed.As a result, some people were going to go to work in other units on the farm, but more people were like Jiang Xi's parents, who had no choice but to fend for themselves.Because it is said that the economic benefits of the various units in the farm are not very good. For example, if Jiangxi’s father stays, the paper mill that will be allocated to him has been suppressed for several months. It is said that the wages cannot be paid, and it may be like a coal mine at any time. closed.Instead of going there and waiting for the unit to go bankrupt, it is better to buy out the seniority and take a step ahead, and go out for a break while still able to work.

The primary school association in the mining area persisted until July before disbanding, at least sending away the last sixth-grade primary school graduates.And Jiang Xi joined his parents as a Beijing drifter because the Spring Festival was over in February, so this was the last final exam he took in his hometown.

Sitting in the examination room, Jiang Xi was still dreaming. If he hadn't been instructed just now, he couldn't find his seat at all.

"Leader, boss, take care of me later!" The deskmate winked and smiled.

I haven't heard the title of team leader for many years. Jiang Xi stared at the same table for a long time before remembering the other party's name: "Liu Zhen?"

It's not because Jiangxi's memory is too bad, mainly because he hasn't seen him for fifteen or sixteen years, and Liu Zhen is a repeater from the previous class, so his contact time is short.At first, the head teacher assigned the child to him as the class monitor to be his deskmate based on the principle that the advanced drives the late.

Just as Liu Zhen was about to entrust a few more words, the two invigilators who taught the sub-subjects began to hand out the test papers. They said "quiet", and the children immediately shut up.At that age, it was still the age to take the teacher's words as an imperial decree.

The first subject was a Chinese test, and when the test papers were handed out, Jiang Xi was a little dumbfounded when he saw the first question about reading pinyin and writing words.

Opening the pencil case, he took out a pen and filled in the blanks with two swipes. Jiang Xi immediately realized something.His person was reborn in an 11-year-old body, and his memory and IQ were still 27 years old. Unexpectedly, the ligatures were also the same, so the characters left on the test paper were beautiful cursive scripts that elementary school students would never be able to write.

With a headache, I found a small bottle in the pencil case, which is called correction fluid or correction fluid.This thing is said to be harmful in human contact, and Jiang Xi has stopped using it since junior high school.

Cover up the filled spaces with correction fluid, and wait for the correction fluid to dry, Jiang Xi tried his best to make the words ugly, and did the following questions first.Generally speaking, except for the dictation part of the text that he had already forgotten, everything else went well.

Seeing that he was almost done, Liu Zhen began to elbow him.Unobtrusively moved the paper to the tablemate, Jiang Xi acted like a buddy.For him today, the classmates he sees in his eyes are just a group of children.

Liu Zhen was also generous. He copied all the dictation in the textbook except for Tang poems on the table in advance. After finding the section in the test paper and copying it, he pushed the test paper to Jiang Xi and motioned him to copy it.At this time, it is meaningless to Jiangxi even if he gets a score of [-] in the test, but after all, it is because of his kindness, so he deliberately left two typos and copied them.

After finishing the math test that afternoon and the English test the next morning, the head teacher, Teacher Li, told everyone to get their report cards and homework for the winter vacation in three days, and the girls would each bring a rag to clean up.

Cleaning is a routine at the end of each semester, but Jiang Xi did not participate in labor, but was called into the office by the teacher after the grades were announced.The reason is that his deskmate got the second place in the class, which is completely against common sense, and No. 2 is the same as his No. 1 test paper, and the names used to make sentences in the English test paper are Li Lei and Han Meimei.

It was only then that Jiang Xi remembered that the childhood sweethearts Li Lei and Han Meimei were characters that only appeared in his English textbooks after he was in junior high school.A few years ago, uh, to be precise, the few years before he was reborn, he felt very sad after listening to Xu Yuteng's song "Li Lei and Han Meimei".The young head teacher was still teaching, Jiang Xi had already lost his mind and thought of the parrot named Polly in the English textbook...

"Jiangxi, the teacher knows that you are going to transfer schools soon, and I don't want to destroy the friendship with my classmates at the last time. I will not pursue it this time. But the teacher hopes you understand that this is not helping the classmates, but harming him. Helping is the right thing to do. In normal times, not in the examination room..."

Facing the teacher's earnest instruction, Jiang Xi could only smile wryly from the bottom of his heart.Moving house, changing school, repeating everything step by step, until meeting Tong Le and knowing Zhong Yifan?The meaning of rebirth is to taste all the pain and helplessness again?

With this kind of mood, Jiang Xi couldn't possibly be happy even if he returned home with the No.1 exam paper.The ones who were really happy were Jiang's mother and Jiang's father. Jiang Xi's academic performance was their only comfort in this panic-stricken day.

In order to reward his son, Jiang's father bought a piece of his son's favorite big carp and let Jiang's mother cook it in soy sauce.When the couple was cooking together, they were still worried about whether Jiangxi's academic performance would be affected after transferring to another school.

This was heard by Jiang Xi who was going to the cupboard to set the table with bowls and chopsticks, and he couldn't help but paused.

Strictly speaking, what is affected is not academic performance, but the opportunity to study.

It was not until the second year when Jiangxi drifted to city B with his parents that he learned that he could not pass the high school entrance examination without a registered permanent residence in this city.Jiang Xi always remembered the euphemistic explanation given by the teacher in charge of the junior high school, to the effect that three-year consecutive three-year-old students could get six extra points in the senior high school entrance examination. The teacher ignored that he was not from the city. The number of places is limited, and it is better to reserve it for the students who can use it.This incident hurt Jiangxi's sensitive self-esteem. At that time, he deliberately smiled and said it didn't matter, but when he got home, he cut up the certificate of the three-excellent student in the first year of junior high school.

As a sensitive little Bei Piao, for the first time in his life, Jiang Xi had a deeper understanding of the word "inferiority".

At that time, he was in trouble for a while and wanted to go back to his hometown to go to school with his uncle, but his parents did not agree out of fear of causing trouble to his relatives.Jiang's father said that high school can continue to pay him high tuition fees, and it is the same when he goes back to take the college entrance examination.Jiang Xi compromised, but it’s a pity that things make people fool. In [-], on the second day after he took the senior high school entrance examination, when he was watching "My Fair Princess" with Jiang Ma in the rented room, Jiang Dad, who was going to work overtime after dinner, was arrested. The car was hit.

There were a lot of stitches on his head, and Jiang's father lay at home for nearly two months after he was discharged from the hospital. Although Jiang's father gradually recovered from nothing, he really didn't know if there would be any serious sequelae.In this case, not counting other expenses, only the borrowing fee for a semester is more than 8000 high school, which made Jiang Xi hesitate.

Jiang's father is the pillar of the family. In the first year when he first arrived in City B, he and Jiang's mother did various small businesses, selling pork, cooked food, fruit, buns...all of them ended up losing money.All the tens of thousands of dollars that I had worked so hard to save by relying on dead wages and buyouts were all in vain, and I didn't even hear a sound.Dad Jiang is the kind of honest person who is too embarrassed to exchange for a piece of broken coins that cannot be spent. He is not suitable for business at all.The last old neighbor who went to City B to seek a living before their family was the bridge. Dad Jiang, who had learned carpentry skills at a young age, went to work in a furniture factory, and only then did he have a stable income of 4000 to 04 yuan per month.And Jiang Ma asked an aunt who can dip candied haws as a teacher, learned how to dip candied haws, bought a freezer and a tricycle, and started selling cold drinks at busy intersections in summer, and selling candied haws in the streets in winter on tricycles.At that time, in the winter, Jiang Xi would always help Jiang Ma to remove the cores of the washed hawthorns one by one after finishing his homework after school. The same is true for getting up and studying hard.I'm not afraid of hard work, but it's extremely difficult to live with the urban management in guerrilla warfare every day. More than once, the urban management took away the glass cover that Jiang's father made to hold candied haws and went home crying.

In view of Jiang's father's car accident at that time, Jiang Xi thought it over before telling his parents that he would not go to high school and go to a technical secondary school to learn some skills so that he could work early.Jiang's mother cried when she heard it, and Jiang's father was even more resolutely against it, but Jiang Xi persisted.

Father Jiang pointed to his son's nose and said that you will regret it sooner or later. In fact, as far as the school is concerned, Jiang Xi regretted it the day after he went to technical secondary school.However, because the school is bad enough, the tuition fee is really cheap. It is so cheap that the tuition fee for three years is not as expensive as if you continue to study in high school for one semester.If you think about it this way, your mind will be balanced, and you will have nothing to regret.

Although the regret of not being able to continue my studies lingered in my heart for a long time, but now it doesn't matter anymore.The most important thing for Jiang Xi at present is that if there is no pressure of high borrowing fees, the life of parents should be a little easier in the future...

Not only that, if he didn't go with his parents at that time, maybe he would have had the opportunity to meet fellow farmer Zhong Yifan earlier than Tong Le, right?

"Dad, Mom." After thinking for a long time in front of the cupboard, Jiang Xi suddenly turned around and said firmly, "I don't want to go to City B with you, let me go to school with Uncle Changbu! And After finishing elementary school in half a semester, I can live on campus in junior high school, and I promise not to cause trouble to my uncle."

Since God gave him a chance to start over again, let him choose again at this crossroads in life!