Pavlov and the White Moonlight

It rained all night.When I went out for a walk the next morning, the ground was wet with the moisture of grass.There are quite a few dogs in the community, and they greet each other when they meet, and they chat for a while when the dogs play together. I didn't see Tang Shuhe, did I catch a cold last night, and stayed in the rain for so long.Lu Bowen knew the way himself, and I was walked to the artificial lake in the community by him before I stopped thinking about it. He circled my trousers, whistling as he turned, and I came back to my senses and said, "Ah, I got it, I got it. Look at the little fish, right?"

When Lu Bowen heard the word "little fish", he opened his mouth and breathed out, and put his front paws on my knees, while a child beside him yelled: "The little dog looks at the little fish!"

Lu Bowen is not afraid of water. He especially likes to watch the koi in the artificial lake in our community. I take him to see the fish when I walk him in the morning and evening. Liyu came over. Over time, the old men and women who played Tai Chi and diabolo around the artificial lake with their children knew me and Lu Bowen. Those children called Lu Bowen puppy or dog, and I called me Uncle puppy or Uncle Dog, that sounds like a puppy and a grown old dog, shit.

I squatted by the artificial lake and sprinkled fish food into the water while sucking: "Come on, here comes the little fish."

Lu Bowen put his head on the surface of the water, and the whole dog became visibly happy. I held the leash to prevent him from jumping into the water in agitation. I looked at my phone with one hand and saw the message Tang Shuhe had just sent me: "What are you doing? "

I said, "Feed the fish."

He said, "Do you still have fish?"

I replied: "No, in the artificial lake, I summoned koi for Lu Bowen's performance."

He said, "Are you in the artificial lake?"

I said: "Yes."

After a while, he replied: "I live in 2, Building B, Unit 301, by the lake."

I raised my head, and saw that the curtains of Room 301 on the first floor in front of me were pulled open. The man was wearing a white shirt, standing in front of the window and waving to me, then slowly raised his arms, and compared them to me above his head. heart.

My heart felt like it was tapped lightly by something.

He tried so hard and clumsily to reproduce the young man in the old days.It's a pity that his suit, my puppy, and all the laughing people around are reminding us that the past has been blown away by the rain.

I smiled reluctantly with a little displeasure.

He sent me: "Your umbrella is still with me, may I send it to you?"

I said, "No, you can put it at the security booth on your way to work."

"...Alright."

"Did you catch a cold yesterday..." Forget it.I typed it out and deleted it.

She is alive and kicking, and she can still stand in front of the window to compare her heart, so she should be fine.

"The puppy hits the water!" A child explained simultaneously.

"Lu Bowen!" I yelled at him, but it was too late.He put his paws alternately into the water and slapped the water quickly, the koi scattered with a splash, and I was covered in lake water.

Lu Bowen retracted his paws when he was happy enough. When he saw me staring at it, his tail slowly stopped shaking, and he grunted, squatting beside me with his tail between his legs and his eyebrows lowered.

I'm so devastated.The freshly washed clothes had to be washed again, Tang Shuhe was still watching on it, I raised my head in embarrassment, saw Tang Shuhe still standing there, waved to me, and laughed.

I also wanted to laugh a little, so I patted Lu Bowen on the head: "How many times have I told you, you are only allowed to watch, not to touch."

Lu Bowen shook his hair, and the scattered water droplets were like flying small diamonds in the golden morning light.

After walking Lu Bowen, when I went to the security booth to get the umbrella, I saw that my umbrella was neatly folded, and there was a dewy rose pinned to the umbrella buckle.I took the rose, looked around, found no thorns, so I pinned it on Lu Bowen's head and went home all the way.

The final draft of the book I have in hand has not yet been finished, and the script outline has not yet been finalized. In the past, when high-intensity writing was required, I usually drank beer. Once I finished writing a book, I actually gained eight pounds. Lu Bowen managed to lose weight after going out for a run, and then changed to smoking, but smoking hurt me and Lu Bowen, and finally changed to drinking coffee. I bought a coffee machine for this, and I don’t know how much I drank in a day. I didn't stop writing until Tang Shuhe sent me a message after nine o'clock that day.I wanted to get up and move around. It was fine when I was lying there, but the moment I stood up, I felt uncomfortably uncomfortable in my stomach, as if I hadn’t been drinking coffee all day, but him. Ma Wang Shui.

I didn't look at my phone all afternoon, the screen was full of his messages.It turned out to be a person who talked so little.

The most recent one was at [-]:[-], and he sent me: "I'm off work."

Then five or 10 minutes ago, there was a short one: "Students do not attend class."

Flipping forward, there are two cups of milk tea and two packs of something I don't know what to eat, with the words: "Recommended by the students, do you want to have supper? I brought you one."

Before that, he sent a picture, which should be a meeting of their school leaders, where he secretly played with his mobile phone and took a picture of the golden ginkgo tree outside the window for me to see.

Further up he said, "Have you received the flowers?"

"I passed by a flower shop today and suddenly wanted to give you a rose."

I rubbed my stomach, and accidentally looked up at the window, and saw myself smiling in the reflection, I turned my mouth and sighed, feeling that I was really light-boned.I couldn't eat anything, so I took out a few stomach medicines and ate them, boiled some hot water for myself, and said to him, "I just got off work? Are the university teachers [-]?"

He called with a slightly excited tone: "You received the news? I thought you didn't see it. I just got off work and there are public elective courses."

I said, "Well. I didn't see it just now."

He hesitated for a moment and said, "The flowers... have you received them yet?"

Before I could speak, he added another sentence: "It doesn't matter if you don't accept it."

"Oh," I said, "I gave it to the security guard."

"……what."

His tone was really subtle, and I burst into laughter: "No, I brought it back."

He also smiled and said, "Do you have supper? I brought you milk tea and oyster omelette."

"What's the tip?" I said, "No, it's not convenient for me right now."

He froze for a moment, his tone became less excited, and said softly, "Outside? Have you had a drink? I'll pick you up?"

"No." I said.

"...Then I'll eat it myself," he muttered in a low voice, "it's quite delicious."

I couldn't help laughing: "Eat it yourself."

"Lu Huai," he was silent for a while, took a breath, and asked cautiously, "I still have the right to pursue you, right?"

I was a little unsteady standing while waiting for the water to boil, so I simply lay down on the sofa with my legs hooked on the armrest of the sofa.In this pose, there is only the white ceiling. I close my eyes and let my thoughts drift.I remembered that he was waiting for me wrapped in a down jacket with hot soup and hot rice in the severe cold days. At least those good things were true, and he never lied to me.

Without waiting for my answer, he said, "Then I will take it as your default."

He looked a little happy, and said excitedly: "You, do you still remember, I told you."

He said, "You can hang me. As long as you want, it hasn't changed."

He happily hung up the phone.I lay down with my mobile phone on my chest for a while, got up and poured a cup of hot water, and drank it one gulp at a time. The sore and painful feeling kept tearing at my stomach. I curled up on the tatami next to the window sill in the living room, Lu Bowen I was lying in the nest in a daze, so I patted the floor: "Son, come on."

He opened his eyelids and took a look at me, didn't even bother to stand up, he slid to the side of me with his belly chrysalis, put his big drooping chin on my lap, and said "Dad is here to accompany you" The attitude lies beside me.

I touched his furry ears, held a cup of hot water, blew on it, and took a sip. The night fell silent for a while, and then Tang Shuhe's car drove in, with bright lights, slowly piercing through the night, and drove into the garage.After a while, he came out of the garage, holding a glass of drink in one hand, and a paper bag in his hand, as if he was afraid that it would leak oil, he held it carefully, running in the cold night, passing me. He glanced up at the window.

The living room didn't turn on the light, and I sat low. He couldn't see me, so he just stood there silently watching for two seconds, then bowed his head and walked away.

I was watching upstairs, and I had the urge to open the window and tell him, I didn’t go out to fool around like you thought, but I had a stomach problem, and my stomach hurts so much that I can’t eat anything, but I want to eat the milk tea and kowtow you brought tip.

never mind.He's out of my sight.After drinking a cup of hot water, I lay on Lu Bowen's body, warming my stomach with Lu Bowen's soft fur.

This night's dream was a mess.I dreamed that the roses in the corner of the window were gnawed to pieces by Lu Bowen. I was so angry and reluctant to hit them. For some reason, I had to find the same one and put it on the top. I searched and searched all over the world, but I couldn’t find it. I arrived, and then I was in a daze, as if it was still under the wisteria shelf in No. [-] Middle School. The person who once kissed me and cut me to the bone was still a teenager at this time, with a bright smile that made people palpitate, and conjured a rose from behind him like a magic trick. , he chuckled softly and said, "It doesn't matter if you throw it away."

I recognized the rose exactly the same as the rose in the window corner at a glance. At that moment, I remembered all the things that happened afterwards. I wanted to speak but couldn’t. At about the same time, Lu Bowen was sleeping on my chest, and I woke him up. He stood up and looked at me suspiciously, and arched my hand with his head.

I glanced at the corner of the window with lingering fear, the cold wind was still howling in my chest, but Rose was open with no missing arms or legs.At that moment, all kinds of flavors were mixed, and it was difficult for outsiders to understand them one by one. I can only say that at that moment, I realized that no matter whether I had the courage to accept Tang Shuhe's love again, I had to admit that after all, love is hard to escape, and hate is also difficult. escape.